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Not completely a real story, but I just had an argument with my mate, and it happens quite often. Gonna write a journal about that instead. But here, in case this happens, here's how I'd react. Art is by me. Made it about half a year ago and I think it suits the story.

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It was another cold night. It was drizzling right outside my window. I just had another argument with my mate on facebook. Well, it was a common problem for me to have difficulty controlling my emotions when he's away. I just placed my laptop right beside me, and found myself lying down on my bed, hugging my pillow, resting my head on this heart pillow he gave me on Valentine's last year. My tears were flowing down my face, my laptop was right beside me, and so was my cellphone. My tail rested on my phone, in case I'd receive another message from Kemaro. We'd often end up arguing about time. I often want to have an affectionate conversation, and he'd be busy pretty often, and would end up talking about other things. I waited for him and even after trying so hard to control my emotions, I blew it. I sort of turned out to speak rudely, wanting him to notice my need for affection. But the usual misunderstanding took place.

So there I was on my bed, trying to get some shut eye. But couldn't sleep. It was already 1 in the morning and it didn't seem like dad was coming home with my sister. He was probably at his girlfriend's house, and my sister was probably spending time being a girl with our future step-sister. Besides, my brother was already asleep in the other room. I looked right outside my room, and saw my car right outside. I really did enjoy driving, and thought, "why not take a relaxing drive out tonight?" I put my shorts on, and the v-neck I left on my chair and put them on, took my phone and wallet, went down the stairs and went out of the house. I looked up at the sky and took a deep breath, knowing that this could be a bad idea. But after a quick breath, I walked through the drizzle and went to the car and got in. I started it up, and it made me smile a bit, thinking of how much I love to just take a drive. My car is pretty old, but still had a lot to show. I thought of how I could make it look better, but went back to thinking of starting to drive out to calm my nerves. I switched my lights on, step on the clutch, put my hand brake down, and shifted into first gear. I floored the gas pedal in excitement. I drove out of my village pretty recklessly and started driving mad around the highway going up north a bit, and made a u-turn under a bridge, to head back southbound down to my area. I didn't feel content yet when I got back around my area. Then I recall what an old friend recently told me, that there's a place nearby where I could get a drink. That old friend of mine is actually my boyfriend's ex-boyfriend. Interesting guy, he is. His name is Tora, a white lion, slightly shorter than Kemaro and I. We had a terrible argument over Kemaro, but that's another story. Going back, I thought, "Well, as long as I don't drink too much, I can drive back home safely. I never tried, so maybe I should just give it a shot?" So I drove into that area nearby, and well, saw a few cars parked, and saw that bar he told me about. I parked the car and got down, sat on the hood, thinking of what could happen. After a minute, I got back on my feet, walking slowly as I entered the bar. It was my first time entering such a place alone. I had shivers all over my body, and I was a bit sleepy. I saw a few guys sitting around, a few of them were speaking to each other. One pair seemed to be cuddling by the corner. I felt a bit out of place seeing them, missing my mate and wishing he could be here with me. But then I remembered our argument, and thought about giving myself some time to learn t control myself. I got on a stool and sat down requested the fox bartender for some vodka. He winked when he gave me my drink and I just smiled a bit. I took a sip and sat down and closed my eyes for a bit, as I sighed. I heard a sound right beside me and realized it was the stool to my right that creeked when some guy who was walking around the bar a while ago sat down. He was a sheppy, a few inches taller than me. Seemed to be around his early twenty's. He asked me what a husky like I was doing being all lonely at a place, and more importantly a time like this. He seemed really nice so I told him what was going on. I told him about me and Kemaro arguing everytime he wasn't around and came back after some time. He asked me what my name was, and why I went there of all places. I told him my name, Rev. Then I just told him some friend of mine told me that this was a good place to get a drink. He stood up and asked the bartender for some other drink I didn't know. He gave it to me and told me to try it. I hesitated. "Just a sip," he told me. Curious about how it tasted, I took a sip. It was an unusual taste, but I liked it. Still preferred vodka, though. I was a bit scared, being here by myself with some stranger. I thought of what could happen to me. While I was thinking, the German Shepard went right behind me and placed his paws on my shoulders and started to massage me. Being really sleepy, I just thanked him while he continued to stretch my shoulders and rub my back. I was sort of half asleep, and enjoying the feeling, I took another sip, only to realize, I've finished the entire drink. I was really sleepy, and he asked if I was alright. He kept talking to me about himself. He told me he lived really nearby and was lonely. He had no one to talk to in his apartment. I asked why. He could invite some friends over. He said his friends lived far away, since he came from the province. He did seem quite simple compared to the rest who were here. He was only in a plain white tee and some basketball shorts. "I just graduated from College," he said, "I came here to look for a job, but didn't have enough luck. It's a good thing my parents gave me enough money to support myself for at least half a year. I need to budget it." The conversation went on for about fifteen minutes. I was sleepy and wanted to head home, so I told him so. He told me that I seemed to be quite tipsy and maybe driving at this condition wasn't a bright idea. He said to have some water and rest there a bit. Most of the people had left, and the last customers, the tiger and the fox cuddling in the corner a while ago, were paying their bill about to leave. Being really sleepy, I just thanked him and apologized for the trouble. I lay my head on the bar table and rested my head there and dozed off a bit. Later on, I just woke up . The sheppy had me in his arms. He smiled and told me, "It's getting late out. Wouldn't want you falling asleep in the bar. I live really nearby, don't worry. We'll be there in a minute." I dozed off for a few minutes after he said, feeling dizzy and sleepy. I woke up on his bed. I saw him shirtless in the restroom, coming close to me. I was quite worried, but being so sleepy, I just wanted to rest on his bed for a while. " It's quite hot," he said as he saw me wake up. "I hope you don't mind," he continued. "Mind what?" I asked. He didn't reply for a while. "You know, you've been having troubles, and I've been lonely. You live nearby and well, I can take good care of you. You've had nothing but arguments with your mate." "That's not true!" I answered angrily. "Yes, but have you been getting what you wanted? Can he take care of you the way I can?" "I don't even know you. We've just met. how could you say these things?" He went closer to me and sat down on the bed. I moved away, but he pulled me closer, and I was about to shout. But before I did, he began to rub my back again. I felt so relaxed and just stayed there. "I can take better care of you. I know all you needed was love and affection. I can always be here for you. I will take good care of you," He said as his voic slowly faded. I looked up to him and smiled weakly, being relaxed from the massage. I was relaxed. He lay down beside me and hugged me, nuzzling my shoulder. "This is what you wanted, right? Love? Affection? You just wanna be taken care of, don't you?" I nodded slowly and was relaxed in his arms. He slowly took my shirt off and told me, "Like I said, it's pretty humid in here since this is all I can afford." "I-it sure is hot," I answered. he looked at me and grinned a bit. He slowly slid his paws donw my rear and started massaging it. I was so relaxed, I couldn't move. "Do you want me to take care of you?" he asked. I nodded and murred from his relaxing movements. "Do you want to do something stupid?" he asked.

Right after he asked, I had a flashback. It was that time when I had my first kiss with Kemaro. We were in a taxi heading to the mall about dinner time. He asked me if I wanted to do something stupid. He pecked on my lips and I pressed back against his and closed my eyes. It was a remarkable and unforgettable feeling. My first kiss from the only guy I've ever had in my life.

I got up and told the sheppy, "No. I'm sorry. I'm not stupid. I don't really know you, and I'm sorry. You're really nice. But I love my mate. I love him more than anything. Who ever said you were perfect? You're just older and more experienced. That's why you can make me feel like this. But you're wrong about my mate. You don't know him. He loves me. There's a difference between love and lust. I don't even know you. You could only take care of me cause you want my body. But he'll take care of me, for life. Even if it doesn't feel like it at times. I'm sorry. I have to go."

"Wait!" he shouted, "Really, please give me one chance!"

I left his apartment, and ran down as i put my shirt on. The sheppy tried to chase me, but he wasn't quick enough. I didn't bother paying any attention. I saw my car from a distance and ran. Knowing where the bar's parking lot was, he saw me and try to chase me down. But I got in my car immediately and drove off. I was able to stand the alcohol and drove away safely. I cried as I drove. And I called Kemaro, since I knew his mom was away. He answered. I was surprised he was still up. "Baby, I've been worried. You're usually at home still on your laptop whenever we argue. I was thinking you were asleep, but something didn't feel right," said the folf. I smiled and drove off straight to his place, just to see him for at least an hour. "I'll be there, baby. I'll tell you what happened when I get there. When I did, I saw him waiting outside with an umbrella. I got out of the car and just kissed him. He took me in his house and I told him what had happened and apologized. He told me, "I know you well, and I can't blame you for what had happened. I've had my own mistakes. What matters is you made the right decision and here you are now, with me. We got in bed and kissed. I took his shirt off and he took mine off as well. We spend a couple of hours in his room, sharing our warmth and much more ~

It was about 5am and I had to drive back home. He took me back into my car and kissed me, telling me to drive back safely. I smiled and kissed him back. "Next time, I'll be the one paying you a visit, okay, baby?" said Kemaro. I smiled and kissed him once more. "I love you very much, folfy," said Kemaro. "I love you too, Rev, my one and only wuffy. I'll be here for you, no matter what." ~