Doctors Log Ch.5 Doc 2
Ill be honest some of my patients are troubled souls with problems not meant for TV. Take for instance my second patient.
Patient 2
Male
Goat
Age 23
Name: Ralph Killeen
He was so calm , there was a neutral vibe to his walk when he entered my office and sat his guitar next to the door. He sat in the same seat as everyone else , across from my own. His eyes seemed to look through me , perhaps his mind was occupied on something.
Doc- this isn't your first time in therapy
Ralph- no , I've gone to a couple of other places
Doc- but never for more than a few weeks at a time?
Ralph- what can I say , I guess I thought I was better
His attempt at humor was clear distancing from my question , you could see it in the half smile that he cracked and slight laugh that ended before it began.
Doc- In what way
Ralph- I don't know , it was just a feeling
Doc- well your here now , so what would you like to talk about
Ralph- I don't know
Doc- why don't you tell me about yourself
Ralph- don't you already know about me from my file
Doc- papers don't speak the same way you and I can
Ralph-well ... I take pictures and write songs
Doc- so your an artist
Ralph- sorta , most of my songs are about how I feel I don't belong, but lately the wall I stand by doesn't feel like home the way I remember it.
Doc- the wall?
Ralph- The wall outside me and my sisters house, Its where I smoke and go to write
Doc- I see , and this wall doesn't feel as comfortable as it once did
Ralph- yea it might be because I stopped smoking, but I find myself inside more than before
Doc- and am I right in assuming that frequenting a place that brings sad songs less is a good thing for you
Ralph- I don't write as many sad songs ,no , but its not as black and white as that
Doc- tell me more then
Ralph- See I dropped out of college, and moved back home with my only family my older sister, and now I work as a bag boy and by night I try to be the artist my parents always saw me as
He spoke with little attachment to his words. His account of his own life was as detailed as a second person's point of view of his story .
Doc- are you happy
Ralph-I don't know I guess I just want more out of life but don't know where to find it , I don't even know what "it" is
Doc- I see
His eyes started to gloss over with a slight chance of watery down pore , but he regained his composer returning back to a state of being a passenger in his own body.
Ralph- Sure I work a boring day job and I dropped out of school but I'm living a good life... I think am... most people would say I am. I don't even know what I'm doing here
Doc- It takes strength to acknowledge that your feeling something is missing in your life, It takes even more to be willing to seek help, and where I am in no way capable of telling you what "it" is that you need I can help you figure it out
Ralph was a good kid who needed help figuring things out. My next patient on the other hand simply put "needed help".
Patient 3
Female
Panther
Age 25
Name: Barbara Waters
She was a beautiful woman, but she had crazy eyes that would stalk you. Even with my face hidden behind her file I could feel the unhinged gaze. Eventually I had to put down the file and when I did she was sitting before me cleaning her claws as if she were preparing for battle.
Barbara-I want him so bad
She spoke without warning.
Doc- You want who?
Barbara- Tommy , his name is Tommy and he is the love of my life
She snapped at me and I'm ashamed to say I jumped in my seat from being startled.
Doc- How are you so sure Tommy is the love of your life , how long have you dated
Barbara-That's the problem, we can't ,he won't , she won't let us
Doc- And who is she
Barbara- My sister
She was stark raving mad. Your not supposed to say things like that or question the morality of those you help as a therapist. Its your job to help people be better not decide what is better for them.
Doc- Why won't your sister allow you to see Tommy
Barbara- Because they're married, come on doc keep up
Doc- Let me get this straight your in love with a man who you have never dated because he is currently married to your sister
Barbara- Yes
Doc- In my opinion it would be easier to find another mate than to go after one who is already taken especially when he is taken by someone you are so closely related to
Barbra- Doc I'm not here for you tell me what to do , I just need someone to listen without judging
Doc- I'm not judging but it would be in your best interest
Barbara- I know he's the one , the way he looks at me when she's not around tells me everything I need to know
Doc- Barbara please
Barbara- And if she doesn't give him up... well I don't know what I'd do
Doc- Barbara, I don't think this line of thought is very constructive
Barbara- Sure it is , I'm constructing a plan to destroy their marriage so that I can have him to myself