# we need help

Author: Yuko_Foxx
Tags: Depression, Heartbreak, Help, Pain, hurt

#9 of poems

just a poem

we get up every morning and get dressed;  
long sleeves hide the scars covering our arms.  
we head out and meet up with friends, and we fake a smile  
we fake a smile, and we lie and say "I'm fine" when we really mean "stop asking, I'm tired of lying..."

we go to bed at night and we break down and cry  
we scream into our pillows and we carve designs into our wrists. 

1 cut for the pain,   
2 more for the reason we hurt,   
3 more for the memory and then another   
10 to make us feel good  
then we get up, and get dressed and do it all over again

one day we cant hold it in any more and are so wrapped up in our pain that for the briefest of moments;  
we let it show threw. they ask are we alright and we try to lie and they call  our bluff. say im fine again and they leave it alone  
we go back home and cant stop thinking of how much they seemed to care, we call and ask to meet up in a park some wehre.

when we get there and meet up, we break down and cant hold it in, we finnaly let it all out.

faking a smile is easy  
faking emotions takes some time  
faking how much you care never works out

some days get easier  
some days only get worse  
other days yuo cant tell if anythings even going down at all

when we fake a smile we are hiding the damage of a thousand hours of crying and sleepless nights.  
when we say we are fine we are really crying for help  
when we say don't worry, we really want you to worry about us and press us for info. 

when you walk away we count the steps you take

dont leave us or we will feel that every one whos ever said they will stay. will leave

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