# Bereft can end

Author: sdgkh10
Tags: Love, Pain, Poem, Poetry, Sad, School, melancholic

#2 of Poetry

A poem about my life in the last three years in primary school after I moved to Denmark from Greenland

Slowly it came to me, arrived like sunrise  
With no haste it filled my world with feelings  
Just as I moved to this land, to my demise  
I was tumbling, tried to find meanings

I was confused  
I was from another land  
Saw it closed  
Failed to make my stand

I didn't know what to say or what to do  
As I fell into the foreign traps of loneliness  
I tried to fill the needs with thoughts of you  
But I found myself lower, engulfed in sadness

I was nothing  
He didn't see my wave  
Heart was clutching  
It asked me to crave

The sun rose, I tried to reach it with force  
The shadow of myself devoured my anchor  
My inner peace began to shatter, to divorce  
I wanted to come closer to you, wanted more

I did learn  
Tried to act very strong  
Wanted to earn  
But it didn't go long

The forming ice inside my heart stung me  
Even though I am filled with lovely emotions  
But slowly I began to think: Not meant to be  
I never really moved from my same locations

I was hurt  
Didn't want to acknowledge it  
I didn't alert  
Ones who didn't see it

Sun reached its highest, something is not right  
The light shone but without the warmth I loved  
My sad side began to take over my eternal night  
The thought came; I was not wanted, unloved

I faced you  
But was afraid of rejection  
I loved you  
But I tried ridding connection

Mind began to submit, to bend, to surrender  
Eyes were red, flowed in endless hopelessness  
People from school ignored me, didn't render  
What I needed to survive my drowning in mess

I was forgetting  
What it meant to live  
To see everything  
I really wanted to give

Now I only reach the sun in my mind, dreams  
Can only say it to you in my sleeps, burned  
Wanted to see your eyes but only saw gleams  
Your heart began to close for me, it turned

I am bleeding  
The ice inside scarred me  
They were feeding  
I fell upon my knee

The sun went farther and farther, no return  
Mind and body began to froze, started the kill  
I didn't, didn't tried to change it, forgot to learn  
That there was more than this, because I was ill

One chance left  
To say it to you  
I was bereft  
One last thing to do

Inside I was nearly dead, hope held me alive  
I cried out to the sun, which had turned afar  
With few words I said it, all you did was deprive  
All I ever received from you was The scar

I was ready  
Moments from the end  
Held it steady  
But got stopped, new friend

Former sun was gone, but new ascended  
The school changed to another, a new light  
New people descended from above, mended  
My heart, was nearly gone, gave new might

A life will  
I was given to improve  
Heart to fill  
To heal and make it move

The new sun was lighter, warmer, better  
He was so friendly which I've never seen  
I came to revelation that life does matter

Even though what I have seen and been

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