{"sf1_id":693410,"sf2_id":"YnL6oGYe","title":"Please, let me stop...","author":"NoctisIgnem","words":289,"posted_at":"2014-04-15T17:11:00.000Z","tags":["End","Fucking","In","Me","Other","Pathetic","Reflection","Suicide","and","away","expecting","from","just","life","much","neat","people","thats","the","too","train"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/693410-please-let-me-stop","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/YnL6oGYe","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a6/18/a618c457-b3ce-4ba1-9e22-ef766196bd44","description":"#12 of Poetry\n\nYay, another happy day in my perfect life! /s","content":"Is it wrong off me to put myself first?  \nIs it wrong off me to neglect myself?\n\nAm I egoistic because I long for an end,  \nbecause I don't know what to do, nor appreciate what I did?\n\nWill the train complain because I dented it?  \nWill the noose be angry because I overstretched it?  \nWill the razor sorrow because I oxidised it?  \nWill the pills be mad because I crushed them?\n\nWhat about me?\n\nCreating a smile to make my mom happy,  \nonly to let it turn into crying once I'm alone.\n\nIs that fair? is that right?\n\nLiving the lie my parents want,  \njust so that they stay happy.\n\nThey say they're proud, that I'm a good son, great colleague.  \nThen why can't I feel that way, why do I stay sad?\n\nWhy?\n\nWhy can't the world stop saying what I should be, what I need to be?\n\nI'm not black or white, not male or female,  \nI'm not happy or sad, not right or wrong.\n\nIf I need to accept everything the world throws to me,  \nthen why won't the world accept me?\n\nWhy do I go to work sad, act happy there and go back to home sad?  \nWhy do I regard my life as a bother, a chore to complete.\n\nWhy am I not normal to this world?\n\nWhy? Why? Why?\n\nHow come I sleep with tears and wake with tears?  \nWhy do I continue this life just because you don't 'like' mine ending?\n\nTrust me, you'll grow over it, in time you'll forget,\n\nSo why, why won't you let me end this life, finally let me forget...\n\nPlease, make it stop, make the lack off everything stop, make me stop, please, let me...\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Poetry","previous":"https://sofurry.com/s/ynZOZ9R1","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/693413-lief-blozende-wolf-sweet-blushing-wolf.json"}}