{"sf1_id":765694,"sf2_id":"Oe5BRDMm","title":"Figments of My Reality (Poetry)","author":"Aeneas Lopez","words":223,"posted_at":"2014-10-08T04:10:00.000Z","tags":["Poetry","Thoughts"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/765694-figments-of-my-reality-poetry","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Oe5BRDMm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/12/d8/12d8a9e2-e6bc-4070-93e7-4829faa7d140","description":"#6 of Miscellaneous Works\n\nLast poem, I promise. It's more of a free-write that I put into a slightly poetic form, but yeah.","content":"Figments of My Reality\n\nA sea of broken traffic lights,  \nThe lone flag in the distance,  \nThe slowly setting sun:  \nAll figments of my reality.\n\nI can't count the times\u0026nbsp;  \nWhen my heart was crushed:  \nIt feels too constant.  \nToo steady, too easy.\n\nIt all decays.\n\nIt's natural so I'm told.  \nPart of growing up.  \nTime passing.  \nThe whole nine yards.\n\nIf so, why am I alone\u0026nbsp;  \nHere, sitting on a staircase  \nWondering whether home is home?  \nIs it? Who knows.\n\nI escape to the less practical,  \nThe majestic, the fantastical.\n\nWhy?\n\nBecause I can't be bothered there.  \nWho can interrupt my dreams then?  \nNo one.  \nNo one but me.\n\nI can get in my own way.  \nI can curse myself for it:  \n\"Damn it all, I fucked it up.\"  \nLaugh at my own jokes!\u0026nbsp;  \nWhy not? No one else will.\n\n\"Is that really what you want?\"  \nNo.\n\n\"Can't you just do better?\"  \nOf course: how simple!\n\n\"Just walk out the door!\"  \nSimple as that, huh?\n\nThe real world isn't a textbook.  \nNo practicing: you get one shot.  \nOne wrong step and you lose.  \nSo why risk it?\n\nThe rush,  \nThe thrill of the hunt,\u0026nbsp;  \nThe emotion you call fake?\u0026nbsp;  \nThat.\n\nThere's the rub:  \nHow much are you willing to risk?  \nNext time, I'm saying 'fuck it.'  \nAnd throwing in all I've got.\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Miscellaneous Works","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/765692-flux-poetry.json"}}