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Cryos: OK this chapter takes place during chapter 30-37 of Care Bear Magi Life, except the last scene which is set during chapter 50. Also Caduceus Bear is my official name for my version of Take Care Bear but she's the same as she was in Care Bear Magi Life other than her name and chest symbol.

Chapter 2: Loyalty

Defiant Heart was nervous when they all moved to the Kingdom of Caring especially when the Care Bear's doctor, Caduceus Bear, said she would have to give all of the Care Bear Magi full medical exams. Defiant was just relieved that he was going last as he stepped into Caduceus' exam room.

Caduceus was a female bear with lavender fur whose chest symbol was a winged staff with the wings spread across the top of her breasts. She turned to Defiant and nodded to the exam table, "Just take a seat and I'll get started."

Defiant Heart sat down and watched as Caduceus got ready. He knew he couldn't hide it, "Just let me get my shirt off." He pulled the t-shirt over his head which showed off the bandages wrapped around his torso.

Caduceus turned back just in time to see Defiant unwinding the cloth as his breasts seemed to blossom out from under them. "Oh my... Defiant?"

"I'm intersex, Doctor Caduceus," Defiant set the bandages aside, "Just don't tell anyone about this."

Caduceus nodded, "I will respect doctor-patient confidentiality. What do you want me to put in your medical record?"

"Just put my gender as man," Defiant was starting to get agitated knowing what was to come, "Let's just get this over with."

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Thankfully, Caduceus Bear kept her word and Defiant was able to cover himself up without any trouble. When asked why he kept wearing clothes he just used the not technically inaccurate excuse that he was just used to wearing clothes as a human. Crafty Heart's complete lack of modesty didn't make it harder, once everyone heard about her parents no one questioned that she was throwing any sort of conservative attitude out the window to just be herself.

Defiant decided to try and look for love, finally feeing safe enough and with people who weren't hurt by his reputation to give it a try. He tried to build a relationship with Lotsa Heart Elephant, a male pink elephant with a weight for a chest symbol, but it didn't last long as they didn't have anything in common. After that, Defiant decided to just take things as they came.

Defiant befriended Loyal Heart shortly after he broke things off with Lotsa Heart, attracted to the dog's own defiant personality of not wanting to participate in the 'free love' philosophy that everyone else in the Kingdom of Caring subscribed to. While they spent a lot of time together, and Defiant began to admire the blue dog, he didn't think it could ever go beyond that as Loyal so often made known his admiration and infatuation with Proud Heart Cat.

Then Proud Heart took advantage of Loyal Heart...

After a near death experience on Earth with one of the Shadow Magi, Loyal Heart spiraled into a depression that ended only when Proud Heart found him blackout drunk in his home, something no one ever thought possible. He blurted out his feelings for Proud Heart which she interpreted in the worst way and seduced him into having sex. The next morning, Loyal Heart was enraged and Proud Heart was horrified at what she had done after she was kicked out of his house.

When Proud Heart found out she was pregnant, she felt even worse and fully expected Loyal Heart to want nothing to do with the child, and she admitted he had every right to not be part of her or the child's life though she never said that to Loyal Heart. To both Proud and Defiant Heart's surprise, Loyal Heart promised to help her.

"This is your own fault, but I will not abandon our child. They deserve to have their father be a part of their lives." Loyal Heart's words struck a cord in Defiant Heart and from then on they grew closer and closer until one day, after both the dog and badger visited Proud Heart late in her pregnancy, Loyal Heart was the first to confess his feelings right outside Proud Heart's home.

"I love you, Defiant Heart Badger," and they shared their first kiss before returning to Loyal Heart's home.

Defiant Heart was in ecstasy over the confession but once he had cooled down and they were sitting together on Loyal Heart's couch his insecurities surfaced and he had to ask, "Why do you love me?"

Loyal Heart smiled, "Because you're like me, you don't go with the crowd and you do what you think is best. What made me certain is how you've been helping me with Proud Heart." He took Defiant's hand in his own, "You had no obligation or even a reason to but you've been there with me to help her when you could have just let it be. No matter what you might have done in the past all I've seen is a very compassionate person and a loyal friend."

Defiant Heart didn't realize he was blushing, "Thank you. I feel the same way. I love you too because I've seen how you are. What made me realize it is how you treated Proud Heart too." He rubbed the back of his head, "I guess I'm just repeating what you said but... you didn't have to help Proud Heart, probably anyone else up here would have, but you're staying for your child. My parents were never there for me when I needed them," he absentmindedly scratched the bandages under his shirt, "I want to be with someone like you, someone who will be there for his loved ones no matter what."

Loyal Heart's ears perked up as he leaned over to Defiant Heart, "Thank you." They kissed.

Defiant Heart felt his heart fill with joy as they kissed, but pang of guilt echoed in the back of his mind. Even if Caduceus hadn't said anything how would everyone else react? Could he ever tell Defiant Heart the truth? And would the dog still accept him, let alone love him once he found out? Defiant desperately wanted to push those thoughts aside but they lingered in his mind even when he returned to the Hall of Hearts for the night. He lay awake for over an hour as his insecurities welled up before he finally fell asleep.

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Months passed and Proud Heart's son was born. She and Loyal Heart named the blue cat Valor Heart and his chest symbol was a heart that looked like it was wielding a sword and shield. While Defiant Heart wasn't part of that he was still happy the child was healthy and when Proud Heart needed a break or a long catnap, Defiant would come along to help Loyal Heart look after the kitten.

Defiant Heart managed to bury his insecurity until one night when Loyal Heart had invited him to spend the night. He knew this would be the night where the truth would come out, and even if there were no accidents he was going to show it regardless.

Thing started getting hot after a while. Defiant and Loyal were watching a movie, he couldn't remember which, and Defiant started scratching Loyal behind his ear. Loyal Heart leaned into the scratching and started kicking his leg before sliding sideways until he lay back in Defiant's lap. Defiant Heart couldn't help but smile and he started to rub Loyal Heart's belly. The dog let out a joyful sigh as his tongue lolled out and he started panting.

"You really are just a big puppy aren't you, Floppy?" Defiant Heart scratched behind Loyal Heart's floppy ear as he kept rubbing his tummy, which made Loyal Heart start kicking again.

"Oh yeah! Right there, stripy!" Loyal Heart all but howled then flopped back limply on Defiant's lap.

Defiant chuckled, "Looks like I found your sweet spots."

Loyal Heart gave a bit of a goofy grin, "Good foreplay, I hope we can move past that soon." He lay there for a moment before carefully pulling himself upright. Defiant leaned up against his boyfriend's shoulder and giggled slightly as Loyal Heart started scratching him under the chin.

"Defiant Heart, do you want to be my mate?"

Defiant went rigid when he heard those words. He wanted to respond but Loyal Heart spoke up first, "That is to say: will you marry me? I couldn't find a ring or anything but I didn't think I would need one... Defiant?"

Defiant Heart carefully removed Loyal Heart's arm from around him, shut off the TV then stood up and walked to the light switch on the other side of the room. As the lights flipped on, Loyal Heart stood up to face a rather depressed looking Defiant Heart.

"Defiant? What's wrong? Am I going too fast? Are you not that interested?" Loyal Heart was starting to sound panicked.

Defiant held up a hand for silence as he approached, "Loyal Heart, I've been keeping a secret from you... from everyone..." He took a deep breath, "Only six other people know but... I'm scared to show you."

"What is it?" several thoughts floated through Loyal Heart's head but he pushed them aside. I couldn't be that bad could it? He knew from old caring missions that a lot of problems always seemed bigger inside someone's head than it was in reality.

Defiant put his hands on his hips, "See my hips, Loyal?"

Loyal Heart looked, he hadn't really looked before but Defiant's hips were rather wide for a man. "So you're a bit wide around the waist? Is that it?"

Defiant sighed, he knew it wasn't enough so he grabbed the hem of his t-shirt and pulled it up over his head, for the first time letting Loyal Heart see the bandages wrapped around his chest. Loyal Heart wanted to say something but he waited and watched as Defiant started to unwind the long strip of cloth.

It seemed to happen in an instant, when the cloth was halfway unwound Defiant Heart's breasts seemed to surge out, forcing the rest of the cloth to fall away. Defiant Heart grunted, "Oof, they've gotten bigger..." He looked up to see Loyal Heart's reaction.

Loyal Heart just stared for a moment before he asked, "Defiant, why do you have breasts?"

"Because I'm intersex... I was born with both male and female parts as a human..." He took a deep breath, "I was somewhat unbalanced at first but being turned into a Care Badger made me stable. Caduceus said both my sexes were perfectly healthy but still," Defiant Heart was starting to cry, "I'm still a freak of nature! I'm just wrong!" Before he could continue, Loyal Heart had wrapped him in a tight hug.

"It's alright, Defiant, I'm here," Loyal Heart whispered in his ear.

Defiant Heart started crying openly and he pulled Loyal Heart into a tight, "Why was I born this way?" he managed to say between sobs.

Loyal Heart rubbed the badger's back, "I don't know, but I'm here for you and it doesn't change how I feel about you."

Defiant Heart smiled despite his tears, "That's the nicest thing anyone's said to me..."

Defiant Heart didn't stop crying until he and Loyal Heart were curled up on the couch together, Defiant Heart still topless. They just sat together for several minutes before Loyal Heart broke the silence.

"Have you ever considered... getting one removed. I'm not saying you should I'm just wondering..." he trailed off, "Sorry..."

"No... it's fine... and I have I just... I just wasn't sure..." Defiant Heart leaned his head up against Loyal Heart's, "I mean, Life Heart gave Funshine a sex change so I know it can be done but I just wasn't sure what I wanted. I still think of myself as a man despite tying that bandage every day to hide my chest..." He managed a smile, "But now, thinking about it I think I know what I'm going to do."

"Oh? What?" Loyal asked.

"Nothing, or at least I'm not going to change anything." He reached up to scratch Loyal briefly behind the ear, "I was on the fence until I saw how you reacted and... I don't want to force myself to change for anyone else's definition of what makes me who I am as long as the ones I love don't change how they think about me."

Loyal Heart's leg kicked for a moment before he turned his whole body to face Defiant, "So you're going to keep everything?"

Defiant turned to face Loyal, "Yes. I'm not going to let anyone but me determine what makes me who I am. I'm a man even if I do have tits," he pressed them together for emphasis.

Loyal Heart smiled, "That's the real you," he chuckled, "you have to be defiant in everything, even your sex defies what most people call normal." He gave Defiant a kiss, which he returned. Both wrapped their arms around each other and Defiant snuck a hand up to scratch Loyal behind his ear.

Loyal Heart quivered and broke the kiss, "Can I touch them?"

"You're asking?" Defiant Heart teased.

Loyal chuckled, "You have boundaries and I will always consider them."

Defiant smiled, "I love you for that, Floppy. Do whatever you want."

"If you insist, Stripy." Loyal pulled his arm back around and squeezed one of Defiant's breasts.

Defiant gasped and shuddered which made Loyal pull back. "Are you alright?"

"Yes just hnnnnnn!" Defiant let out a strained moan, "I've never felt like that before." He panted, "Feels so sensitive."

"I'm not surprised, if you kept them bound up all the time." Loyal Heart squeezed again and watched the pleasured expression on Defiant's face, "You found my ear and belly spots, I guess I found yours."

Defiant carefully pushed Loyal back until he was lying on top of the dog, "Then let's see who's more sensitive." He gave Loyal a peck on his nose, "but let's not go to far until the honeymoon."

Loyal blinked, "Whaaaaaaat!" his voice rose as Defiant started scratching behind his ear again.

Defiant grinned, "That is to say: yes I will marry you. Loyal Heart Dog." He leaned in and they kissed as the world faded around them.

Defiant Heart woke up still embracing Loyal Heart on the couch and still with the light on. They had fallen asleep curled up together despite the lights still being on. Defiant looked down lovingly at the sleeping dog and saw that Loyal still had a hand on one of his breasts.

Defiant carefully extricated himself from Loyal's embrace then shut off the lights before he headed for the bathroom. As he started the shower he noticed how much less sore his chest felt. He normally kept his breasts bound the cloth all the time, only undoing it to shower then rebinding it before he left the bathroom, which he always locked until he was done. That was the right word to describe how he felt now: comfortable. Loyal Heart's acceptance and support and even how he had groped him last night made him feel better about being intersex.

By the time he finished and dried off, Loyal Heart had gotten up and was eating cereal at his kitchen table. "Good morning."

"Morning, Floppy." Defiant gave Loyal a kiss before he went to retrieve the cloth and started to re-bind his chest.

Loyal Heart kept eating but watched Defiant until he had pulled his chest flat again, seeing him wince from the pressure then bouncing a couple times to make sure the binding would hold. "Everything alright?" he asked.

Defiant knew the question that was coming so skipped ahead, "I'm not ready for everyone to know yet. The barrier's coming down any day now and then we'll be in the fight of our lives." He poured himself some cereal and sat down with Loyal Heart, "We don't need any more drama right now."

Loyal reached over and took his hand, "It's alright. You don't need to if you're not ready. I promise I'll keep this secret."

Defiant Heart smiled, "Thanks, Loyal. But I know when I'll be ready. When we get married I'll be there, tits out for all to see."

Loyal chuckled, "Maybe under a suit but that works just fine."

Defiant squeezed his hand, "Thank you." He pulled it back to start eating, "But maybe shower first."

Loyal Heart licked his bowl clean of milk, "Alright, but don't get grossed out by the smell of wet dog."

Defiant smirked as he watched his fiancée go, "You weren't grossed out by me so I'll do my best."

And he tried. Loyal didn't take offense but they both knew they would have to make those adjustments once everything was over.

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The final battles were upon them. Defiant Heart's fight with Snowy Heart had been short but painful and Defiant Heart was just grateful his biokinetics allowed him to heal himself. Far more harrowing was having to meet his parents and introduce them to Loyal Heart. He called the dog his boyfriend instead of fiancée but Loyal didn't mind, the term was purely semantics between Care Bears.

After every Care Bear had used their stare to attack the giant cloud form of No-Heart and Love Heart was flying up to finish him off once and for all, Defiant Heart was one of the few who could still stand. Loyal Heart had fallen to the ground panting from the exertion. Defiant glanced around and saw his human parents standing apart from the crowds then down to Loyal Heart.

"Loyal, I need your help," he whispered and offered a hand to Loyal Heart, "I need to talk to my parents again."

Loyal Heart took a deep breath and accepted Defiant's hand to help him get to his shaky feet. "I'll be here for you."

Defiant and Loyal stood in front of Defiant's parents in the shade of a brick shed.

"He knows the truth. I know the truth," Defiant Heart said softly.

"I see," his mother nodded.

"Why didn't you ever tell me? Why didn't you let me know I was different even before this?" Defiant Heart tried to keep his voice level but couldn't keep from bearing his teeth. "Were you ashamed of me? Did you just not want anything to do with your freak child?"

"We weren't sure how to explain it," his father said. "We didn't know the words."

"We did what we thought was best, we wanted to give you enough savings that you could survive." His mother took a deep breath, "We know how people can be and... we knew someone would find out some day. We were scared you wouldn't be allowed to have a job once it came out or someone would try to blackmail you so we wanted to make sure you could survive."

"And that's why you never told me anything?" Defiant squeezed Loyal's hand which made the dog wince slightly. "You could have at least told me what it meant instead of hiding it from me!" Defiant's shout drew some attention and Loyal leaned up against him to let him know to calm down.

"We're sorry. Your savings are still there if you ever want them," his mother said.

"I don't know. All I know is I wish you had told me something, anything, before I had to find out myself. Goodbye." He turned and walked away, still holding hands with Loyal Heart.

Loyal Heart glanced back at the couple then to Defiant who had started to cry, "Defiant?"

"I'm alright... I just needed to say that..." Defiant wiped his eyes with his free arm.

"Aren't you going to tell them we're getting married?"

"No... I don't want to see them there. Even if they meant well they still hurt me..." Defiant put an arm around Loyal Heart, "thank you, for everything Loyal."

Loyal Heart smiled then gave Defiant a kiss, "Anytime. I'll always be here for you."