Emotions
A collection of my thoughts
As I sit on the cushion, tracing my fingers along these keys; my paw lifting the warm tea to my lips as I melt the dark chocolate piece remaining in my muzzle. Many thoughts run through my head from what my last day at work will be like to how I'm going to achieve these crazy dreams; there are so many uncertainties. I've got a pending offer for roommates, which sounds enticing but it puts me closer to that life I abandoned... I have to pay off almost 20,000 dollars worth of debt, I don't know when my next workday will be... I have an almost complete degree but I can't return to school without locating a new place of residency and a new employer. I've got too many worries to pack it all up and relocate to the place of my dreams and while I tell those around me I've got so many plans and ideas, when it all comes down to being honest with myself I don't have any idea what I am doing with my life. I'm scared..
I want you to wrap your arms around me, to close down this laptop and to kiss my ear. I want you to tell it me it will all work out, I want you to pull me into your lap and remind me of everything I've accomplished, I want you to tell me that if I ever feel like nothing that I'm perfect to you because to me you're my everything. I've struggled with so many inner demons, and I wouldn't be here with your help and support. I need you to turn my head and kiss me, to feel our your unending love transition into my body through such an intimate act. I need to feel your warm fur against my back and your large but gentle paws squeezing my own as our eyes meet and I truly believe everything you've said.
I need you but when I turn my tear streamed eyes away from this screen and a song comes on that reminds us that life is too short not to tell those around you that you love them, all that returns my gaze is darkness and silence inside this empty house...