{"sf1_id":871774,"sf2_id":null,"title":"\"Demons and Martyrs\"","author":"Calyx","words":305,"posted_at":"2015-06-10T22:34:00.000Z","tags":["Poems","old work"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/871774-demons-and-martyrs","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/view/871774","image_url":"https://www.sofurryfiles.com/std/thumb?page=871774\u0026ext=.jpg","description":"#1 of Poems\n\nJust an old poem I wrote a few years ago, that I thought I'd upload here.","content":"\"Can't live, can't die, can't even be allowed a moment to cry.  \nNo pain, no gain, even if my tears continue to flow like icy rain.  \nWhy do I even bother? Why do I do this to help another?  \nTo protect my lover, my friends, my father, land and my mother.  \nAs darkness and death rises to consume me,  \nI often wish that there was somewhere else that I could be,  \nBut I know better, what the story of my life is with every single letter.  \nThere will be no mercy for me, no peace, no joy and no hope. But that's okay.  \nAt least this way the ones I love can be happy for at least another day.  \nWhat is a martyr if nothing more than a sacrifice?  \nWe sacrifice so that others might live, they rejoice as they watch us die.  \nBut its okay, hardly anything in this life surprises me anyway.  \nStill I am happy that I became a demon instead of a god,  \nThe only good god is a dead one as they are nothing but hypocrites.  \nThey enjoy praise but have done nothing to deserve it but cause more pain.  \nMy blood departs from my body unheeded in its flow,  \nAnd as it does I sit alone and wonder, does anyone care?  \nI sit alone and wonder, will I always be the only one in this dark abyss that's here?  \nI sit alone and wonder and I smile. Not a true smile as I don't know how to do that anymore,  \nBut one that hides the truth from everyone as they really do not wish to see.  \nThey do not wish to see what resides deep inside me.  \nI sit alone and wonder what I ever did to deserve this,  \nI sit alone and know who is truly to blame.\"  \n  \n\n"}