{"sf1_id":922214,"sf2_id":"Vm2xxPj1","title":"Faced...","author":"Jiblits","words":500,"posted_at":"2015-10-16T01:20:00.000Z","tags":["Poem","Poetry","Short Story","slice of life"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/922214-faced","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/Vm2xxPj1","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/a1/90/a1900e62-1568-4e87-a251-6d115d15f38b","description":"My mind racing, my heart isn't keeping up...","content":"Faced...\n\n  \n\nAmid my day, I find my stare continuing, looking away\nThe love I have is one I feel I know to its end\n\nEven with this somber reality so sure, I find I crave more from just a friend\n\nMy hearts pulling when I see her, it brings a tear to my eyes\n\nTo have said we wouldn't last happily, hurt me with tear filled lies\n\n  \n\nShe's something I crave to the grave, someone truly in sync with my being\n\nEmotionally, physically, she's all I'm seeing\n\n  \n\nTo fight a feeling stronger then the time \u0026 space that separates us now\n\nI feel if we meet alone again, I'll buckle \u0026 show what I've wanted, \u0026 maybe then, we'd end up together, ...somehow...\n\n  \n\nI'm but a shell burning in a personal hell, calm, quiet, sincere by sight\n\nJust below my aching heart, there's a reasoning full of meaning refusing to fight\n\n  \n\nIt's not in me, if I do, I'll start from where problem was all too clear\n\nTo hold her again would only feed my worst fear\n\n  \n\nWe are planets apart, time making a fool of us just being one\n\nA life long parter I could see, but true compatibility, we have none....\n\n  \n\nShe would take me with such a smile, such a clear wanting for us to work through whatever came our way\n\nOnce the love dwindles again, I'll just break another heart, guaranteed one day\n\n  \n\nI wonder if I will find that person who will leave me no doubt\n\nThe one I'll truly refuse to live without\n\n  \n\nI feel, but in the mirror, I have hesitation on my own actions\n\nI've played a part too long, I wonder if I'm lost in basic satisfactions\n\n  \n\nCan't remember the last time I cared\n\nTruly into a sight of someone who dared\n\n  \n\nIt's been too long in the shadows of why \u0026 how\n\nThere really is no doubt.......I'm a monster for now...\n\nHumanity is just a definition well known, played in such a motion, the real actions match with such a lack of hesitation\n\nI've skilled the thrills of controlling ones own possible interpretation....\n\nI've peeked, my place is where I dreamed it would be\n\nAll I had to do, was lose my way, \u0026 forget about.....me......\n\n  \n\n.....I'm tired of being in a somewhat perfect place\n\n...I passed dreams....I've lost the lust in giving chase...\n\nMoney's fine, bills, no concern\n\nlove..... loves...... I have so many, waiting, willing, so many bridges I can burn....\n\n  \n\nWith a blink , the flames dancing merge into one once more\n\nA look past them, \u0026 I remember the not so distant sea shore\n\n  \n\nI'll find it again......the want, the need for something beyond what I can foresee\n\nTo back away from my shadow so unfamiliar, I'll remember choices on the brink of who I am, \u0026 more over what I can still be...\n\n  \n\n  \n\n---Thanks for reading---\n\n\u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp; \u0026nbsp;---Always---\n\n  \n\n  \n  \n\n"}