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Do I want to fuck Dominic today? Do I even want to have sex with Thrad? It's been a really nice night so far, and I kind of just want to be held by my mate (is he my mate?), and am I even horny at all any more?

That thought was almost alien to me. Heck, it was alien to me. The entire past year or so had been nothing but sexual exploration for me, and the nurturing of my sex drive, and discovering more about myself and my proclivities than I'd ever thought I would, or even could. And all of it had led to tonight, right now. Things had effectively ground to a complete halt. It was probably awkward on at least some level for everyone involved, including me. Dominic was here, but just browsing his phone a little bit, biding time until the evening progressed, in one way or the other. He hadn't been dismissed, exactly, but the night certainly wasn't what he'd expected. It wasn't what any of us had expected.

Thrad was being perfectly nice with me. He was stroking my fur, tracing lines along my stomach and chest, and just spending time with his kitten curled up in his lap. I was still naked, but comfortable in it. It had stopped being weird to me that I was lounging nude in the company of my bull and his friend, both of whom were completely clothed and sort of casual about it. There wasn't any sort of sexual vibes in the room, which was exceptionally odd for Thrad and myself. We couldn't ever keep our hands off of each other. So this moment in particular was strange beyond recognition. And if I thought too hard about it I got a little freaked out, so I turned my thoughts inward instead.

What is it that I even want right now?

And that was the million dollar question. I knew that I wanted Thrad. He was practically the only thing that I did want. The thought had been building for a long time now, and having that out in the air meant the world to me. I suppose I was still in the throes of after glow. But it wasn't a sexual glow, for the first time in my career as a deviant. It was the glow of saying "I love you", and having those words said back in response. I became aware of my purring again. I was at full throttle, which scarcely happened. Usually we were too busy having sex for me to get so comfortable and trusting, and blissful, too. My tail was still, save for a gentle thwap at the tip. It was a sign of contentment, at its peak. And really, could anything matter more than that?

But I knew I was stalling. Even though I was more than a little in love, and that really should have been the only thing that mattered - I was stalling. The night was still in a powerful state of limbo, and I was sort of afraid to take it in any particular direction. Mainly I was worried about Dominic. I felt horrible sending him away, which we probably should have done a while ago. I looked at him, then. He didn't notice me watching him, he was just browsing his phone, and I'll be damned if he didn't look handsome while doing it.

I guess that meant I was a little bit horny after all. Still I marveled at my own sex drive. It seemed nothing could hold me back, at least, not for long. In a way Dominic was stalling my time with Thrad. We were growing so much in our relationship, and we could be deepening it even further right now, if only there wasn't a stranger in the room with us. But at the same time, it was like Thrad and I were stalling the evening ourselves. Our bond was blocking aside my sex drive. But my sex drive was blocking my relationship with the man I loved.

Was I really so horny as to refuse to send the stranger away? I apparently was, on at least some level. I didn't want to miss the opportunity that the entire week had been building towards. I was concerned that we might not ever have the chance to do this again. Did being in a relationship mean that group sex was off the table now? Apparently not, because Dominic was still here. But if he went away now, would he ever have the invitation to come back? More than that, would he ever want to?

"Thrad?" I asked. It caught everyone's attention, because nobody had said anything for quite a while now. "Yes Silver?" "Are we together now?" "Yes." His tone said that it was a stupid question, even though his words refrained from it. "So, we're mated, then?" I said.

That gave Thrad a moment of pause. It wasn't like us to set clear definitions about our relationship. But we were in a new territory now. And as with any new territory, it helped to have things spelled out.

"I guess we are." Thrad said. It wasn't that he was ashamed to admit it or anything, he just needed to think about it for a second. I knew he'd of course had boyfriends before, but we hadn't talked a whole lot about it. There was still so much I didn't know about him. And on one hand, this didn't seem like exactly the right scene in which to find the answers to some of those questions. But if now wasn't the right time for it, then when else could be?

"And you're still okay sharing me?" I asked. "Yes I am." Thrad said. His immediacy comforted me. If I ever wasn't sure in myself, I could typically trust in Thrad to know himself enough for the both of us. "Why is that?" "Because it's hot." It was such a blunt response that it surprised me. Could he really be thinking in such plain terms, even after everything we'd just been through? "Just like that?" I asked. "Just like that." I looked at him, then. At once I was both accepting and disbelieving. He picked up that I wanted him to expand. The answer was plain, but it wasn't quite enough for me. There just had to be more than that going on. Thrad sighed, then continued.

"Dominic and I have a curious relationship." He said, carefully. "Curious?" Dominic said, entering the conversation. "Yeah, curious." Thrad said flatly. He challenged Dominic with his eyes. As usual, the stallion didn't particularly challenge him back. As always, he was perfectly, frustratingly aloof. "Pray tell." Dominic said. "You tell." "Really? I think you should." "Tell me what?" I asked. "Thrad and I used to date." Dominic said, simply.

Oh.

"It was a little bit more than that." Thrad added, then trailed off. He was clearly uncomfortable talking about it, but it was obvious that there was something to be said. In Thrad's tongue it was the hallmark of emotional conversation ahead. He had a hard time discussing that sort of thing. So it was no wonder he was relying on Dominic to tell whatever story there was to tell. "... like what?" I finally said. You couldn't just drop a bomb like that and then not follow it up. Dominic sighed. "We were more like brothers than lovers." He said. "Which we realized quickly, so we stopped dating. Then we-" "And you didn't tell me?" I didn't realize it, but I was waiting for someone else to start talking again, so I could interrupt again for added emphasis. "I didn't think-" "Why didn't you tell me? That's sort of important for me to know, Thrad." "We share a lot." Thrad said. As though that made it okay. "That doesn't make it okay!" "I should go." Dominic said. "No, you stay! You're part of this too. Why didn't you tell me?" "Seriously guys, I'm out." "Dominic-" Thrad said. "Are you in love with him?" I asked. "What? Fuck no. He's annoying." "And you're a dick." Dominic added. He stood and put his phone in his pocket, and started to make for the door.

What was even happening right now?

"Okay, hang on-" I tried to say. But Dominic was starting to head down the stairs, and our night had taken an immediate turn, extremely for the worse. A handful of minutes ago Thrad and I had confessed our love. And now his friend was practically storming out, because they'd had some sort of romantic history which I had no idea about, which would have been nice information to know. "You guys make a good couple." Dominic called from the bottom of the stairs. "Dominic." Thrad called after him, but without very much heart. It was like saying 'oh no, please don't go' in the most unhelpful, sarcastic way. "Jesus Christ." I said. I sprang from my seat and practically flew down the stairs. I stood brazenly in the open doorway to challenge Dominic as he was leaving.

"What's going on?" My tone rested between asking the question, and demanding it. "Woah, Silver." Dominic said. He'd turned to look at me, and realized I was standing at the threshold to Thrad's home, naked and unabashed about it. "Come on, Dominic. Talk to me." "Dude, come on." "I'm not moving."

Then it came to Dominic's sense of propriety, versus his uncomfortable stance toward the turn the night had taken. Did he want to leave and risk making a scene with a naked kid on Thrad's doorstep? It was a gamble I'd calculated, and I won. He glanced between me and his car a few times, then sort of groaned as he headed back inside. I stepped back to allow him in, and he shut the door behind him. It hadn't taken all that much time, but it gave me what I needed to help me simmer down. Thrad didn't have a cruel bone in his body. He made a few emotional blunders, to be sure. I was a much more emotional creature than he was, so it made sense that he didn't mean harm by inviting over some past lover to fuck me. He just clearly hadn't considered the implications.

"What is this?" I asked. I was more calm than I was a few moments ago, but my tail still moved about in clear agitation. Dominic sighed again. It was a deep, exhausted sigh. "I took care of him." He said. "I had a complex about helping people, and he was damaged goods. That was maybe thirty years ago - we've been friends for a long, long time. I helped show him he was worth far more than he gave himself credit for, and in turn he helped me to see that I was worth more than what I gave to other people. It couldn't do to sacrifice myself for the good of others. It was emotional abuse to myself, which I didn't realize until Thrad helped me."

I wanted to respond with anything at all, but I honestly couldn't. I was still a kid, and sometimes I remembered that more than others. Right now, for instance, I had no idea what he was talking about. My parents didn't totally care for me being gay (not that we'd ever specifically talked about it, but come on, they had to know by now). But I had a nuclear family growing up, and while I'd never been in a relationship before, I'd never had my heart broken, either. I wasn't damaged goods, I wasn't particularly damaged at all. Save for general life inexperience, but I had a few guiding hands to help me along with that. In particular, I had Thrad, who'd been impossibly kind to me for all this time. We were coming up on a year together, although most of that was just rampant sexual activity. And in all that time he'd never hurt me. I knew he wouldn't dream of it. So I didn't want to hurt him by getting irrational about what was probably just an emotional misstep. But it was hard to hold myself back.

"We never had sex, by the way." Dominic said. "Two tops and all that. But we came to share most things in our life, for a long time. We've shared dorm rooms, apartments, workplaces - and even boyfriends." "Polyamory?" I asked. Dominic shook his head. "Just sex." "Why?" I held in the question which was really on my mind, which was 'Are you two in love?' Dominic shrugged. "It brought us closer together. We always swore nothing would come between us, and nothing ever has. And I wouldn't say you've come between us, it's just-" "So you've never been in love?" I asked. "Not either of you?" "I wouldn't say that-" "But it sounds like it. Else you've only ever had explicitly sexually open relationships. Which is fine, I guess. But it doesn't sound very healthy."

"I wanted you to meet him." Thrad called down from the stairs. He didn't direct it to either of us in particular. Probably he meant it for the both of us. "And the way Dominic has met anyone in my life has been through sex. So I didn't really know how else to do it." "You're kidding." I said.

Just like Thrad treated me perfectly gentlemanly in all things physical, I was typically pretty good at handling his emotions. Granted, I was still only (freshly) twenty. And I no doubt had a lot of emotional development to go through. But one thing seemed pretty clear to me. You couldn't just throw three people who are at least a little emotionally involved into a bed together and expect it to go well. Not without a proper introduction of any sort. But right away I sort of got where he was coming from. If he bonded with Dominic over sharing boys, and he wanted to show him the new boy he had in his life, it made sense that he'd try to do it in the way they always did. It was just horribly miscalculated.

And this was the general sort of blunder I'd like to say I could take in stride. But I was having a hard time being patient on this one. Could he really be that dumb? I talked myself back from that one pretty fast. He wasn't dumb, it was a blunder, and people are allowed to make mistakes. And from what I'd gathered, it was easy to make mistakes when questions of the heart arose. Not that I had a ton of experience in that arena, but still.

They were both looking at me, then, maybe with even a tiny bit of scorn. It was a look I absolutely hated. I didn't know how old Dominic was, but he was nearly guaranteed to be twice my age at least. And they had a look which said 'You're only twenty, step off'. And maybe a lot of that was in my head. But that look still drove me insane.

"Thrad." I said. "Did you really just intend to introduce me to your friend?" I put it in such plain language as to make sure we all understood the basic nature of what was really going on. "... yeah." "Dominic, were you under the impression at all that Thrad and I were in love?" "Absolutely not. He talked about you a lot, and I thought it was strange he hadn't invited me over already. We really do 'share' a lot. He's almost fucked my boyfriend more times than I have." "That's not true." Thrad said. "Not helping." I said. Then I continued. "Point being, Thrad invited you over to get to know his new boy-toy. And you said yes. Is that right?" "... yeah."

I sighed in exasperation. Again, I really could have handled things better. But things really didn't need to be so complicated. How could they not have seen that?

"Then lets get to know each other! God. It isn't-" I stopped myself and took a deep breath. To at least some degree they must have been right. They had double the life experience on me, at least. They'd probably seen things I hadn't ever imagined, and I could probably learn a ton from either of them. Thrad had already taught me a bunch, not even just about sex but about everything. So they really didn't need some punk twenty year old trying to tell them how to live life. It was just all so bizarre to me, and I didn't fully understand what was even going on. But I wanted to at least try. So I started over.

"What I mean to say is that I'd love to get to know you." I was looking at Dominic now, but for the first time I saw him in his appropriate station. He wasn't a stranger here to fuck my brains out. He was someone important in Thrad's life, someone Thrad wanted to introduce me to. Sure, his execution had been piss. But I understood things now. And I didn't want to allow my incredulity to make things worse. Thrad and I had reached a huge, emotional stage in our relationship. I'd be damned if we crashed and burned just moments after.

They both took pause at my comment, and seemed unsure how to respond. I nearly rose to exasperation again, but reigned myself in before it made things any worse.

"But, let's do this right? I'll put clothes on, and-" In spite of myself I stuttered. Clothes. The ultimate regression. "-and we'll go to dinner or something?"

I looked between Thrad and Dominic. Between the two of them I looked every bit the part of a naive, twinkish boy - and I was. I probably had no idea what I was talking about. But I decided to trust in Thrad with every part of myself. He'd gotten me this far, and hadn't ever done me wrong. And I knew he wouldn't hurt me on purpose, and I had to trust that he really did have the best of intentions in mind. And it was an easy leap for me to make. As absurd as this whole situation was, it really wasn't out of Thrad's character to do. It was painful to admit, but it was actually pretty well inside of it.

Finally Thrad said, "That sounds nice." It was blunt, and even a little surprised. Like he'd never considered introducing his boyfriend to his best friend (is that what they were?) by all of us having dinner together. "... yeah, it does." Dominic agreed. He was equally taken aback by the idea. Who were these guys? "Then I'll put clothes on." I said, and headed back upstairs. I was well aware of my nudity. It matched the scene exactly, because everything about it was so topsy-turvy that why wouldn't I be naked on top of everything else?

But while I put my clothes on and Thrad got ready to go, I simmered down even more. It was an extremely strange situation. But I got the impression now that Dominic really was family. Thrad had intended to introduce me to his family. Except it wasn't over Thanksgiving dinner or something like that. And it wasn't to a blood relative, sure. But this was important. More than that, it was huge. And I still couldn't believe that the preface to all of that had been 'Silver, you have to check out my friend's massive cock'. It was one hell of a blunder, but aside from the initial shock of it, it really wasn't all that bad. The intent of the moment had been pure, and when I looked past all the rest that made the gesture sort of nice. It had, of course, been compounded when Thrad and I said we loved each other for the first time. It actually made for sort of the perfect storm.

But I would salvage this night if it was the last thing I did. Not even in the name of sex. At this point sex was actually well off the table for me. This was about Thrad, and his past (which I hadn't ever been invited into), and his family, which was something we'd never shared. I could look past a lot of blunders for the sake of that attempt at opening up. And in a way, that helped put me on my best behavior as well. I was meeting a member of Thrad's family, and for him I knew that was huge. I wanted to make a good impression.

Just, hopefully it would be a better impression than my frenetic, naked ass grinding on an apparently massive cock.