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That morning, the morning I heard that Serevus had left, I was torn to pieces. I tried my hardest all day to not cry in front of anyone. And regardless of how much I knew he was not coming back my heart refused to believe it. There was always the possibility that Mr. Rosan was joking just because he was spiteful and wanted to hurt me. Maybe he was ill and maybe he would still return. That thought was the only thing that helped me get through the day.

The day progressed slowly, every moment without him by my side felt like an eternity, I wanted to see his face just once more at least. My lessons dragged on, I only sat in despair in the corner, fearing the worst for my love. There was no doubt that he would have left because he doesn't love me. My mind was always a massacre of thoughts, queries and worries that need to be sorted. But my mind was now a cataclysmic mass of mayhem. I no longer knew what to think, I had no one to talk to about it either. Just another emotion for me to keep bottled up inside and hide from the world. As I sat in lesson I looked at the other furs in the class, watching them, happy and joyful. How could they be so care-free? Knowing that there are furs in this world suffering, suffering like I am.

Occasionally I felt the urge to just cry, but I couldn't. I wouldn't show another sign of weakness for those ass-holes to attack ad make me more of an outsider. I knew it now I was alone, alone in this world, I could not trust anyone. No one at all. In all my confusion I began to think of reasons why Serevus would leave. I came back to the conclusion which I first ever thought of when he first spoke to me. It was obvious, he was a sinister, sadistic bastard out to hurt me. He knew my weakness from the moment he saw me and he exploited it. He made a fool of me and I would never forgive him.

Soon the school day came to a close and I began my usual walk home. Walking home alone left me open to those racist thugs who would just call out remarks to me for the sake of it. As I walked, many furs I passed barged me, pushed me or just called out insults like "go crawl back under a rock scalie!". there insults did not effect me. I was to full of hate to bother with such pathetic furs.

When I arrived home I just got changed into my casual clothes and thought of anything I could do to put my mind at ease. I decided to paint. I walked down stairs and into my front room where a newspaper and paints were already laid out from previously. I pulled over my box containing my models and just painted anything I saw that was unfinished. I painted long into the afternoon, my dad arrived back from work as usual and sat in front of the T.V. when I was offered any dinner, I was still too upset to eat.

I began to get tired and as I looked at the time I noticed it was half eleven at night, I packed my stuff away and was about to go to bed. Just as I was about to leave I noted a blue figure on the table. Certainly it was not one of mine, my models were painted green. I wandered over to the lone figure and picked it up. For a moment as I stared at it I saw a small humanoid figure wielding a sword. But as I stared at it, I could see him, I could see Serevus's eyes staring back at me. I knew what I thought about him was wrong. Undoubtedly he loved me as much as I loved him. How could I ever have doubted that!? And with that I placed the model into my pocket, knowing that if I kept it safe, my relationship with Serevus would also be safe, and I went to bet, crying myself t sleep.

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It was a long day, being locked up in his room all day by his father Serevus lay in bed, almost as confused as Brian, having a wild mix of emotions in his heart for the ones he loved. Laying there Serevus stared at the ceiling just thinking of a solution to his promise. His concentration was broken by a knock at the door.

"Serevus you have to eat something at least!" a loud voice boomed from behind the door. Serevus turned on his side and sulked. Calling out in response.

"No, I'm not eating!"

"Son you have to eat something!"

"I am not going to eat until you say I am aloud to see my friend!"

"I will not let you be gay, especially with a scalie!"

Serevus's voice angered at his fathers presence and yelled at him, almost in tears.

"I AM NOT GAY WITH HIM!!!!!!"

Serevus's dad tried to keep calm but he too began to get angered

"son, do not play me for a fool, I could smell his scent on you! It was so strong that the only explanation is that you fucked with him!"

Ignoring his dads last statement Serevus's continued with his argument.

"and what the fuck have you got against scalies! He's just like you or me!"

Furiously accepting defeat, his dad stormed of yelling at the smaller wolf.

"Fine then, stay in your room, were moving tomorrow and you are not seeing that filthy lizard again!"

Serevus's heart sank as his dad lowered down the stairs, continuing his own thoughts of escape. Climbing out the window was not a good idea seeing as he lived a the tenth floor apartment and falling form this height would surely kill a fur. The bedroom door was locked from the outside too. This bedroom had become Serevus's prison . With no hope of escape Serevus just curled up, crying into hi knee's and fell asleep.

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The next morning did not bring happiness as Brian had hoped. At breakfast he was silent, watching the T.V. from the table eating a bowl of cereal. Though he could see the T.V. he paid no attention, lost in his own world of though. As he sat Brian's dad could easily notice he was upset and broke the uneasy silence.

"son, are you ok there?"

Brian did not hear his fathers voice and continued to stare, thinking that maybe if he went to school Serevus would be there, maybe if I entered the form room he would be there waiting for him.

"Brian?" his father asked again, this time getting his attention.

"Yes dad?"

"Are you ok? You seem upset"

Brian was very hesitant to answer, he couldn't exactly just say that he was worried about his gay lover. What would his dad say? Brian just looked at his dad reassuringly.

"Yeah I'm fine, just thinking"

His dad just nodded and smiled "ok, you better leave soon otherwise you will be late for school"

Brian quickly looked at the clock, it was seven thirty, he should have left five minutes ago.

"Shit, I better go now, bye dad!" Brian smiled at his dad, grabbing his bag and coat and heading out for school.

Luckily Brian ran most the way and got to school the same time he usually did. He walked up the stairs and was confronted by the large, blue, cold, steel door that leads to the form room. The only metal door in the entire school. Brian became nervous as he reached for the handle, grasping it firmly in is claw. Taking in a deep breath and lowering it, pushing the door slowly open, hoping to see Serevus in his usual seat. The door slowly swung forward and revealed an empty class, all except for Gizel of course.

Slightly arched forward in depression Brian made his way to his seat and sat down. Removing the model from his pocket and staring at it, reminding himself of what he said yesterday, quietly mumbling it under his breath.

"As long as I keep this safe Serevus will be safe and we will meet up again, and we will be lovers once more..."

Quietly Brian repeated this to himself, feeling powerless to finding Serevus. Beating himself up inside, wondering why, out of all the time he spent with him he had never even got a phone number or an address. As Brian stared at the model, a tear formed at the edge of his eye and trickled down his face, just like the rain drops were running down the window from the rain outside.

The room was silent for a while, Gizel still had not attempted to start a conversation, the only sound was the pitter-patter of the rain outside. Soon the silence was broken as a familiar voice spoke to Brian.

"That's a nice model, did you paint it?"

Brian raised his head, wiping the tear from his scales on his cheek, seeing the fox Gizel leaning over, carefully looking at the model in Brian's hand. Trying to hide the fact he was crying he spoke back.

"No, this is Serevus's, I keep it on me all the time now, so I never forget him"

Gizel just smiled and continued, no longer in her usual happy tone of voice, but now very sympathetic/ she sat next to Brian, Brian taking little notice.

"You miss him don't you?"

Brian just nodded, closing his eyes as another tear ran down the side of his face, it was quickly wiped off with a tissue by Gizel and Brian turned to face her.

"Thanks...." the depression in his voice was obvious. "...its just that he was such a good friend to me, don't know what I will do without him." Brian began to cry more and more, tears flooding down his face. Gizel surprisingly to Brian, hugged him close, resting his head in her chest and softly rubbing his head scales.

"It's ok Brian I'm here for you, I know he was a good friend to you, I know it hurts now, but you will get over it."

For some reason, Brian felt as if he could trust Gizel, out of every fur he had ever met, besides Serevus, she was the only one to talk to him in such a friendly manor. Between sobs Brian tried to explain to her why it hurt so bad.

"We...*sob*...We were closer than friends...*sob*... I loved him and...*sob*... he loved me"

Shockingly to Brian Gizel was not effected in an way, in fact she laughed a bit and smiled at the crying dragon.

"I thought as much, though you two tried to hide it, it was obvious"

By now Brian had placed the model on the table and was hugging the fox close, feeling her soft paw run across his head as he wrapped his arms around her. The room fell once more into a silence, only hearing the falling rain and gently sobbing of a heart broken dragon.

Once again the silence was broken, but this time it was a feline standing at the door. Another member of Brian's form class standing there chuckling.

"Now I see what's going on Gizel, you're a filthy lizard lover. that's why you two are here so early, so you can make out without us knowing." the sinister voice said.

Brian just ignored him, but Gizel, still comforting Brian looked around yelling at the feline.

"Steven, grow up you ass hole, he lost his best friend and I thought it was about time that more of us just stop being so childish and spoke to him!"

The feline just laughed quietly, walking over to the two, gazing his eyes upon the model.

"Sure it is Gizel, I believe you" he said sarcastically as he snatched the model and jumped away. Brian quickly getting to his feet, now angered beyond belief.

"Give it back before I kill you" the look in Brian's eyes were serious, very little was holding him back at that moment.

"Steven for heavens sake, stop being suck a dick head and give it back!"

The feline just ignored the warnings and continued to tease, smiling sadistically at the dragon.

"So what would happed if I did this?"

And as the feline asked the rhetorical question his paw clenched around the model, squeezing it causing to snap in several places. And as that snapped something inside of Brian snapped, instantly he lunged forward grabbing Steven by the throat, lifting a foot or so from the floor and with his other claw, pounding into his stomach. The feline was gasping for breath before Brian slammed him onto a table jumping forward once more to assault him before being stopped by Gizel yelling "STOP, Brian that's enough!"

Brian managed to calm himself, turning to Gizel as she handed him the remains of the model, yet again silence fell across the room, thunder striking in the background as Brian noticed a teacher at the door, signalling him to walk over there. The teacher had seen everything, Steven got off with a warning, Brian though, being a scalie, was given a weeks suspension and was sent home.

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Serevus awoke by the sound of his door closing, looking around he had noticed most of his possessions gone. He father must have came n during his sleep to pack them away. Serevus sighed with depression and walked to the window, watching the moving truck drive off with all our stuff in it. As he watched passed the droplets of water on the window, a tear ran down the soft fur on his cheek, knowing that it was certain, he was not going to see Brian at all. He stood there for ages, softly crying, depressed and lonely, concentrating of the sound of the falling rain. His peace was ruined by a knock on the door.

"Son get up, were going soon"

And before he could respond his dad went back down stairs. Serevus turned and kicked an empty box on the floor, anything to relieve his anger for his dad. Soon after Serevus made his way down stairs and sat at the table where his dad was. His dad saying as little as possible, turned to him still with a look of hatred and anger.

"You going to eat anything?"

Serevus just looked down at the floor, avoiding his dads gaze and just shook his head.

"Good were going now" his father said walking out of the small kitchen. Serevus just stood still, reluctant to move.

"Son your coming whether you like it or not"

Still Serevus remained silent and stood perfectly still, it was the only form of protest that Serevus could see left. Enraged and furious his father grabbed his arm and proceeded to drag him from his spot, only getting a few feet before Serevus grabbed hold of the door frame, still not wanting to leave.

"Oh fucking hell, I do not need this!"

Serevus's father was still angry and did not try to reason, he only sent one blow to the back of his son's skull, knocking him out temporarily. Serevus was then carried to the car where his dad place him in the front passenger seat and locked the doors. Driving away for good, never to return.

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Brian arrived home and just stormed in, almost throwing the model to one side and crying, while sitting in an arm chair. Upset and confused, not knowing what to do. After a few minutes or so Brian was physically hurting from crying too much and looked up. Through his watery eyes he stared at the model and decided t try and fix it. Brian walked into the front room, wiping the tears from his eyes and trying to hold back more. Closing the curtains making it really dark in the room. Sitting at one end of the table and turning on a small desk lamp, holding the model pieces tightly, carefully applying the glue and restoring it to its usual glorious self. In order to make sure it was almost perfect Brian spent ages fixing it. Only with a few scratches and small marks it was restored to the best of Brian's ability. Tired, upset, and to an extent confused Brian returned to the living room and switched on the T.V. watching anything that was on.

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Serevus's dad had not been driving for too long before he regained consciousness and looked around to see if he noticed anything familiar about the scenery around them, trying to ignore his dad.

"I'm sorry son, I had to do that, its for your own good"

Serevus just continued looking out of the side window, watching the road as they passed it.

"Son I am talking to you"

Serevus was still had an unbelievable amount of hatred in his heart for his dad, and saw no point to hiding it from him. Serevus just replied in short, spiteful words, to almost all of his dads questions.

"So, your point?"

"My point is Serevus, you should listen to me I'm your dad"

"Why don't you act more like it then?"

Serevus's dad tried to keep his cool, knowing his son was going through a lot at the moment.

"You may not know it, but you will thank me for this in the future"

Serevus just looked over with one eye, questioningly.

"Oh yeah? And how's that dad?" He asked, with no consideration towards his dad what so ever.

"One day you will meet a nice wolf, and she will make you the happiest guy in the world, and you wont get ridiculed for being gay and loving a filthy scaly"

Serevus just pouted in disapproval to his dads last comment, causing his father to once more become angry.

"Trust me the is for your own good, I wont let you go back to him"

"And why not!?" Serevus screamed at his dad

"Because if you do you will probably fuck that scaly again, I know you, you will"

Serevus turned away and stared out the window, hiding the tears slowly washing over his face.

"You don't know me dad, if you knew me you would take me back to the person I love"

And with that an un-easy silence fell in the car. The only sound was the rain hitting the front windscreen the and running down, just like the tears falling from Serevus's eyes.

About ten minutes passed before Serevus conducted a plan of escape. He slowly turned his head, making sure his dad was not watching as Serevus carefully played with the lock on the car door trying to wedge it open. Soon enough the door was unlocked, still his dad watched the road, too lost in his own thoughts to notice Serevus. Serevus took one deep breath and opened the door while the car was still moving. Falling out so he rolled as he hit the ground, managing to escape from the car with minor injuries. For the moment...

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Brian was still lazing around, listening to the thundering rain outside as he flicked through the various channels on T.V. soon he came to the news, hoping that hearing of other furs misfortunes would cheer him up a bit. The equine on the T.V. was running through all the headlines before the entire station went into hysterics.

"News just in, there has been a major crash on the M25 motorway, a pile up of over 30 cars is now estimated, several are already presumed dead many injured. We now go live to the scene with Clara"

The screen changed from the image of the equine in the station to a fox outside with masses of twisted metal behind her. As she reported what was going on the camera panned, from left to right showing all of the cars involved. Brian' heart died and he almost threw up when he saw it, Serevus. Undoubtedly it was him, impaled under a car. Tears were streaming from Brian' face as he yelled out, feeling futile to do anything at all. Soon the wolf left the camera's view leaving a sickening feeling in Brian's stomach. Brian quickly grabbed the model and ran out into the back garden, pulling a blue water-proof sheet off from his bike which was old and rusted anyway. Unlocking the bike and rapidly riding it, trying to reach Serevus as quickly as possible.

Brian's entire body became numb, no longer was he restricted by the physical means of his body as he pedalled as hard as he could, flying down the road, dodging the cars as he rode by, skipping red lights and narrowly avoiding more crashes. The M25 was not too far from where he lived, but the fact it extended all around London did not help. Soon Brian came up to a massive traffic jam, being able to avoid the congestion he continued, knowing he was getting closer to his love. Surely enough he came up to a police barricade, they were not going to stop him at all. The crash scene was almost in sight. Jumping off of the bike and running around, desperately looking for Serevus, pushing all officials out of the way. Moments passed as Brian called out Serevus's name, but no reply. Constantly having police officers attempting to drag him from the scene Brian struggled free and continued to look.

After a while he saw a section of cars which were familiar, rushing over there Serevus was still there, unconscious Brian made sure he was still living. For how long was uncertain. Unsure what to do Brian grasped the cold steel which was embedded into Serevus and attempted to life the two or so tons which lay on top. Still to no avail it did not lift. Brian was not going to give up. He tried and tried again but still the metal did not give way.

Exhausted Brian collapsed to the floor next to Serevus, Tears streaming from his eyes, covered by the rain.

"I am so sorry Serevus, I was too late. I can't do anything to save you, it's impossible"

Brian could not continue to talk as his sobbing soon over came him, kissing Serevus one last time on his Muzzle. The wolf gently beginning to stir.

"Brian?.....Brian is that you?"

Excitement overwhelmed Brian, knowing that he could at least say good bye to his lover.

"Yes Serevus its me"

Tears continued to stream down his face as he smiled at his friend, dying there on the hard floor.

"I'm sorry I left Brian....I had no choice..."

Serevus had fallen back unconscious and lay there, eyes closed, staring into the sky as the water fell onto his eye lids.

"No!...Serevus wake up, please!....Pleas wake up!"

The dragon shook him vigorously, trying to awake him, but still the wolf lay there silent. Soon a new emotion flooded into Brian, a hatred, not for any single fur, or group of furs, but for life. And how horrible it is to the ones who do not deserve it. Brian tried once more to lift Serevus from his cold, steel grave. Pulling at the cars a new strength came over Brian as he screamed out loud, trying with all of his might. The twisted pile of metal slowly lifting higher and higher into the air. Soon enough space was there for the wolf to slip free, taking this small window of opportunity Brian used his tail to pull his lover to safety, almost immediately after giving way and collapsing, the cars making a thundering noise as they fell back to the ground. With what little strength Brian clambered to his feet, carrying the injured wolf in his arms, slowly walking from the nightmare, luckily finding a ambulance near by who willingly took them to hospital.

A couple of days passed and Serevus was still in hospital, in a coma and unsure when he would awake. Brian did not leave his side. Constantly holding the wolf's paw tightly and brushing his fur softly. Not once was Brian seen without a tear in his eye. He was visited many times. By his dad and school friends. It was now official they all knew he was gay, but amazingly they all respected him. During the escapade where Brian freed his friend, a camera was watching all the time, the entire country saw this. Reporters constantly wanted interviews with Brian, wanting to know where he summoned the super-fur (not super-human) strength from. All the time he refused so he could make sure that he was there when Serevus woke up. Like usual, Brian sat, next to his lover late into the night and fell asleep, still not letting go of the paw.

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Brian awoke late into the morning and looked up to see a joyful smiling wolf smiling back at him, tears running from his eye. Overwhelmed with happiness the dragon jumped up and hugged him tightly, the wolf hugging back, both of them crying with relief and joy.

"Brian I don't know hoe to repay you, you saved my life!"

"It was nothing, you would have done the same for me"

The two continued to hug and kissed deeply, ignoring the other furs in the ward. Suddenly the two were interrupted by a voice at the door. Looking over there was a wolf, much like Serevus but taller and looked much stronger. He was in a wheelchair with both legs broken. He wheeled over to Brian and grabbed his claw shaking it as a sign of friendship.

"I am so thankful, you saved my sons life, I don't know what would have happened if you did not show up"

Brian nodded, simply smiling at the wolf. Serevus looking at his dad with shock and looked questioningly at him.

"It's ok son, I am no longer bothered that you are gay, and I don't care that he is a scaly. I am just sorry it took me so long to realise this"

Serevus smiled, and cried even more with joy as he hugged Brian again, kissing him again, ready to continue their love, but this time more openly...

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