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Death of the shepherd (part 1)

I woke up in a cold sweat, what was I dreaming about? What ever. What time is it anyway? Looking around I finally found my alarm clock on the floor, it was 8:00. That meant mom and dad were at work. Time to get dressed. Everyday I had the same routine, take a shower, get dressed and, watch tv till Jason gets here. I got into the shower and turned the water to hot. Even though it was summer I loved the feeling of hot water.

When the water hit my fur I felt like I was in heaven. I was consumed by this felling of warmth covering my body that I almost for got to shampoo. Working my way to my dresser I grabbed a black tank top and some black sweats. Before getting dressed I looked at myself in my body mirror. My name is Jacob I'm a 16 year old, 5 foot tall German shepard, I look like a regular greman shepard nothing special except I have the body of a soccer player and light blue eyes.

Working my way through the house I fianlly made it to the living room. I Watched tv till 9:00 when the doorbell rang. Jason was my best freind, we've known each other sense 1st grade. For some reason he always comes over early. Jumping down the stairs to the door I opened it to reveal a husky, Jason was about 5 feet tall like me, he had a patch of white fur the started at his neck, Covered his chest, and stopped after his sheath. I knew from the many showers we took together after gym. He had greens eyes that were either light green or dark green depending on the time of day. He had the body of a soccer player like me and was wearing some black shorts and our teams soccer jersy. "hey Jason. Come on in." He walked in and sat on the couch next to me. "so what do you want to do to day?" Jason gave no response instead he just looked at the floor. "Dude is something wrong?" he looked up and into my eyes, I saw a small tear in his eyes. "Jacob we've been freinds for a while now rite?" where was this leading? "umm yeah." he looked down again. "Ugh nevermind, you wanna play xbox?" weird what was he going to say? "sure whatever you want to do."

We played call of furry until we both got hungry and decided to go to a small pizza place in the middle of town. Mr.Denice the owner gave me and Jason a discount because he was freinds with jason's dad. I need to end This awkward. "so how's life at home?" he looked up from his half eatin slice of pizza. "fine I guess, my dads still yelling at me that I need to get out of the house more." Jason's dad always had a problem with everything he did. "Why? your at my house almost every day."

"Yeah he said that I should get a girlfreind." jason was a soccer player like me and I admit he could probably get a girl easy. Why didn't he have a girlfreind? I didn't have one because I didn't want one right now but what was jason's reason? "Earth to Jacob, you there?"

"Oh umm yeah sorry. I spaced out for a second."

"just like you, day dreaming. Anyway ready to go?"

"yeah where you want go next?"

"I don't care want to go see movie?"

"You paying?"

"Ugh can we split the pay?"

"Fine." with that we left and headed towards the movie theater.we watched some action flick with alot of shooting and explosions, It was about some cop was hunting down his wifes murderer that finds out that his wife is actually alive and the murderer's partner. In the end he shoots his wife. It was now 8:00 that they were walking out of the movie theater. "that movie had a sad ending." Jason said breaking the silence. "What do you mean?" he just looked at me shocked, "Well the cop shoots his wife dead. That makes the story line have a sad ending." I shrugged "Not all storys have a happy ending."

"But what about Childrens movies?"

"You got me there."

"Yay I win!"

"Ohh shut up."

By the time we got home it was almost 9:00. "Hey Jason it kind of late you want to spend the night?" He smiled at my question, "Sure man. Can I borrow a pair of sweats to sleep in?" I walked to my room and got a Pair of grey sweats and through them to him. Once we were dressed for bed we decided to play more xbox. Around 11:00 we finish playing a round of Nazi zombies and decided to just watch tv. Sometime around 12 we both fell asleep.

I opened my eyes to see Jason on his air mattress crying. His sobbing must have woke me up. Looking at the clock it read 7:10. I sat up, slid off my bed and sat next to him. He looked up realizeing I was awake. He sat up and tried to say something but I pulled him into a hug. I normally never hug people but I couldn't stand seeing my freind like this. He wrapped his arms around me returning the hug. "What's wrong Jason?" He looked up at me, "Jacob I had a dream were you... you hated me." I was shocked by what he said. "why would I hate you?" he began to cry again. "bec... because... because I'm gay." my body went stiff. I couldn't move all I could do was try and process what he just told me. I didn't know how to respond or react. "get off me" I said pulling away. "Jacob...please don't hate me."

"Get away you fag!" I jump backwards on to my bed. He broke out in tears "Jacob...please" What was I doing I'm hurting someone I care about but why? I need time, time to think. "Go away!" He looked at me one last time and ran out of my room crying. Oh crap what did I just do? I sat in bed till atleast 10:00 till I got hungry. I walked out of my room and into the kitchen. Makeing my self a bowl of cereal I walk into the dining room to find my mom sitting at the other end of the table reading a magazine wearing her buisness suit. She was a german shepherd that was all tan, blue eyes like mine and always wore buisness suits. My dad an her are both international buisness agents so they were always away for a couple of days, heck my baby sitter raised me till I was 13 and I could stay home by my self. "Mom what are you doing here?" she looked up and took a sip of coffee. "we need to talk." As if I didn't have enough on my mind. "I saw Jason this morning running out of the house crying. I know what happened,...Jacob I'm a little disappointed in you. You two have been freinds sense 1st grade, and he trusted you with something and you pushed him away and told him to go away. Now I'm not going to tell you what to do or how you should feel, but I just want you to atleast think about how he's feeling."

"I...I don't know how to respond to that mom. It's just I don't know how to deal with this."

"You should deal with this like a freind and support him, Jacob I know you and I know you will make the best decision. Now I have to go run to the store, bye honey." Rite before she opened the door the phone rang. I picked it up and my mom walked over to see who it was. "Hello?"

"Hey this is mark, jason's little brother. Jason's in the hostpital..."

"...what hostpital?"

"Umm I'll text you the place on your cell." I almost dropped the phone the second he hung up. I ran to my room and found my cell phone. Then I told my mom what mark told me till I finally got a text. As soon as I got the text me and mom ran out the door, got in her car and left for the E.R. In town.

Once we reached Jason room we saw mark stand out side of his door. Mark was a thirteen year old husky that had eyes like his bothers and fur like his too. He sort of reminded me of Jason when he was young. "Mark what happened? Where's tour parents?" Mark smiled in releif that we were finally here. "They didn't come." What the hell? Why would his parents come to hospital for their son? "Why?!" He looked down. "When he got home he told my parents that he's...gay. Dad didn't take it well and yelled at him. Jason ran to his room. I went to check on him and found him on the floor, he swallowed some pill and...if hadn't found him he would be dead. I rode with the him in the ambulance but mom and dad said their not coming." I couldn't believe what I just heard. How could his parents treat their son that way and not even care that tried to kill himself.

My mom was as shocked as me. We all stood there silent. I looked at my mom and she knew what to do. She walked over grabbed mark by his shoulder, "come on mark I'll take you home. I know you want to stay with your brother but you help him by worrying your head off." He was about to pull away but he knew my mom was rite. "I bet your hungry wanna stop and get some food?" Mark nodded. "Hey Jacob, call me when your ready to go home." They both walked away and with that I was standing by myself in the hallway.

I slowly walk in to jason's room. Laying in the middle of the hospital bed was Jason. He looked so peaceful sleeping. Why was I so mean to him, I yelled at him and told him to get away from me but why? Why was I such a dick? I walked over to his sleeping body and grabbed his paw. "I'm so sorry...Jason I wish I could take it back. I'm sorry." I was begining to tear up when I felt his paw tighten around mine. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled. "It's...okay Jacob. As long as we can still be freinds."

"Don't worry we're still freinds."

Before Jason could respond a otter nurse walked in. "Oh your awake, I'm just going to check something and that will be all." she walked over and picked up a clip board at the end of jason's bed. "Well Mr. Haynes the doctor would like to keep you here over night to make sure all the pills are out of your system. And you can I speak to you in the hall?" She looked at me, I nodded and followed here out into the hall. "your freinds with Mr. Haynes correct?" I nodded. "Do you know why he took those pills?" I looked down remembering what I had said to him. "Yes why?"

"we just got a call saying to tell him his parents are disowning him."

I was to angry to respond to what she said I just clenched my fists and walked back into jason's room. He weakly sat up in his bed and looked at me. "Whats wrong Jacob?" I couldn't say anything. I didn't want to take my anger out on him. I grabbed his paw, "I'm sorry Jason but I have to go." I lifted up his arm to pull him into a hug when I saw a cut on his arm. Slowly I carefully makeing sure I didn't hit his cut I pia led up his sleave to reveal four lines of cuts across his shoulder. I pulled up his sleeve and saw that the cuts went half way across his chest. "Did he do this to you?" Jason's smile disappeared, he started to cry and I pulled him into a hug. "He doesn't care about me anymore...He probably hates me and wants to kill me." He pulled me in tighter. "You still have me Jason and no matter what happens I will always be by your side." He wiped his tears away with his paw and looked up at me. "You mean that?" I used my paw to brush away some tears from his face. "I mean it." He let o and so did I. Once I was on my feet I looked back to him, "The nurse told me your dad is disowning you. And I was wondering if you wanted to stay with me?" His eyes lit up with surprise and he smiled. "I would love to stay with you." I pulled him back into a warm embrace, for some reason this felt right. Holding him in my arms felt like I was holding one of my girlfreinds. But I'm not gay, am I? I do look at him in the locker rooms, and I do like holding him in my arms. "Jason, I'll see you tomorrow. Sorry can't stay longer and you need your rest." he smiled. His smile always lit up my day. I patted his head and left his room.

Walking out of the hospital I pulled out my phone and checked the time, it read 12:30. Plenty of time for what I had planned. I dialed in my moms number and hit call. "Hey mom I'm going to walk around town for awhile." She didn't ask why. "Okay honey be home by seven for dinner." I smiled, I loved my moms cooking. "Okay mom I'll be home by seven. Bye." I hung the phone and continued to walk towards my destination. I walked into the local gym and looked around. Andy a bear that was a big time body builder who worked here walked up to me. "Hey Jacob what are doing here?" all the worker know me and Jason. "Is the boss in?"

"Yeah he's in his office. Just go in."

"Cool thanks Andy."

I walked into the back office and slowly opened the door. "Jacob? Nice to see you. What are you doing here?" I looked up, the first thing that caught my I was a name plate that read: Mr. Haynes. I looked up to see a muscular husky. He was a 6 foot body builder and very built. Dark grey fur covered the husky. He had dark green eyes and looked like he would never hurt you. This was jason's dad, the man that had attacked Jason for being gay. "Have a seat Jacob." I didn't take my eyes off of him. Sitting down I looked him in the eyes. Surpress your anger Jacob, don't do something stupid. "So Mr. Haynes how's Jason?" He looked away from me. "Who told you?" Now he knew why I was here. "Mark called me and told me. How could you?" He looked down he wasn't going to break that easily. "He's your son! How could you treat him like that?!"

"You have no right to talk to me like that! Your just a kid you understand how a man would feel if his son told him he was gay!"

"Oh and your a man, you don't even have the balls to come to the hospital to tell your son that your disowning him! You called a nurse and told her to tell him! Your just a pussy on steroids!"

He stood up and so did I. Before i knew what was going on he pushed into the wall and held me against by my neck chokeing me with one paw while he had other in the air about to punch me. "Say that again you little shit!"

"Pu...pu...pussy!!" I yelled kneeing him in the balls. He let go instantly and fell to the floor. Before he could get back up kicked him in chest. He fell backward not expecting the hit and coughed for air. I stood over him for a minute waiting for him to stand up again. Once he was finally on his feet I grabbed his neck and pushed to the wall the same way he did me but I had my leg potecting my balls. Without giving him time to respond I punched him in the face, he winced in pain. He punched me back. It hurt like hell! I punched him again and he fell this time. He layed there on the floor. "That was for Jason!" I walked out and slammed the door. As I walked out I saw Andy run towards Mr.Haynes office. I walked down the street and stopped at a pawn shop to look at a mirror. Under my right eye where he punched me was bleeding. I walk until I got to the libary. I checked the time it was about 2:00 now. Once I got there I went straight to the computer. I printed out an address to the place I needed to go. Shoveing the paper into my pocket I walked out of the library and began my walk home.

Once I got home I told my mom everything that happened. She was shocked. "You got into a fight with Mr.Haynes and your not dead?" that's what she was shocked about? "Actually I don't think he wanted to fight me. I mean he could ripped my head off but he didn't. So back to Jason is it okay if he lives with us?" She smiled, "He has been here almost every day sense this summer started. So yes he can live here." I smiled. "Thanks mom. I'm going to go take a nap okay." She gave me a hug and then I went to my room to take a nap, but I couldn't sleep I kept asking my self the same question "do I like Jason?" I couldn't, we were just freinds rite? I did look at his sheath in the locker room, but I can't there's no way I'm gay. I shoved my head under my pillow and decided to at least get a little sleep. Later that night at dinner me and my mom talked to my dad about letting Jason live here and he said that he can, but he has to live by same rules as me. After dinner i went to bed.