{"sf1_id":922262,"sf2_id":"qmyEE2am","title":"we need help","author":"Yuko_Foxx","words":329,"posted_at":"2015-10-16T03:20:00.000Z","tags":["Depression","Heartbreak","Help","Pain","hurt"],"url":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/922262-we-need-help","original_url":"https://sofurry.com/s/qmyEE2am","image_url":"https://cdn.sofurryfiles.com/submissions/thumbnails/97/3f/973ff8e6-5dc6-46f5-a6dc-665e0ae5f6c4","description":"#9 of poems\n\njust a poem","content":"we get up every morning and get dressed;  \nlong sleeves hide the scars covering our arms.  \nwe head out and meet up with friends, and we fake a smile  \nwe fake a smile, and we lie and say \"I'm fine\" when we really mean \"stop asking, I'm tired of lying...\"\n\nwe go to bed at night and we break down and cry  \nwe scream into our pillows and we carve designs into our wrists.\u0026nbsp;\n\n1 cut for the pain,   \n2 more for the reason we hurt,   \n3 more for the memory and then another   \n10 to make us feel good  \nthen we get up, and get dressed and do it all over again\n\none day we cant hold it in any more and are so wrapped up in our pain that for the briefest of moments;  \nwe let it show threw. they ask are we alright and we try to lie and they call\u0026nbsp; our bluff. say im fine again and they leave it alone  \nwe go back home and cant stop thinking of how much they seemed to care, we call and ask to meet up in a park some wehre.\n\nwhen we get there and meet up, we break down and cant hold it in, we finnaly let it all out.\n\nfaking a smile is easy  \nfaking emotions takes some time  \nfaking how much you care never works out\n\nsome days get easier  \nsome days only get worse  \nother days yuo cant tell if anythings even going down at all\n\nwhen we fake a smile we are hiding the damage of a thousand hours of crying and sleepless nights.  \nwhen we say we are fine we are really crying for help  \nwhen we say don't worry, we really want you to worry about us and press us for info.\u0026nbsp;\n\nwhen you walk away we count the steps you take\n\ndont leave us or we will feel that every one whos ever said they will stay. will leave\n\n  \n  \n\n","series":{"name":"poems","previous":"https://fse.anthro.fr/stories/909328-why.json"}}