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Roommates 14: Night Out

Croy-----------------------------

"I dunno," I said, pacing back and forth. "I just feel like I'm losing touch with him, ya know? Like-like I'm growing to be a distant memory or freakin' background noise or somethin'. And... and I just wanna be closer to him, and not, so... away. I feel... well, no, I don't think he's pushing me away, I mean, not actively or anything, I just get the feelin' that... well... that I just don't matter as much to him, and... I-I don't like that feelin'."

"What have you been doing?" said Icarus, sitting on the table in the main room, watching me pace.

"Well... nothing, really. I mean... I... I don't know what to do! He confuses the fuck out of me! I mean... like... we had that study session that you and me talked about earlier--"

"Right..."

" --but nothin' came from it! Well, except for me gettin' a, a, a fuckin' ragin' stiffy, nothing came from it! It was like... either he was completely oblivious to what I was doing, or I was being so ...damn... subtle that nobody coulda picked up on it. So, you know, I've been tryin' to just... be there for him, but he's fuckin' spent every fuckin' night after the study session at Kiyara's! And I know that they've been fucking!"

"Croy."

"I swear I can smell it on him when he gets back! And it's so damn fucking frustrating! Knowing he's yiffing around with Kiyara makes this so much fucking harder because now that I know he's not virgin, ya know, there's that little barrier that's been passed, but at the same-- "

"Croy?"

"-- he acts so gods damn shy all the fucking time! I mean, yeah it's cute but it's annoying! What the fuck, ya know? And... and... and... I'm trying to get closer to him but it's damn hard because he sends so fucking many--"

"Croy!"

"--mixed signals that I'm still not sure where the fuck he stands on things, nevermind the fact--"

"Croy!!"

"-- that half the time that vixen is fuckin' kidnapping--"

"CROY!"

"-- and fuckin' him and - what?"

It was late afternoon on Friday, and I was already out of class. I had been for a while. I had been thinking that I really hadn't done much with Sem and had called Icarus up. He came over "prevent me from going into hysterics," as he said. Maybe he was right, I am going hysterical, but... I felt like my window of opportunity was closing, and fast. I needed to do something, anything, to get Sem to at least notice that... well, I was attracted to him. Or at least ask him in such a way that I could play it off or something... dammit! I wanted to know his reaction. I want to know what he felt about me, but I keep getting scared.

"Okay, first off, calm down. Second, knowing what he's doing, what do you do while he's there, at her place?" Icarus asked me, arms folded, making himself all imposing... and somewhat sexy, too, heh. Damn I have a wandering mind - oh, wait! Dammit! Focus, Croy, focus!

"Well, it's not like I can stay here!" I sighed and stopped pacing. "I've gone and basically, uh, drained my balls dry with Sarah. You remember her, right?"

Iccy frowned. "White rat, 'bout medium height, kinda wispy, soft-spoken?"

"Yeah."

"Huh. She's in my math class." He frowned a little deeper. "She talks about you, you know. A lot."

"What does she say?" This didn't sound good.

"Stuff that Ani might say about me," he said with a look on his face. I groaned as he went on. "I caught her say 'Master' every now and again, too."

"Shit..."

"Today, however, she was a bit down. I asked her about it, and she said that you wanted to be just friends." He paused for a moment and looked at me. "Did you...?"

"Dammit all to hell, yes. Yes, I did. On her, in her, licked it up and did it again." I closed my eyes, grimacing and swearing passionately. Dammit, why did Sarah have to go and complicate things? "I thought she could handle it..."

Leo made a face, too. "Gods, Croy. Couldn't you have seen this coming?" He leaned back onto the table. "You know rodents are clingy."

"Stereotypically," I interjected without thinking, hiding my face with my paw and frowning. Why hadn't I see this coming? Was my thing with Sem blinding me that much?

"Okay, right, stereotypically, yes. But still, dude... You could see Sarah was clingy from a mile away." And I did. I had hoped that I had already explained to her what I wanted out of this relationship, but... "She's shy, she's withdrawn, she's very quiet, and... I think that's her calling me on my cell phone..." Icarus trailed off, digging into his pocket for his vibrating phone. "Yup. I gave her my cell number, said if she needed something, she could call me and she is." He pressed a button. "I'll call her back. Look, point I'm trying to make is this: you should have been smarter than to string her along like that!" He sighed, then put his phone down on the table. "When's the last time you two yiffed?"

"Um... "

"And please don't say last night..."

"Uh... alright."

He groaned. "Don't do that to her. Cut it off. And bring her down gently, she's fragile." He sighed, running a paw down his face, then looked at me again. "Gods damn it all, Croy, why didn't you come to me or Ani? We would have gladly helped you, you know that!"

"Yeah, but... I... you two are together, and I didn't want to get in between that." My legs felt suddenly heavy. My everything felt heavy. I pulled a seat from the table across from Icarus and just plopped myself down on it.

"What about all of the times you've gotten in between us before? Like, not too long ago, for example?" He grinned, but I was just not in the mood. The grin faded quickly enough. "You know... we, as in me and Ani both, love to have you with us, hun. And you're not getting in between us by yiffing one or the other, and definitely not both at the same time." Leo smirked at me, and I managed a snort. I think he rolled his eyes. I dunno, I had looked away. "Look, if it's that much of an issue, give one of us a call before you drop in. Trust me, we will let you know whether or not we're busy, okay?" He got up and started rubbing my back a little bit. It felt nice... but I kinda felt like a huge jerk for what I did with Sarah, and my head slipped from being supported by my chin downward, putting my paws over my head. Icarus wouldn't give up, though. He continued to rub me in slow circles. "Alright?" I nodded finally, when he got a murr out of me. "Now," he went on, sitting down, "back to the reason you've got so much blood diverted from your head: Sem. Look, Croy... you gotta do something about this crush. Have you tried the direct route?"

"What?" I picked my head up. No fucking way he just suggested that. No sane fur would suggest that! "No! No... no, I can't just... go right out and ask him... I mean... he's, like, an uber-virgin."

"If you're just going to push up on him when he's not noticing, he may continue to not notice."

My head went back to being cradled in my paws. "You got that right... Dense as a fucking--"

"...or maybe he has noticed, which could explain why you haven't seen much of him."

Icarus' voice went very quiet as he said that. "You mean..."

He just shrugged. "It's a possibility, hun." His face, though... maybe... maybe Icarus had a crush on a guy at one point... only to find out...

There was a moment of silence while I wrestled with that thought, not liking many angles of it. Fuck that, I didn't like what I was seeing at all. "So... do you think it's just me, or..."

"Well, if he's the uber-virgin like you've said... then he might not like guys altogether. Possibly because of you."

"Shit..." That was a huge blow. If that was true... I didn't want to think about that. If I had caused that, dammit, I just wanted to go crawl up into a hole somewhere and die. Icarus went to comfort me again, but then we heard the key in the door. Sem was back.

Sem------------------------------

Friday hadn't been too stressful. I admit that those late nights with Kiyara had given me some later nights studying, so I had been a little off all week. On the other paw... I think that the only thing I disliked about the nights that we had been spending together was... well... The morning after, whenever she put the, uh, plug in there... I kinda... got this empty sensation. It was uncomfortable, to say the least. It made me pause for a few moments before I went to go take my shower. Other than that... well... I've never cum so hard or so many times in my life in any one week. It wasn't just the fantastic, kinky sex, either... It was a lesser known fact that we studied together as well. I've taken to meeting her for lunch, and we've talked about... whatever. But it's also the sex, eheh. Again, though... I feel that we've connected.

When I came back to the dorm after classes, I was a little shocked to see Croy looking so horribly downcast. Like... somefur had just told him his mother died or something. And the lion from the party was there, too... wonder what was going on. "Um... hi, guys... Croy, are you alright?"

"Yeah. I'm fine, I'm fine. Just, uh... yeah," said Croy. I was a little skeptical... but it looked like Croy didn't want to talk to me about it, which I thought was fine. I'm pretty certain that he's know Icarus a lot longer than he's known me, so if he's more comfortable talking to Icarus about it, what am I going to do?

"Well... alright. I don't believe you, but if or when you do wanna talk to me about it, you can feel free to, okay?" I gave him a smile, and a comforting pat on his back, then headed to my room, still smiling a little bit at him.

"Hey, Sem?" I turned to look at Icarus, who had spoken. I stopped at my door. "What are you doin' later? I was thinking me, you, and Croy could go out and hit the town or something."

"Uh... actually, have plans for later today... let's do that another night, though," I said. I mean... the last time Croy took me out it ended well, so... But you can't find the femme of your dreams twice, can you?

I let that thought go.

"What are you doing, if I may ask?" he went on.

"Well... Kiyara and I are going for a movie. She said it was in the quad or something. I forget which."

"Movie... in the quad?" The look, that thoughtful kind of look that Icarus had on his face told me that he knew something about it, or had heard of it or something. Kiyara kept it from me as another surprise (I was starting to develop a serious love/hate relationship with those surprises...). "Interesting. I didn't think... Your mate is taking you?"

"Um... yeah... she's taking me." I frowned. He had to know something was going on there. "Why, what happens there?"

"Oh, no, no, nothing major." Oh, great, he was going to be vague, too. "Just... well, it's been a bit since myself and Ani have been to there. Just wondering if it's changed any."

O... kay... "So... what goes on there besides the movie?" I guessed.

The lion smiled. "You'll find out. It's nice." Before I could protest, he turned to Croy. "Hey, Croy, why don't you walk me out?"

Croy looked up as if snapping out of a reverie. "Huh? Um... yeah, sure, I guess." They walked out together. Dammit, why can't anybody just TELL me anything?

Croy-----------------------------

"Okay, so... why do you want to talk to me in private?" I asked Icarus as soon as the door was closed, keeping my voice down.

"Well, it's more like... I think you're getting a little hard on yourself, dude," replied the lion. He tugged me down the hall. "Sarah's... probably fine. It sounds bad, but she's kinda used to being used." I grunted. I definitely knew that. Still, though... "And besides, you don't know anything at this juncture concerning Sem, so why get caught up in possibilities?"

I sighed. "Cuz, Iccy, this is practically my second major crush on a male." I used Ani's pet name for Leo on purpose. Tells me I might have turned Sem off guys, then goes and says "oh, we don't know anything yet." Bullshit. "And it's so much trickier than with femmes, 'cuz you gotta freakin' figure out whether or not they like other males, too." I gave him a glare.

He looked back at me condescendingly. "And you don't think I know this, haven't gone through it? Why do you think it took us half the school year to get together, huh?"

"Only because I figured it out and started hitting on you hardcore!" I countered.

We had reached the elevator by now, and Leo pulled me into it. He crossed his arms. "And that's because Ani told you!" He gave me a poke.

I countered with my own. He poked me again, but I blocked him, and we got into a mini-poking war, each of us trying not to smile. Finally, I managed to grab his wrists and pushed him hard against the wall, paws above his head. There were smirks on both of our faces, our muzzles very close together. Since I was pressed up against him, I could feel him... and I knew he could feel me.

This was why I was attracted to Icarus. He's tall and built like a fucking linebacker, but he's also nice, playful, jokes around, and likes having fun... Hell, I'm still attracted to him. And that's why I'm about to kiss him full on the lips.

...Or would have, had the elevator not arrived at the ground floor, the doors opening with a 'ding'. Not to mention the three or four students about to step in, going up, as well as the guy taking IDs. I recognized a few of them. They looked at us with somewhat amused expressions. I returned them with a smirk. Leo, though, was blushing slightly as he left the elevator when I let him go.

"I hate you, Croy," he growled at me, walking to the door.

"No, you don't," I told him, giving him a loud slap on his butt, in full view of everybody present.

The lion froze, then pulled me into a headlock, dragging me out of the door and giving me a noogie. I poked at him until he let me go, laughing. He was still blushing a little when I looked up at him, but not nearly as much, and he had a smile on his face while he shook his head at me. "Look, call me later, okay?" I nodded, waved, and turned to go back inside. I had gone about two steps when I felt his big arms around me pulling me tight against him. "Hey," he said, softer now, "you still don't know how Sem feels about you... but be patient, and play with him like you did with me. You may find out what you wanna know." Giving me a pat on my chest, Icarus swatted me on my ass with his tail as he turned to go, and I could only chuckle.

He was right, though. All I was going on was speculation... honestly, I didn't know how Sem felt about me, really. Outside of outright asking him... perhaps engineering a situation could tell me. Or... I could ask him.

I almost hate myself for not wanting to.

Kiyara---------------------------

"Oh, come on...just let me go up, please?" I said, leaning over, framing my breasts in my arms as I held onto them. Going by his rapid eye movements, the beaver currently playing doorman was trying to keep his eyes off my breasts, especially with the ample cleavage being shown by my low-cut shirt. "I know you've seen Sem invite me up before... all I'm gonna do is go get him." Morti giggled behind me, and I heard Dillan groan.

"Kiki, why you gotta torture the poor guy like that?" said Dillan in an undertone, and I looked back at the squirrel who had a bit of a smile on his face despite his reproachful tone. I pouted cutely at him, still keeping my breasts framed.

"Al-alright, alright, I'll let you go up," said the beaver, who was looking pointedly at the squirrel and pantheress behind me as I turned to him again. "But you gotta leave your ID here, okay? All of ya, gotta leave your IDs here."

There was a brief bit of shuffling while everybody else got their IDs out, and I gave the beaver a big smile. "Thank you, Jan," I told him, digging out my ID from my purse with a bit of a flourish, making sure that he could still see my cleavage as he looked to take my ID. I left mine on the table for him, Dillan and Morti following suit as I was buzzed through to the elevators.

"Kiyara, you are amazing," Dillan said flatly as we went to the elevator. He gave me a droll expression over his glasses as he stood in beside me. It was a very... librarian kind of look. "How you manage to come out that you're going for another male and still get this guy to open the doors for you is beyond me."

"That's because she is Kiyara," Morti piped up, coming up behind me with a large grin on her face. "She is the undisputed Queen Flirt. Plus, she's got a great set of tits!" At that, her arms sneaked under mine and gave said tits a grope. The doors closed.

"Morti!" both Dillan and I said in the exact same tone. The squirrel shook his head.

"What?" Morti asked as if she was completely innocent. "She does."

Dillan shook his head, but chuckled, and I removed the errant paws from my breasts. "What floor is he on?" asked Dillan.

It wasn't too long after that when we finally stepped off onto the fourth floor, and I led the way up to Sem's door, knocking on it. It opened fairly soon after with Croy staring out at us, blinking blearily. "Um... Kiyara. Hey, uh, what's up?" The wolf wasn't wearing much. I looked down at him, "much" being a pair of striped boxers and a black t-shirt. "How'd you get up here, anyway?"

I grinned. "Convinced the beaver who was watching the door to let us up."

"By showin' him her cleavage." Morti piped up. Croy grinned, looking past me at the squirrel and pantheress. I did see his eyes flick downward at my blouse, though.

"So... you gonna introduce me or what?" he asked me.

I nodded, half turning. "The pantheress is Morticunata, but most of us call her Morti." Morti finger-waved. "Over here with the bushy tail is Dillan."

Dillan reached out a paw and shook Croy's. "Pleasure to meet you."

"Same here. Sorry I'm not, uh, quite dressed, heh... just woke up from a nap." He yawned again.

"So how come you smell a little yiffy?" I asked him. The scent was fairly obvious.

"Uh..."

"Croy? Who's at the door?" Sem said from inside.

The wolf looked back inward. "It's Kiyara and her friends. They're here for you."

"Huh?" Soon enough, the door opened more and there was Sem. "Kiyara! What a... surprise. I wasn't expecting you to be here. How'd you get up here, were you let up?"

I nodded, silencing Morti with a look. She giggled. "Yeah... just came to get you, so come on, you ready yet, stranger?"

"Stra-- oh... um... yeah... let me get my coat." Sem ducked into the room again, then came out. He looked good, wearing some black jeans to go with his fur color, and a red, long-sleeved and collared shirt and a similarly colored windbreaker. I thought the red looked really good on him... contrasted nicely with his eyes. I smiled at him as he came out, also catching Croy's glance... full of longing.

Making a decision, I shooed them all down the hall. "You guys go on, I'll catch up. Just wanna talk with Croy here for a moment."

Sem made a bit of a face. "What do you need to talk to Croy about?" he asked me.

"I can't make pleasant conversation? C'mon, I'll only be a minute. Shoo!"

Knowing a bit about how stubborn I can be, Dillan and Morti each grabbed one of Sem's arms and dragged him down the hall until he started to walk by himself.

Croy-----------------------------

"So," said Kiyara, looking back at me after the other three had gone. "What, exactly, were you doing before you came out here, mm?"

I looked at her funny. "I told you... I was taking a nap." Of course that was a lie, though. I'm pretty sure Kiyara could smell by now the somewhat yiffy scent of an aroused wolf. After Icarus had left, I'd gone back to my room, trying to put the bad part about Sem out of my mind to focus on the good, sexy bits. This led to me, well... I'd been pawing in my room for a while. Living with Sem has sorta become a constant tease. At this point, I think I'm in my room more then Sem was in his when he was holed up before. Which... is odd, now that I think of it. Anyway...

"Right," smirked Kiyara, shaking her head a bit. "Anyway... I was wondering if you've made a move on Sem yet."

That certainly threw me off. "Huh?"

"I was wondering if you were going to make a move on him instead of pawing off in your room," she said, giving me a whap on my nose. I wiggled it. "In case you were wondering, I've been stretching him out a bit for you... a toy can work wonders."

I blinked. "...you got him to use a toy on himself?" Oh my fucking gods, that is so hot...

"Sorta. I've used one on him." She's pegging him??? He's letting her do that?? Where the hell did this kinky side of the shy, bashful panther come from? And why wasn't I told of this?! "I've used a plug on him." Okay, so not as kinky as I originally thought, but still pretty freakin' hot!

"Okay... my question is how you got him to agree to all this." I said, trying to not betray my open shock at all this news.

"Surprise," she said simply, examining her nails.

This just wasn't fair. This really just was not fair. I managed to only let out a small sound of annoyance, as well as developing a somewhat pressing need to excuse myself. Dammit... damn her. I cleared my throat. "So why are you telling me all this?"

"Because I've seen the way you've looked at him." Kiyara looked up from her not-so-nonchalant cleaning of her nails. "Actually, let me correct myself: I see the way you look at him."

She needs to stop being so damn observant. "What's it to you?" I said, suppressing a cringe at how whiney that sounded.

The vixen stared at me levelly, smiling from her eyes as well as her muzzle. "You don't just want him in bed, do you?"

I blinked, started to say something, then stopped. Kiyara smiled again, then walked out, her tail swishing behind her.

Gods dammit all to hell in a handbasket full of shit. It's bad enough to play this game at such a disadvantage, but for her to just put it out there that she's fucking... okay with...

Fuck!

Sem------------------------------

I'm a little ashamed to admit it, but myself and Morti had never really talked at any sort of length before. I had that chance as the four of us headed over to the quad near the middle of campus. At the same time, I was sort of forced to; she was very interested in me and peppered me with questions, some silly, some serious. Both kinds were asked with the same silly look on her face, as if all of the world was a joke so long as you knew how to look at it right. As for the other two, well... Kiyara chose to stay silent, though still smiling at me and at everything, and Dillan the squirrel seemed content to add small anecdotes to whatever Morti was saying at the time.

Despite all this distraction, the one I most payed attention was Kiyara. She was stolidly quiet the whole way to the quad, wrapping her arm around mine and sliding her fingers through my paw. Considering how brash and bold the vixen can be... this moment of quietness was, while a shade annoying in the circumstances, nice. It allowed me an opportunity to just pay attention to her beauty. That, and wonder repeatedly what in the hell we were going to do, as well as think up ways to ask without asking.

"So," I began for the umpteenth time, "which quad are we going to, anyway? There are a few of 'em aren't there?"

Like before, I was met with smiling silence. The smiles each said something, (Dillian's said: "Wish I could help ya, but they made me promise." Morti's went something like: "Hee hee, wouldn't you like to know?" Kiyara's was most obvious, saying: "Not gonna tell ya.") but none had the information I wanted, obviously. This was kinda annoying, though. "Oh c'mon, guys... you can't even tell me what quad we're going to?"

Morti giggled. She was having fun... she wasn't often not having fun, I've noticed.

Dillan shook his head. "Nope. There's events posted everywhere on campus about stuff. They specifically mention the time and the place, so if we give you a place you might be able to connect it to an event, which would ruin the surprise."

"That, and you don't know the campus so well since you've been in you're little hole for forever!" Morti piped up. I made a face, and she giggled further.

"Alright, alright, make fun of me for not getting out more... It's not like I had anybody to go out with, anyway."

"Well, that's changed now, hasn't it?" Kiyara said, tightening her hold on my arm briefly. Something about that smile -- and the look she gave me - caused me to blush. I had no idea why I was blushing, but I was. How the hell did she do that?

I cleared my throat. I just kinda felt as if I had to do something to fill the sudden silence. I mean... even though Morti had a fairly wicked smile on her face, she wasn't saying anything or giggling or anything. Something was wrong with that. Or maybe something just seemed wrong with it, I dunno. I think it was more my need to fill the void than anything else. Cuz it had gotten kinda tense in here for some reason. Even... well, especially Dillan could feel it: I saw him looking very tense himself, constantly flicking his eyes toward Morti, who had her own on me with that look.

"We're here," Kiyara said, walking into the quad, apparently. It was much like any other quad on campus, in that it was more or less square with four paths leading to it from the corners. The difference was this one was decked out in hearts and such all over the trees. "Couples night" was the headline, and I blinked. Why'd she bring me here? Better question: why'd she bring me here in all this secrecy?

"All this for a couples' night, Kiyara?" I asked her. "What's so special about this one that you had to go through all this stuff, keeping me in the dark like that?"

She grabbed my paw and pulled me forward into the main area. There were hot drinks and blankets, which was good because it was a chilly night. "Oh, come on, Sem! I can't surprise you every once in a while?"

"You surprise me nearly every night," I shot back at her.

The vixen twirled a bit, almost as giddy as Morti. Who, speaking of which, had apparently disappeared with Dillian, because I could see neither hide nor tail of them. "Yeah... but this is different. This is something I've been wanting to go to for a while, and I haven't been able to take anybody. So come on, Sem, just... be here with me, okay?" She smiled, and my expression softened a bit.

I sighed. "Alright, fine."

Kiyara smiled widely, almost sauntering over to me. "You won't regret it," she said, then added, "besides, you would have known about this if you had bothered to look around you to and from classes." And then she did something unexpected. In full view of everyfur else there, she held onto my cheeks and pulled me into a kiss. And not just any kiss. This sort of kiss was passionate, involved her tongue wriggling into my mouth, her lips pressed hard against mine, muzzles tilted at angles to each other. Although, in retrospect, I probably should have seen this one coming.

Did I mention that everybody there could see us?

I was intensely aware of this fact, and managed to open an eye to look out. And, sure enough, my mounting embarrassment tripled: just about every single fur there was staring at us, some clapping, whooping and hollering. I started to pull from the kiss when Kiyara's paw forcefully directed me back to her. I lost myself back into the kiss for another moment before resurfacing again, Kiyara looking at me with lidded eyes. I could taste her on my lips. It was so good... She was wearing some kind of fruity lip gloss, but she also had... HER taste. Whatever it was that made her her was firmly imprinted on my lips. Which made me feel... well... suffice it to say I turned my body slightly away from the crowd, who hollered anyway as if they'd seen it.

I was a little dazed by this point. Kiyara grabbed my paw and tugged me to one of the tables, collected a few drinks, pushed them into my paws, then got some blankets and found her way over to an empty space. She tossed down one blanket, and wrapped the other around us, sitting me and herself down. After I sipped a bit of one drink, I rallied a bit. "Why did you do that?" I asked her.

"'Cuz I wanted to," she said simply, leaning her head on my shoulder. She took her cup and placed it out on the grass, snuggling into me. "And," she added, her paw finding my stomach, "I know you liked it."

I think the thing that disturbed me the most was that I wasn't sure whether or not she was wrong.

Croy-----------------------------

The ball rolled down the wooden lane, seeming to pick up a little speed. I was kinda staring at it, losing myself in the swirls of light reflected off the surface, trying to put out of my mind the horrible monster that had crept up on me. I really, really didn't want to think right now. At the same time, I felt as if I had to. I was the one that got me into this mess, right? So why the hell am I so upset that half of it sorts itself out?

The pins fell down noisily, the defeated wooden spires twirling and stopping. "Did I just get a strike?" Ani asked in disbelief.

"Baby, you just got a strike!" exclaimed Icarus, hopping up from his seat and giving the doe a hug. They jumped up and down, celebrating the achievement, her squealing her joy. I watched them out of the corner of my eye, trying to zone out but ultimately failing. I didn't want to be here. Bowling had been Leo's idea. Since it was free, and I knew he wouldn't leave me alone until he could personally assure that I'd be okay.

Talking to Sarah was easy. Well... talking to Sarah is always easy. She's a very good listener. She's attentive, she'll comment relevantly, she'll talk with you about your own thoughts, hopes, dreams, help you sort them all out. Getting Sarah to talk has always been the hard part. She's, again, extremely shy. She doesn't even like to talk much about herself, and it's been my sinking suspicion that she doesn't have a whole lot of self-esteem... probably why she's been used so much in the past.

I met her last year, at a party. My old roomie had a friend that brought the both of us there. It was pretty... well, different. There's parties that have sex in them, then there's parties where the focus is sex. This was the second one. People were literally screwing each other left and right, gay, straight, bi... it was pretty nuts. The scents swirling around there were extremely heady, and I almost stripped as I walked in the door, I got so yiffy. Hell, I even found out a little bit more about my roomie that day: I found him in a room off to the side, getting spanked with a freakin' paddle. Let me repeat that. He was stark freakin' naked, getting spanked with a freakin' paddle, and it was clearly no secret that he was enjoyin' the hell out of himself, going by his hard-on.

Anyway, after that bit of sexual exploration, I ran into another room. Some random wolf who looked like he spent too much time in the weight room was off to the side, smirking. He had Sarah tied up and bent over, and was literally having people line up behind her to take her. She had a ball gag in her mouth, and she was in pain. Physical, emotional pain. And nobody could see it because her face was on one end and the rest of her was arranged as if she wanted nothing else in the world.

Once I noticed that, I could not just stand by and let them treat her like that, so I threw up a big stink over it. The guy who was supposed to be her master drew me to the side, trying to act as if it was all in good fun. I pointed out that if anybody could see her face, there would be others like me. He got pissy, saying again how he was her master and he could do, quote "whatever the fuck he wanted with his property," end quote. I felt like punching him. Fuck, I almost did. Instead, I offered to buy her, figuring the fucker could buy more steroids to compensate for his pencil dick. $50 (which both pissed me off and had me relieved that I didn't have to spend much) later, I had Sarah in some actual clothes and was taking her out of the party to my dorm.

Now, I know I was playing, like, Prince Charming or whatever, and I know that Sarah was grateful... but damn. That first week, after I took her back to her own college, she called me daily and offered sex to me twice daily. And that's not counting phone sex. She liked me... obviously, but, as smart as I found her out to be, her only focus where I was concerned was - and these were her words - pleasuring me. That was the thing, though. That was the only way she knew how to operate. And as soon as I found my old roomie was taking advantage of that, I filed to have him moved out. Still can't believe the same guy who liked to get spanked was screwing Sarah silly, but... eh. You think you know somebody.

I was alone for a month, and I basically tried to... untrain Sarah. That bastard who she referred to as her boyfriend and master was a sick fuck. He had her jumping through all kinds of hoops, and punished her when she didn't do exactly what he said, some of which was contradictory. Mostly, though, it was a combination of not sleeping with her and trying to build up her shattered self esteem. I kinda had classmates get assignments for me so that I could keep up with my classes, and I helped her with hers. Thankfully, she transferred out of her old college in the late spring, so she didn't even have to look at that jerk anymore.

The sleeping together part, well... that just sorta happened. Neither of us were drunk or anything, but we had gotten close... and... before we started kissing, I had to look into her eyes to make sure that she actually wanted this, not some kind of aspect of idiot training. To be honest... I wasn't able to tell until after, when we cuddled, and she pressed herself close to me, a smile on her face in her sleep. And then Sem came into the picture... and I just...

"Croy?" I jerked awake. Okay... I guess I had finally zoned. I looked up and Icarus was waving me over. It was my turn. I didn't even look up at the scoreboard as I got up, not really caring about a whole lot. But what the hell, right? I brought this on myself.

"Croy?" It was softer this time. Icarus jerked his head toward the concession stand, and I followed. I briefly saw the worried glance on Ani's face. It made my heart twist a bit. Out of earshot of the doe, he nodded toward me. "Are you still upset, dude? Talk to me... let me help you."

I looked into Icarus' big, brown, soulful eyes. I know the guy cared. I know he did. I know he was looking out for me, wanted to help me, but I just didn't want to be helped right now. I didn't know it at the time, but probably the best way to describe my feelings was that I just wanted to wallow in my self-misery, but not bring anybody else to my pity party. "Look, Leo," I said, forcing a smile, "I'm fine. Look... I'm fine, alright? It's cool. I'm cool. Don't worry about me."

"Her little announcement is still affecting you," he told me, cutting straight to the point.

I looked at his ear. "No, no it's not. Just thinkin' about stuff. I'm fine... everything is okay."

I heard him sigh. "I can't make you talk to me... I just hope that you're able to talk to somebody about this, about what's going on with you."

"I'm fine," I said firmly, my ears pulled back in annoyance, then just left him there, going back to the lane and avoiding Ani's face. I picked up a ball and stared down at the pins.

In truth, it had really taken me by surprise. Yeah, that had been my goal, but for it to happen now...

Sarah had called me up. Said she had a surprise announcement, but wanted to tell me in person. I met her for lunch, and she was almost bouncing up in down with excitement. I don't think I've ever seen her so happy.

I tried to focus on the ball in my paw, and my delivery, but I couldn't. Not completely. My mind just kept going back to that conversation. I went through the motions to stave off Ani and Leo's worry. I released the ball.

"So what's up with you?" I had asked her, smiling.

"I met someone," she told me, beaming.

The ball kept rolling.

"Oh yeah?"

She nodded enthusiastically. "I... uh... I asked him out," she said quickly. "And he said yes!"

My vision started to blur just as the ball rolled into the pins. I don't know how many I knocked down... but I didn't care, either. Yeah, I wanted her to be strong, to go out with someone. I wanted her to find happiness.

I guess I had hoped, somewhere along the line, that it would be with me.

Kiyara---------------------------

The movie ended soon enough. Not to say that I didn't like it, but I had seen it at least a year or two ago. It was a nice movie, kinda heartwarming and all that, but it wasn't the point of me dragging Sem here, of course. To be honest, I was feeling kinda impatient for the pretense to be over and for the REAL fun to begin.

Sem, of course, suspected nothing. I had glanced to him a couple times during the movie, and he was pretty solidly staring at it. I just made myself comfortable, giving him an occasional lick or nuzzle or something cute like that. He responded well enough, whenever he had a mind to do so, but that was fine with me. Most of his concentration was on the movie. Maybe he'd never seen it before, which wouldn't surprise me. Sem's probably been a shut-in before I came along and shut him in a different way.

I did it lovingly, of course. As much as I want to expose him to new things, I still love the cat. He's sweet and tender, and a bunch of things that I've gone over before, but I still love him, and I think he could seriously benefit if he took what I'm doing to him and managed to apply it to life. Well... not that a dildo in the ass can solve problems, but sort of... getting over his shyness and aversion to trying new things. (That, and he makes the cutest noises when he has something up his tailhole.) This goes with the wolf that has a crush on him too. I'd like to see them go at it, literally. I wouldn't impose myself, but if a video of their coupling somehow made it to me...

Thing is I remember reading somewhere that most people's sexualities aren't exactly as cut and dry into straight, gay, and bisexual. It's more a spectrum, people in a category but leaning this way and that. Seeing as Sem is enjoying the plug, he can't have been entirely straight... which is why Croy, I think, still has a chance with him. I really should ask Sem what he thinks of the wolf at some point, but that's not what I'm going to do right now.

Right now is the movie ending, and I have to include a "finally". I really wasn't in a sappy mood, which is about the only time that I enjoy these kinds of romantic comedies fully. Morti can attest to that.

But back to right now. Right now is the movie ending, right now is people starting to pack up, right now is me smiling and tugging the panther up and giving him a little peck on his cheek, my paw finding his. "Well that was a nice movie," he said as I started to walk with him, the blanket held under my arm and deposited on the pile near the screen.

"Mm," I said noncommittally. We had left most of the movie goers behind, a few couples traveling in this direction.

Sem started to look around, frowning. "Kiyara?"

"Mm?"

"Where are we going? I thought our dorms were back that way..." He pointed back the way we had came. And he was right. Our dorms were back there. But I kept going in our current direction. I knew exactly where we were going.

"Party," I answered simply.

"Wait... I thought we were going out to see the movie? Right? Unless..." He paused for a moment. I could hear his mind churning. "You didn't want to take me to see a movie, did you? You wanted to take me to this party." It wasn't a question.

"I wanted to take you to the party, yes," I told him, giving him a pat on his cheek. "But I also wanted to cuddle with you for a bit before it, since it wouldn't start until later."

"So... why didn't we just go over to your dorm or something and watch a movie?"

I sighed, but smiled. He was still missing the point. "It was to get you out of your dorm, baby, and somewhere that isn't inside, in a dorm. Okay?"

"Oh..." he said, eyes flicking away.

We walked for a little while in silence, which is to say I was waiting for him to say something besides "oh." It didn't seem like it was going to happen, so I changed the subject.

"Sem?"

"Yeah?"

"Mind if I ask you something?"

"Uh... sure, why not?"

"With all the times I've put something up your butt, how come you've never asked to put something up mine?"

If I had a thermal camera, right now, Sem would show up as white hot on it.

"I-- well, I... um... I-it's just that... um..." I got the feeling that this wasn't his normal sputtering, and that he was actually trying to say something. "C-cuz... I mean... er..."

I stopped us, turning to him. We were down the street from the party, anyway. I had lead us off campus, but not too terribly far, about a block or two over. "Go on..." I told him.

"It's just.. um..."

"You don't want to put something my ass?" I tried not to grin here, but it was very hard. After a moment, I ended up grinning anyway. Probably less threatening. "Namely, your little panther?"

Sem stopped talking, embarrassed into silence. I had him. I grinned wider. "So you do want to put something back there? You don't have to say anything, just nod or shake your head."

I caught an almost imperceptible nod. I allowed myself a small giggle, then curled my arms around his neck, pulling him closer, and licking on his nose. "Let me let you in on something. To be honest... well... I'm a little hesitant about going back there on myself. You know I'm not a virgin, and I'm not back there, either. Just had... a bit of a rough time of it before. But... I love you, Sem. And I trust you. And turnabout's fair play." Giving him another little lick on his nose, I pulled him a tiny bit closer, leaning onto his body. His paws came up to hold me. I heard his breathing pick up just a little bit... and if truth be told, I was feeling a little embarrassed and vulnerable myself. I've dated five guys, not including Sem. The one before last started my interest in all things anal, but my last mate was... well... a little bit too big to experiment with live flesh. Horses tend to be that way, in my experience. "But... you gotta go to this party with me, alright? Want you to be more social, baby... want you to get out of your room and into the world." Softly caressing his face, I got him to nod. I gave him a small kiss, then led him, holding his paw, into the party.

Sem------------------------------

I was with Kiyara... so... everything was going to be okay. I mean... it's just a party, right? What's the worst that could happen?

I need to stop asking myself that question because I come up with entirely too many answers to it.

Besides, I'm with Kiyara, and... and I got... a... um... good incentive. Um. Honestly...? W-whenever... I had thoughts like that... like... with... er... y-yiffing... Kiyara, um, there... I c-couldn't... I mean I could it's just... I got distracted by her... so I couldn't really think of... of... doing... that. T-the idea of it I like, I'm for and everything... it's just... she... distracts me. With herself.

Yeah.

I'm going to move on now.

Dealing with Kiyara's... um... suggestion basically meant I was consumed within myself for a period of time, during which we walked in the door of the house that the party was at. I don't remember what the house looked like, but I had a vague idea of how we would get back to campus. The party itself wasn't too big... I counted about 20 or so other furs there. A lot of them, I remember vaguely, were interested in seeing Kiyara show up. I didn't catch a lot of the conversation. Well... up to a point.

"So, who's ya friend?" somebody had asked Kiyara. I looked up at this point, realizing that they (a simian of some kind... he had blue and red on his face) were gesturing toward me. He had an accent.

Kiyara pushed me forward. "This is my boyfriend, Sem," she said, smiling wide. I coughed, and held out my paw. I tried a smile.

I was nervous though... after a bit or idle conversation, I excused myself to go find some refreshments, promising to bring a drink back to Kiyara. The odd thing about the table with the food on it was... well, I don't think it's common to have little Vienna sausages, baby carrots, pickles and the like on the same table. Even the dip seemed... I dunno, off. I sniffed it and it smelled just a teensy bit not like Ranch dressing. It was being used enthusiastically enough, though. Even with the sausages. There wasn't alcohol, but one of the rooms I passed on my way to and back from the table with a plate of baby carrots and Vienna sausages smelled kinda like weed. Hell of a party, I guess.

Anyway, it was on my way back from there that I bumped into somebody. He was a horse-kinda dude.. or a deer. I think he reminded me more of a deer. His fur was predominately brown, some white around his muzzle and paws. He had thick, hard nails that seemed to cover his fingertips, and horns sprouting from behind his ears. I changed my guess to a goat of some kind. I swear he looked a little familiar.

His ears perked as he turned to look who it was. "Oh, hey, I know you!"

"You do?" I said.

"Yeah... you're from my math class, right? Sem?" And then I placed him.

I had been staring at the back of his head in math class for a while now. He usually sat in front of me. Then again, most people sat in front of me as I sought to sorta lose myself in the back. His name was... "Keith. Right?"

"Yeah! Hey there! Didn't expect to see you at a party like this!" A wide grin split his face. I think I caught a slight emphasis on the last two words. "How are you?"

"I'm... fine. I'm okay. I... didn't really expect to be at a party like this, either... it kinda took me by surprise," I said, answering honestly.

Keith smiled. "So how have you been? I haven't seen much of you since the study hall."

"Study--?" I blinked, then blushed, my eyes going down. Keith's pants seemed... a little tight for some reason. In one parti -- my eyes went left, then back up, probably focusing more on his nose than his eyes. "Oh, right.. that... you were.. uh... there for that, huh?" It took me a second to remember, but this was one of the things that, try as I might, I couldn't forget.

"Yeah... lucky you, huh?"

"Mm." That's one way to put it. But looking back on things... well... I guess... hell, maybe I had been lucky. I mean... even if the ugliest guy smelled the greatest, he can't keep attention for that long, can he?

I cleared my throat. "Um, anyway... I'm... actually on my way to, uh, get these to my mate, uh, so..."

"Mate? You've got a mate?" Keith was apparently pretty interested in this.

"Um... yeah... I guess I am lucky after all." I smiled a little bit.

"Well, tell me about them!" he said. Or... at least I think he did. That last word was partially obscured by somebody yelling, and I think he might have said "him". Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Wait, that didn't make any sense. If I'm being paranoid, what am I being paranoid about? I mean, yeah, I heard that Keith was gay... but so what if he was? I mean... so what if he found me attractive? I mean... it's flattering... and... well... Keith doesn't look so bad. For a guy.

Um.

I think what I was more concerned with was that I thought that HE thought I was gay. And I can say with confidence that I'm not gay. Yeah. With... confidence. Um. Yeah, not gay. Why is my mind drifting back to every single intense orgasm I had when Kiyara's put in a plug?

It's times like these when I really, really wish I could turn off my brain.

The (and now I'm placing species) okapi said something that brought me out of yet another reverie. "What was that?" I asked him. The noise surrounding seemed to pick up in tempo, and I could have sworn I heard moans of some kind. It caused me to blush a bit. I tried to focus on Keith again, since I missed what he said. Again. "Huh?"

He rolled his eyes, then spoke again. "Tell me about your mate already, Sem! Do I know them?" I was sure that this time, he said "them."

"Uh... do you know Kiyara? Vixen?"

"Yeah, I know her!" he said nodding, then he smirked. "She's quite the foxy lady, huh?"

I felt this comment to be completely redundant. "Um, yeah, she is." I felt a change of subject was needed. "So, did you come with anyone?"

He nodded again, a self assured smirk on his face. "You know Terry, the mouse from class, right?" I nodded. "Well, I brought him along, but he's off somewhere relaxing."

Well, relaxing is good, though I couldn't see where you'd do that here, in the middle of a party. "What's he doing?"

Keith pantomimed smoking. I frowned. The okapi chuckled. "Hey, it's what keeps him relaxed, not somethin' I'm all for or anything. It's not like he does it every day, only when his anxiety gets really bad," he told me, shrugging. I still didn't think much of it. "Oh come on, Sem, he's only been in there for, like, a half hour! You shoulda seen him after he came back from pressing up against you during the study session. That mouse was a wreck!"

"We...wait, what?"

Keith laughed at me for at least a solid minute. I was caught between embarrassment and annoyance. I didn't catch that Terry had been gay... but then, who cared, right? But... thinking back to it... Terry had been pretty enthusiastic. I'd tried to help him as much as I could, but then hips met my back... and I freaked. It... had been really warm. Almost... maybe this is just some kinda psychological thing, but I almost coulda sworn that his... thing was burning a hole in his pants, he was so aroused. Maybe I was just... so scared that somebody found me that attractive, and that the evidence was out there like that. Guys... can't hide it as well as femmes can. It sticks out.

I had been about to say... something (I honestly don't remember what) when that smell of marijuana got stronger. It distracted me enough from the laughing okapi that I turned around, seeing a mouse stagger toward us. It was very clear that he was floating about two stories above us at this point, and draped himself over Keith, nuzzling into his shoulder. "Uh... hey, Terry," I said, guessing.

Terry either ignored me or didn't hear me, still stroking over Keith's stomach. The okapi grinned and mussed with Terry's headfur a bit. "Nice and relaxed, huh?"

"Oh, yeah," drawled Terry, and I saw his paw grip pawfuls of Keith's short fur. The okapi shivered a bit.

I coughed. "Well, you guys clearly want some alone time," I said, a little surprised at how steady my voice was. "So, uh--"

"Waaaaaaaaaaaaitaminute," the mouse drawled again. Keith, I saw, was smiling a little bit. He was starting to blush, also. "You're that hottie from the study hall... th' one that was late 'n smellin' like yiff." I couldn't really... say much about that. He went on regardless, his eyes smoldering at me. I was getting increasingly uncomfortable. "Damn, yer hot... Wonder what's in them pants of yours... ugh, gimme the chance and I'd suck you dry, hee hee."

Now, let me explain something about me. When I get embarrassed, which seems to be happening a whole hell of a lot lately, I look down. As I'm still not entirely used to the idea of being attractive (and less so to being attractive to a male, regardless of the fact that said male was higher than a kite), I looked down. It was here that I noticed that Terry was missing his pants. I noticed this because I saw Terry's shaft get hard. Or, perhaps, that it was hard already. Either way, I was now looking at a hard, mouse penis, rubbing itself through okapi fur.

I looked away, completely, and saw Kiyara right next to me. I didn't know how she got there. She was looking at Keith and Terry, the former of which seemed to blush a bit more. "Uh.. hey there," Keith said.

Kiyara---------------------------

The party folded around me, some talking, others dancing to the music that was playing. A lane sort of cleared through the center of everybody, letting me see the refreshment table... and Sem no where near it. The panther I saw a little later, talking with an okapi. Then he (the okapi) started laughing up a storm at Sem, and I was a little curious as to what was going on over there. Somefur beat me to the punch, though, a mouse who had lost his pants, and seemed unsteady on his footpaws. Had it begun already? I hurried to get to Sem.

The thing about this party was that, well... it was intended for people to loosen up and get down. Sometimes, not all the time, some went a little further, and it caused a ripple effect, turning the party into a giant orgy. I'm not kidding. It usually started in little pockets... and then some furs get a little heated from watching other furs do it. And so on and so on. It's... quite a thing to watch.

However, I had hoped to start the orgy this time... and perhaps have Sem so lost in it that he would ignore the fact that so many people were yiffing around him... and maybe see what he might do, in such a state. Then again, I think that's more my hormones talking than my brain, because that damn panther does that to me.

Still, though, we're here, and somebody has lost their pants, and they're near Sem. Time for me to move in.

The okapi said something, but I only had eyes for Sem, and managed to lock him into mine using that trick Morti used on me more than a couple times. He swallowed and managed to stammer out my name, and I swear the moisture between my legs got a little wetter. He may have started to say something else, but I really wasn't paying attention. I grabbed him by the cheeks and pressed my lips against his, pushing my tongue into his mouth and keeping it there until I felt his body respond, paws coming around to grip around my waist. Oh, gods, his paws... I almost lost it right there. Instead, after making sure he was firmly out of it, I pulled myself luxuriously from the kiss, my eyes on him right there.

Watching him resurface was cute. His eyes were almost clouded for a moment before he recovered, swallowing again. It took him about fifteen or thirty seconds before he started to sputter something, and then I pressed my finger against his lips, softly shushing him. I'm going to admit here that I had no idea what I wanted to do to him until right then, until I started to sink to my knees, tugging his shirt from his pants and slowly licking on his belly fur. Again, Sem was slow to the uptake, but a little quicker to react this time. He even spoke.

"Ki-kiyara... what are you doing...?" His paws started to move toward my head, trying to push me off or pull me up or just try to move me from where I am.. but that's not happening. I grabbed his wrists as he tried to shift me away from him, and then I nipped just below his belly button. I could feel the heat radiating off his body... then transferred one of his wrists to my other paw, using the other one to unbutton his pants. I could have sworn he squeaked.

"Oh, hell yeah," I heard one of the males near Sem mutter. I looked back at him with a smirk, nodding to him and exposing my panther, opening his pants and pulling them and his boxers (which matched his shirt) down. Looking back toward my mate, I looked at him to see the petrified look in his eyes. This wasn't going well. Standing again, I nuzzled into his neck, while at the same time handling his pantherhood, tugging it outward.

"Ki--" he started, but I gently shushed him. He was... really hot, in more ways than one. Letting a little growl come from me, I nipped at his neck, then whispered up into his ear.

"Ignore them. Don't worry about them... just close your eyes... and let it happen."

"But Ki--"

"Shhhhh... won't let anything bad happen to you..." I let go of his wrists, pressing myself against him, my free paw on his chest. "Just let me take control... don't worry about anything."

I felt him tremble, but he didn't say anything. I took this as acceptance, and started to kiss down his neck, slowly... lining my kisses down his chest, felt him breathing hard, chest rising and falling. I continued downward, not opening his shirt, but keeping between his buttons, then looking up at him as I got to his waist. He was looking down at me, ears flicked back, but with an almost desperate expression on his face. I read this as an implicit plea to continue. With that, my tongue extended out, flicking along the base of his already hardened shaft. He was so sensitive that it practically jumped from me.

Fox that I am, I couldn't resist just a little bit more, and treated him to sliding up his length before my lips seized onto his tip. I let a small growl course through my muzzle, and he staggered backwards a step. There was no way, however, that he was getting away from me now. Not only did I have him right where I wanted him... but just every movement that he made, from his quivering body to the reluctant moans I pulled from him as I slowly sunk down on his little panther, bobbing my head, just got me... hot. I wrapped my arm around his butt, grabbing onto a cheek and holding it, steadying himself and me.

Pretty soon, I had all of him in my muzzle, and kept going, pausing every once in a while to look up at his face, eyes tightly shut, batting playfully at his tip with my wet, warm muscle. During the last time, he finally got into it, grabbing me by my head and pushing me back down on him. At that moment, when he finally, finally, finally was into it enough to take control, forcing me to go back on him... I lost it. My paw I moved from his cock to his ass, and latched onto it with both paws as my legs spread slightly. I could feel my orgasm course through me, hard, tightening my entire body, lower regions specifically, before releasing it just before the onset of another wave. I blacked out for a little bit.

When I came to, I could feel Sem's little panther pumping the last of it's payload into my muzzle. I was almost dizzy, and I knew my legs were unstable, trembling as much as they were. Without any further thought, I grabbed his shirt, pulled him down to his knees, and kissed him with every ounce of passion I could summon. I know some of his spend ended up in his muzzle, but I was barely conscious to it. I thought it was so incredibly sexy... and I was about ready for more. Only when I look back did I recall that Sem was still trembling, and that his body was still hot from embarrassment.

When he jerked away from me and stumbled out of the door, I swallowed, looking after him dumbly. I didn't know what had happened to him, or why he had chosen to leave me there, kneeling, without a word. The party had moved on without me, sights and smells of debauchery rampant. Behind me, the mouse was bobbing his head up and down the okapi cock, then held it against his face as the cervid came, his paw bringing himself off as well. Licking his lips of the white stuff, he looked straight at me.

"Damn... you beat me..."