{"sf1_id":916562,"sf2_id":"k1VkB9Ge","title":"a quiet dark","author":"Vye Riosaki","words":1191,"posted_at":"2015-09-30T22:35:00.000Z","tags":["Character Development","Clean","Emotion","M/F","Poem","Relationships","Story Progression","prose"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/916562-a-quiet-dark","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/k1VkB9Ge","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/04/89/0489143a-aef8-4aa7-a9ec-a07072c235a8","description":"#4 of Short Stories\n\nThis is poem like in nature, and quite melodramatic, so to speak. Inspired by my own song with same title, I decided to try and simulate what I felt during my hiatus this summer. I also felt like writing, and this came out. So, I hope ye enjoy this story of 1,185 words.\nI also couldn't help but leave two small easter eggs in this story.","content":"trapped\n\nfeelings of anger\n\ncan't get out\n\nno one to shout at\n\nnothing to shout at\n\nhe wants to see her again\n\nbut it's dark\n\nhe can see a dim light above\n\nmaybe she's out there\n\nmaybe she's down here\n\nhis thirst to explore is to great\n\nconfined\n\nhatred\n\nwants to see water\n\nwants to feel rain\n\ncan't remember anything\n\nknows people miss him\n\nknows people love him\n\nknows they are worried about him\n\nbut he's not out there\n\nwants to remember\n\nthinks it's the only way out\n\nno other way\n\nhe only has himself\n\nno one else can help\n\nexhausts himself trying to picture her\n\ntired of not remembering others faces\n\ntries and tries to remember them all\n\nonly draws blanks\n\nfrustration grows\n\nwhy can't i leave\n\nwhy can't i remember\n\nwhy can't i love now\n\nwhy am i here\n\nwhy\n\nstares at light longingly\n\nmaybe patience is key\n\nlearn to calm oneself\n\nlearn to master the red feelings\n\nwait on the light\n\ntime passes\n\nlight still the same\n\nhope is there\n\nhope for something greater\n\nplacing trust in time\n\nweeks pass\n\nhis resolve is growing weak\n\ndarkness getting to him\n\nsees shadows and demons\n\nthey're out to get him\n\ndoes anyone care for him\n\nwhy aren't they here\n\ndid they give up on him\n\nhave they forgotten him\n\nis he all alone\n\nit's cold.\n\nHe starts shouting.\n\nhe needs to get out.\n\nPaces around the darkness.\n\ndark thoughts black heart.\n\nHATES the light.\n\nWants out\n\nthinks of ways to hit the light\n\nthinks of ways to never hope\n\nthinks of ways to leave\n\nA shell, a wall\n\nstarts looking for rocks\n\nthe shadows dance around him\n\nher face is fading\n\nhis face is fading\n\ntheir faces are fading\n\nbuilds stairs to light\n\nonly knows making walls\n\nonly knows hate\n\nonly know regressing\n\nLost\n\nworking makes him feel calm\n\nworking makes the feelings numb\n\nanger is hiding\n\nrage is hiding\n\nmust work\n\ntireless\n\nrestless\n\nis he able to make it to the light\n\nis he too late to make it\n\nis it too late for anything\n\nshadows warn him\n\nlight brings dark\n\nhe might turn blind\n\nmight get burned\n\nthey demand he stays\n\nno, he must work\n\nthat light is the only thing here\n\na beacon\n\nmust make bridges, stairs, walls\n\nthere has to be meaning for this\n\nhe forgets about time\n\ntoo busy building things\n\nhe forgets about feelings\n\ntoo busy ignoring them\n\nhe gets to the light this way\n\na door\n\nunderneath the light is a door\n\nFear\n\nonly knows closing doors\n\nthe shadows shake their heads\n\nWary of hope\n\nknows it would be Lost, like him\n\nghosts of faces come back\n\nScared\n\nher face stares at him, Disappointed\n\nheart is breaking\n\nLoneliness, Lost, a Ghost\n\ndarkness is all he knows\n\nthe door Scares him\n\nHate might reign again\n\nquiet\n\ndim\n\nbarren\n\nnothing\n\ntime is passing, but he can feel it\n\nhis Soul starts to feel Restless\n\nSadness has him\n\nMellowed out\n\nForlorn\n\nheart has cracks, his hope is weak\n\na voice calls out\n\nit's his\n\nthe words are queer, dry, brittle\n\nmakes him tear up\n\n\"I am alone, and I have given up.\"\n\nbreaks down\n\nstarts Sobbing\n\nshadows dance, shadows comfort\n\nblack thoughts, blacker heart\n\nIt's cold.\n\nFeelings\n\nmust not have them\n\nthey break you\n\nmust not have them\n\nmakes you hurt yourself, hurts others\n\nhe shivers\n\nthe shadows are gone\n\nhe only has that light now\n\nit's dim as ever\n\nthe door causes Fear, causes Panic\n\nhears knock\n\nrefuses to Believe\n\nmore knocks\n\nhurts ears\n\nHe doesn't want Hope, Love.\n\nKnocking stops.\n\nHe stares in Horror at the door.\n\nAll is Quiet.\n\nIt isn't Peaceful, Comforting.\n\nSomeone is behind there, wanting him to Feel.\n\na voice calls out\n\nwhat it says is muffled\n\nwhatever was said it Scares him\n\nit reminds him of her\n\nFear is behind that door\n\nhe runs from the door and into the darkness\n\nhe hides in the grey, in his mind\n\nno matter where he is he sees the door\n\nhe hears the knocking\n\nhe hears... worry\n\nhe stops and closes his eyes\n\ndoes he have to Face it\n\ndoes he have to Deal with it\n\nwhy can't It be easy\n\nwhy can't he understand feelings\n\nhe feels the Shadows move around him\n\nthey whisper his Fears\n\nthey whisper his Doubts\n\nthey whisper Hate\n\nbut... he also hears her voice\n\nit sounds broken, sharp\n\nlike glass\n\nit pierces his heart\n\nhis mind\n\nhe breaks, and his Emotions escape\n\nthe Door opened\n\nand She was there\n\nshe scared him\n\neverything about her scared him\n\nand she was there for him\n\ndark landscapes changed to blinding white\n\nthe light hurt\n\nthe shadows were still there\n\nshe brought her own with her as well\n\nthey all danced around them\n\nshe spoke to him\n\ntold him about outside\n\nThe Shadows dance\n\nhe only cries\n\nThe Shadows weep\n\nshe Promises -\n\nShe promised -\n\n... never alone\n\nLove\n\nShadows in the dark\n\nraven thoughts\n\ndark clouds\n\nrain\n\nwind\n\nAnything other than her, other than It\n\nHe frowns at the ground.\n\nShe puts her arm around him.\n\nA smile.\n\nA frown.\n\nTogether. Together.\n\nSun is out. Red on the horizon.\n\nMorning.\n\nColor?\n\nE... Mo... Tion?\n\nFear and Love?\n\nHe writes these down, Hoping for answers.\n\nShe reassures him.\n\nHe stares attentively at the Shadows on the page.\n\nE... Mo... Tion.\n\nEmotion.\n\n\"Fear is the heart of love.\"\n\n\"The opposite of love is indifference.\"\n\nHe stares at those Words. He... Feels...\n\nAnger, love, like, favor, hate, dislike, disapprove...\n\nIndifference, apathetic, lethargic, lazy, drowsy...\n\nsad, morose, mellow, sad-mad, melancholy...\n\nFear.\n\nhe studies that one word\n\nhe tries to... Rationalize it\n\n\"Fear,\" he calls out.\n\n\"A mountain,\" she says.\n\n\"Scared,\" he adds.\n\n\"The dark,\" she counters.\n\n\"Love.\"\n\nHe looks at his list of emotions.\n\nshe looks at him.\n\ncuriosity, confusion\n\nHe smiles.\n\nshe slowly smiles as well\n\n\"A journey.\"\n\nLaughter\n\nIt hurts\n\nHappiness\n\nJoy\n\nHe closes his eyes\n\ndarkness\n\nshadows stand before him\n\nnot him\n\nThey aren't him or her\n\nHe opens his eyes\n\nLight\n\nWarmth\n\nHe is awake\n\nand probably happy\n\nHe stands up and pushes himself away from the desk\n\nShe looks at him questioningly\n\nHe just smiles\n\nThe paper, the pencil, and a pile of books look at him\n\nHis smile falters\n\n\"I feel I must... Take a breather.\"\n\n\"A breather?\"\n\n\"During my stay in my own darkness, I have forgotten how to smile - I wish to learn again.\"\n\n\"But what if it's too hard?\"\n\n\"I like to think that life wasn't made easy, and we have to learn to live - why do you think it's so easy to lose things?\"\n\nShe frowns at that.\n\nshadows lengthen as the sun rises\n\n\"Is it because we're close to the good things in life?\"\n\nHe just smiles at the answer.\n\n\"Probably.\"\n\nWith a curt nod, he excused himself\n\nFear was with him as he reached for it.\n\nthe shadows - the demons too - were around him.\n\nThat didn't matter, he'd learn to over come them, he'd learn to be brave.\n\nThis in mind, he turned the knob, and opened the door to a whole new world.\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"Short Stories","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/770574-evanescent-laws-and-norms.json"}}