{"sf1_id":787667,"sf2_id":"GnDkdpGm","title":"Enjoying a Hellhole","author":"Nixinator2001","words":163,"posted_at":"2014-11-25T07:27:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","Poem","hope"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/787667-enjoying-a-hellhole","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/GnDkdpGm","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=787667\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"This is a poem about how I live, struggle, and \"cope\" with my depression. I'm posting this on SoFurry because I know there are a few furries out there that are struggling like me. hang in there","content":"  \n\nFunny the way things can be\n\nWhen life seems to be nothing but paradoxes\n\nI could have the time of my life\n\nWhilst my depression gnaws at me like it does everyday\n\n  \n\nI smile and laugh at jokes\n\nWhen my conscious tells me I'm the fool\n\nI love hanging out with others\n\nYet isolation is my pure bliss\n\n  \n\nI enjoy life and finding explanations\u0026nbsp;\n\nInside I wait for the day I perish\n\nI can be enjoying a board game with family\n\nThen I cry on my bed out of sheer hopelessness\n\n  \n\nSometimes I look around my bedroom\n\nTrying to spot something I can end my life with\n\nBut I have those few, almost sacred loved ones\n\nThat I know could not go on without my presence\n\n  \n\nThese loved ones of mine are my biggest hope\n\nI have more sentimental value for some than my family\u0026nbsp;\n\nThose who can understand me comfortably\n\nAnd be there for me when I need them most\n\n  \n\nThank you.\n  \n  \n\n"}