Ethans Ending To A Spiritual Beginning
Ethan's Ending to a Spiritual Beginning
"Auuuuugh! God I hate you alarm." I slam down the button to turn the alarm off and stand up stretching. "Man... another boring day at work, but at least I get to look forward to seeing Aiden today" I smile at the thought and how good it would be to have my small foxy arms around his buff wolfie body. After a bit of prolong thinking I begin to feel myself get hard. I start to move my paw down to my sheath then stop "Nope! Nope! Nope! I don't have time for that I need to take a shower and get to work." So I begin to strip myself naked as I jump in the shower
"Ahh." I say relaxed as the warm water slowly trickles down my fur relaxing my every muscle. I then open my eyes and grab my fur shampoo and slather it on making sure I reached every patch of fur before rinsing off. I then, get out of the shower and dry myself off with a towel. I make sure to dry myself well so I don't have to go into work with damp fur.
After a good fifteen minutes of drying myself off. I stop to look into the mirror to see how I look. I laugh. "I look like a giant fuzz ball!" I stare at myself, longer, seeing my fur in every other direction. The only thing that doesn't poof out in a mess is my muzzle. This makes me laugh a little more, because I have a big poof ball red head with just my muzzle and eyes showing. It looks silly so I decide to pull out my phone and take a picture for my boyfriend, Aiden.
Aiden was only two years older then me, Aiden being 27, and me, Ethan, being 25. But he had already gotten his life sorted out for him by my age. Aiden's now a math teacher for a nearby high school. He does pretty well at his job though which makes me happy. Plus it adds to the fun when were role playing and he's the strict math teacher and I'm the small little math student, that will do anything for a passing grade, but that's for another time. After I get dressed in my proper attire of dress shirt, tie, and dress pants. I receive a text from Aiden. 'Heh. You're my cute little foxy! I love you so much! You up for going out to eat and then watching a movie at your place?' I smile at our ritual Friday nights that I've grown to love through the 4 years we've been together. 'Of course, wouldn't change it for the world:) are you picking me up at 4:30 then?' I put down my phone for a moment as I straighten my tie in the mirror. I look to make sure my red fur is nicely brushed down and smile at myself as I look into my green eyes.
"Alright I'm ready" I then grabbed my phone as I head down the stairs of my apartment. I then give a sigh realizing I am now going to work. See, unlike Aiden I decided to take the easy way out and not go to college, not that I couldn't, just to lazy for school. I figured I'd stay at the job my parent got me in as somewhat of a janitor, but since my parents were close friends with the boss, as soon as I turned 18 I became a secretary for my fast typing skills. Which being a secretary offered a hell of a lot more money then whatever the hell I was. Well at least its enough for bills, I mean whatever puts the money on the table right?
I then fish in my pockets for my phone to see Aiden had replied to my earlier text 'Sure can't wait! Love ya' so I reply back 'love ya too' as I walk out of the doors to my apartment. "Mmm." I inhale the smell of the cool spring breeze as I look up and see not one cloud in the sky. I smile as I feel the cool sun rays against my fur and the birds chirping merrily in the sky. I almost want to skip to my car, but I decide not to seeing how that would be awkward for a grown man all dressed up for work, to be skipping to his car, so I restrain myself and wag my tail as happily as I can as I start up my car.
As I drive in my car I think about how good today's going to be, how I get to see my strong charcoal colored gray wolf and snuggle up with him. It just makes me feel all warm inside. Sometimes it honestly surprises me how lucky I am to have him. I mean he's gorgeous and has a body to go along with it, and his personality is always in tender loving care. Unlike me I'm just a skinny little fox but I do have to say, not to be vain, I am pretty good looking and love to love. It also surprises me that the kids at school aren't all over him, but that's okay he's mine and that makes me happy. Finally I reach the doors to my job and walk in making sure to say good morning to any one who cares as I sit in my desk. I sigh knowing this will be the longest part of my day, but push forward.
Finally its 3:00 P.M. and I begin to wag my tail back and forth smiling trying to contain my happiness as I wait for 3:30 so I can punch out, but then my boss comes. She's a big sweet looking bear who always wears dresses with flowers on it. This quite frankly, always makes me smile, because she reminds me of a Bernstein bear. She then comes to my desk as I lift my ears and begin to smile "yes?" I ask politely and respectful. "Ethan I need you to stay an extra hour, something's come up with Sheila, is that okay?" I give a silent growl, as my smile loosens, but I'm too nice and I don't have enough in me to say no. "Umm... I suppose I can. Just an hour though right?" she smiles as she pats me on the back "nothing more. Thank you" I try to gibe my best smile but I'm upset. My plans are somewhat ruined with Aiden, but I don't think it will be that bad, just an hour. So I text him telling him I was held back at work for an hour and to pick me up at 5:30. I get a message back almost instantly 'that's okay that will just want me to want you even more.' I smile at that, god I love him, I reply back. 'Okay see ya then'
Finally the hour went by and it felt like the longest hour of my life, I just wanted to be with Aiden, but instead all I earned was grumpy callers. Who would have thought so many people would be grumpy in the afternoon? Oh well at least I wont. I begin to wag my tail a bit on the ride home and pull out my keys to get in my apartment. I get in and give a sigh of relief, happy that the best part of my day is about to start. I then get out of my work clothes and into my casual wear of a button up and a pair of blue jeans that show off my tail. As I waited for Aiden to arrive I began to look around my apartment and realize all the great little things I have of Aiden; pictures of us, some of his favorite movies, his clothes, and other little things which starts to get me thinking. "Why is it we still don't live together? I've asked before and it always end up in an argument with him never telling me why." I mean I love him and he loves me. Plus ever since he's told his family he was gay and that he loved me, they disowned him, so now I'm sort of the only family he has. Which makes me kind of sad, because I can't even imagine my family leaving me, because I'm gay. Hell they were my biggest support when I told them, so it would hurt to lose them. Its okay though, Aiden now has me and I will fight my damnedest just to make him happy and give him all the support he needs, because I love him with all my heart, and I want nothing more to make him happy. Even if it does mean making me a little sad with him not living here. I really don't understand what's holding him back though; I mean we'll always be close to each other then.
I then sit on my bed for a few moments of silence, before my phone ring. It's Aiden so I smile. "Hello?" I ask in excitement "I'm here" I hang up, smile on my face, tail wagging frantically as I run outside and get in his car. Now my heart begins to pound and my smile begins to grow big as he leans over and kisses me. "hey." he says with a smile showing his teeth. I blush a bit at his beautiful smile and say "hey yourself." in the most corny manner. He gives a chuckle as I ask "where to?" he then looks forward as he begins to drive "you'll see" he says smile still showing.Ten minutes go by as he pulls up to a fast food restaurant. I look at him puzzled "you serious?" he laughs "yeah why not?" I frown a bit and my ears go flat. "Aww... I'm just kidding" he says as his ears now flattening. "Look behind us." My eyes widen as my tail begins to wag. "My favorite place! But can you afford it?" he nods and kisses me "I'm not worried about the money, as long as I get to see that little foxy grin of yours I'm happy." I turn back from looking at the restaurant and stare into his beautiful dark blue eyes "god you're such a charmer. I love you so damn much!" he then puts a hand through my cheek ruffs and kisses me for a bit. My heart felt so warm, if I could just sit here and tell him I love you all night it still wouldn't be enough. Aiden then pulls away from the kiss "I love you too" before getting out of the car and helping me out. I smile as I look up to him, Aiden being a foot taller and all. I give him a hug putting my head into his chest. I realize he's wearing a nice black dress shirt with black dress pants, and regardless if he is wearing the dress shirt, it still shows his muscles nicely. Then I realize what I'm wearing and I'm just wearing a tight button up with jeans, no where near the apparel I should be wearing for the occasion. My tail droops as I pull myself off his chest and look down. "Why didn't you tell me we were going here?" I said sadly. Aiden smiles and lifts my muzzle to his eyes "otherwise it wouldn't be a surprise! Plus..." he points at the fast food restaurant "we always have surprise B" I smile "okay lets go to surprise A" he laughs and so do I. "you think I'm dressed okay?" "I think you're dressed fine my little fox" I smile at that as my tail wags and we hook arms. We then walk in as they give us a table for two and we didn't get any weird looks for being together, just some from what I am wearing.
We both are shown to our seats, and are seated, as we begin to talk. "So how was your day?" I ask in interest. Aiden grumbles. "Kids" I laugh "you were one too you know." "I know its just, geez they can be so dis-respectful sometimes" I start flailing my hands doing karate chop motion. "That's when you show them whose boss... HIIIIYA!" after that long chop I spill my complimentary glass of water in my lap and Aiden laughs. My ears flatten as I smile "heeeyyy... that's not funny" I say now laughing along. A waiter then appears at the side of our table pouring me a glass of water and asking if we'd like to sit somewhere else. I decline and just move away from the spill. "So what will it be?" the waiter was a penguin in a suit which made me laugh, because he looks so cute. "Chicken Alfredo please." I said handing him the menu. "And for you sir?" I couldn't help, but smile. The penguin had that fancy butler accent, like you might see in a movie. "Hmmm... well I suppose I'll have the shrimp alfredo then." Aiden said smiling at me "okay and would you like soup or salad?"
We both decide soup, as our waiter waddled away. It was silent for a bit so I decided to glance around. The restaurant was beautiful. The walls were a soothing shade of beige, the table cloths were white with a beautifully designed pattern all across them, and above was, well obviously the ceiling, but hanging from it were very expensive crystal chandeliers, distanced just right to diffuse a radiant glow that could set any mood, and to top it off was the wondrous sounds of a piano that you could here in the background. It was very nice, very serene, very calming. I loved it, and I loved him. I began to wag my tail and smile "Thank you Aiden." He smiled back at me with that knee buckling grin of his. "And for what would that be Ethan?" My smile grows wider, wishing I had dressed up as nice as he did, because he looked amazing in the glow of the chandeliers. "For just being the best boyfriend ever and taking me out to eat." Aiden then gives me a lopsided smile "don't thank me yet. The soup hasn't even-" The penguin waiter then comes along our table and places our soup in front of us. I give Aiden a sideway glance as a smirk comes along my muzzle. "You were saying?" Aiden's ears twitch a bit and looks like he's about to laugh, but holds it back and gives a short sigh. "I love you fox" I grab his hand and hold it for a bit. "Thank you and I love you too." Eventually we finish our dinner, and Aiden pays the bill, not letting me see, or help pay it. I roll my eyes at that, but I accept his generosity and give him a kiss. Finally we get inside and we fall on the couch in my living room. We both sit up and he gives me a kiss. "So ready for surprise 2?!" my mind begins to drift in dirty places on what surprise 2 is, so I sit closer to him "mmmmhm" I say deeply. Aiden smiles at that, and pulls out a DVD from the likes of which I have no clue. "Here." He says handing me the DVD. I grab hold of it and look at the title. "My favorite movie! Aww.... Thank you!" I give him a hug, while he rubs in between my ears. "Want me to put it in?" my mind still thinking in the dirty laughs "mmmmm... I'd love for you to put it in." Aiden gives a laugh. He then bends over and I stare at his cute little while he "puts it in." he then sits at the end of the couch as I move in and he put his arm around me. It felt good to have his strong arm around me, like he was protecting me from something, and holding me close was the solution.
The movie then begins to play, it's a romance, and we both love this movie, so we begin to grow silent, only commenting on a few things until the movie ends. The screen now goes black and the room is dark except for the moonlight shining through the window on the side of us. I then lean into Aiden's chest, burying my muzzle as deep as I could, and inhaled. "Mmmm" his scent was intoxicating and gave my sheath a twinge. I then lift my head, so I can go in for a kiss, our tongues wrestling in each others mouths. "Mmmm... I love you Aiden" He then looks at me, his dark blue eyes glowing with the moonlight, his charcoal color fur, now having somewhat of a brighter tint to it. Heh, I know I say this a lot, but he looked gorgeous, and I couldn't help but grin at the fact that he was mine. He then rubs his muzzle with mine and slowly brings himself to my ears. They twitch a bit to the breaths he breathes in my ear as he slowly and sensually begins to whisper. "Mmmmmm... I love you too Ethan" he then began to nibble on my ear. I almost lose myself in the moment right there, but instead I push him off with all my strength to the corner of the couch and get on top of him. "Ooh... you're a naughty wolf, you know my ears are my weak spot" he then locks muzzles with mine and I begin to feel my foxy pride harden. I then begin to unbutton his shirt, carefully removing each button, and taking off his shirt, his body beautiful in the moonlight, glistening to its glow. I bury my muzzle into his fur before I unbutton his pants. I stop at the button at his pants and look up at him. He looks down at me in lust, "so how bad you want it?" I ask, like I was as innocent and sweet as could be. He gives me a stare like he about to whimper, "oh Ethan I want it so bad, please touch me?!" I smile and do as asked, removing his pants, and revealing his wolfy member semi-erect, he was already a good 7 inches, "Hmmm... and what am I suppose to with this?" I ask playfully, acting like I've never done this before. "Do I rub it?" still talking in innocence giving him a few strokes treating his shaft like it was a foreign object. "Hmmm nooo... didn't seem to do anything but grow a little harder. Do I bring my muzzle to it?" I then put my paw around his shaft putting him in my mouth, using my tongue diligently at the top and sliding it under his base as I move down; I was then rewarded with pre, "Mmmm! That was yummy" I lick my muzzle, "and that seemed to do something, but not enough. Hmmm, well then, what can I do?!" He then throws me to the other end of the couch giving a growl "Oh I know what you can do." He gives a deviant smile as he begins to strip me naked, showing my member almost fully erect, he then lifts me up straddling me in both of his strong arms, as I nibble at his neck, walking into my bedroom and throws me on my bed. "Oof." Aiden then gets on top of me, staring deeply into my eyes, stroking my shaft as he now moves down to bite my neck. I give a moan "oh god!" I said gasping as he begins to stroke faster, and makes my neck tingle. "Oh Aiden... mmm... oh Aiden I want you in me!" I can feel his muzzle curl into a smile on my neck, as he moved away from my neck to look me in the eyes, "put what?" I then smile as I reach my hand to his shaft and give it a slow stroke "Mmmm... I want your big wolfy pride in me" I then give him an innocent stare "Pleaase Aiden, I want you so bad" he gives me a kiss as he reaches the nightstand and pulls out a small bottle of lubricant. Aiden then slathers some in his paws and puts it on his hard sheath, and then with what he had left over put in me. I smile at him as he prepares us. Aiden then gives me a kiss as he slid himself slowly in me, I couldn't help, but give a moan, he felt so warm inside, and his length gave me a bit of a shiver, he then looks at me, and asks if I was okay before he really started. I nod and give a small whimper; he begins to work himself slowly only putting half his length in me. He then gave a soft moan as he began to work faster "Oh Aiden!" I say softly "Mmmm... you're so good" he starts moving faster, working more inches inside me, as I feel his know forming in me. "Mmmm... Aiden... Aiden harder!" I say gasping in ecstasy, Aiden now is panting and giving moans loudly "Oh Ethan, you feel so good" He begins slamming his hips in me, his shaft giving me so much pleasure, as it moves in and out of me. Eventually all I'm feeling is nothing but pleasure; my moans become more insistent and grow loud like shouts of ecstasy. I start feeling his knot grow and getting close, so I begin to move my hips the best I can on my back towards him so I can feel every inch that he has. "Oh Aiden" I begin grunting with every word "OH Aiden... Oh... god harder Aiden!" he listens as he starts to go faster, slamming now even harder then before. I begin to give squeaks every time he pushes into me. I feel his knot swelling, now I know it wont be long "Oh god tie me Aiden" "oh Ethan!" He then locks his muzzle with mine as we go into a deep kiss, and give a loud moan as he pushes his knot deep inside me. I begin to feel his member twitch and fill me with the warmth of his seed. "Mmmm... Aiden that was amazing" he then rubs his muzzle with mine "I love you fox, don't forget it" he says in a whisper. He then grabs my shaft and begins to stroke me "oh aid- Aiden you don't..." "Mmm... but I want to" it doesn't take long before we have a mess all over my fur and his paws. I then squeeze him wrapping my arms tightly around him, bringing his chest to mine "Mmmm..." I then wiggle my hips a bit "that was great" He then gives me a smile, "it was." He then gives me a kiss and smiles again "Ethan you mean the world to me." I smile feeling a little teary eyed when he said that.
Today was an amazing day and I didn't want it to end, everything we did today was for me and how much he loved me, and it made me realize how much greater he really is. I rub my eyes making sure I wasn't crying at my thoughts and me being with him and how great he is. "God Aiden you never stop to surprise me today or ever for that matter. I love you Aiden and I'd be lost without you" he kisses me and we stay like that for awhile until his knot swells down and he pulls himself out. Aiden then smiles as he goes to the side of the bed and extends a paw to me "want to shower?" I nod my head and we finish out the shower pretty quick ending up back in my bed. I look at him, his naked body sprawled out on my bed, I decide to ask him if he would live with me, because today was such a good day and I don't think this will ruin it.
"Aiden?" there's a short pause as twirl my fingers in his fur "yes?" I stammer a bit hoping things won't go bad like they usually do when I ask this, because today was so good and id hope he realize that. "Ummm... would... would you come and live with me?" his eyes widen and then narrow as he sits up "Ethan we've talked about this before." My ears flatten, but I the thought was bugging me, and I couldn't stop talking. "But... but it's been a while since I've asked and... and you still never told my why" Aiden gets up and walks towards the doorway. I know begin to grow really sad and begin talking without confidence and speaking quieter "where... where are you going?" I ask as I stumble out of my bed "I'm going to get dressed!" he says with a little angry. I look at the time its 11:47 P.M. "why?" he keeps walking ignoring my question. I then run towards him as he gets dressed "why... why are you leaving?" he looks at me and gives a sigh "because I know where this is going" I look down, my tail droops, my ears flatten, "would you at least tell me why?" he puts his paw to the doorknob, but then turns around to look at me. He gives another sigh before he answers his ears flicking and his tail begins to droops while he stands in the doorway. "Fine." My ears raise to the surprise, but lower right away. Aiden then gives one last long sigh, before he answers. It's almost like he's trying to hold himself back from crying, but why?
"I'm scared" he says "of what?" I say making slowly paced steps towards him. "Of..." he loses the next word in his throat, but catches himself from crying. "Of what Aiden?" I say tenderly making sure not to say any of the wrong words. "Of losing you Ethan" My eyes widen, shocked by what he said "What... what makes you say that?" I'm almost crying now as he begins to talk "If... if I lose you... like my family, I'll... I'll lose the only person I truly have in the world" I frowned and began to cry, "Aiden I... I love you and would never leave you... you're the world to me!" my tears are coming down hard, but I smile and get close to Aiden with open arms. "N...noo, I... I just cant im sorry" he now begins crying so he storms out running down the stairs "Wait!" I yell regardless of the time, but he doesn't listen. I run back inside to put on some clothes as fast as I could, but I only find a pair of boxers, so I storm out my door and leave my apartment as fast as I could.
As soon as I step outside I feel the cold midnight air down my back, but I didn't care. I finally reach the parking lot as Aiden starts to drive away "Aiden! WAIT!" I shout flailing my arms trying to get his attention, but no luck "Fuck! Why!? Why?! Why did I have to fucking bring it up!" I clench my fist and scream running back to my apartment. When I reach the door I remember I didn't bring my fucking keys! "Fuck!" I then buzz each person's intercom at least once, hoping someone would let me in. To my luck someone did. I run up the stairs to reach my door, my vision now blurry, because all the tears filling my eyes. I punch the nearest wall, hurting my paw, and run into my room and properly get dressed.
I begin to look for my keys for my car, but I struggled to calm down, the tears now hitting me harder with frustration, anger, and sorrow, I just couldn't relax! Eventually I find the keys; somehow they made it under my bed! I look at the time and its 12:43, "FUCKKKKKK!" well he's home by now, I'll just talk to him tomorrow, he'll be fine"
I then go to bed struggling to fall asleep "Why didn't I just let it be!? Today was so amazing and I ruined it!!!" eventually I start dozing off until I receive a phone call, I groan as the fur around my eyes have now been matted from my tears, I answer groggily "hello?" "Ethan Garrett?" My eyes shoot open as my fur stands up on the bock of my neck "ye... yes?" Oh god please let Aiden be okay, "It seems that your boyfriend Aiden Wolfheart has you as his first contact and he has been in a serious car accident and is here in th-"I cut him off knowing what he'll say next, "Ill be right there!" I grab my keys and run to my car "God Aiden! Please please please be all right."
I grab my steering wheel tight and drive way past the speed limit, not caring if I get pulled over, and reach the hospital, to see a strong horse standing at the door smoking a cigarette. My muzzle scrunches as I smell the smoke, "Ethan Garrett?" The horse says now looking way taller as I approach him. I nod, he then grabs his cigarette away from his mouth and flicks it off somewhere I didn't see, "come with me, your boyfriends inside" I nod again, but now my legs are shaking, my heart is pounding, and my tail begins to twitch.
Finally me and the horse reach Aiden's room "here he is" he says and then walks away. "Oh my god..." I say running to Aiden's hospital bed crying "are... are you okay?" Aiden shakes his head, "doctor says, I'll be fine though, says not many people make through what I do" I give him a smile and grab his paw "heh. Nothing can stop my Aiden, so what happened?" he looks away, but turns back, "well I was driving home pretty fast and missed a stop light, then someone hit me on my drivers side, doc says I was lucky he was going below the speed limit"
I then begin to feel guilt because this was my fault and begin to cry harder "I'm... I'm sorry Aiden this is all my fault" he smiles and pats my paw "If this is anyone's fault its mine; I stormed out and drove off not you." I look down ears flat, tail limp. "But, I didn't stop you!" he then grabs my attention "but you did try Ethan" I begin to sob uncontrollably, but then stop for Aiden. I rub my muzzle and smile for Aiden, "I love you" "I love you too Ethan, and well, you being here and all really shows me that I shouldn't be scared, that you are my world and I am yours, and that, well, we should live together." That makes me smile big, but not enough to last long, "are you sure Aiden?" he nods "Ethan, yesterday was really special and so is every other day with you, you never cease to make me smile, and you never cease to love me, you do so much to make me feel special, so why run from that, it was silly for me to think that you would leave, because we have so much more then love and you showed me that." My tears now turn to tears of love "god Aiden you always surprise me. Even in the state you are in, you manage to make me love you more than possible" he smiles as he looks at me. The room grows silent except for the sound of his heart line. Eventually I fall asleep, and wake up next morning, and call myself in for work. Throughout the day I sit in Aiden's room holding his paw and smiling, protecting him the best way I could, by being there, and showing love. Eventually the day turns into night and Aiden wasn't looking too well, but I kept smiling, holding his paw, telling him how much I love him, and all the great things we're going to do when he's better. Making sure to rid his worries, and partly mine, but then, around 8:00 P.M the doctor came in and wasn't looking very happy. The doctor was an otter, very thin, and growing grey around the muzzle. The otter began to play with his whiskers, and addresses us both. I stand up when he says my name. The otter looks down then looks back up from his clipboard, with a face that made me feel uneasy, "There's no easy way to say this." The otter says grimly "so, I'm just going to say it." my heart sinks at those words, and I begin to feel like my breath shortening, "it has seem that one of Mr. Wolfheart's vitals has given out... he doesn't have much time to live."
My body shivers to the words, my fur stands up, and I begin to cry as I look at Aiden, who is still staring at the doctor. I begin to think, 'can I just watch the love of my life, the one I pictured to be with forever, and the one who just told me that he would live me when he gets better, now die in front of me?!' Aiden turns and gives me nothing, but a smile as tears roll down his muzzle too, and it's hard to watch him cry, because he never does in front of me. So when I see him cry and give me nothing but a smile, my choice was made clear, that no matter how much it will hurt, I have to stay, and fight for him, be strong, because I love him and he loves me.
The doctor walked out and it was just me and Aiden again. I give a sigh trying to hold all my emotions back, except love, and care. I hold his paw and smile "are... are you okay?" he asks, rubbing my paw softly. My heart aches now with love and pain, he was just told his life is coming to an end, and he's asking me if I'm okay! My head hurts in pain, because the split emotion, but I smile "yea... yeah" my voice cracks "I'm fine and I love you." He smiles back "I love you too."
The room goes silent for a couple of hours, and we both try our hardest to cherish our last moments. I held his paw and smiled the whole way through, as we made small talk, the thoughts of him going still in my head, but I push the back, and keep smiling. But then his heart line monitor began to pace fast, and my paws begin to tremble, knowing what would come next. I squeeze his paw and yell his name hysterically, as the doctors run it. Aiden then stares at me, eyes drooping "I love you Ethan" he said in almost a whisper. I begin to smile, trying my hardest to hold back my tears for him "I.... I love you too Aiden, mo... more then you'll ever know" Aiden starts to smile, and closed those beautiful dark blue eyes for the last time, like he waited for me before he could pass.
Then, then his heart line went flat. I begin to cry as his grip loosens from my paw, and I look down, knowing I just lost my other half. The doctors try hard bringing him back, but nothing. The doctors call the time, "23:04."It hurt to see no one crying with me, to the doctors he was just "23:04" and his family, his family wasn't even here. Do they even care?! I'm now alone crying, as the doctor walks up to me "are you okay?" he tried comforting me, but it wouldn't work. Nothing would though. I shake my head and leave the room, taking one last look hoping that this was all just a fantasy, but it wasn't.
My tears make it hard for me to get to my car, but I make it. I sit in the car for awhile, and slam my fists on the wheel "WHY!?" I scream on the top of my lungs, and wait until I was good enough to drive.
About a half an hour later, I start the car and drive back home. I open my door crying loudly, looking around my house, seeing all the little thing that reminded me of him. I want to grab them all and throw it out the window, but I don't, it's not his fault. It just hurts! I fall in my bed, and just think about today. "Err! Fuck his parents! How could they just leave him! That had to hurt him to see I was the only one there!"
I sit there awhile hating his parents, and cursing them for their lack of love, I mean that was his son! I cry for about another hour, before my body starts shaking, and I have no more tears. And then I see Aiden in the middle of my room. I rub my eyes making sure it wasn't a figment of my imagination. He was still there. I run up to him and hug him. He's still there and he has his scent too. He holds me and then walks away to my doorway, which has now formed to a room of spacious white light, and he vanishes in it. I rub my eyes, where my matted fur is, and run after him. I yell for his name. Nothing.
I then sit on the floor, bringing my knees to my muzzle, and begin to cry again. Then I feel a touch on my shoulder that leaves a shiver down my spine. I turn to see Aiden, as my heart unfolds, "I'm sorry Aiden." He begins to speak and I know without a doubt it's him. "For what? You feel this is your fault?" I put my head in his chest, and nod. "No! Because, it would have been better. Better if you lived!" Aiden rubs between my ears, which help me, with some of my fear, but this time he's crying.
"But Ethan you have people waiting down there" I shake my head, and squeeze him, with tears going down my face, "NO! I have someone who love me and he's standing right here!" I keep my muzzle in his chest for awhile. Cherishing him being here again, but then it grows silent, so I lift my head off his chest, and ask him a question. I give a sigh so I can hold back my sadness "can we have one last walk?" Aiden smiles and agrees, as we both hold paws."I hope you know I'm going to miss the hell out of you!" he smiles "Ill miss you a lot too Ethan, but I don't want you to mope about me" I smile at the fact, that even now he's still looking out for me.
I eventually feel a little uneasy, because now I actually know this is our last moment. We talk for a little longer, but then stopped, because it seemed we reached to this room, so I tell him that I'll wait for him when my day comes. Aiden wipes away a tear with his paw, off my muzzle, "I'll be here and with you always." I smile, but the sadness will not go away. Aiden then gives me a kiss "I'm sorry Ethan, but it's my time to go." I begin to sob harder, and he begins to hear them louder as I begin to speak. "NO! I won't let you!" I can now hear the sobbing in his voice, as I hold him and bury my muzzle to his chest. "I'm sorry my love, but this is my end" I feel a tear fall between my ears, while he comforts me by rubbing my back. "I will not stand here and believe that you're dead!" I can now feel myself tremble again, and realize, none of this will be here tomorrow, that when tomorrow comes this will be gone and so will he.
He comforts me more, by squeezing me closer to him, before he talks. "I'll truly miss you! And love you I do! And I would want nothing more then to be here with you." He gives a long pause, before he speaks again. "But... But my time is up." I frown, still holding him close, not really sure on how to let go, without the pain of leaving him again. I lift my muzzle off his chest again, "I'm sorry to make this all about me." I begin to clench on the reality of what I'm about to say. "It's just hard to think, that now we can't be"
Aiden then held me close as he could, "I know it hurts me too." He says. It now, seemed that his time was certainly up; as I saw his legs begin to disappear. My eyes widened a bit, but then stopped to look at him, and we both were smiling in tears with both of our paws in each others. He slowly started to fade away from me. This gave me unbearable pain. "I... I love you Aiden" I tried my hardest to get that out through; the pain, sadness, and happiness of seeing him again. Aiden smiles as I watch his glassy dark blue eyes fade in the light, and says in a whisper that could be heard as clear as day, "I love you too Ethan." I then watch a tear drop fall to the ground, as it sparkles in the light.
After all that, I couldn't take it anymore, and collapse to the ground. Due to all the emotion I felt. I had been crying a lot that night, but my heart was so sore, I couldn't help it. I sat there for hours, clenching, pounding, screaming, and crying. Now feeling that my heart will never be whole again, and that I now lost the best thing that was in my life.
I eventually get up and walk back to my room, with tears still on my face, and lay in bed. I lay there for awhile thinking again (which I shouldn't do) was what just happened real? Eventually I couldn't decide, so before I go to bed I tell Aiden that 'I'll love and miss him' in my head, and fall asleep.The next morning, I wake up tired, sad, and surprised, "what's this?" I pick it up and it's a note in Aiden's handwriting. I feel like I couldn't move, I was in so much shock.
*Read my poem "Ending to a Spiritual Beginning" to read Aiden's note to Ethan*
I finish the note and begin to cry, but this time it's in joy. I sigh, "I'll love and miss you Aiden my love. You always know what to say when push comes to shove" I then stand up and stretch to prepare for my day, but then I see a solid gold heart necklace. To my surprise I pick it up and open it, and on each side was a picture of us happy and smiling. I then feel an engraving on the back, and turn the locket to see what it said. It read, 'I love you.' After I read that, I felt that my heart had just stopped. I lift my paw up to wipe my muzzle and smile "heh. Even now Aiden you surprise me." I stop and smile at the vows, that we kept, and he's already fulfilled one, saying he'll always be with me, and he is. I smile before I walk out my door, and look to my apartment
"Goodbye Aiden, I love you"