{"sf1_id":659454,"sf2_id":"ZeqZap4m","title":"Out and About","author":"AceLabrador","words":303,"posted_at":"2014-01-30T09:04:00.000Z","tags":["Coming Out","Fear","Gay","Love","Poem"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/659454-out-and-about","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ZeqZap4m","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=659454\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"I dedicate this personal poem of mine to all of the people who are alive because they are different.","content":"Out and About\n\nFor six long days and nights,\n\nI lied and shed many tears.\n\nI would wake up with a fright;\n\nI had a secret kept for years.\n\n  \n\nOn the same days and nights,\n\nThere was food I didn't eat.\n\nWhenever I don't feel right\n\nI'd take poison for a treat.\n\n  \n\nAt first I tried to ignore it.\n\nI tried to treat it as a phase.\n\nBut there's no use denying it;\n\nI became trapped in a haze.\n\n  \n\nTo get it off your chest\n\nIs a big and difficult task.\n\nThey'll say you're not the best\n\nAnd your loved ones will ask.\n\n  \n\nMama became very concerned.\n\nShe knew I wasn't this way before.\n\nWhen she attempted to discern,\n\n\"I promise to tell you why\", I swore.\n\n  \n\nFear strapped me in a straitjacket\n\nTo torture me each night and day.\n\nI yearned to come out of the closet,\n\nI want to show and tell I'm gay.\n\n  \n\nHowever, Papa is a Christian\n\nWho gave me gifts from above.\n\n\"Being yourself has a reason\n\nMy son,\" he told me with love.\n\n  \n\nBut I tripped myself down the hill\n\nWhen I came out online.\n\nEven though I received good will\n\nI knew I crossed the line.\n\n  \n\nMama, Papa, I have one thing to say;\n\nTogether, we'll make it through.\n\nYou never did make me this way\n\nAnd I will always love you two.\n\n  \n\nI've had enough, I'm out and about.\n\nThere's no more time to waste.\n\nMy existence threw the vial out\n\nTo get rid of the horrible taste.\n\n  \n\nSince birth I've had a voice\n\nTo share my own opinion.\n\nEach day I have to rejoice\n\nIn my way of expression.\n\n  \n\nI have no plans to run away\n\nBut I now know how to ride.\n\nIndeed, I am here to stay\n\nWith what people call Pride.\n\n  \n  \n  \n\n"}