Chp. 7) My Brother's Guilt
Author's notes: Hey everyone still reading this one's kinda sad... I had this planned from the seond chapter so I can at least say I'm glad it finally happened but still I know it won't make some furs very happy to see what. Anyway I had two songs playing back to back the entire time, Spring fur Mich and Sonne both form Rammstein. I hope that helps the last paragraph make a little deeper of meaning. Normal stuff about tags... ect. Enjoy
~Willace <>
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My Brother's Guilt
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Tapping his pencil hysterically on the wooded surface Leon assaulted the desk top with haphazard's marks. "School sucks!" he groaned below the droning voice of his teacher; attempting to push the frustration out of his head. Trigomatry, Litatutre and the Arts, Advanced Earth Science? Who the hell needed to know all this pointless information, a trivia host? Starring hopelessly at his text book the exhausted timber wolf felt on the verge of passing out. The final bell was only minutes away but god knew those last ten minutes felt like eons.
When the sweetest release of three o'clock came a sensation of un imaginable alleviation hit him like a blizzard tossed mountain-top. This of course was followed shortly thereafter by the realization that he'd have to face some demons from his past. "Just relax. Plain and simple, look Theo in the face and tell him you're taken already." Knowing already that it wasn't nearly as neatly devised plan as he could pretend it was, Leon's heart-beat began to pick up. Inevitably the black furred fox would ask by who did Leon have his affections taken. That answer was a little too taboo. Still he'd managed to drum up that it was a slightly younger boy who cared deeply for him. Afterall would the entire awkwardness of this situation call for anything more than just a brief and hazy answer?
West court-yard three twenty-five, the scheduled place and date for the encounter. Private enough to avoid peers but public enough to inssure a scene couldn't be made if things went sour. By the bushes the built outline of a Vulpine stood, paws shoved deep into expensive pockets and eyes scanning hopefully around. Leon gulped, this was going to be worse than he imagined. Seeing his classmate there, heart on the ledge, it was gut-wrenching, especially knowing that he'd had shown up only to be shot down.
"Hey there Theo..." Leon spoke from across the concrete walkway. Fuck he could see it in the fox's eyes already; this was going to result in tears. "Hey Lee," he responded giving the wolf a brand-new nick-name. Yeah this was going to be difficult.
"Listen, a few months ago, I..." he stopped. Heart-ache was trapped inbetween every word. "You came up to me and asked if I'd go out with you. At the time I only just thought about apperances, how other's would see it if I was... you know, 'that way' and on the football team. But now it feels that turning you down like that was, well it was a really shitty thing for me to do. Now I want to make amends for it." Now the ball was in Leon's court, he could either make a very sharp and abrasive remark about being too little to late or politely decline him. Putting his usual nature aside Leon chose the latter of the two.
A few steps closer and he prepared himself, arms at the ready to contribute with emotion-filled movements. "Look, Theo, it's like this, I was really hoping I could come down here today and just blow you off. Still I just can't do that, but I can't accept your offer either. Hell I even wished at one point that I could have fucked you, like a ridiculous amount. That being said, I found somebody else. But I want you to know, I still want us to at very least try to have a friendship. You gave me a lot of pain over these last couple months but you also helped me to get a little more clarity in my life. So for that I just wanna' say thank you. If there's ever anything that you need to talk about, I guess you got my number and hell, I bet you know where we live." Shit! that last line 'where we live' was an absolute deathseantce. It practically colured in the fact that Rues was the 'other guy.'
As if on cue, the sky began to turn gray while it cried drops of rain and a tempest stirred across the almost empty lot. The wind tossing leaves and dust between them, Leon fell silent, waiting for a response. Anything, any word or emotion or sign to let him know how the rest of this was to play out. Painful as it was not to say anything, it was doubtful to Leon if he even could.
"But I need you in my life..." barely audible over the howling winds as fire in his eyes burnt. "Would you just.... just hang out with me today? It'll be just for a little bit and I..." Leon stopped him by raising his right paw. "Trust me, I understand what it means to need someone and I need the guy I'm with. But because I came to you first in the past so I'll wave the olive branch and we'll chill someplace for a little bit. It won't be a date or anything but I guess you can count it as more than just a couple of guys hanging together." Feeling rather gallant about the offer he made Leon didn't have to even try to make the smile he was wearing, it just seemed to happen by fate.
"Oo... Okay," Theodore said taking his paws out of his pockets. As tensions levels dropped they each walked over to the closest bench safe from the rain and sat down, chatting casually. The normal 'how was your day' was exchanged with bland answers as expected and the conversation began to turn towards football.
"Hey, all I'm saying is that that many buff guys running around and tackling one another is a great thing." Theodore joked as he rest his muzzle in his paws, his elbows on the table. "Yeah, I bet the whole showering together thing has nothing to do with it either." Leon replied, carrying a smile to match his new-found friend's. "Oh my god, you wouldn't believe how hard it is to shower with that many butt-naked guys and not get a friggin' stiffy." Feeling himself in such a predicament just thinking about, the vulp blushed. Leon was too busy worrying about the same thing happening to him to notice.
This isn't good, he thought fighting with his sex-drive. He was finding that Theo and him had more in common that first assumed; despite the obviously drastic difference in social circles. Frighten by the feeling of intimacy he had growing in him, a worried timber wolf coughed deeply and brought the conversation to a close. It just felt like the entire time he was betraying his brother's trust.
Respectively shaking paws, Leon tried his best to avoid eye contact. He couldn't risk letting the enjoyment of Theodore's touch be known. "So can we hang after I get off work tonight?" Theo hoped taking a shot in the dark for affection. "I guess, but I gotta' go right now. Promised I'd chill with the little brother tonight so... umm, see you later." His response felt way too forward, as if there should have been more hesitance behind it. Still why not befriend Theo? He'd be the first real friend Leon would have aside from his Rues or his two cousins.
Being overtly excited, Theo wagged his bushy tail and grinned. "Meet me out back of the store around a quarter after. From there we can do whatever two gay guys who aren't dating do together ." Chuckling as he walked towards his car Leon gave a thumbs up, then waved goodbye.
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Rues leafed through his brother's Mechanics Monthly as Leon pulled into the parking spot out front. Tossing last months issue to the floor he made a mad dash for the door just when his brother walked in. Skidding to a stop mere inches from collision Rues looked as if he'd explode with joy. "Hello, Leon, I missed you crazy amounts today." He exclaimed forcing a deathsqueeze of a hug. Great, who gave him caffeine? Leon thought having his lungs cut off by two furry white arms.
"Whattya' mean you missed me at school dude? We eat lunch together you dope!" Leon groaned as Rues loosened his grip. Shutting the door he looked back at the dragon with a tired bemusement in his eyes. "That's not what I mean you jerk, I missed you at school. Come up stairs and we'll... We will..." He looked around for an lack of their parents and then whispered discreetly "...have sex." Seeing the look on his pale face was just priceless. Still so much like a child but a touch of adult features where finally setting in around his muzzle and eyes. "Oooohhh, a new word for you, did Kodie teach you that?" jeered Leon and Rues stuck his tongue out in response.
"Hmph! As if." Rues put his paws on his hips and tapped his hindpaw on the floor. "Miles and Kodie already left around four. By the way where were you? Mom was complaining that it was really rude of you to be so late; it's nearly four thirty." Shocked that time had gotten away from him Leon gulped and made up an excuse. "Hard at work. Here take this to my room before it breaks my fricken back." Moaned the older wolf, dropping his bookbag into his brother's arms. "Feel that, that's three books I have to study tonight so we have limited time to fool around. Not to mention I have no clue how long the parentials while be away for." It came across as a little rude, but Rues paid it no mind. He was simply happy that he and his brother were about to play around again. Especially considering it was so soon after they had switched positions under the sheets. Merrily he walked behind his brother down the hall, swishing his tail as he went.
With a loud thump Leon collapsed his weight on the bed and his brother closed the door behind him. Looking up after Rues dropped the bag to the floor, a peculiar notion set in. "Rues, your horns looks umm, different. Did they grow or something?" Nodding the pale little dragon smile proudly. "I think I'm going through a growth-spurt, Bruderlien. Infact I have been getting some very nice complements about them today from Kodie and the other kids at school. My biology teacher says pretty soon I'll sprout wings too!"
Laughing at the ludicrous idea Leon motioned for his brother to sit beside him on the bed. "Don't be stupid dude. I think dragons are born with those if they have them. It's not like they magically appear out of thin air." Obviously Rues had serious hopes that it could happen like that. Trying to convince his brother Leon lifted his brother's shirt off and stroked his back. "Wings are like arms," he explained kneading circles into the worn shoulders. "They're made out of muscle and bones and stuff. And as much of a kick it would be to see you with them, I don't think you're that breed." Satisfied with the answer Rues turned to nuzzled his brother's shoulder affectionately. His way of saying 'okay, you're right, now let's cuddle.'
His brother's scent, a familiar and calming one drifted into the young dragon's nose. Gently Rues's heart slowed and he sighed contently "Stop sniffing me weirdo," Leon huffed with a bit of a laugh and rested a paw softly in the crevasses of his brother's lap. His fingers laid there tenderly and sparked Rues's arousal from the sensations of warmth and touch. "We always end up on my bed huh?"
Rain drops began to pitter on the window pane again and Rues gave another nuzzling stroke with his maw. For as great as it felt, a loving touch only his brother could perform, the wolf's body didn't respond in the same manor as usual. "What's the matter, Leon? Not feeling like it right now?" There was a lingering disappointment in his words as the pale dragon drew his muzzle back slightly. "It's not that Rues, just needs to some convincing right now. Mind if we just paw each other off for a bit?" Like as if he didn't already know the answer, Leon watch his adopted brother snicker and give a consenting smile. "Great, let's start with you."
Dancing his fingers up to Rues's waistline, Leon unlatched the silver button that held his brother's pant's together. As it parted from its loop Rues's anatomy helped to split the zipper. "You're certainly blessed Rues, a guy could be jealous." Leon remarked seeing the usual sizely tent.
"Yeah well you have the entire knotting thing to hold over me, so we'll call it even." giggled a playful dragon, fingers busy at Leon's belt. Black briefs were the pick of the day for the younger teenager and it made for an interesting combination against Rues's colourless stomach. Obviously he did miss his brother, damp spots were quickly forming at the pinnacle of the bulge. Too busy to care about his own shaft, Rues did all that he could to provide a relieving freedom for his brother's boxer-shorts. Skillfully as possible he slid the khaki shorts as far down as he could. Once those pesky coverings were gone he plastered the area with a ten press of fingers and thumbs, leaving a covered sheath in the middle. "Aih! Easy!!!" Almost whining Leon felt his soft tip rub against the inside of his boxers a little too roughly. "Whoops," was the only response he got in return to his outcry. Instead of slowing, Rues slipped his fingers around the elastic band and tugged them out and then down, careful to only brush his brother's sensitive sheath.
To match his brother's enthusiasm Leon snuck a paw inside his sibling's briefs and slid a finger around the base of a shaft he found there. "Awwwwhhhhh, more..." Rues moaned while feeling a rough paw-pad toy with the hard mast buried beneath the underwear. Teasing the meat, Leon gave a half-hearted pull then withdrew his paw. Dwelling on the thought that their sex had always involved some amount of pain for at least one of them, Leon looked for a way around it. "Gonna' suck you off for a little while then you throat me, any opposel?" he asked humorously, squinting his eyes into a coy smile. "Nah, I like the idea, let's go for it." Rues replied amused by the entirety of the question. So with a diligent paw the older wolf helped Rues undress even further until his lower half was completely bare.
That beautiful crown stood held high, practically drenched in the young dragon's fluids. Gliding his broad tongue so slowly up the base Leon stroked his brother's shaft with a tempting kissing. From there it was pretty simple putting his muzzle to good use. Stuffing his face full Leon used all of leverage he could take to bob his head while avoiding any contact form his teeth. "Oooohhhhh eat it like a cupcake!!!" Rues exclaimed over the noisy slurping sounds between his legs. Trailing his moist muscle up the veiny shaft Leon coughed a little, surprised by a pair of paws pushing down on his head. He wanted to spit out Rues's member and tell him there was no chance in hell he'd swallow after a comment like that; but why bother? It was better to just be humble here than to deal with a money shot to the face. Yeah maybe humble wasn't the best word.
Letting Rues's paws do most of the work Leon sucked it for all he was worth. With pulling force his mouth was lead along with heavy thrusts downward then drawn back up from the base to the rigid top. Time and time again the wolf's jaw was split further apart to encompass the massive appendage that was being wedged down a very sore throat. Breathing was barely accomplishable as fluids poured from the sides of his furry brown muzzle. It was a strong warning the little draggy pup would blow in moments. Thrashing his tail all the world ceased to matter and the only control Rues had was in his paws. Fingers clasped so tightly by two perked ears Rues stopped moaning and began to blow his breaths as nasally sniffs through his nose. Sweet dampened his forehead and his face a pallet of blush mixed into his white fur to show pink like a rose. A twinge, tail shooting straight up, and then waves of eruptions into Leon's beaten throat. As climaxed blossomed he last all control of sight and his arms, falling forward on his brother's shoulder like deadweight. "You're... the best."
The intimacy of letting his exhausted body lean so heavily upon his brother's shoulder nearly felt better than his orgasm. "Okay... you turn, Leon." Too busy dealing with a creamy mouth to reply verbally Leon tucked and arm around his brother's neck. Swiftly before Rues could figure out his plans the older sibling drew their faces together for a kiss. It was meet with full consent until a sloppy wolf tongue gave Rues a 'taste' of what was left after the first attempt at swallowing. "Weak, man." the pale dragon giggled wiping the transferred spooge away.
Leon reclined himself backwards, starring at his brother's goofy looking horns. Sure enough parts of his brother were beginning to grow up. Listening to Rues's heart beat he also heard the shower of rain continued to collide against the outside of their happy little home. It reminded him of when the rain started and who he was with.
"Hey Leon, earth calling. You gonna' pass out or something?" Rues asked snapping his brother back to reality. "What? Oh, just taking a rest. My fricken throat feels like raw hamburger, thanks to you." It didn't quite hurt as much as claimed but if he could get the sympathy vote, Leon's turn at Rues's mouth could end up being ten times better than what he just gave. "Oh and if you ever mention the cupcakes again during sex, I'm gonna' make you eat something truely nasty." Oh shit, Leon thought seeing things clicking in his head about his last statement. Hopefully Rues couldn't piece it together how it was intended.
"Like your tail-hole?" Rues asked grinning like there was no tomorrow. "Do even fucking think about it Rues. I'm ever gonna' put one thing beneath your tail and it sure as hell ain't my tongue." He shot back arching his back off the bed violently and almost glaring. Throwing up his arms Rues wave frantically. "Na... not what I thought you meant. I thought you wanted me to do that... for you." Interesting proposition but it held very little promise. "Don't be a such a dope. I don't like taking it, so why would I like a rimjob?" Such a term was never mentioned to him before so it took a moment for the little brother to put one and one together. The entire exchange had almost ruined the romantic tone of the evening but Leon did his best patchwork to heal his rising temper. "Hey, look, sorry I over acted. Come here."
Rues spread out next to his brother, resting his head lightly across Leon's chest, eyes towards his hindpaws. "I love you Bro, Sorry I snapped. Don't worry about your part of the agreement just yet, let's just... ~sigh~ Snuggle." Those horns, he just couldn't get past them. As if they were calling out to him, Leon lifted his arm and traced the swirl, his finger barely making contact. "I feel that, ya' know." Surprised it could be detected, the timber drew in a deep breath, Rues's head sinking down as his brother's lungs filled. A slow steady exhale floated out of his onyx nose. "Screw it, Rues, instead of saying 'aww' just use your paw this time 'round."
It wasn't that the thought of cramming his meat down his dear brother's mouth would be that tedious a thing, Rues just didn't quite have the finer parts of a blow-job down. So as his mind wondered Rues put his paw to work cupping his grasp around what lay just beyond his face. Front-row seat again Rues joked in his head, admiring the peculiar anatomy of canine nature. It always amused him so, to see those glands swell, the odd shaped tip sprout, even the extreme sensitivity of the whole rod. True Rues did have some 'special spot's' on his naughty bits, but they weren't nearly as defined as Leon's. They way it was explained, the entire shaft responded the way his phallus did to softest touch. That's why it was important to be gentle, if too much effort was put into pawing him off Leon wouldn't reach climax, just soreness. Fortunately the little dragon had tactics to help him along, namely massaging his brother's sack at the same time.
Things began to become a little sticky around Leon's navel and his breathing became a little more forced. Still he laid almost motionless, his body harmonizing to his lover's playful attention and eyes half open. Rues took it as a sign to explore any method he could drum up to excite. Truth be told, Leon's mind was just elsewhere, trapped in other concerns.
Resisting his raising emotions was hard to do, still Leon locked his face towards the clouds beyond the roof. His mouth was now gaped, his every breath escaping as gasps into the open air and the world became tinted with a hazy gray. Spurting he felt himself unwind, but not like the other's times. Solely physical satisfaction only to the point of mere release, Leon felt himself slip past the brink. His cum didn't travel very far, still it managed to land a few inches from his brother's face. "Shit, man normally I'd be soaked. That was a little less bang than normal, are you sure you're feeling alright?" It was a question he really couldn't answer. So worn out from the sudden drop of endorphins and the totality of his day Leon simply nodded his head and sighed. "Yeah man, I'll be fine. Guess I won't have to study biology tonight at least."
What a bad pun Rues thought laughing all the same. "So what do you have to study then?" A bunch of pointless crap in Leon's mind, still he couldn't afford to let his grades slip. "The norm. ya' know math and english and stuff." He replied, cleaning his chest he wiped the excess on the bed and nudged for them to sit up. "Gotta' hit the books, and I got somewhere to be tonight also. Can you cover for me if mom asks?"
It felt terrible to have his brother build an alibi. Not to mention for something that felt like ditching him to see someone else. Still he tried to reason that he didn't have those feelings for Theodore anymore so it would be okay. "Can I get a kiss before I head out?" Rues pleaded hopefully. Here a few a year ago this would have all been a sickening proposal to the wolf, now it was the average everyday, to so intimately meet his brother's affection. "Sure." Things had a strange way off turning around.
It was brief, still if felt so tender, so moving Leon had drawn close to tears. He wasn't the kind to harbor such immense emotions and it was literally draining him. "Look, Rues, I gotta' let you know where I'm going. Theo came to me today, asking for forgiveness and I said I'd accept. I planned on meeting him after he finished at his job, not for a date or anything, just to talk... If you don't feel comfortable with me going, I won't ask you to put that amount of trust in me, but I want you to know I'd be faithful to you before anything else."
Rues sat, his paws had drawn to a close between his knees and his eyes glistened with tears. At first it seemed like hurt, that Leon had really been deceitful, but a smile broke those worries. "Go, I know you wanted him for a while but I also know what you're like Leon. We've been best bud's since before we were a pair, so I ain't got anything to worry about." Basking in the afterglow of his brother's confession Rues watched the raging tides in his lover's mind calm. "Hey little dope, let's get dressed and grab a meal together. I've got a while before I said we'd meet." The old names seem to help warm the air between them.
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Sunset slipping down past the horizon and Leon waved a goodbye to his brother from his elegant muscle car. Rues's out stretched arms seemed to say let me hold you one second longer before you go but the words would never be ask in such a time as this. An engine like the thunder from an hour before and Leon was gone from sight. Something tore at the little white dragon's stomach seeing his lover vanish down the road.
It wasn't a very long drive to his destination but each glimpse out the window brought back deluge of memories of times with Rues. In the corner of his amber eye a highway sign caught his attention, it read 'State Mall 23 Miles north' and a pain began in his mind. "I mean the plaza mall, not the MALL mall..." a lyric from the first day the spent as a couple. The question of weither their love would have grown if fate decided differently on that day splintered through the dark corners of his brain. It was a thought he carried as he pulled into the nearly deserted plaza and stepped out of his cherry red ride.
For a moment Leon rested his paw on the door, almost as if he might abandon his drive to settle his troubled mind. As his fingers pushed the doorframe closed he drew in the deepest breath of his life. His pace was slow as he rounded the buildings side, his breathing plagued by long pauses. The back door stood cracked, but otherwise mostly closed. "Ha...hello Theo?" he called out. A shadowy figure appeared as the doorway opened and Leon shivered "Hey there Lee, I've never been more excited to see you..." a brief pause, why did he smile so crookedly? "I want you Leon, let's take your shirt off." Leon gulped his fists locking. "No, I don't want this, to be in that position." This wasn't why he came here, it was never his intentions, still the ruggid advance sparked a tiny flame of arousal hidden in the fear.
"I told you Theo, I... I've got another guy to be mine, I didn't come here for romance or even a quick fling. So come on, let's just cruise around or something for a while." Leon turned, his bushy tail deadweight towards the ground. His steps away from the doorway seemed to pound like a cathedral bell despite the actuality of being soundless. As his paw landed on the loose gravel a crash shook his thoughts and a blistering pain flooded his mind. Blackness grew in Leon's sight and his body felt heavy. Smells of Iron and sweat thickened the air and he fell to his knees, his vision blurry. Theodore was standing above him, something wet and red dripping from his black paw. Terror filled the timber wolf then all else faded away.
What felt like hours later he awoke laying an open yard, his body shaking with pain. The grass beneath him felt strange and smelled almost like paint. Trying to focus his blistering mind Leon managed to realized he was on the football field, and that he was naked, aside form a sloppily buttoned shirt he knew wasn't his. God something went very wrong, the small spot of blood nearby assured him of that. For a moment the reality of being there naked by a bloody puddle didn't sink in, but once it did it was nightmarish. "FUCK!" Leon cried driving his fingers into the cheep field grass hunched over. "Oh fuck, Oh Fuck, OH FUCK!!!" He kept screaming until his stomach turned the wrong way. Wiether be it stress or abuse he could take it anymore it made his so sick that he vomited. "Fuck..." he whispered again, this time hoarsely through a bitter mouth.
Stripped of his dignity, his pride and anything resembling innocence, Leon crawled on his paws and knees to the storage shed. From there, he planned to wait til sunrise; all the while praying. Praying that those yellow rays would wake him from the horrible event like waking up from a nightmare.
~Heir Kompt Die Sonne~