{"sf1_id":656875,"sf2_id":"dmBVYEZm","title":"Crying from inside","author":"Dean Shaw","words":297,"posted_at":"2014-01-26T01:54:00.000Z","tags":["Male","Wolf","alone"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/656875-crying-from-inside","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/dmBVYEZm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/91/3c/913c24b4-58d8-4d42-be35-caab87fc01a2","description":"#17 of Dean\n\nThis 19 year old Wolf feels left out alone...looks down in regret","content":"Love songs such as \"How Long Will I Love You\",\n\nFeel good movies,\n\nGood stories or poems...\n\nThese are the things that makes me want to cry.\n\nBut you won't notice from the outside. Even when I say \"No, it's okay, I'm fine!\", I'm really lying.\n\nI'm actually crying...\n\n..from the deep parts inside myself.\n\nAfter reading Aurum's \"[Confidence](https://www.sofurry.com/view/656565)\", I started to cry again from within.\n\nIt felt it was ment for me, like an insult, but not badly ment... you know?\n\nSituations like this... makes me wonder...\n\nThoughts keeping on passing by like:\n\n\"Why am I all alone?\"\n\n\"Doesn't people love me?\"\n\n\"Why did I do that?\"\n\nAnd the most common: \"I hate myself.\"\n\nSure, I love to role play every now and then.\n\nBut are there really people, people who I've met throughout the use of the Internet, who actually care about me?\n\nI-I mean, I actually care about their situations.\n\nI know of myself that I'm a good person... but somehow... \\*sighs\\* ...it doesn't feel like I did good.\n\nI say sometimes \"I love you\" to often to the person I'm RP-ing with and they say that they're loving me back, making me a bit warm from inside...\n\nBut do they really love me?\n\nI see people getting together, people who are already 'mated' with another, people who are permanently single.\n\nIt makes me sad. That's when I start to cry from the inside.\n\nI know what you're thinking:\u0026nbsp;\n\n\"Oh, this guy has issues.\" or\n\n\"Oh, another person with the I-don't-want-to-die-alone syndrome.\"\n\nYou're wrong.\n\nI just feel left out alone.\n\nEvery night before I finally fall asleep, I keep thinking if someone loves me for me, and not for Dean, Charles or Drake...\n\nI keep on crying.\n\nSometimes....\n\n...a tear rolls over my cheek.\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Dean","previous":"https://sofurry.com/s/ZmMjwRqn","next":"https://sofurry.com/s/Oe5yvAPe"}}