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Petunia had decided to find Handy regardless of what he said. If he died out there, he might disappear forever. She had hoped that he might've gone somewhere she was familiar with but there was no sight of him. After sometime her feet grew heavy from exhaustion. Where had he gone?

She almost had a heart attack when she thought of his house. Oh no, had he come across his house? She ran as fast as her legs can carry her, the house was in sight and saw that the door was open. She hoped that it was just open from the last time their friends had taken Handy's things. She entered the dusty house, her OCD kicking in but she resisted, she had to find Handy. She eventually came to Handy's kneeling form, he stood up and turned around and saw his eyes, they were red and full of tears, had he remembered everything? No, he definitely did, there was no reason for him to be here if he hadn't. A long silence followed as soon as they met.

"Tell me..." she stopped her breathing when he finally spoke. "Tell me, is our relationship actually true?" he asked through a pained voice. "Y-yes" she said, not looking at him. He remained silent, not believing her one bit, he stared at her in the eyes. "You're lying, aren't you?" he asked.

Petunia remained silent as well, she really did remember everything. "I, I didn't want to lose you. When I found you, I panicked. Sniffles said... Sniffles said that you might die permanently if you killed yourself, so I became your girlfri-"

"STOP! STOP LYING!" said Handy, seething in rage and sorrow. "I DON'T NEED ANY OF YOUR PITY! I CAN LIVE WITHOUT A FAKE GIRLFRIEND!"

"But I am Handy! I wanted us to be back together, I couldn't get close to you, I felt scared that you hated me and... and you deserve better than that. Specially after I lied to you, if you want to hit me you can, you can even drown me right here and now if that'll make you feel better. But I will never leave your side ever, that's one thing I'll never do."

Handy looked at the ground and said "Then why were you kissing Cuddles in the carnival?" Petunia was puzzled. "What? We never kissed."

"Yes you did,I saw him pulling you in the ferris wheel for a kiss when you two were supposed to get off." He said. "H-he told me a secret, I'm not supposed to tell"

"Oh I'm SURE it's a secret" he said looking away. Petunia sighed. "Did you know that Lumpy was going to leave?" Handy was shocked by that, "Why would Lumpy leave?"

"Cuddles thought about it, he may have been our employer, but he never hung out with us anymore. Didn't you notice it?" said Petunia, hoping to clear things up. "No, I never did. But that still doesn't change the fact that you lied to me."

"Please Handy, I never stopped loving you. You just seemed... out of reach. I ignored you for a long time, but I'm here now, we can continue living together."

But Handy wasn't backing down. "So you toyed with my feelings? Is that the solution?"

"I was afraid you would kill yourself again. Please, just come back..." said Petunia in despair.

"... No." he said. "If anybody has to go back home, it's you Petunia. I don't want to see you again" said Handy.

"... You'll always be welcome in my house Handy. I'll accept you, you don't even have to apologize" said Petunia. But she no longer got a response from the depressed beaver. And with that, Petunia left, leaving the depressed beaver to his thoughts.

Handy had done it this time. Why hadn't he just accepted her offer? No, why hadn't he just forgiven her. In truth everything was going perfectly, the problems were all in his mind. But no, he acted like a stubborn child and pushed her away, wasn't this what he wanted? To be back together? The rest of the day was spent in the same position until the next morning, he had felt like all traces of worth living had was gone.

Petunia waited for Handy, all day. She sat on the table where they were supposed to eat that morning. She was hoping that he'd have the heart to forgive her when he comes back. She hadn't noticed that she had slept, and when she woke up, there was no sign of the beaver. She decided that she'd try again tomorrow, maybe once he cooled off, he'd be willing to go back, his stuff was still in her house after all.