# Faced... Author: Jiblits Tags: Poem, Poetry, Short Story, slice of life My mind racing, my heart isn't keeping up... Faced... Amid my day, I find my stare continuing, looking away The love I have is one I feel I know to its end Even with this somber reality so sure, I find I crave more from just a friend My hearts pulling when I see her, it brings a tear to my eyes To have said we wouldn't last happily, hurt me with tear filled lies She's something I crave to the grave, someone truly in sync with my being Emotionally, physically, she's all I'm seeing To fight a feeling stronger then the time & space that separates us now I feel if we meet alone again, I'll buckle & show what I've wanted, & maybe then, we'd end up together, ...somehow... I'm but a shell burning in a personal hell, calm, quiet, sincere by sight Just below my aching heart, there's a reasoning full of meaning refusing to fight It's not in me, if I do, I'll start from where problem was all too clear To hold her again would only feed my worst fear We are planets apart, time making a fool of us just being one A life long parter I could see, but true compatibility, we have none.... She would take me with such a smile, such a clear wanting for us to work through whatever came our way Once the love dwindles again, I'll just break another heart, guaranteed one day I wonder if I will find that person who will leave me no doubt The one I'll truly refuse to live without I feel, but in the mirror, I have hesitation on my own actions I've played a part too long, I wonder if I'm lost in basic satisfactions Can't remember the last time I cared Truly into a sight of someone who dared It's been too long in the shadows of why & how There really is no doubt.......I'm a monster for now... Humanity is just a definition well known, played in such a motion, the real actions match with such a lack of hesitation I've skilled the thrills of controlling ones own possible interpretation.... I've peeked, my place is where I dreamed it would be All I had to do, was lose my way, & forget about.....me...... .....I'm tired of being in a somewhat perfect place ...I passed dreams....I've lost the lust in giving chase... Money's fine, bills, no concern love..... loves...... I have so many, waiting, willing, so many bridges I can burn.... With a blink , the flames dancing merge into one once more A look past them, & I remember the not so distant sea shore I'll find it again......the want, the need for something beyond what I can foresee To back away from my shadow so unfamiliar, I'll remember choices on the brink of who I am, & more over what I can still be... ---Thanks for reading---                                      ---Always--- Source: https://sofurry.com/s/Vm2xxPj1