{"sf1_id":788759,"sf2_id":"ZmMVpxqn","title":"Teacher’s Pet Project Insert: Alexander’s Post-Breakthrough Journal Entry","author":"Tanuskidoodle","words":1655,"posted_at":"2014-11-28T05:04:00.000Z","tags":["Character Development","Cuddling","Cum","First Person","Flying Fox","Fox","Gratitude","Journal","Naked","Nude","Personal growth","Tanuki","Vulpine","insert"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/788759-teacher-s-pet-project-insert-alexander-s-post-breakthrough-journal-entry","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/ZmMVpxqn","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/42/3e/423e63e5-65dc-45f0-96ef-835a0be20c7d","description":"#7 of Teacher's Pet Project (On hold for now)\n\nSubmission for prompt 18 of the Writing Prompt Group: Gratitude.\nInsert for \"The Teacher's Pet Project.\" Alexander thinks about how far he has come in his recovery and ponders the meaning of gratitude.","content":" **_Teacher's Pet Project Insert: Alexander's Post-Breakthrough Journal Entry_**\n\n**\u0026nbsp;**\n\nDear Journal,\n\n\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; It's been an eventful few days, and this is the first time I've written anything this week. I actually only have time now, because I'm up a few hours early, and Master Mage is still asleep.\u0026nbsp; He's promised me some unsupervised free time today.\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;I'm so excited that I can't get back to sleep, so I've been catching up on my studies that I've missed because of my therapy.\u0026nbsp; After I've caught up on all of the week's assignments and readings, been thinking of ways to show my appreciation for everything everyone has done for me.\u0026nbsp;\n\nIt's day five of my recovery therapy, and, ever since I've moved in with Master Mage, things inside of me have been going through a major change.\u0026nbsp; I've learned to open up to others; that knowledge of all kinds is important for the true understanding of magic; that a misunderstanding doesn't guarantee that you're in the right.\u0026nbsp;\n\nMaster Mage has also given me so much that I thought I'd never have.\u0026nbsp; Thanks to the ingenuity of him and Lucirious, the Head of the Medical Magic Department, I have received a new arm to replace my prosthetic.\u0026nbsp; Can you believe it? A NEW ARM!\u0026nbsp; After a night of post threesome cuddling, Master Mage forged a skeletal, metal construct for my arm; Lucirious used his mastery of the healing arts to create the muscle and skin tissues and fur; and I've been using my puppetry magic in place of a nervous system.\u0026nbsp; I'm still getting used to how to properly use it, and the connecting joint in my shoulder still hurts every now and then.\u0026nbsp; I learned that I need to be willing to work with others in order to make miracles happen.\n\nMaster Mage has also given me chaotic mana, which I'm still trying to properly understand.\u0026nbsp; After first receiving the mana, I had a strange dream where I was on my stage and some unknown being was controlling my traps.\u0026nbsp; I defeated him by accepting the mana.\u0026nbsp; Since then, I've felt a strange shift in how the magical energy has been flowing inside my body.\u0026nbsp; I've looked through all my text books, and there is no mention of chaotic mana. \u0026nbsp;I'm wondering\u0026nbsp; why Master Mage has given it to me. \u0026nbsp;Maybe this is high level knowledge that only select students are allowed to even know about.\u0026nbsp; That's so cool!\n\nYesterday was the most eventful one so far.\u0026nbsp; I made my first friend here at Grandiere's since I started attending two years ago.\u0026nbsp; Florian, a student who I had a fight with and injured, and I started off as enemies and rivals for Master Mage's attention, but we have become intimate friends.\u0026nbsp; And it happened so fast.\u0026nbsp; First Master Mage took me to apologize to him; then, we ended up in a drag contest against each other; finally, we end up in a fourway with Master Mage and Sasha, the head of the Illusionary Magic Department who gave us the stage, costumes, and space for Florian and I to express ourselves with our the drag performances.\u0026nbsp; I remember waking up nestled in Flo's fit, athletic arms, afterward.\u0026nbsp; We ate and got dressed before heading to my workshop with Master Mage.\u0026nbsp; Flo witnessed my freak-out, and the subsequent, uncontrolled outpour of chaotic mana, and still wanted to be my friend.\u0026nbsp; He even created a security garden around my workshop to prevent further vandalism.\u0026nbsp; The flying fox taught me that true friends will stick by you and accept you, despite your faults and bad moments.\n\nThen, Master Mage did something I didn't think possible: he actually helped me fix some of my problems.\u0026nbsp; At first, I hated the act because he took a female form and forced me to put my wiener inside of his taco (EW!).\u0026nbsp; However, he took a spiritual form and joined me inside of my psychological landscapes.\u0026nbsp; After facing a torrential storm in my emotional sea, reclaiming my crumbling sense of sexuality, and realizing my cubhood trauma, I awoke in the arms of the male Master Mage I've come to know and love.\u0026nbsp;\n\nFor the rest of the day, Master Mage and Flo watched with rapt attention as I worked on my puppets.\u0026nbsp; I even got to improve them with their suggestions.\u0026nbsp; Master Mage let Flo come back to his tower with us.\u0026nbsp; We were too tired to make love, but we still cuddled naked on Master Mage's bed.\u0026nbsp; I've reached the point where I can now feel the exchange of mana when I'm intimate with another mage, even for something as simple as cuddling and especially when having intercourse.\u0026nbsp; When I woke up, I left the two of them to cuddle in their sleep.\u0026nbsp; Flo left a little while ago to take care of his greenhouse.\u0026nbsp; Before he left, he gave me a passionate kiss.\u0026nbsp; From there, tongues explored, hands groped, certain male body parts hardened...and we both had a pleasant, early morning, erotic \"release\" of tensions into an empty glass.\u0026nbsp; Flo had an idea of what I could do with our mixed seeds, and we put it in the refrigerator for later.\n\nAs I write, I'm wondering how I'm ever going to repay everyone for what they've done for me.\u0026nbsp; I also realize that I don't know how to really show gratitude.\u0026nbsp; Having no friends or any other intimate relationships until now, I've never shown gratitude to anyone before.\u0026nbsp; I mean, I've said \"thank you\", but I feel that gratitude should be more than that.\u0026nbsp; You can say thanks without truly meaning it.\u0026nbsp; I know; I've done so many times.\u0026nbsp; So, I'm left with only questions.\u0026nbsp; How does one properly show gratitude?\u0026nbsp; What can I do to show the true amount of gratitude that I have for everyone?\u0026nbsp; Is it possible to show too much gratitude?\n\nI have had so much done for me in the last few days.\u0026nbsp; Florian has produced the beautiful security garden around my workshop, to prevent anyone from vandalizing it again.\u0026nbsp; Lucirious did the research for the production of my new arm.\u0026nbsp; Sasha let me have the materials and space to express myself in a way that I'm sure I never would have otherwise.\u0026nbsp; Then, there is Master Mage, the man who has been my mentor and guide through it all, imparted so much to me, and allowed me to gain everything I have from my therapy thus far.\u0026nbsp; I've learned the meanings of love, compassion, intimacy, friendship, and emotional support.\n\nHow, but how, do I show gratitude for all the things that I still feel that I didn't deserve in the first place?\u0026nbsp; For the better half of my life, I've done nothing but show contempt, disrespect, and ingratitude to everyone I've come across; even my own parents.\u0026nbsp; As capable as I am as a puppet mage, I'm an inept piece of shit when it comes to basic concepts such as the show of gratitude...FUCK!\n\nI feel myself starting to let negativity take over.\u0026nbsp; I need to meditate.\u0026nbsp; Write later,\n\nAlexander.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\\*\\*\\*\\*\\*\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDear Journal,\n\nI've just finished meditating, and, although the whirlwind of negativity has subsided, I feel no closer to answering my question of how to show my gratitude.\u0026nbsp; As I wrote earlier, I know that I have so much to be thankful for.\u0026nbsp; Master Mage et al have done a lot for me, whether or not they realize it. They may not see what they have done as much, but I certainly do.\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; I guess that's the difference between those who do for others and the ones they do for.\u0026nbsp; I digress.\n\nHow do I show the gratitude that I feel?\u0026nbsp; Is this something done on an individual level, giving each person a memento or performing a favor in return?\u0026nbsp; Make or do something with my own two paws.\u0026nbsp; Give of myself--time, effort, body--to the one-by-one to the men who have done so for me.\u0026nbsp; Is it done all at once, at a party or gathering, and over in one, well-intended gesture?\u0026nbsp; Plan a get together.\u0026nbsp; Pay for the happening.\u0026nbsp; Would either be enough to do my gratitude justice?\n\nThere is so much I do not know about this; so many questions that I need to figure out.\u0026nbsp; Is time a factor?\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;Is money? \u0026nbsp;Material? \u0026nbsp;Sex? \u0026nbsp;Can you show too much gratitude?\u0026nbsp; When I was alone, I thought I understood everything, but, having intimately bonded with everyone, I've found that there is so much that I don't understand.\u0026nbsp; It makes sense because I've never done anything for anyone to be grateful to me.\u0026nbsp; Therefore, I don't know what it's like to be appreciated.\u0026nbsp;\n\nI just had a thought.\u0026nbsp; Since I have no experience doing anything to be appreciated for, I should think about what has been done for me.\u0026nbsp; I feel that these things are huge, but, chances are, that Master Mage, Lucirious, Sasha, and Flo do not.\u0026nbsp; They see them as small shows of friendship and love.\u0026nbsp; Maybe, just maybe, that is the approach I need to take for my show of gratitude.\u0026nbsp; I mean, the only way for me to truly learn how to show gratitude is to try, right?\u0026nbsp;\n\nI have a karakuri that I've been working on.\u0026nbsp; I can fashion it with a tank and irrigation system and give it to Flo to use for watering his plants.\u0026nbsp; Lucirious and Sasha must be busy, being department heads.\u0026nbsp; I can ask Master Mage if I can help them in anyway.\u0026nbsp;\u0026nbsp; As for Master Mage, I don't know what I could do for all the little things he's done for me.\u0026nbsp; I think I'll start with breakfast.\u0026nbsp; I'm sure I can fix something worthy of his palate.\u0026nbsp; And I can use Flo's idea for the semen we put in the fridge.\n\nI better get cracking.\u0026nbsp; Master Mage will be awake soon, and I don't want to spoil the surprise.\u0026nbsp; Write later,\n\nAlexander\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Teacher's Pet Project (On hold for now)","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/754591-the-teacher-s-pet-project-insert-alexander-s-first-journal-entry.json"}}