{"sf1_id":915098,"sf2_id":"yndRXdBe","title":"Relapsed over you...","author":"Jiblits","words":317,"posted_at":"2015-09-27T05:58:00.000Z","tags":["Heartbreak","Poem","Psychological","slice of life"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/915098-relapsed-over-you","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/yndRXdBe","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/be/bf/bebfe902-d0be-4777-baf4-c3d4832ebecc","description":"A troubled mind...\nA love still possible, a reality so unkind...","content":"Relapsed\u0026nbsp;over you...\n\nOn the edge, at the height of the problem, answers are all I find\u0026nbsp;\n\nThe reason I cemented in time has somehow began to unwind\n\nDividing the places \u0026 pieces I planted years ago\n\nThe blossoming of a forgotten beginning shakes dust to \u0026 fro\n\nThe beauty I had, that I left behind won't seem to leave my mind\n\nIt's aching now, the hole in my heart\n\nI long to fill the time in-between, with a new part\n\nTogether, or awkwardly more than we need to be\n\nI find it so unkind to know the only reasoning why it isn't so is up to me\n\nTo shatter trust, \u0026 break down barriers made for safety \u0026 security\n\nI'm the farthest thing from a saint, but a monster I'll never be, yet now, if I do anything, it's solely out of self-pity\n\nMy mind racing in place, the point is at my end\n\nDo I do what I want knowing I'll lose more than a friend\u0026nbsp;\n\nDam it all, my body craves more than I have, \u0026 I only live once before I reach my final chapter\n\nLet until then, ring a chime to sing through every rafter\n\nI am, jus human, flaws, \u0026 all\n\nPhone at the ready, number already dialed, I've made a call\n\nRed rosy cheeks await my hands so shaky with guilt \u0026 lust\n\nCards on the table, game over.....it's a bust\n\nDam bodies that share such friction one may just become numb to\u0026nbsp;tomorrow\n\nPay me no mind if I begin again to unwind, for now, I have time to borrow....\n\nI won't ask for forgiveness, for what I know I'm doing, I wouldn't expect a bit\u0026nbsp;\n\nJus let me know,\u0026nbsp;with this game we play, when you'd like to quit\n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;---Always---\n\n  \n  \n\n"}