{"sf1_id":743389,"sf2_id":"k1V8QAQm","title":"Nothing I can do","author":"Sebastian Fox","words":359,"posted_at":"2014-08-13T04:52:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","Poetry","Short"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/743389-nothing-i-can-do","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/k1V8QAQm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/23/b7/23b76fc6-def9-4ae7-8414-0b8faf020717","description":"","content":"Hey all, here is a little something, a small piece of poetry in a whatever style. I figured I'd regale you with the inner workings of my mind while I wait on Maeve for the next bit of _In the World After_. It's kind of a downer, but try to enjoy it for what it is :)\u0026nbsp;\n\n* * *\n\nIs there nothing I can do?\n\nNothing I can do to help?\n\nThese are the thoughts and feelings I battle constantly;\n\nEveryone around me seems draped in the grim shadows of depression\n\nSadness and fear, terror of what won't come,\n\nAnd here I sit, with a blank stare and an open heart.\n\nDepression, with its fowl fingers, has never touched my soul\n\nInvaded my heart\n\nHow I've evaded it, I can't say\n\nLife, as dark as it can get, has never struck me as dim\n\nFor all the bad thing, there are a million more good that just need to be found.\n\nAnd so, with a blank stare and an open heart,\n\nI battle constantly the feelings and thoughts\n\nOf helplessness\n\nAnd hopelessness.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAm I simply destined to be the rock in everyone's swift waters?\n\nIn the turbulent waves my loved ones face,\n\nMust I always be the one to help bare the burden?\n\nI don't complain, as long as I provide the help they need.\n\nBut,\n\nWho, I ask, can be there for me\n\nWhen I break?\n\nWhen the storm rages in my heart?\n\nIs everyone but me\n\nblind to how hard I try\n\nTo smile\n\nand shrug of the blows?\n\nCan they not see, with my blank stare and open heart,\n\nHow my internal torment thrives?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nIn this not-so-dim life, with all its dark things,\n\nand all it's good things that outweigh the bad,\n\nI try and hold lights up for those lost in their darkness,\n\nBut,\n\nWhat light can I offer,\n\nWhen darkness is all I see?\n\nWith a blank stare and an open heart,\n\nI weep silently,\n\nno one sees my tears.\n\nThese are the thoughts and feelings I battle constantly...\n\nIs there nothing I can do?\n\nNothing I can do to help\n\n  \n  \n\n"}