Kokuei's Messy Diaper
With the house all to himself, Kokuei decides to let out some stress. And then sit in it.
Scared, alone, and without a nerve left in his body, Kokuei strode
bravely up to the front counter. It wasn't in his nature as a wolf to be
so coy and secretive; he would much rather be loud and proud about what
he was doing. But despite his fear, despite his angst, despite the fact
that at any moment someone he knew could enter the store and see him,
he plopped the package of adult-sized, ultra-thick diapers up on the
counter. The elderly aged pink and yellow bird tilted her head at the
obscure purchase, but rang it up none the less.
"$14.99," she stated. Kokuei nodded and handed her a twenty.
"Keep the change," Kokuei boldly stated, doing his best to maintain his composure.
Without a second thought, he grabbed his package and strode quickly out
of the store. Stuffing the package into his backpack, the 18 year old
wolf made no hesitation to enter the icy cold blizzard outside. He
wasn't in the mood to keep around waiting, no, he had to get home as
soon as possible. This was why he hadn't gone to school today; class was
cancelled, and for a senior in high school who was in extreme angst,
today was the perfect time to complete a rather large goal he'd set for
himself long ago. He'd gotten strange urges, discovered some sites and
talked to some people, and today was the day he was going to do what
he'd been wanting to do: to get some diapers, and experience something
he had been yearning for for a long, long time.
He knew how silly he was for going out in the middle of a storm like
this to simply buy diapers - but he simply couldn't help himself! It
was something he wanted to do for months now, and for one reason or
another, he avoided it because he was too shy. But he was nearly done
with high school, and stress was at it's worst. Nothing seemed more
entertaining to Kokuei than to indulge in his secret fantasies and
desires, and for reasons unknown, those desires meant wearing diapers
and acting out in ways he wouldn't ever dare admit to. With his parents
gone at work, and his schooling far from his mind - he had the whole day
ahead of himself to indulge in whatever he wanted with intimate
privacy... and he just couldn't wait to begin!
With the diapers that he longed for finally in his possession,
nothing could stop him now. The red and yellow wolf's fur fluffed and
shivered as the freezing winds blew past him, but it only made him run
faster. Heat from the adrenaline rush kept him warmer than any coat
could have, and the thought of finally putting on a diaper and doing his
worst kept him from slowing down as he jogged with haste down the
sidewalk. He followed a route he had taken countless times, but it
seemed longer than ever. The wolf became so eager that he nearly became
reckless; quickly sprinting through intersections and crossing busy
roads as he journeyed along a familiar route back home. Inevitably, his
efforts paid off - and in no time at all, he found himself panting
wildly as he clumsily stumbled through the front door of his house.
The wolf was exhausted from the long run, but he found the strength
to move forward. Loudly slamming the door behind him, he huffed and
puffed his way through his warm and comfortable home with tired, heavy
steps; clumsily staggering through the living room, up the stairs, and
into his bedroom. Kokuei didn't even need to bother checking the house
for his Mom or Dad as he shut the door behind himself and tossed the
diapers on his bed. He knew they were going to be gone for quite some
time, and he wasn't going to waste precious time.
His room was silent, all except the sound of his own breathing and
the gusting wind outside. Kokuei sighed and breathed in deeply to help
relax. The feeling of being alone, of doing what he wanted in secret was
simply exhilarating, and his heart was pounding rapidly from all of the
physical and mental excitement. If he was truly going to go all the way
in his diapers, like he longed to do - then every muscle in his body
would require total and complete relaxation. The wolf's mind would need
to be at ease for his experience to be the best it could be.
First, he kicked his winter boots off into the corner and stripped
himself free of his shirt, pants and socks. The chilly air made him
shiver and playfully wiggle about on his bed, which felt great to lay on
after such a strenuous run. The wolf was down to his underwear, but he
quickly did away with those too - carelessly flicking them off and away
to some unknown destination on the floor. Brushing his bare naked fur
against the warm blankets below him, Kokuei began to withdraw his mind
from a world of stress and into a carefree, and simpler mindspace.
Next, the young wolf tore into his prize, stripping one side of the
package of diapers. His heart continued to pulse rapidly as he grabbed a
diaper at the edge of the row, and rejoiced as he held it in his paws
for the first time to examine it. It was plain white, soft, and puffy -
and he felt his heart go aflutter as it crinkled loudly in his grasp;
the sharp noise broke the silence of his bedroom and practically
startled him! But a smile crept across his face as he began to wonder
what it would be like being finally back in a diaper, and what it would
be like to finally use it! Would he like it? Would he love it? This was
his first time in diapers since he was physically a cub, and he wasn't
sure what he would consider 'holding up.' He shrugged, pushed the
package to the foot of his bed, sprawled out and undid the folded
diaper.
There was no more time to waste.
His first question was how exactly to put the thing on. He fumbled a
bit, feeling stupid, but eventually he realized that the side with the
tapes went underneath, and the side with the landing pad went on the
front. Next, Kokuei adjusted the diaper underneath himself until it felt
about right. After he knew the diaper was positioned right, he reached
out to his nightstand and grabbed a nearby bottle of baby powder. He had
lied to everyone about it's true purpose, explaining that he liked the
smell and used it for every-day uses... but only he knew that it was for
his diapers!
Kokuei powdered himself as he sheepishly stuck his butt into the
air, and breathed in deeply to appreciate the smell he loved so much.
The soft, babyish aroma made him shiver with delight, and instantly
brought out his inner cub. Kokuei felt his perspective change as he
excitedly began to feel younger, and the need for his diaper's embrace
overwhelmed him! Setting the bottle of baby powder aside, he quickly
brought the diaper's front to its taping position, and then taped it as
tightly as he could. Finally, he brought his tail through the tailhole
in the back of his diaper... and simply took in the experience of being
diapered for the first time in a long, long time...
This was exactly what he'd been wanting and yearning for. It felt right...
and he felt good. The red and yellow wolf panted happily as his tail
swayed back and forth contently, and he took a moment to appreciate the
moment before moving on to other things. Sitting up, Kokuei truly began
to notice the thickness of the diaper he was in. He grabbed at the
crotch of the diaper, pushing in towards his sensitives. He could hardly
feel himself through the white puffy cloud between his legs! Kokuei
brought his legs together with some difficulty, and pivoted his body
around to get a glance of his diapered butt in the nearby mirror to
appreciate what he had to show himself.
The diaper poofed out and crinkled loudly as he squirmed with delight,
wiggling his diapered butt at the mirror to examine himself... and the
excited wolf began to wonder just how much such a thickly padded diaper
could handle! He wanted to do so much more in his diaper, and the
thought of wetting and even messing himself began to excite him even
more as fantasy began to become reality. Could it really hold all he had
to give it? With such a full bladder, and certainly full bowels - could
it really withstand all of the attention he was yearning to provide?
There were a lot of questions on Kokuei's racing mind, and the eager
wolf was sick of asking them. It was time to finally get some answers!
Approaching the mirror, the wolf rubbed his bare belly before shyly
glancing down at the heavily padded diaper between his legs, and then
back at himself in the mirror. The need to pee and poop had been present
since he had woken up several hours ago, and he was doing his best to
take in plenty of sustenance to feed the desire to go. Rubbing his lower
tummy, he could feel it swollen and tender - or maybe it was all in his
imagination. How much volume would it hold? Kokuei loved the idea of
being a squishy wolf, and especially loved the idea of being quite the
stinker! But his nerves made it hard for his ideas to come to life.
Staring at himself in the mirror, the wolf began to remember the advice
he was given from other diaper lovers he knew online - and he did his
best to put it all to good use. First, he controlled his breathing to
calm his nerves, and the wolf could feel the tension begin to melt away
from his shoulders down to his toes. Next, he closed his eyes, and tried
to imagine himself in front of a toilet to trick his mind. Years of
reinforced toilet training made it hard for him to let go! Finally, he
simply concentrated and focused on the full bladder that needed so badly
to empty, and reassured himself over and over again that it was all
going to be safe in his diaper...
It seemed silly to him to have to meditate so strongly, but it was an
effective method. Seconds stretched to minutes, but inevitably, a
reluctant drop of pee drooled into the safe confines of his diaper - and
that only encouraged a trickle to follow. In no time, Kokuei felt
himself about to melt in the warmth of his own warm, wet diaper as a
steady stream filled it up. Opening his eyes, he watched as the pure
white diaper's surface gave way to a tarnished, soiled yellow. The
distant sound of trickling accompanied the sight of his diaper engorge
and bulk as it absorbed the flood of pee that didn't seem to end.
Kokuei exhaled and smiled as he pressed the soggy diaper against
himself, feeling what he had done. The hot insides of the diaper gave
him goosebumps as it contrasted with the chilly air in the room, and its
warmth seemed to stretch out past his crotch to the rest of his body.
Staggering backwards a bit, Kokuei continued to press his sagging, wet
diaper against himself... but it wasn't enough for him. His diaper could
handle much, much more - and the wolf had every intention of fulfilling
its hungry appetite. To be in a soggy, squishy, and full diaper was the
only thing Kokuei could think about now!
The wolf squatted down to the floor obediently as he submitted to his
overwhelming desires. His bowels felt so heavy and full now, and the
empty cushion under his tailhole taunted him. With his knees bent and
his hands pressed firmly on the ground between his legs, the wolf kept
his eyes shut and pushed attempt to fill his empty diaper, but it was in
vain. His heart was racing so fast and throbbing so hard, and the
wolf's testerone was surging; it was becoming nearly impossible to
concentrate! But he pressed on, and he pushed forward and outward.
Controlling his breathing like he did just minutes ago to wet himself,
the wolf calmed his eager panting and did his best to breathe in and out
through his snout and out of his muzzle. Pressure in his bowels
worsened as his brain argued with his stubborn tailhole, and he began to
reassure his reluctant subconscious that everything was going to be
okay. His years of toilet training continued to meddle in his messy
affairs and make things so much more difficult than Kokuei wanted them
to be! But his desire to be such a stinky wolf would inevitably
overpower his apprehension, and soon, he could feel his body beginning
to cooperate.
"Mmph!" he whined.
Muscles in his whole body began to tense up, and his tail raised up and
outward - naturally flagging and twitching as his tailhole began to
relax. His stomach gurgled and the great pressure in his lower belly
shifted about as things began to move. His tailhole stretched out, and
the wolf squatted down lower as he felt poop glide out of him and into
the safe confines of his diaper. Euphoria came over Kokuei, and he
sighed in relief as the pressure relieved itself as his diaper became
fuller, heavier, and began to sag between his legs. Audible crinkling
from the weight of his diaper stretching out under his heavy mess
reassured Kokuei that he was doing a good job of filling it as much as
he could, and he pressed.
Some time passed as Kokuei's full bowels emptied themselves, and by the
time he felt himself finished, his diaper seemed as though it would fall
off it weren't for the tightly applied tapes. The wolf found himself
panting in the end, and aglow with feels from the experience of having
finally found himself in such a heavy, stinky, messy diaper. The toasty
mess between his legs radiated its warmth up against his sensitives with
intimacy, and the wolf squatted lower to tickle himself with its its
warm embrace. Goosebumps riddled his fur as the soaking wet and messy
diaper stole the wintery chill from his body...
Descending further down, Kokuei was not shy to feel the poopy diaper
mush against him as he slowly sat down onto the floor below. The young
wolf moaned as he felt his mess spread like a thick paste; spreading
between his buttcheeks in one direction, and between his legs in the
other. The bulk of the diaper seemed to hold him high off of the floor,
yet he continued to sink further down into the thick mess and padding -
and Kokuei wouldn't have had it any other way. Wriggling about gently,
his heart was aflutter as he found himself in quite the stinky, messy
predicament - and he smiled as his innermost desires were finally met.
But alas, the adrenaline rush of messing himself was quick to give way
to a more erotic desire; the feeling of being soiled in the security of
his diaper made Kokuei feel aroused and submissive. Why did this turn
him on so much? Was it the taboo of sitting in his poopy diaper that
made him feel like he was living on the edge? Was it the smells and
foreign sensation of his used diaper mushing around underneath him that
made him feel so dirty and used? Or was it merely how the messy and wet
diaper felt against his sensitives that tickled him just right that sent
him over the edge? The wolf did not know, nor did the wolf care - for
all he cared about now was enjoying this moment all to himself, where no
one judged him.
As the wolf wriggled about in his diaper, the tickling of his diaper's
well-lubricated insides massaged his delicate sexparts, and he grew
hornier and hornier. What would others think of him if they knew how
much of a good, submissive little pup he was - playing in and making
love to his diapers with gentle thrusts and squirms? It was only a
matter of time before his natural instincts took over, and Kokuei found
himself panting and stiffening his muscles as he pressed himself down
and rocked back-and-forth in his poopy diaper; his each thrust forward
charged with more sexual energy each time.
Soon, as Kokuei masturbated with his diaper - the outside world
disappeared, and all that mattered to him was finishing the job he had
started. He and his diaper shared an intimate moment that he had longed
for, and they both loyally served each other. Spurts of pee and
prespooge escaped him as he pushed out as much as he could, and his
diaper rubbed and tickled him in all of the best ways possible in
return. It was an even exchange, but not one that would last much
longer. The horny wolf was bouncing, wriggling, and grinding about in
his well appreciated diaper, and he was coming close to the end!
"Agh! Mmmph!" Kokuei whined.
With each loving thrust that rubbed his genitalia, the euphoric heat of
sexual satisfaction grew, and inevitably approached climax. Kokuei
pushed and pushed and pushed, but soon lost control as he felt the
overwhelming sensation of a powerful orgasm take over his body! Snapping
his head back, he shut his eyes tight, and pleasure erupted throughout
his body. Crying out in pleasure, his thrusts faded from reckless vigor
to slower, more passionate lovemaking with his diaper, and it swallowed
all of his juices obediently into its absorbent interior like a good,
submissive partner would.
But all good things must come to an end.
The loud sloshing and crinkling began to quiet down as his humping began
to calm down. The orgasm was slowly dropping off from the electrifying
plateau, and falling into a blissful afterglow - and Kokuei quickly lost
his drive. With a few wet, sticky humps to finish himself off, he
weakly fell over onto the floor, panting and covered in sweat from
exhaustion. The wolf's whole body seemed to buzz and tingle from the
powerful orgasm, and even his mind seemed to be lost in the euphoria as
satisfaction melted the stress away.
Kokuei spent some time lying there on the floor in his wet, messy, and
now sticky diaper; the bulk still pressing up against his taint as a
constant reminder of what he had just done. It made him feel so happy to
finally be himself. He knew it was a strange fetish, but it was a
harmless one, so he knew he had no shame. In fact, he seemed to take his
heavily used diaper as a bit of pride; so much poop, so much pee, and
so much sticky mess - but no leaking! How much more could it handle? Was
it really as much as he thought it was, or was it all in his head?
Kokuei didn't care. He was far too tired now to find any more answers to
any more questions. The long run and spending so much time grinding
himself to orgasm had completely tuckered him out. Nothing seemed more
satisfying now than sleep! His whole body was so heavy, and he doubted a
second wind would be coming anytime soon. Stretching out and wriggling
around, the wolf couldn't even conjure the strength to carry himself to
his bed.
Simply giving in, he let his eyelids slowly slide themselves shut, and
he happily fell off into a well deserved nap on the floor. And so,
Kokuei's secret, messy diaper desires were fulfilled at last, and the
stressed out wolf was no more. He knew that he would need to find a
hiding place for the rest of his diapers, find a way of disposing of his
stinky diaper, and then surely take a shower - but it could wait for
now. Until then, he was long lost in a dream, enjoying the best sleep he
had had in a long, long time.