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The next morning Connor and I were in my bed, not having slept all night after our night of passion. I just smiled at him and we kissed again, he gladly returned the kiss. "That was umm, different." I said and Connor just smiled holding me close. For a few minutes we just laid there, his arms wrapped around me. I could feel his chest moving against my back and his warm breath on the nape of neck, with in a few minutes I knew he passed out because I could hear him snoring. I just laughed a bit and snuggled into him closing my eyes drifting off to sleep as well. The next thing I knew my phone was ringing and Connor was drooling on the back my head which made laugh a bit. I made my self reach over and answer my phone. "Hello?" I asked rubbing my eyes. "Are you going to come pick up your daughter?" My mom asked and I instantly sat up "Oh my gosh what time is it?" I asked worried. "It's only four. What's going on?" My mom inquired. i looked over at Connor and smiled "Just a late night with Connor." I said "Bring him over. I miss him." My mom said "I think I will." I smiled. We talked for a few minutes then she hung up. I turned to wake Connor up but he had his head propped up on his his head. "Afternoon." He said "Like wise." I said then we gently pressed our lips together then it interrupted by him laughing "What's so funny?" I asked "Like wise." He said trying to control his laughter "Oh shut up." I said playfully pushing his shoulder. "When we are we going to get the little one?" He asked "After we shower." I said getting out of swishing my tail as I went to the bathroom, I could hear him getting up and following me.

"I haven't been here in a while." Connor said as we pulled up to my parents house. It's hard not to smile around Connor, we got out the car and when we were together without thinking we took a hold of each others hands then I turned my head and kissed his cheek. We walked up to the door and with my free hand I knocked on the door then we went in. When we reached the living room I saw my mom and she instantly says "I always knew you two would end up together." "About time to." my Dad said, these comments made up blush and I laid my head on his shoulder "Where's Alice?" I asked "Up stairs." my dad said and I just nodded. "So you two don't care about this?" I asked pointing to Connor then my self as we sat. They both just smiled "Not at all, we both always kind-of knew." my mom said. Then I heard running down then stair and around the corner ran my daughter, a four year old clone of my wife but with blue eyes. First she looked at me then saw Connor and runs over screaming "UNCLE CONNOR!" he gets up picking her up and spinning her. "Hey brat." he says kissing her forehead "I'm not a brat." she said pouting. "You'll always be my brat." he said hugging her then sat down with her in his lap "Where's mommy?" Alice asked looking at me and I just sighed and squatted in front of her "Honey, mommy loves yo u very much but she isn't coming home for a long time." I said taking her hand and kissing it. "Why not?" she asked "I wish I knew sweet hear. I wish I knew." she then got out of Connor's lap and hugged me tight. A few hours later we had leave my parent's house because it was getting late and two Alice had fallen asleep on us. When we arrived home we put Alice to bed. Connor was in my bed, his head laid on the back of mine "I guess this means we're a couple now." he said as he wrapped his arms around me "I wouldn't have it any other way." "Me either, I'm glad this happened, just wish it would've been through better terms." he said softly then he gently kissed my ears which made me giggle a bit, I knew things were about to get so much better for me.

Six Months Later Connor and I were out to eat at my favorite hole in the wall place when suddenly he stood and reached into his pocket and produced a small black box, I knew what was about to happen. I was on the verge of tears. He then got on one knee opened the box and inside was a simple silver ring "I know it's not a lot but you're my light in the dark, you're my world. I was jealous that Sandra was the one marrying you but it's my turn. Ethan Thomas please do me the honor of becoming my husband. Will you please marry me?" he ask and I just nodded. We both stood up and hugged, he whispered in my ear "I love you more than I love life itself." I felt bad because all I could say was "I love you too." I said as Connor slipped the silver ring on my finger then he stood up and wiped the tears out of my eyes. "No more tears my love, the only other time I want to see you cry is on our wedding day." he said and I just nodded as I tried to stop crying. He then pulled me close and me tight. I then got on all my social media sites and updated my stuff while showing off pictures of my new ring. I was the happiest wolf in the world, nothing could bring me down.

"When should we get married?" I asked Connor as I nuzzled his neck and he had his arm wrapped around me "We could get married tomorrow for all I care." he said smiling. I look up at him and smiled "How about next month?" I asked and he just nodded so we got right to it sending out the invites mostly through social media so they'd get to people sooner. We both instantly got texts asking why were rushing into this. We told them all the same thing "You can't rush love, it just happens." "I'm going to have two daddies now?" Alice asked and we just nodded "But mommie's mom said that's a bad thing." Alice said like she was in trouble then Connor pulled her into his lap "Is there anything wrong with me?" he asked and she just shook her head "Then there's nothing wrong with having two daddies." I just smiled as my best friend now future husband explained to my daughter what being gay was. "Okay time for bed." I said yawning. "But dad I'm not tired." she whined "Yeah come on dad she's not tired." Connor said teasing "No, it's eight thirty and you're not helping." I said bopping Connor's nose "You're dad's right it's bed time." Connor said "Okay but read me a bed time story?" she asked looking up at Connor a slight sparkle in her eyes, he just smiled and nodded "Run in there and pick out a book and I'll be in there in a minute." she then jumped off his lap and ran off to her room. "I love you so much." I said sitting next to Connor and kisses him. He then got up and walked into Alice room and sat on the bed reading her the story, as he did I leaned on the door frame just smiling watching the two furs I love having a moment together. A few minutes into the story she was passed out Connor gently got up and wandered over to me wrapping his arms around my neck and I wrapped my arms around his waist then kissed him "These next few years are going to be amazing." he said as we walked to our bed room. As we laid in bed Connor draped his tail over me as he held me close then kissed my ears "Good night my love." he whispered "Good night my fox." I whispered.

One Month Later I've been pacing back and forth, sweat dripping down my brow "How much longer?" I ask looking to my friend Steven a red wolf. "You have about thirty minute, now please just sit down." he said putting his hands on my shoulder and leading me to a chair sitting me in it "You'll do just fine." he said and I nodded. Before I knew it I was walking down the isle and on the other end was my love standing at the alter, his face had a smile on it that only he could wear in such a fashion. As I stood facing him we took a hold of each other's hand, I just smiled at him and I couldn't stop if I wanted to. Before I knew we were putting rings on each others finger and I was now kissing my husband then he smiled and spoke Italian into the microphone between us "In questo giorno vita mia, il mio cuore e mia anima ora ti appartiene Ethan Thomas. Ti amo" my eyes just welled up into tears "I love you too." was all I had to say then he reached up and wiped the tears away "No more tears my love, no more tears." he said as we walked down the isle. We walked right into the reception where Alice ran right to us and I picked her up and held her tight while Connor kissed her cheek then the photographer motioned for us to look at him and we just smiled at him "Such a beautiful family. I think this'll be the best picture of the whole day." he said as he walked away then stopped to take a few pictures of our guests. Then Alice asked to be set down and when I set her down I saw her run right to the cookies which made me smile, I looked over at Connor who looked to be a bit disappointed and I knew why "I'm sorry they're not here hun, it's their lose." I said wrapping my arms around his neck "They didn't even respond to the invite, hell I sent them two so they have no excuse." he said looking down and then I put a finger under his chin then lightly kissed him "I have to say this, for tonight forget them. This is our night." I said and he smiled and nodded. Then he dragged me onto the dance floor, for the most part I was enjoying my self until I heard the dj say "Ladies and gentlemen please clear the floor for the couple's first dance." then "All About Us." by He Is We started playing and I instantly hid my face in his neck because I'm a shy wolf and because I couldn't stop crying. Then when the song ended he lifted my head and kissed me once again. I wish that moment could've lasted forever because that kiss was truly all about us.

Two months later For a few days Conner had felt under the weather then one day he woke up and started getting sick so he's stuck at home and I had called off work to take care of him and we had sent Alice to stay with my parents so she didn't get it as well. "Is there anything I can do?" I asked as we laid in bed and he just shook his head. "Well try and get some sleep." I said and he just nodded. I stepped out and did a bit of cleaning and fixing up a bit. I then heard Connor running to the bathroom. I then followed him and in the toilet was blood, he just looked up and his eyes were full of fear. " I think we need to go to the E.R." I said as I grabbed a wash cloth and wiped off his mouth, he just nodded as I did.

A few days later after some tests had been ran we sat in the room the doctor had put us in when he came back with the test results I didn't like the look he had on his face. "I'm sorry to say son but you have stomach cancer." and I my stomach just dropped then I looked over to Connor his eyes full of disbelief, he just shook his head "Can you run the tests again? This can't be I just got married." he said "I'm sorry son. I'll leave you two alone." he said then he walked out. I just took a hold of Connor's hand and he wrapped his around mine then he laid his head on. Then for the first time I can remember I heard my love crying and made me start crying as well. I just held him tight to me "We'll get through this." I whispered

One Month Connor's hospital room is over flowing with flowers. Things haven't gotten better, he's now seventy pounds lighter. I can't stand to see all these wires and tubes sticking out of him. Today is his birthday and we got special permission so we ordered take out from his favorite place and we haven't heard from his parents which isn't helping him at all, I was about to go into our room and I stopped as I heard him on the phone saying "I see you're still keeping strong to that promise to never talk to me ever again I guess the fact I have cancer and that it's my birthday means nothing to you. Well I just want to tell you and dad that I still love you both." then I walked in as he was ending the call. "Who was that?" I asked as I sat down with the food and he just smiled as he saw cheese sticks and macaroni 'n cheese bites, he ma have only eaten a few of them but as he did I could tell he loved every moment of it. "Happy birthday my love." I said as I leaned in to kiss his cheek but he pulled away "What's wrong?" I asked then he looked at me and I knew what he wanted so I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, his lips felt cold to mine "I love you." I said then he said the same thing he said to me on our wedding day "In questo giorno vita mia, il mio cuore e mia anima ora ti appartiene Ethan Thomas. Ti amo" I tried to hold back the tears but I couldn't then as the clock changed from eleven fifty nine to midnight the next day he smiled one last time, his head went limp and then everything happened in slow motion as I heard the beep of his hearth monitor become one long drone and nurses and a doctor rushed in to save him but all they tried failed and he passed away "Time of death, twelve twelve." the doctor said as I sat next to Connor's lifeless body holding his hand to my face as I balled my eyes out.

A few days later "It's sad to think that I just married this young man." the pastor said "I think Ethan has a few words to share." he added then I walked up to the microphone "Today I don't just bury my best friend I bury my soul mate. A man who I loved with my whole heart. I don't think he had a negative bone in body, at least until he did until after he had his coffee." I said and few laughs were heard "He wasn't just a husband he was also a father, Alice may have not been his biologically but he loved her like he was." I turned to the casket leaning in and kissing Connor's forehead and whispered "In questo giorno vita mia, il mio cuore e mia anima ora ti appartiene Connor Thomas. Ti amo" I then placed the first picture taken of our family in between his hands. Then I fell to my knees crying my eyes out "Please just wake Connor please!" I begged then I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see my dad, I jumped up and hugged him tight, my tears staining his suit jacket. I was taken back to my seat and a few more words were said then the Pall-bearers and I carried Connor's casket to the Hurst taking him to his final resting spot. Even though every one had left I staid and watched as the dirt was placed back into the earth burying my love for good. I then walked over to his head stone, engraved were the dates of his life and on it was picture of him. Next to his head stone was one set for me, in between them was a picture of us both kissing. I sat down on the fresh dirt, just staring back at my reflection in the marble. "I know you're not suffering and you're happy. I still wish you were with me and that's selfish. I miss you so much." I said clutching the rings he had given me. Then I felt something brush my cheek and I knew instantly it was Connor telling me wasn't suffering "One day we'll be back together. I love you." I said leaning in kissing the picture of him then stood up and walked away.