{"sf1_id":886488,"sf2_id":"Wely04Xm","title":"I Need a Sign!","author":"LunusTBren","words":581,"posted_at":"2015-07-15T02:35:00.000Z","tags":["Character Development","Gay","Gay Relationships","Lion","No-Yiff","Plot Development","Tiger"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/886488-i-need-a-sign","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Wely04Xm","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/79/1c/791caf26-332c-4ace-bc3e-f4520f5e9d26","description":"#2 of Don't Leave Me - Seasons One \u0026 Two\n\nThis is a Mini Episode and a semi-prologue to Episode Two. It is not required to understand the story but it is one of my more \"poetic\" pieces.","content":"\u0026nbsp;\n\nRubbing my eyes I carefully slipped out of bed trying not to disturb my partner still sleeping softly next to me gently snoring.\n\nLooking out the window I could see trillions of glimmering stars all staring back at me. It seemed like there were more thoughts in my head than there were stars. How did I get here, to this point? Could it really be true? Did I really just do that? Am I in love?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAlways saving the most important for last. Don't I ever.\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI looked back up into the deep abyss of the night asking for some sign to tell me anything. That I wasn't completely mad for falling into this so quickly.\u0026nbsp; That it was really, real. Was I in love?\n\nLOVE! Me... could it be?\n\nRight now I'd settle for anything, even the answer for whether or not my sister was cheating on her boyfriend. Anything! I'm waiting!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;Waiting... huh...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWhy does the universe love to be so God damn cryptic!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOkay I'm in love... I'm in love!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nBut with whom? I barely know anything about him. His last name? Favorite color? What kind of music does he like? Was he still a virgin?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nThere I go again! Putting the most important for... for last... again. Was he a virgin...?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI know I was and still am... in some departments at least. Well... maybe I was or is it still am?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;Could one night, one time really change something that important? Have I lost the thing I was saving for the right person? Does that make him...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nHIM!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;But him? He seemed like he knew what he was doing a little bit too well. Could it just have been instincts? Am I reading too much into this?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nCRAP!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nI'm thinking myself in circles... I'll be a paranoid wreck by morning at this rate.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDAMN YOU!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nWhy!? Why? Why...? Why can't you tell me what I want to know! I doubt the universe really cares if I ask nicely or not. Does it? Is that what I'm missing? Was I missing... was I just missing him? Is he the keystone of my life? Is he the answer? Is he the answer to all my answers... questions! Uhh! I can't even think straight anymore!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSTRAIGHT!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOr gay... Is this really the bi-polar world we live in? Straight... or gay... do we really decide for ourselves or is there some bit of DNA, some God above, or... or some cosmic force that decides for us? I'm still waiting for that sign!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nSIGN! Don't you think I forgot!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nDid I really just say that? Can I still get back in that bed tonight? Can I still love when I'm afraid?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nUgh... no time to be quoting song lyrics I have more important things to think about. Will he think any different of me if I didn't get back in that bed?\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOf course he would, I'm not that far gone yet. Remember....\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nRemember our promise...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;Okay. Here's the deal my friend...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nNO!\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\n\u0026nbsp;Not friend.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nOkay here's the deal MY future mate. I'm going to keep our little promise from earlier and all I ask of you in return is that you never leave my side. Okay. Here I go.\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nPromises. Questions. And...\n\n\u0026nbsp;\n\nAnd an awful taste still lingering in my mouth.\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Don't Leave Me - Seasons One \u0026amp; Two","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/885981-don-t-leave-me-in-the-morrning.json","next":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/887188-meet-the-family-this-is-my-psycho.json"}}