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Sometimes you do the right thing, you drop everything and go to those who really need you. And the Universe rewards you for it. I found my life mate like that. I'm very happy now. I have always been a fairly happy Lion. I'm young (23), rich (over $620 Million in liquid assets) and attractive. Or at least I'm always being told I am. I am the only son of CMK's CEO and owner, J.T. Kitman. CMK is a large conglomerate. Making everything from food products to appliances and car parts. You'd know Dad if you saw him. And you might even know me, or at least my name. Dr Claude Marcus Kitman II. I am a Physician, an Internist by specialty. I was considered a genius and I finished my Medical training and residency by the time I was 20. I'm in partnership with my Medical School mentor. Dr Horst Grumer. Horst was my mentor in school and when I graduated, I got him to quit teaching and come work with me. He was getting tired of teaching. And the faculty and students of the Med School were so oppressive when he was outed as gay.

Horst is a Grizzly Bear, only about 5'10" and maybe 200 pounds. He's German born and he's got bright Brown eyes and he's an introverted Bear but a happy one. I took him out to dinner with a guy I was dating. Jebediah Wallace. a huge Lion contractor. (Jeb's 7'2"and 400 pounds of Gold furred Lion muscle) And before dessert they'd bonded and I was basically the third wheel at the table. I'm happy for them though. They've gotten really tight as a couple and are very happy. The big Feline Redneck Jock and the smaller Ursine introverted Dr. And they are my model for how a relationship should work. Jeb's the Boss, and Horst is the softer male who caters to his Big Jock Lion.

I am 6'4" and 225 pounds. I'm built solidly but not a buff gym rat type. I have Sapphire Blue eyes like my Daddy. In fact, I look like a younger and smaller version of my Dad. Good thing for me as my Dad is, at 43 an exceptionally good looking older male Lion. I don't have Dad's presence or his charisma, but I do well enough. I have fore paws and big foot paws. My fur is a nice Golden Tan, and my mane is Red Blond. My face is broad and open and I have a shining smile. If I do say so myself. I also have my Daddy's large Feline dick. 14", with it's pointed tip and I have 7 rows of sharp, firm barbs on it. It is big, but being as much of a bottom as I am, I don't use it a lot. Some guys get to me and I'm driven to fuck them as often as I can. But more likely, I'll want to be topped by a big, solidly built and dominant male.

When I moved out to California to go to Med School, I bought a big house. I was used to living in our big home in Auburn Alabama. I moved out here to get away from a scandal. I was head over heels in love with a big Grizzly. Not knowing he was married and a Coach for U of A's football program. His wife found out about us. I found out he was married by reading about the supposed love scandal in the paper. I was horrified and I got publicly humiliated on a daily basis trying to finish Pre Med. I was supposedly the soulless vamp trying to take a married male from his loving wife. For the record he came after me, and he courted me relentlessly. But no one believed me.

On the day before I graduated Pre Med, a bunch of football players cornered me and beat me up. I went to graduation in casts, walking on crutches, and looking beaten and battered. Dad begged me not to go, but I was determined to show them I wasn't cowed.

I was the Valedictorian as I had the highest average for that semester. I gave the speech I already had prepared and resisted the urge to name my attackers or castigate the school. Though I had identified them to the Police. And in a touch of dramatic irony, the Campus cops arrested them after my speech and before they got their diplomas. Hauled off of the stage in handcuffs. They never were convicted because when I left Alabama I refused to go back for the trial. But they too were publicly humiliated. It was good enough for me, and I went on with my life) (Though I was left with a slight limp that I still have)

I applied to Medical School at Sacramento State University out in Sacramento California. Dad hated to see me leave home, but he knew I could never hope to have a successful practice in Auburn, assuming of course that U of A didn't retaliate against me and prevent me from getting into their Medical School. After a few years he moved the head offices of CMK out to the facility they had here. Bought an office building downtown and moved the company so he could be with his much beloved son.(The city and county, plus the state lost the tax revenue from CMK's offices and the employees when he did. Didn't make me sad at all. ) And my Daddy does love me. We sleep together a few nights a week. I'd bond Dad if I could, but he's my Dad and we couldn't. I know we couldn't. But we have tried once or twice, and failed to bond.

My mother's father, my Grandpa Russell lives with us. Dr Walter Russell is a PhD in Physics and he's a great teacher and he's busy with his research projects. Grandpa is a very attractive, older Lion. And yes I sleep with him too. At least twice a week. He'll make sure Dad's not wanting me and he'll come curl up with his Grandson. And we'll make love and cuddle and sleep. Grandpa is a beautiful Lion. He has a touch of Gray in his mane and it makes him that much sexier. He has a bigger dick than Dad and I do. 16" in fact. Grandpa was the first to barb fuck me, and it made me nuts. (I dreamed that night that I had born a litter of Lion cubs that were basically my Uncles as well as my sons. With my proud Grandpa at my side during the delivery.)

So while I am busy, I'm not going without, between Dad and Grandpa and the guys I'm dating I'm pretty happy sexually. I'm not really lonely. I have my best friend living with me. Dr Nigel Davenport. I met him when I started Medical School. Nigel had gotten a scholarship to do his medical training here. He had never really been away from home and his parents before. And he was living in the dorm and horrendously lonely. I went to check on him when he didn't come to class one day. He was curled up in his dorm room crying hard. I held him and he cried so. I spent the night with him. Fucked him to our mutual surprise. In fact, I was desperate to take his ass, as I knew I cared about him already and I asked him to come live with me. I felt a bond with him, I was lonely too. I did love him, still do, not 'that way', but I'm pretty sure I'm not closer to anyone as much as I am to him.

My Beloved Daddy was thousands of miles away as was my Grandpa. Nigel moved in and we got closer. Dad had sent our family retainer, Alfred Featherstone, out to help me set up and furnish my house. And our Fox retainer did his usual amazing job. Alfred would sit and talk to Nigel and it seemed to ease Nigel's pains a lot. Nigel missed his Mum and Dad and England in general. I could understand a bit. Here in a strange place starting a new life. But Nigel, Nige had to move to a different country to get the opportunity to make his and his family's life better. And Alfred could do what I tried so hard to do and couldn't. Alfred was able to make him miss his home less. But his parents he still missed. And he got close to Dad when Dad moved out. (Of course, I had no idea how close they'd gotten)

Alfred had been with our family since before I was born. He was a kit of 16 when he was sent to us. Grandpa Kitman, Dad's father had given him to Dad and Mom as a wedding present. Alfred had told Nigel of how scared and alone he felt coming here, knowing he would take his place tending to our family, and never be able to go home again. But he and Mom got very close, and she made him feel comfortable and needed.

Alfred was as broken up as Dad and I were when Momma died. She was pregnant with another son. And she and my baby brother both died while she attempted to give birth to him.. My little brother was still born and Momma hemorrhaged out. Dad was devastated, he'd lost his son and his wife at the same time. And he took to drinking for a while. Alfred finally snapped him out of it one day, Alfred got mad and reminded Dad that despite his massive loss, he had a 5 year old son (Me) that desperately needed his father. Dad and I got very close. And me looking like him, yet being so much Momma inside made him cling to me for a while. He was a loving father, best friend, and lover to me. And Alfred was just like a father to me as well. I was well loved and had all I could need growing up from the three males who loved me so much. Dad, Alfred, And Grandpa Russell.. And Dad's still close to me, but we have frequent sex, and I love him so much.. Though still, I'd bond him in a split second if I could. Dad's my ideal for a mate. Strong, caring, loving, dominant and great in bed.

I'm having a very busy day and I keep getting called to the ER. Horst and I have been running our tails off all day, with no lunch break either. I'm exhausted when I get home. I'd of picked up Nigel in his downstairs office as usual, but he'd called me and told me he'd gone home early. Alfred looks a bit tense when I walk in. "Master Claude, you should be prepared for somewhat of a shock" he tells me. "Is something wrong, my Fox father?" I ask. "No, not really wrong per se, but there is something that might shake you up a bit" he says quietly. I moan. Alfred's being his usual discrete self. But I know when I hear what's up that I'm going to be really shaken badly. Alfred's face shows so much concern for me I know I'm gonna not like what ever it turns out to be.

"Claude" I hear from behind me. Dad's home this early? I get a bad feeling. I know what's up I think. Dad's home early and so is Nigel. I turn to Dad. "You bonded him?" I snort. Dad nods. It hurts, rather badly, I love my Dad and I want him happy, and I love Nigel. But I feel abandoned and rejected somehow. I'm almost blinded from the pain. I start to cry, and I run off. Dad looks puzzled. I lock myself in my room and I lay on my bed and I cry, and I try to figure it all out in my mind. Why am I upset? Do I love Dad so much that I won't share him? I know I can't take him, we tried Damn it, and we couldn't bond. Am I afraid my Daddy won't love me anymore? I lay and think. And I sigh and I take my cell and I call Dr Jonas White, my therapist.

"Claude, what's wrong?" Jonas asks. I explain. And I break down. "Claude, you have to let go, you love your Dad, and you love Nigel" he says. "I know" I say quietly. "You're afraid, you'll lose the love of both of them, and if you don't sort this out and calm down, you might" Jonas says softly. Jonas and I talk for a while and I do feel a bit better.

I hear knocking. I hang up with Jonas. I open the door, and dry my eyes. It's Grandpa. He holds me tightly. "I knew you'd be shaken when they told me, Claude" Grandpa Walt says softly. He strokes my mane. "He'll still love you, Claude, Jim loves you too much, you're his only son, you're all he has left of Martha, he can't not love you, Boy" Grandpa says softly. "I'm just so embarrassed, Grandpa" I say softly."I do love Dad and I love Nigel, and I don't understand why I got so upset" I say crying on his shoulder. "Claude, they both mean so much to you, and they've bonded, you had to be afraid to lose them both" Grandpa says quietly. Dad's standing in the door, and he still looks puzzled. "Claude, I thought you'd be all for this?" Dad asks. "I am sorry, Dad, I'm not against it, I was stunned, I never saw anything that suggested it even" I say quietly. "Claude, let me talk to Jim" Grandpa says. I nod. And I walk out.

Nigel's in the kitchen and he looks sad. "You're mad?" he asks. "I'm not, but I don't know what I am, other than stunned" I say softly. I hug him. "I'm sorry, Nigel, I do love you, you're like the brother I never had, and I know how Dad loves, he'll make you very happy" I say softly. "Claude, he won't stop loving you, you're his son" Nigel says quietly. I hug him. "I'm so glad you know me so well" I say hugging him tighter. "I figure you got thrown badly, Claude, you love Jim so much" Nigel says stroking my mane. "Jim told me you two tried to bond once" he says softly. "We did" I say and I feel embarrassed again. "Claude, believe me I can understand why you would" Nigel says. "He called me and wanted me to come home early" Nigel says. "We'd been fucking a lot the last few weeks, and he told me he wanted to see if he could bond me, and we did" Nigel says. "He thought that you'd be thrilled but I knew, I knew you'd be thrown and afraid we'd both pull away from you" Nigel says. I nod. Nigel and I sit and talk. He's calmed me down a lot.

I get yanked off the chair by the scruff of my neck. And I look up. Dad's got me by the neck and he drags me off to his study. He's mad now. And he throws me onto the couch in his study. "What the Hell is wrong with you, Boy?" Dad snarls at me. "Don't you want me and your best friend happy" he snorts. "Jim, Don't" Nigel says loudly. "We'd been talking and I almost had him calmed down so we could talk it out, you know better, you yell at Claude and he'll dig in his claws and fight you" Nigel says. Dad looks at him. "He was scared Jim, he loves us both so much and he was stunned, he didn't see it coming and he's terrified he'll lose both of us" Nigel says softly. "That true, Boy?" Dad snaps. I'm crying too hard to talk now, but I nod my head. Dad hugs me. "You didn't give me a chance to say anything, Boy, you must have really been scared" Dad says holding me and stroking my mane. "I was, Dad, I should have been happy, I know how deeply you'll love him and I know he'll love you so much in return, but I hurt and I had no idea why" I say softly. "I called and talked to Jonas and he told me I had to be scared of loss, I love my Daddy so much, and I've loved this little furball since we first met, he's like the brother I wish I hadn't of lost" I say softly. Dad looks sad now.

"Claude, you've never mentioned that, I know you knew your Mom was dead but you were so young, I didn't think you'd known about him, or that you...you mourned him like I did" Dad says holding me tightly. Nigel looks at us. "Nige, I know I told you my Mom had died when I was young" I say. He nods. "She died in childbirth, my little brother was stillborn and Mom died right after he was born" I say softly. "Dad, I used to sit and wonder at times" I say softly. "What would he have been like, would he have been like you or Mom, and what would it have been like not to be an only child" I say weeping again. "I never even saw him, Dad, you left me at home with Alfred when y'all left to go to the hospital" I say softly. "I didn't know that at age five you knew she was going to have a baby, Claude" Dad says softly. "Mom sat me down and explained it to me, Dad" I say through my tears. "She never came home and you never said anything about what happened to him, it was worse not knowing what happened to the little brother I was looking forward to having." I say crying. "Alfred told me he was born dead, and I cried for days" I say softly. "I didn't know" Dad says. "You were so hurt, Dad, I tried so hard to hold it in, you were hurting and all I could do is hide it from you" I say quietly. Dad hugs me tightly. "I was a wreck, Boy, I crawled into the Scotch bottle for a while, until Alfred made me see how much you needed me, but I couldn't talk about it still "Dad says softly.

"You did talk to me about Mom's death" I say quietly. "I did, but I lost your brother, he was such a beautiful little cub" Dad says crying. "Nigel, for so long I was so terrified I'd lose Claude too" Dad says. "It's why you two are so close, I see it now" Nigel says. "I thought, well, when you and I got so close, Nigel, I wondered if he'd of been just like you" I say quietly. Nigel hugs me. "No wonder you were so scared, you were terrified you'd lose your Dad, and it made the pain from losing your Mom recur" Nigel says quietly. "And thinking of losing me, made you recall the pain of losing the little brother you never knew" Nigel says. "Damn, he's one smart Badger" Dad says. I kiss Nigel. "He is Dad, he was smart enough to snap you up when he had the chance" I say quietly. "Jonas told me I was also mourning knowing that I'd never have you as mine, Dad" I say weeping again. Dad kisses me. "Claude, you're my son, I couldn't possibly love you more than I do now, Baby Lion" Dad says softly. Nigel looks at Dad. "Jim, he loves you, and he'd be devastated to not have you and your love" Nigel says softly. Dad nods.

"Guys, I'm fine, I'm happy you love one another so much" I say softly. I kiss them both. "Too much got stirred up, Dad" I say softly. "Nigel's right, I couldn't live knowing my Daddy didn't love me" I say softly. "I need my Badger too" I say quietly. Dad hugs me and I kiss him. And I walk off. I go to my bedroom and I strip and I pick up a towel and go out to the hot tub. I sit and soak for a while. I try not to think of anything at all now. Nate comes down and gets in with me. "Where's Yuri?" I ask. "He's with his brothers at the gym." Nate says. I nod.

Nate Porter is my Snow Leopard PA. He and his Russian Bull had no place to go when their apartment went condo, so I invited them to live here. Nate's a cute guy. 5'10" and about 165 pounds. With Green eyes and a thick fluffy coat. Pale Grey with Black rosettes and the round thick fluffy tail of his species. He's a bottom like me. And he's got a happy, joyous personality. I love having Nate around. His mate, Yuri Petrov, is a huge Gray furred Russian Bull. Yuri's got the sweetest personality. He works as a Security Guard for CMK, and Dad loves him. He adores Yuri's hard working nature. Yuri's a big Bull. 6'8", and 320 pounds. He has beautiful Crystal Blue eyes. So does his older brother. A solid built Bull who lifts weights. Yuri has two brothers. His older brother Dmitri, is a bigger Brown furred version of Yuri. He has a Clydesdale Horse mate, Grigori. And his younger adopted brother, Bruno who's a Grizzly Bear. They are all big, beautiful males. Since I speak Russian it's made them more comfortable with me.

The Petrov brothers opened a gym with the money I gave them and I also invited them to come live with us. Bruno is the biggest of the three. 7' and 360 pounds of Dark Chocolate Brown Bear muscle. His eyes are Deep Brown and very liquid and sexy. I've tried to get with him. But he's not interested in me at all. In fact, most times he's downright hostile to me.

Two months after he moves in, he bonds a big Siberian Donkey, Sergei Rachalov and they are very happy. But Bruno won't have anything to do with me. He won't even talk to me now. Sergei is very friendly and he's a charmer. But Bruno, Bruno seems to hate me for reasons I don't have a clue about. Yuri tells me he's just shy. But I don't believe it for one moment. Yuri tends to think the best of everyone, and he loves his brother.

I've slept with Dmitri though. Alone and with his beautiful Grigori. Grigori is a versatile and he's hot for my tight Lion ass. Dmitri is as amazing of a lover as Yuri is. Tender, loving but still dominant. Well hung and good with it. Grigori has a huge Horse Cock and he loves that I have no trouble taking him. I have to just think that 2 out of 3 ain't too bad.

But I wonder why he hates me so? I've never done anything to him. Except finance their dreams by paying for them to build and equip and run their gym It's popular and they are self sufficient now. I'd ask Bruno to move out. Except the three of them are so close I know Yuri and Dmitri would go too. And I don't want them to go. So putting up with Bruno's attitude is just the price I pay to have Yuri and Dmitri here. Plus Grigori and Sergei, I don't want them to go either. Those guys are more than worth putting up with Bruno's sullen attitude. Hell I like Sergei too. He's a sweet and loving Donkey, but Bruno tries hard to keep him away from me.

Nate asks me if Nigel really did bond my Dad. "He did, just today in fact" I tell him. "Papa Jim's a hot older Lion, can't blame him" Nate says happily. I smile. Dad is hot as hell. And I have to let go of this. I know on one level Jonas is right. It means I have concrete proof I can never have Dad as my mate. I know we couldn't bond, we did try. And I just have to let it all go. I'm not lonely, I get plenty of sex and I do date a lot. But I know what I have to do now. I have to let go of Dad. I'm not even going to sleep with him anymore. I can't. I love my Dad, and I have to learn to love him only as my Dad. He's got his mate. I think nothing has to change with me and Nigel. But I have to back away from Dad without losing him. Won't be easy since I just know he'll rage at me for refusing to sleep with him anymore. But he is so good and so loving in bed, we'd get together, and I'd lose whatever emotional distance I'd managed to get.

"You're awfully quiet, Claude" Nate says. "Sorry, just a lot on my mind" I say softly. Nate laughs. "I know it's been a busy week, but it's Friday, Claude, let go and do something fun" Nate says laughing. "Something fun, eh?" I ask. Nate nods his head. I smile at him. I stand up and I grab him. And I pick him up and carry him into the grass and lay him down. We're both naked and wet from the hot tub. He's surprised. "Claude, what?" he asks. I lay on top of him and he's more surprised. I kiss him and he moans gently. And I keep kissing him. He's kissing me back hard.

"You're such a beautiful little Kitty, I'm going to do something I've been wanting to for a while now" I purr in his ear and I push my big Feline dick up him to my balls. He arches his back and yowls loudly. I start fucking him fast and hard. And he wraps himself around me, like I do to guys. I nibble at his neck and he's growling. "I don't know what brought this on, but I hope it happens again" he purrs. I lick his neck and he's moaning gently.

"Ever been barb fucked?"I ask. "No" he moans. I pull back til only the barbed parts of my dick are at his ass ring, and I barb fuck him. Moving just the barbed portions in and out of his ass ring. Nate yowls and cums on my belly. I keep barbing him and he cusses and growls. Nate yowls and cums again. I keep barb fucking him and move a bit faster. "Shit, Claude, I can't take this much longer" Nate yowls. I keep going in him. He bucks and cums on me again. He's clinging to me tightly. He's panting hard. "You OK, Snow Meow?" I ask him slowing a bit in him. "God, Claude this is amazing, I"ve never felt anything like this" he growls gently. I kiss him. "I can stop if it's still too much for you" I say softly."Please, Claude, don't stop, please" Nate begs. I smile. I kiss him. And I speed up as I work my barbs in and out of his ass ring. He's yowling loudly. "Fuck" he roars and he gushes cum onto my belly again. "Seriously, Nate you're one of the most beautiful Felines I've ever seen" I purr in his ear. Nate smiles and then yowls as he cums yet again. "Claude, you're killing me here" he moans. "Want me to stop?" I ask. "God no" he moans."What do you want me to do, Baby Kitten?" I ask. "Cum in me, baby, breed me, give me your kittens" Nate begs. I speed up more and I relax a bit. He's cussing more and he arches his back and cums on me and his ass ring has clamped down on me. I roar and I cum hard up him. And I hold him tightly to me. And I kiss him gently.

Panting he puts his arms around my neck. "I'd never been barbed before, Claude" he pants. "Nate, you have the most beautiful ass I've seen on a guy, I had to go up it, and I couldn't resist barbing you when you told me you'd never been barbed" I say panting. "Grandpa did me and I know it's an amazing thing" I say smiling. "You can do that anytime you want" Nate says leaning up to kiss me. "I will, you're quite a bottom, baby'" I say kissing him back. I get up off of him. Nate stands up and his legs are shaky. He smiles. "I'm going to go lay down a while, I should rest before Yuri comes home" he says. I kiss him. "Claude, I wonder, were you working something out by doing me like that, you've never wanted to fuck me before" Nate says.

I pull him down into my lap. "My brilliant little Snow Meow" I say kissing him. "I was, and one day I'll tell you what" I say smiling. "For now, know how grateful I am to my loving little Snow Leopard" I say nuzzling him. Nate smiles. "You've been so good to me, you hired me away from those God awful Doctors I was working for, and you helped my Yuri and his brothers and you let us all move in" Nate says. "I adore Yuri and Dmitri, and I don't know why Bruno hates me so much" I say softly. "But I have liked and cared for you from when we first met, Snow Meow, your joy and happiness lights up our office and my home, same as Yuri's does" I say smiling. "Claude, don't take Bruno personally, he hates Lions now, he was hurt badly by a Lion, who broke his heart badly and he resents you all now" Nate says."Yuri told me" Nate says. I kiss him. "Thanks, sweet little Kitty" I say smiling. Nate kisses me. "I'm gonna go take a nap, you literally wore me out, Claude" he says getting up.

Sergei sits by me. "Know Claude upset over how Bruno treat him" Sergei says softly. "I didn't know he'd been hurt, I don't like it but I can understand now, Sweet Donkey" I say softly. "My Misha upset but he no want Sergei have Katya either" Sergei says. "I'm sorry for that, you're such a beautiful and sweet natured Donkey, Sergei" I say kissing him. Sergei smiles. "Take Katya if could" he says sadly. "I know, I'm not mad at you" I say smiling. I get up. I have to leave or I'd try to get Sergei to change his mind.

I go to my room and I call Jonas again. "It's good, you have been listening to me, Claude, backing away from your Dad would be healthy for you now, he's going to be puzzled and hurt by your not fucking him anymore, but you have to do what you need to to heal" Jonas tells me. "I can get Grandpa to keep me from being lonely now" I say. "That is fine, you and your Grandpa love each other but you can keep your distance, both of you" Jonas says. "I know now why Bruno is so distant to me" I say. And I explain it to Jonas. "He's got to get over it one day, but I'd tell you to avoid him too" Jonas says. "I know, Jonas" I say softly. "I think I need a vacation, Jonas" I say softly. "Don't run from your problems, Claude" Jonas says quietly. I smile to myself. "Nate's right, I should go somewhere and have fun, I'll go out tonight, maybe find a stranger to fuck me silly" I say happily. "Good, Claude, distract yourself" Jonas says.

There's a banging on my door. I open it. Bruno's glaring at me. "Stay away from my Donkey" he roars at me in Russian. "I did nothing to him except talk, I know you don't want him with me at all, Bruno." I snap in Russian. Bruno glares at me. "He heard Nate tell me why you hate me, and he just tried to comfort me, and told me you didn't want him to have me either, so I kissed him on his cheek and I left, I didn't want him upset about it" I snort. Bruno looks at me. "I ..." he says and he stops. "I just wondered why you hated me when I've done nothing to you, except fund y'alls gym and invite you to live here with your brothers" I say angrily. "And I'm sorry if that is an inexcusable crime to you, Bruno" I snap in Russian. Bruno hangs his head. "Personally I don't understand why you'd choose to live with someone you hate so much" I say. And I'm so mad I'm shaking with rage. Bruno looks like he's been struck. "No hate Claude" he says shaken up. "You either ignore me or give me dirty looks and avoid me, you won't talk to me , unless like now you're mad at me" I snort in Russian. "Claude no throw Bruno and his Sergei out?" he asks sounding scared. "No, I'm not going to do that, Dmitri and Yuri would go too, and I won't have that, but I'd prefer you avoid me altogether from now on, if you hate me like you do" I saw firmly in Russian. "Bruno tell Claude he no hate him" Bruno says. "But you treat me like shit, just for doing nothing but being nice to you and I'm not the Lion who hurt you so badly, you sure know to treat Dad with respect so I think this, 'I hate all Lions stuff' is bullshit" I snap. "I have to believe it's just me you hate, Bruno" I snarl. "Though I have absolutely no idea why" I say snapping at him. Bruno hangs his head and walks away silently. I slam my door. I haven't been this mad at anyone or anything in so long. I was starting to calm down. And he had to start up, I just talked to Sergei for a few minutes and he was trying to comfort me at that. God Damn that Russian Bear. The nicer I try to be the angrier he gets, and he only responded to me because I raged at him.

I change clothes and I put on jeans and a T shirt and I leave. I go to my car. I'll do retail therapy. I'll trade my Audi in for something else. I sit in my car in the garage and think. What do I want? And I decide and I drive to the local Mercedes dealership. And I trade my A7 in for a S560 4 Matic coupe I do feel a little better and I go to a diner I know of and I eat.

I'm still not feeling up to going home. My cell rings. No surprise, it's Nigel. "Claude, where are you? "he asks. "Out" I say angrily "I bought a new car and I'm finishing my dinner" I say trying to calm down. "The Russians are upset, you really nuked Bruno, but he's had it coming for a while" Nigel says. "I've had a bad day, except for banging the Hell out of Nate, that's one tight Snow Leopard" I say. "I know, I heard from Nate, he loved it" Nigel says. "Claude, what's wrong?" he asks. "I'm upset, and I'll be damned if some animals keep dumping on me and making it worse" I say softly. "Claude, I'd hoped you 'd be happy for me at least" Nigel says sadly. "Nigel, I am, I know how Dad will love you, no matter how it seems, I want you happy, Baby Badger" I say softly. "You haven't called me that since the first night you stayed with me, Claude" Nigel says softly. "I know, Nigel, I'm wondering if it's not only my fear of losing Dad, I wonder now if I really loved you too" I say quietly. "Claude, we didn't bond, and I do love you" Nigel says. "I know, Nige, I'm just trying to sort things out" I say softly. "I was going to go out tonight, maybe go to the Bear Den" I say softly. "Not a bad idea, you could be around others and maybe pick someone up" Nigel says. "I don't know that I want to be around others now, Nige' I say softly. "Come home, lets talk" Nigel says "I can't Nigel, I am kind of avoiding Dad" I say. "You have to get over this" Nigel snorts.

"Nigel, you don't know what Jonas and I decided I have to do" I say starting to cry. "It can't be that bad, Claude" Nigel says softly. "Just thinking about it hurts me, but I have to" I say softly. I'm still crying though. "What could be so bad? Nigel asks. "I have to back away from Dad, stop fucking him, and try to relate to him only as my Dad, I have to let go of him, Nige" I say crying. "Shiite, Claude, he'll just roar at that, he'll be so unhappy and angry over you not letting him fuck you" Nigel says shaken up. "I have to Nige, he's yours now, and Jonas says I'm way too into my Dad, for my own sake I have to pull back" I say. "Jonas thinks that's why I haven't been able to bond anyone, I'm tied too tightly to Dad, so I have to move on, and let go" I say quietly. "If you sit down and tell him that, make sure I"m not here" Nigel says shakily. "Nigel, Jonas thinks it'll be good for you and Dad as well, he'll direct the love and affection that he's giving me now to you" I say quietly. "But you'll be miserable" Nigel says. "I have to do this, Nige, I have to let him go, it's not right for me to be so incestuous with my own sire" I say quietly. "I know it'll hurt and I know it's gonna hurt him too" I say quietly. "Nigel, I am scared he'll hate me and I'll lose him, but I have to do this, I've already upset you over being too bonded with Dad, and you know, I know you know that I'd never want to hurt you as I have already" I say fighting to stop crying.

"Help me, Nigel," I say quietly. "What do you need me to do, Claude?" he asks. "Love him, keep him busy and feeling well loved, I know your big heart can do it" I say quietly."If you do, I won't have to worry about Dad's feelings as much, he'll go to you if he gets upset, it's what he needs to do, Nige" I say softly. "I see" Nigel says. "Claude, maybe you ought to stay away tonight, and I'll talk to him about you" Nigel says. "Fine with me" I say. I know I'll cry and I know it'll be hard for me to be home with him if I have to stay away from him. As much as I could use Grandpa's comforting me, I can't be home. I know Dad too well, he won't take this lying down and he'll insist on a confrontation with me. And I can't cope. I can't handle being around the Russians either right now. (I'd probably think differently if I knew what Bruno is confessing to his brothers, and Sergei and Grigori now. But our Russians are even more stirred up now. Fortunately by the time I finally do return things have calmed down with them. But Dmitri as the oldest brother will insist on sitting down with me and trying to settle things peacefully. And when Bruno and Dmitri tell me the root of the problem, I'll be rendered speechless, but we'll solve it)

I pay the check and I leave. I drive to the Downtown Hilton and I check into a penthouse suite. And I lay on the bed and I think. My cell rings. Dad? Not going to answer him. I turn my phone off for the moment. (Turns out to be a mistake) I turn the TV on and I watch an old movie on TCM. I doze off a while. I was more tired than I thought.

I wake in a few hours to the room phone ringing. Who'd know I was here? I answer out of curiosity. "Master Claude, I knew where you'd be" Alfred says. He would know. Our family retainer is psychic, his whole family is. "What's up?" I ask. "Nigel's Mum is dying, his Dad called and she's at the hospital in London, Master James and Nigel have gone to her, she's not expected to last more than a day or two'" Alfred says. "He's taking his personal CMK jet, Claude" Alfred says. I sigh. I love Nigel's Mum. She's a wonderful animal. And she's dying. She's young still, she was hardly more than a child when she married Alf Davenport. She's barely 39. Nige's Dad is an amazing Badger. He worked three jobs just so he could get his only son through College and when Nigel earned a scholarship, Alf worked even harder to finance Nigel's trip to America. He was so happy when I took over footing the costs for Nigel's upkeep and further schooling. (I was being selfish to be honest. I knew I didn't want Nigel gone from me. And Nige was worried his Dad would work himself to death. I had to do it.) Knowing Nigel's parents made me understand why Nigel is the Badger he is.

"I have to go, I like Megan and Alf too much not to, Alfred" I say softly. "I have a bag packed for you, Claude" Alfred says. "Just drop by and get it and go" Alfred says. I call and get a reservation on British Airways. Business class on the next jet to London. I've got two hours to get my bag and get to the airport. I go check out and I drive home. I go in.

Nate hugs me. "I heard, Claude, are you going?" He asks. "I am, Alfred's got a bag for me and I'll grab it and go" I say. "Tell Horst on Monday I'm gone and I don't know when I'll be back" I say kissing Nate. "I will, Claude" he says softly. I think briefly of asking Nate to come too, he loves Nigel and they're good friends. But Nate would want to bring his Yuri. And I'm still too angry at Bruno to want to deal with any of our Russians. I love Yuri and I know I could never hate him. Or even be mad at our big hearted Russian Bull. Dmitri and Grigori too. Oh why does Bruno have to be such an asshole Bear?

Alfred hands me my bag. I run to the desk in my room and I grab my passport and my credit card wallet. Going international it's easier to use my multiple Credit Cards than my ATM card. Alfred hands me a piece of paper. It's where Nigel's Mum is. I Kiss him. And I run back to my car. I go to the airport and being a VIP cardholder with BAL I get boarded quickly, once I clear Customs. And I sit and put my bag in the compartment after I take my Kindle out. It's going to be a long flight. Nigel will be happy I came, Dad won't, he's mad at me and he'll fuss at me. But I can't care. Megan and Alf and Nigel need me. I know it, and I need to say goodbye to her. She's been so good to me as has Alf. And Nigel, he'll need me. No one understands us like us. I'll face down Dad if I have to. And it gives me time to sort out how to deal with the Russians.

I'd check my phone messages, but I don't have my regular phone, I have the satellite phone I use when I go abroad or on vacation. And then I remember that I can access my voice mail by calling my regular cell phone.. I call my cell and I check Voice mail. Dad's mad, Nigel had to of told him. He's telling me he needs to talk to me, but he and Nigel are going off to his Mum's side. Big surprise.

Dmitri's mad at me for going off on Bruno. Though he knows I was upset and hurt by Bruno's treatment of me. He's scolding me still. I'll have to think about it while I'm gone. Maybe helping him and Bruno was a mistake. I love Yuri but I'm thinking I might at least ask them to move out. I don't want Yuri to leave, but if his brothers do , he will too. So that's not really something I want to do. I think I have to sit down and talk to Bruno and Dmitri and get to the bottom of this. It might not be fixable, but he and I have to come to some kind of truce. And at best it's going to be extremely unpleasant.

Horst is telling me not to worry, he'll take care of things at the office. Nate called him right away. I make a mental note to pick up a few things while I'm in Europe that I know Horst loves but can't get in America. There are several of kinds German Candies and biscuits (cookies) he loves that I can get here at Harrods while I'm in London. And I know what he'll want. Horst and Nigel taught me to really appreciate European chocolate. I love my mentor as much as he loves me. I'd call him but we'll be taking off soon and then I can't use even my satellite phone. And while I'm thinking of bringing stuff home, while I'm in Harrods I'll get Alfred some of their English Breakfast tea that he adores and a few kinds of biscuits like I know he likes. I love my Fox father so much. And it'll make him so happy.(He like Horst, has told me how good 'little bits of home' can make them feel)

I sit back and I read for a few hours. It's a great distraction, I love to read and I can put the rest of the world out of my mind given a good book to read. . I order dinner and I eat when the steward brings it to me. My steward is stunningly gorgeous. A big Scots born Draft Horse. And halfway through the flight when most passengers are tended to or asleep he sits and talks to me a while. He's got such beautiful Blue eyes. And his coat is Red Brown and his pony tailed mane and goatee and hoof tufts and tail are a dark Brick Red. He's got a soft, deep voice and he's well built. He's bigger than I thought they let Stewards be, he's 6'8" and has to be about 300 pounds. But BAL is different, they hire on the basis of their people skills and personality. He's smart and he's damnably charming. His deep and hearty laugh makes my fur goose bump, and it's not lost on him. He wants to know why I'm going to London. I tell him. "I'm sorry for ye friend and his Mum" he says softly. "Thank you" I say smiling at him.

"Me name is Angus, Angus Mac Griffin, Dr Kitman" he says smiling. He'd know I was a Physician, BAL reservations would have let them know. The attendants want to know that a Licensed Physician is on board in case anyone gets sick or injured. So he knows I'm a Doctor. Though I doubt he knows I'm also a very rich one. But you never know. Dad's been featured in business and popular magazines. And my picture has appeared a few times in those articles. Dad's proud of his Physician son. And I have a bit of name and face recognition happening to me at times. Whether I want it or not.

"How long are you staying in London? I ask. "I got a three day layover, me cute Lion" he says softly. "I'm based in San Francisco" he says. I smile at him. He looks deeply into my eyes. "I'd give anything ta be alone with ye now" he murrs. I smile. "I feel the same way, Angus" I say softly. "I'm going for my friends Mom, she's a good lady and I'll be staying here" I say writing my name and the hotel where my reservation is and I write down my satellite phone's number. He smiles. "Will ye have time fer me?" he asks. "I will, I'll make time for such a beautiful Horse" I say softly. He smiles. I want so bad to kiss him, but I know most airlines frown on staff and passenger trysts. (Good thing I don't, the first time we do kiss he bonds me to him.)

A call light goes off and he goes to answer it. I love watching him walk away. He's got a spectacular ass. I want to get down on my knees, and spend hours sticking my face in his ass crack, and slurping on it like a big ole, juicy slice of watermelon. I go back to my Kindle and I read for a bit. I fall asleep after a while. I bought the seat next to me like I usually do. I would rather not have someone sit next to me. Especially if they recognize me. It has happened and it's a bit annoying. And while I am calmer than I was, I know me, and I know I'd be impatient at best with most trying to make conversation. Angus well, Angus is a different story. I'd rather spend the next five hours under him than to be flying to London.

I wake to a big hand stroking me from the seat next to me. I look up. Angus is sitting in it. I smile at him. "I'm taking a short break, me Lion" he says smiling. He's holding my paw and he's gently stroking my chest and belly. I smile at him. "I dinna think ye'd mind" he murrs. I grin. "Not at all, Angus" I say softly. "I ain't got long, Claude" he says softly. "I canna make out with ye like I'd want ta." he says softly. "But I wanted ta sit by ye and just touch ye a bit, me pretty Lion Boy" he says softly. "I've never seen a more beautiful Lion than ye are" he says looking deep into my eyes. It's like he's reading my soul somehow. "I hope ye can handle me, I'm a top, and some canna take a Horse Cock" he says smiling. "I have had more than my share of Horse Cocks and I love how you Horses fuck." I say smiling back at him. "Be still me heart" he moans. And he grins. "I watched ye board, ye got a spectacular ass, me Boy" he says putting his big hand behind me as he gently strokes my ass. I have to really keep my cool, he's really making me hot for him. "I'm a bottom, who loves and adores big males and I love Horses" I say smiling. Angus grins. "Keep it up and I'll fuck ye right here, job be damned" he says softly. "I wouldn't complain" I say smiling. "Could you?" I ask. "I'd do anything fer me Lion" he murrs. "Put your arm around me, and hold me for a bit?" I ask. "Ask fer something hard fer ye Horse" he says and he slips his arm behind me and holds me to him. I lay my head on his big chest and I purr. He grins. "Kitty is happy" he says nuzzling my mane. We sit quietly like we are for a while. His potent Horse musk from his sweat fills my nostrils. And it's so hot. Every so often he'll nicker very softly, and he'd been stroking my mane gently. After about a half hour he lets me go and gets up. "Gotta get back to work, me beautiful little one" he says softly. "I hate ta let ye go, Boy" he says smiling. "Angus, thank you, I can't wait til we can get together properly" I say kissing his hand. He smiles. "Me neither, but me sweet Lion should be careful, I just may decide ta bond ye" Angus murrs. "Lucky, are you finished with your break?" A stewardess asks before I can tell him how much I wished he would.. "Lucky?" I ask. "It's me nickname, Laddy" he says winking at me. "How is he Lucky?" I ask. "He's been on two flights that almost crashed that were saved at the last minute in an almost miraculous fashion" She says. I laugh. "You were saved so I could meet you" I mouth to him. Angus grins. They walk off and I'm happy for the first time in quite a while. Though I'm sad for Nigel and his mum and for Alf still.

I've got to try to get Alf to come to us for good. He's so devoted to Megan that to be in that house where they lived together for so long will hurt him. And he needs to be with his Nigel. He loves me and he and Dad have become good friends too. And I have to be able to see Megan before she dies. I know she loves me and I know I can comfort her and Alf. Alf likes me a lot, and Nigel was surprised when he sat down with me and talked as openly as he did. Alf's a good male. He's also a gorgeous one. Nigel gets his looks from his Daddy, except his Daddy is a bigger built Badger who has worked hard all of his life. I hate to admit it, but I'd be under Alf in a split second if he ever asked me. Big, butch, hard muscled and hot.

But I feel something for this big Horse already. He's so sexy and I loved how it felt to be in his arms. And he seems to like me a lot. I check the time on my Kindle and I know we'll be landing in an hour or so. I try to go back to reading but I can't keep my mind on my book for long. I keep thinking about Angus. And I wonder. Every Horse I've ever known has been massively hung. So far, Grigori has the biggest dick I've yet to take. And I wonder how hung Angus is. And I wonder if I could bond him. I think I do want him. But would he come to me, would he quit flying and move to Sacramento for me? He seems to like me as much as I like him. He's been charming, and isn't hiding how much he wants me, and he was so tender and romantic when he sat and held me. I really don't think it's just my ass he wants. Do I dare hope he wants me, all of me, as his? I also wonder about his 'just might decide to bond ye' comment. Was he teasing me or was he sounding me out to see how I'd respond to the idea of bonding him? And the bad timing of that stewardess. I have to let Lucky know I'd take him if he tries to bond me. I want him to try so badly. And I think he wants me as much as I want him. I feel a strong pull to this Scots Stallion. I only hope he feels it too. And I know it is way too soon. Is this indeed 'love at first sight'?

I clear my head. It's way too premature to be thinking like this. And then he walks slowly down the aisle. And I feel his hand on my shoulder, brushing across it. And I can feel a spark. He smiles at me. "I want ye, Boy, bad' he mouths to me. And he walks off. This cat and mouse game is kind of hot. I'm usually so straightforward when I'm looking for sex. But I kind of think, I am beginning to believe, I'm almost sure that, I wonder whether or not I.....Fuck this. I want him. Not just to fuck. I wanna get Lucky for the rest of my life. I love this big Stud Horse already. I pray for Megan and I beg God to make Lucky want me if he doesn't. I desperately want to be his Mare for the rest of my life. I'm even day dreaming about belonging to him. I see us happy, with a nice house, and I'm sitting and watching the small herd of colts I've borne him play in the back yard. And my belly is fat and swollen with a sixth foal . Five of them and they look so much like him. He's a proud Daddy too. I sigh. I know I'm going overboard about him. I can't give him colts and I've never even remotely wanted kids. But I'd bear for my Lucky if I could. And if he asked me to. I'd do anything for my Draft Horse. If only I can make him my Draft Horse.

After a while, he walks back and he's checking the overhead compartments and he's looking up as he walks. No one's looking and as he passes me, I pet his ass a bit. He leans down and smiles at me. "I wanna try to bond you, Lucky, I want to be your Mare for life." I mouth. He grins. "We'll talk when we land, I'd keep ye happy, Boy, and I think ye'd make ye Horse truly earn his nickname" he mouths smiling at me. I sigh and sit back and try to keep my mind blank for a while. Just thinking of Angus makes me hot.