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Hearing the truth never hurt so much... Why in the hell was I so oblivious to those things...? Why didn't I realize I hurt Ceylan's feelings? Remembering that story she told me about Mikaela made me realize she was talking about me... I realized if I would continue like this, the story Ceylan told me about Mikaela would happen to us... And I was so stupid... Even today, I still don't believe how stupid I was... But like Ceylan once said, people make mistakes. And sometimes, we don't even realize we make mistakes... Sometimes, mistakes can be rectified... Except I didn't know how I was gonna rectify this one...

After Terry left, I went to Meagan's room. I felt the need to talk to her about it... She'd know the answer, like she always does... Meagan was down on her stomach on her bed, still fully clothed while she had her eyes closed. So I sat on her bed, and watched her for a moment as my hand went through her hair. Then she slowly opened her eyes... 'I'm sorry I woke you up...'

'I wasn't sleeping... Just had my eyes closed...'

'Oh...'

What's up...? You sound so sad... You're ears are all droopy...'

'I've been so stupid, Meagan... And it frustrates me that I didn't realize it until this very moment...'

'Why...? What's wrong...?'

'Ceylan... I think about her all the time... How things used to be... The nights we had, you know... I didn't realize what she sacrificed for me, while I didn't have to make sacrifices in the first place... She gave up on her relationship with Terry, she has fights with her mom and... Well... I was never there for her when she needed me... If Terry wasn't there to tell it straight to my face, I wouldn't know what would have happened...'

'I see...'

'I know what I have to do to set things right... But... I don't know where to start... And I'm scared...'

'If she really means that much to you, Nic, you'll have to get her back... Just tell her everything you want her to know... You're losing her and... This is the only way to set things right...'

'I know...'

'Why'd she never tell you...?'

'She did tell me... Except I was too stupid to realize that she was talking about me...'

'Nikki...'

At that moment, Meagan took my hands... And she looked straight in my eyes... Suppressed feelings that were laying dormant deep inside of me were sparked once more those eyes... The tingles were going through my body the moment she held my hands and those beautiful green eyes of her... 'Don't regret the things you did... It changed you to who you are today... And you just followed you're heart and what it told you to do... But that doesn't mean it's the right decision... Sometimes you find out the hard way that it's not the right decision... But you followed you're heart and did what you thought was right, and no one should ever tell you otherwise...'

'Heh...'

'We all make mistakes, Nikki... But mistakes can be set straight with the right communication and devotion... You'll be fine... I know you will... You followed your heart this far... But now it's time to listen to it again and do what it tells you to do...'

There was something about Meagan that night... I didn't know what it was... I never knew what her definition of "love" means... But now she talks about it as if she knows everything... She experienced a lot in her life which made her change over the years... Meagan rarely goes out to clubs anymore... Rarely visited her "friends"... Way different then how she used to be... For the first time in years, I saw her as an individual with her own emotions, ideals and morals rather then the "hot babe everyone would like to fuck"... I used to consider her like that but... Meagan is beautiful... And she's not stupid... She's a wonderful girl... I used to be jealous of Fabian, but now, I considered him as a lucky bugger who spend six years of his short life with this wonderful girl... 'Don't make the same mistakes I did, Nikki... Because I have a lot of regrets... And... Regretting something is the worst feeling of them all...'

'I know...'

And then all of a sudden, I felt how she clenched her arms around me and placed her chin on my shoulder... So I put my arms around her as well, holding on to her while those wonderful feelings kept rushing through my body... 'I'm so sorry, Meagan...'

'For what...?'

'For hurting you're feelings...'

'It's okay...'

'I really wouldn't know what I'd do without you...'

'Hehehe... It's alright...'

We cuddled like that for a long time... Her weak smile was wiped from her face... And when she looked at me, she had this serious expression on her face... Meagan got down on her bed again while I caressed my hand through her hair... And at some point, I noticed she was about to ask me something, but hesitated to ask... 'Nikki... Did you mean what you said...?'

'Meant what...?'

'That you want to sleep with me?'

'Every word...'

'Heh...'

'Why...? Does that seem so strange...?'

'Kind of... I still don't know why...'

'It's because you're... Beautiful and... Sweet... And caring... And-'

'No, I'm not, Nikki... I'm going straight to hell for what I did...'

'Why is that...?'

'Heh... I slept with a lot of guys from college... Sometimes... S-Sometimes with three... You know...

'You slept with three guys...?'

'I-In one night. At the same time... A-And I didn't want to...'

'Then why would you do something like that...?'

'I-I don't know... I didn't want to but... I-It feels as if I have to... I'm just... Not thinking...'

'Haven't you ever considered that... If you wait long enough, it'll find you instead...? That's what I did. And Ceylan found me...'

'Yeah... I had a talk like this with Ceylan when we were sleeping at Terry's place...'

'Did you...?'

'Yeah.'

'And what'd she say?'

'That I'm beautiful... And... That she wants to have sex with me...

'And...?'

'And... W-We did... It...'

Like I said, it was so strange the night I heard them... I already knew that they did but... Sometimes I still think it was just a dream or something but it wasn't and I started to feel a little jealous. Maybe I had all the right to be jealous, but then again, maybe I didn't...'I-I wanted to tell you sooner and I'm sorry, Nikki, I-I didn't mean to b-but it just happened a-and-'

'Hey, its okay...'

'Are you mad at me...?'

'No, of course not...'

'Heh...'

'Did you like it...?'

'I-I think I did... Even though it felt awkward at first...'

'So... What'd she do...?'

'Well... I sat on her face...'

I think I just had a déjà vu. The way we were talking like that reminded me of the time I confessed to Ceylan that I slept with Terry... 'But... I-I know what people think about me, Nic...'

'Whadda ya mean?'

'Rumours spread out like a wild fire... A-And... I-I did it with a lot of guys f-from college. H-Hoping that...'

'You found something you once had with Fabian...'

'Yeah... But I never did... Th-They just consider me a-as a... a fucktoy or something... A-And... I don't want that... And well... Ceylan wanted to and... You want to and... It's just...'

'It's not like that... You wouldn't understand my reasons even if I tried to explain it... But it's not what you think... Honestly...'

'I-I feel so ashamed, Nikki...'

'I know... But... I'm not judging you because of that... It doesn't matter anymore... I should've known better... I did things I'm ashamed about and did things to you... And I'm sorry for that... I tried my best to make you happy... But I realized that... I can't... Sometimes I even doubt if I can make Ceylan happy... But despite that... I still love you... I really do... Because you're my friend... And you mean a whole lot more to me then you could possibly imagine...'

'I love you too...'

Again that tingle in my stomach. I never get used to it. She sits upright as I cuddled her close. Kissing her forehead... We cuddled for a long time as I had my eyes closed until I received a pillow in my face. I looked at Meagan for a moment while she had this big innocent smile on her face. So I picked up another pillow and smacked it in her face. Hehe... I'm ticklish... And she knows it... So she pins me down on the bed while she got hold of my paw and started tickling it. I shrieked and laughed while she didn't stop. So I planted another pillow in her face and when she finally let go, I jumped on top of her while I started tickling her waist. We rolled around on her bed for a while, laughing and giggling until I got on top of her and I heard her panting... She looks at me for a while as I was staring back in her lovely eyes... The urge to do it was overwhelming... While I was on top of her, I felt the tingles all over my body and the thought of doing it only made it better... So I pressed my lips against hers... I thought that she would freak out again... But she didn't... Instead, she looks at me for a while until her head moved closer towards mine... And I felt how her lips touched mine again_... "Yes! Achievement unlocked!"_ Then all of a sudden, she did something unexpected... She felt under my skirt between my legs... I looked at her with wide eyes while she just stared at me... 'Whoa, hey...'

'It's what you wanted, right...? What you looked for...?'

'Uh...'

'Ceylan told me you wanted to... She said that... There's nothing wrong with being happy for once... And she said that you could make it happen... Like you did with her... That you have what I'm looking for...'

'Do you believe I have it... Or... Did Ceylan tell you to believe that...?'

'Ceylan knows you do... So... Why shouldn't I trust the two of you...?'

'I see...'

Ceylan was right... "Good things come to those who wait." And I waited eight years for this moment... So I better not fuck it up. Heh... I kept staring in her eyes and knew that what we were about to do, wasn't just a fantasy anymore. It was really gonna happen. It's strange how words can have no meaning whatsoever while a quick gaze in someone's eyes can tell more then thousands of words. Things don't have to be complicated. It's like an open book. But all you have to do is to find the right page... I only wish I could've expressed it in a different way she understands. But I couldn't... So I tried to make her feel like I did whenever I was thinking of her at night... So I told her to get down on her stomach... Once she did, I sat on top of her, while my hands were going under her top, firmly massaging her back... And after a while, I saw how she started to relax... 'How's this...?'

'Good...'

'You okay...?'

'I'm fine...'

'Are you sure you want this?'

'It's what you want...'

'I'm not talking about myself... I'm talking about you...'

'Does it need to have a reason...?'

'No, it doesn't...'

'Heh... I still feel kinda nervous though...'

Truth was, I was really nervous as well. It finally happened... For... Some reason or another... "Don't question it... Just do it..." So after I massaged her back for a while, I got off of her... And I wanted to start with something that seems relatively innocent, but really turns me on. I could've done that to Ceylan but I never did, because well... I'd feel like an ass if I did... So... I did it with Meagan... I sat at the end of her bed, and massaged her legs. And then slowly drifted off to her paws... Her sexy, sexy paws... And I started to massage them with my hands. I thought she'd liked it, but she started to giggle... 'It tickles...!!' I placed one paw on my breast. While I started to pay attention to the other. So damn sexy... Then I licked her heel... No idea where that came from but... Meagan started to laugh out loud and rolled around on the bed while I tried to lick and suck her toes... Talk about a way to kill the mood here... 'I never did this before so... Heh...'

'Okay, okay... I'm ready.'

'You want me to continue?'

'Y-Yeah... I kinda like it. Hihi...'

So I started licking her heel again. Slowly made my way to the sole of her paw... She tried to take it seriously but... I could see she had a hard time trying to keep her laughter in. So the moment I started to suck on her toes... She started laughing even louder and rolled around in her bed... Then she rolled right off of it... Now I was the one who was laughing... She got back on her bed, and just smiled nervously. 'I'm really ticklish... No one ever did that before...'

'Yeah, I noticed... Hehe...'

"Alright. Meagan and Nikki's first time of having passionate sex", take two. Aaaaaaaaaand... Ackshun..."

...

"Well, this isn't going anywhere..."

'Meagan, I need to be honest with you...'

'What's wrong?'

'I never did any of this to Ceylan...'

'You didn't...?'

'No...' I said with a sigh...

'Oh.'

'I was always on the receiving end... She always got down on me and... Humped me and... Stuff. So... It would be new for me as well...'

'Oh...'

'So... If you still want to...'

'Okay...'

'And I know that- Wait, what?'

'Maybe it's best if we get rid of our clothes first.'

'Uh...'

'To make things easier, you know.'

'Alright...'

So I helped her taking her top off. And she sat there, with a bra. I couldn't help but to stare at her tits though. She helped me getting my top off. But I wasn't wearing a bra... 'Wow...' Meagan said quietly...

'What...?'

'Heh... N-Nothing...'

I smiled at her and helped to take her bra off... I saw her beautiful breasts... I've seen them before but... It wasn't until now that I saw them right in front of my nose... Perfect round tits... I got hold of her hands and placed them on my breasts. And then I placed my hands on her breasts and gently squeezed it... 'I love you're breasts...'

'Hehe...'

'Do you like mine...?'

She looked at me with a weak smile... But she didn't say anything... She didn't seem to be comfortable, so I guess it was my responsibility for her to be. So I moved my head down. And gently started to lick all over her breasts, while I avoided her nipples on purpose... I think she liked that... It wasn't showing on her face. But I placed my hand on her chest and could feel her heartbeat started to go faster... The moment I noticed her nipples were erect, I gently twisted them with my thumb and index finger. Hearing her gasp never sounded so sexy and exciting... She doesn't even realize how horny I feel right now for doing this to her... But that's alright... She's about to find out if she wants to...

I gently kissed both of her nipples. Then I started to suck on her left nipple, while I gently twisted her other nipple. Her sighing and breathing only become more irregular the longer I did that. At some point, I felt how my hand went down her panties. 'You like that...?'

'Yes...'

'Good...'

She looked at me for a moment, and then gently pushed my head away. 'Can I try it...?'

'Sure...'

She got hold of my breasts and gently squeezed in it, like I did to her. And I swear, I think I just wet my panties... She was going directly for the nipples... Gently licking up and down and twisting them... Feeling that my nipple were being sucked on never felt so good... She obviously did this before... Maybe she did this to guys as well... And I hate to admit it but... She did a better job then Ceylan did... And I still had my hand down her panties while I tried to tickle her clitoris... I could hear her gasp every now and then, feeling her warm breath over my breasts as she kept on sucking...

The moment her hand went down my panties was something that I'll never forget. She was a bit off, so I corrected her. I kept whispering in her ears that she did such a good job and that I loved her so much... And once she did found my clitoris... Hehehe... Well... I felt how wet my panties became... I took her hand out of my panties and putted it in my mouth, sucking on her fingers and tasting my own fluids... It's not that bad really... It tastes kinda sweet while I still had my hand down her panties and tickled her clitoris... 'Am I any good, Nic...?'

'Yeah... But... There's just this one little thing...'

'Which is...?'

'Come on...'

'Wait, what-'

'Come on!'

I took her hand and dragged her to the bathroom. Once we got there, I placed my hands on her butt and kissed her. But this time... I did it with my tongue... The moment Meagan kissed back... Heh... I felt how her tongue was going over mine, feeling her tongue piercing with every move she'd make... Do you have any idea how sexy it is to kiss someone with a tongue piercing...? Well I do now... I pulled down her skirt and removed it. Then I looked at her for a moment and smiled, and pulled down her panties... I told her to sit on the bathroom counter while I got on my knees and got out my trimmer from a drawer. 'Why does it need to be trimmed...?'

'Because it looks as if Chewbacca or cousin It is clinging on to you're vagina.'

'Hihi...'

'And I may have my own reasons. But before I do, it'll have to come off.'

'Heh...'

'I can't trim it if you keep you're legs together... You need to spread you're legs.'

'Uh...'

I placed the trimmer on the counter and got hold of her knees. Gently spread her legs... And I saw her cha-cha being covered up with fur right in front of my nose. So I took my trimmer, and turned it on. And trimmed the fur around her vagina... I spread her legs even wider to remove it completely until l clearly saw her vagina. It wasn't what I imagined it would be. Her pussy looks great though, except her lips were just... Dangling a bit... But that's alright... I rubbed my finger over her pussy, and felt how hot and wet it still was... So I gently twisted her clitoris with my thumb and index finger to get her in the mood again after our little break. It didn't take long... 'What are you doing...?'

'I don't wanna cough up hairballs...'

While she was sitting on the counter, I placed her legs over my shoulders and pulled her to the edge of the counter. And I hesitated for a moment... Hmm... I remembered a tutorial I once saw on the Internet on how to get down on a girl and actually please her. Also taking into account that I saw some... Well... "Training video's" if you will... And of course the thing I felt whenever Ceylan was lapping my pussy... So theoretically, I'd pass with flying colours, but... It's a different thing when you're actually doing it... So... I just did what I thought was right. I started out on her stomach while I could feel she was trembling... Maybe she was cold... I pressed my tongue against her pussy, and went up and down very slowly... I could feel her toes wiggling on my back. Which is always a good sign... It means she likes it... So I put some more pressure against her clitoris...

I kept licking her slowly for a while. Sticking out my tongue and.... Well... It was like licking an ice-cream or something. It could've used some chocolate though. But still... I could hear her gasping and sighing, trying to take control of her breathing. And I waited for a long, long time to hear her moan... So I intended her to as I rubbed my fingers over her pussy. And it just goes right in...

All I did was fingering her for a while... Sometimes, I went faster and sometimes, I went really, really slow... Meagan had a hard time to control her body which gave me a reason to continue... "We don't have much room here..." So I took her hand and dragged her to the living room where we both sat on the couch... 'What's wrong?' Meagan asked quietly...

'No, nothing's wrong... You still like it?'

'Yeah...'

'Okay... Turn around...'

And without hesitating, she did. I got down and spread my legs as far as I could... 'Get on top of...'

So she did, while I gently pushed her knees as far as possible for her... It took a couple of moments before we were both comfortable in our position... And then I got hold of her butt-cheeks and gently forced her down until our pussies touched each other... 'You feel it...?'

'Yes...'

'This is called scissoring...'

So I told her to slowly go up and down, rubbing our pussies together... And at some point, I did the same. I felt how our hot wet pussies touched each other and it's something I've wanted to feel for a very long time... With every gasp and squeak that came out of her throat, I started to feel more and more aroused. And well... That's all we did for a while...

I can honestly say that I really wanted this. But truth be told, I was kind of disappointed... I always imagined that things would go differently. I expected her with everything we did, that she'd reach a lot of orgasms and stuff but... It wasn't, really. It might got a little... Well... Boring... My fantasies always pictured it better then it really was. But still, I wasn't complaining. It happened, and that's all I needed. It wasn't just a fantasy anymore, even though it wasn't going the way I intended it to be. She played along all this time, not realizing what it really was what she was aiming for... But I'd find out soon enough...

At some point, I stopped, while we were both panting our lungs out. I was getting really tired and I think she knew... When I noticed the clock, it was 5:34 AM in the morning. And well... It took us a while to recover... And after sitting like that for a while, I kissed her forehead and told her I was going to bed while she stayed on the couch, watching me how I was walking back to my room...

Well... Maybe that was a bit of an anti-climax of something that I've always wanted. And maybe I was a bit disappointed, realizing it wasn't going as I planned. Maybe I'll just have to accept the fact that I really suck at pleasing a girl. Which is probably the reason why I stopped. I thought I'd learn a couple of things by having sex with Meagan, so that I can try it out on Ceylan... But... I realized it's not about Meagan or Ceylan but... I realized it's me. I just hoped I didn't fucked it up with Meagan again.... And I hope we can do it again some time, hoping that it would go the way I fantasized... And that she could forget this pathetic attempt at pleasing her... The moment I got in bed and crawled under my blankets, I felt really ashamed. I had the chance, but I fucked it up. How the hell could I ever think with such confidence that I could please her? Maybe it all should've stayed as a fantasy... Then I wouldn't feel so fucking embarrassed about the fact I fucked it up... I just had sex with her but... It felt as if it was just a fantasy... A dream... I know I should've felt something special but... I wasn't feeling anything...

After a while, I noticed my door opened up... And I saw in the mirror that Meagan was standing there in the doorpost, butt naked, while she looked at me. She hesitated for a moment, but she got in my room. And sat on my bed... Then all of a sudden, she placed her paw in front of my nose on the bed. I stared at her sexy leg and paw for a moment, and really had the urge to kiss her paw but... Well... I didn't, because I didn't want to fuck it up again. But after a while... She started to rub her paw over my face while she looked so seriously... 'Do it... I'll try not to laugh this time...' she said quietly... Meagan didn't had to say that twice... She gently placed her toes against my lips, and the moment I opened my mouth a bit, she gently shoved her toes in my mouth while I started to suck on it... When I looked at her again, I could see that she had a hard time trying to hold her laughter while she tried looking all serious... At some point, I couldn't help but to laugh at her face... 'What...?'

'You're face...'

'Just because it tickles doesn't mean I can't like it...'

'Heh...'

'Did you like it...? Like... Everything I did...?

All she did was nodding slowly and smiling weakly at me. She liked it but... It didn't felt like that... I felt as if I should've felt something special if she really liked it... 'Look... I'll have to be honest with you... I wanted to have sex with you for a very long time. And now that it happened... It feels as if... As if...'

'As if I'm not any good...?'

'No...! No, it's not you. Really... It's just that... I just pictured everything differently.'

'Heh... So... Y-You're disappointed...?'

'No, not really but... Something was just missing... That's all...'

'Oh... Still... I liked the scissoring part...'

It stayed silent for a while as she got down on my bed next to me while I was facing her. She stared at me for a while as I was looking right back in her eyes... I placed my hand on her cheek and slowly made my to the back of her head, caressing her hair... 'Nikki...?'

'Yeah...?'

'You can use that strap-on on me if you want...'

'Strap-on...?'

'I saw you're toy collection when I was sniffing through you're closet for clean socks...'

'Oh, eh...'

'Hehehehe...'

'Well, I thought it would be... You know... For Ceylan and me...'

'Heh... When was the last time you did it with her...?'

'A long time ago...'

It stayed silent for a moment while the two of us were staring outside the window, at the nightsky. But again, it got me thinking. Why would Meagan do this so all of a sudden...? I just didn't understand. I shouldn't have questioned it, but... I couldn't help myself.

'Why are you doing this, Meg...?'

'Do what...?'

'Why'd you decided to do it...?'

'Well... Ceylan did and... I liked it and... You wanted to so...'

'Did she made you cum that night...?'

'Yeah...' Meagan said quietly...

'Heh... You know I really love her, right...?'

'Yeah... And I don't want to stand in between you... But she said and did the right things to me that night and... She said it was okay and that you wouldn't have a problem with it and... Knowing you wanted this too and... I can honestly say I really enjoyed it that night...'

'Was it you're first time with a girl...?'

'No...'

'...No...?'

'Fabian and I once had a threesome with a friend of mine... It was the first time a girl got down on me so... Heh... And sometimes... I'm just wondering what it's like to... You know...'

She wants to know what its like to eat a pussy...? Hmm... And before I knew it, I just blurted it out. 'You can go down on me if you want...'

She hesitated for a while as we kept staring at each other... But the moment I spread my legs for her, she got down on the bed and sticks her head between my legs... 'Pretend as if you're snogging someone...'

'Snogging...?'

'Yeah... Like French-kissing... That's what Ceylan always did...'

"Wow... Holy God..." I felt she gently pressed her tongue against it... Just... Little gentle laps, you know... Feeling her tongue-piercing going over my clitoris... Dear God, I had no words for it... 'Y-You sure you never did this before...?'

'No...'

'O-Oh... Hmm...'

With every gentle lick she gave, the feelings were only building up... She kept the same rhythm unlike Ceylan... I loved how Meagan was doing it but... Ceylan was so amazing at this... Still, I wasn't complaining... She's really good for her first time... Unlike me... And so, she kept on licking me for a while, and then she decided to stop... I wished she would continue but I didn't want to push things... So reluctantly, I gave in...

It stayed quiet for a long time while I kept caressing her hair and stared in her lovely eyes while I was rubbing between her legs... She got me so hot just then, and I wanted to reach my climax... I could see that Meagan wanted to ask me something, but was hesitating to do so... Every now and then, she looked away... And then she finally asked... 'Can I use the strap-on on you...?' she asked quietly... All I could do was to smile nervously at her... I had no idea what to expect if she did... Then again... It's what she wanted to do... I had my chance to do the things I wanted to do to her... And now it's her chance. I'm not intending to be selfish anymore... So I got up to my closet, took out the dildo and opened the package... It's never been used before... And well, it was pretty expensive, so it better be worth every penny... The harness had some vibrating egg thingy that stimulates the clitoris of the one who's wearing it, so I placed the batteries in and I helped Meagan to put that thing on... But still, I was really nervous... So I told Meagan I'd be right back... I went to the bathroom and splashed my face with water... Took a couple of deep breathes... And I prepared myself...

The moment I got back, I noticed that Meagan was sitting on the edge of my bed. So I got on the bed myself... 'Look, I got a huge purple dick...'

'Hehehe...'

'Would you really let me do this...?'

'Yeah...'

I got down on my back and spread my legs for her... 'Get on top of me...'

Meagan did but I guess she didn't really know what to do next... So I helped her a little... Once she got closer to me, I placed her hands on my waist, telling her to gently rub the dildo over my pussy first... I guess she's not used to act like a guy during sex. The arousal came back not long after that... I told her to tease me by sticking it inside of me, but not to push through... I forgot to turn the dildo on, so I did... 'EEE!! Oh...! O-Oh wow... Th-That tickles... Hihi... O-Oh whoa...' She pulled a really funny face at first, but that quickly changed into a satisfied smile. At some point, I took her hand, and placed it on my breast, asking her if she could twist my nipple... And she did without hesitating while I could hear her giggling every now and then while there was this muffled buzz noise... When I couldn't stand the teasing anymore, I told her to push through... Again, there was no hesitation... The moment she pushed through, it didn't felt as we were playing around and giggling anymore... This became dead serious... The way she did it, hurt a bit... But again, I tried to suck it up... I guess I still was a bit too tight... So I begged her to slow down while I was panting my lungs out... She did for a while, but then she just... You know... And I could see that she really enjoyed it... I heard her moans... But she got tired after a while, and it went really, really slow... 'Y-You like it...?'

'Y-Yeah... Nice a-and slow...'

'D-Did I hurt you...? It sounds a-as if you're in pain...'

'N-No, I'm fine... A-Ah...'

'You sure...?'

I nodded quickly while I had my eyes closed... Meagan stops for a moment while she was panting... 'D-Don't stop...'

'I-I'm tired, Nic...'

'It's almost dawn... I can see the sun coming up...'

'Yeah...'

'Just a little a longer... It just started to get good...'

I grabbed the back of her head and moved her down while I pulled my legs up to make more room for her. She looked at me for a moment while I just nodded and closed my eyes. And let the feelings do their thing... I could hear her panting... I whispered in her ear to fuck me harder, to make me squeal for an orgasm, which is exactly what she did... Soft squeaks and panting turned into soft moans... At some point, when I looked at her face, I saw that she was biting her upper lip, trying to control it... So the moment I moved her head closer towards mine, I whispered that she had no reason to hold back... That she shouldn't be afraid to let it all go. I got hold of her breasts and started to lick her nipples while she was whimpering... I started to lick all over her face, and touched my tongue over her lips... Her nose... Her cheeks... Meagan shoved her tongue in my mouth again and I felt how her tongue piercing going over my tongue gently. She only got deeper in me from that moment on. I could hear she was tired. But she kept on going nonetheless while I begged her quietly to make me cum... She rests her head on my shoulder as I could hear her quiet moans in my ear. The feelings only build up... And then... All of a sudden... I reached my climax... I squirted on her stomach while I tried to be as quietly as possible, panting my lungs out... I whispered in her ear that she was such a good girl... But she keeps on going for another while, as my moaning turned louder with every thrust she gave... And then... She let out a quiet moan as well as I felt she was dripping on my legs... I whispered in her ear that it was okay... She was shaking and trembling while I was cuddling her... And moments after that, we fell asleep, just like that, as if nothing ever happened...

See... I'm not a psychologist or a therapist. But Meagan had her own reasons for doing this. All her life, she was treated as a fuck-toy, while no one gave a shit about her feelings. But tonight, I gave her something she wanted while I wasn't realizing it... It wasn't about the sex, or... Pretty much about anything else... What she wanted was to be in control for once. And maybe to actually enjoy sex for once... To know that she's being loved... My bed performances might suck a lot but... She could do anything she wanted to me, and she knew it. Like I said, she had her own reasons to do this. Just as much as I had my own reasons for it as well. For fifteen years I waited for this moment... And I still can't believe it but... It actually happened... It really did...

When I woke up that Saturday afternoon, I looked at Meagan whose back was facing me. I still couldn't believe that we did it the night before. But seeing her naked in front of me. She's just so gorgeous... And seeing her reminded me of that Jaguar "gorgeous" advertisement on the TV a while back...

"Gorgeous... Gorgeous... Gorgeous deserves your immediate attention... Gorgeous makes effort look effortless... Gorgeous stays up late and still looks gorgeous... Gorgeous has no love for logic... Gorgeous gets away with it... Everyone cares what gorgeous says... Gorgeous gets in everywhere... Gorgeous can't be ordinary, even when it tries... Gorgeous pays for itself in the first five seconds... Gorgeous doesn't care what others are doing... Gorgeous was born that way... Gorgeous trumps everything... Gorgeous is worth it..."

And then you saw this sexy Jaguar XKR and you go like "Oooooooh! He's not talking about that hot chick in the commercial! He means the Jaguar!" Hehehe... Still... To see her asleep in front of me was something I will never forget... She seemed peaceful... Finally relaxed... And I couldn't help myself to caress her... So was it worth waiting eight years for that short moment we had together...? Yes... Yes, it was... "Gorgeous is worth it..."