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Now where can I begin? This story if so fresh in my mind but I just can't think of where to begin recounting it; I guess the beginning would be best. I guess you could say that once upon a time I fell in love with my twin brother and in a time just passed I fell out of love with him, I fell so far that I actually started to resent him and resent all the things I'd done to myself for him. I never gave in to the temptation of having sex with or even just dating other people, and as a jock i got a lot of offers,I covered for him with our parents when he sneaked out for his wild sex benders, I held my obsession with him for years and he never even noticed me, fuck, I even killed myself so that he wouldn't die alone.

Death was probably the moment I started to realize how stupid I had been, when I died it wasn't like anything i had been told to expect, there wasn't a bright light at the end of the tunnel, there wasn't the fiery depths of hell, it was just cold, dark and dead, I wasn't some astral body in a state of purgatory, I was just a lonely consciousness in the void of nothingness, I could do nothing but think and reflect on my short life and I had a long time to reflect. Deep within the confines of my mind a hatred started to grow, he had me wrapped around his little finger and he never even knew, I was practically begging him to return all the love I had devoted to him but he never fucking noticed, not even once, I would have gone to the ends of the earth for him and when I finally confessed my feelings for him he turned tail and ran, he fucked every other guy in town and by the end of a month he had more diseases than i would have thought possible, he went from the most desired piece of ass in town to the village pariah seemingly overnight, but then there I was, stupid and idealistic, ready to be with him together in death forever. What a stupid concept, forever, all my life he was all i wanted and when i finally got my chance to have my forever with him he just pity fucked me and left me all alone, he was meant to be my forever but he wasn't there, why wasn't he there?

In the darkness I lost track of time, the only thing keeping me sane was my focus on my festering hatred of my twin brother. Soon enough i heard a friendly voice calling out to me, I remember thinking I had finally lost my mind, only to feel a strange tugging sensation, I didn't think i could feel anything in this state but there was a definite pull. Next thing I know I'm in bed with my twin and a wolf I'd never met before, as soon as I saw my brother I felt the rage bubble up within me, there was so much I wanted to say to him but when he woke the wolf spoke before I got the chance. After hearing of the events that had transpired after our deaths and the reason we had been resurrected I could focus on nothing but helping to get my family back together, even if that meant living with the subject of my hate.

Soon enough our family was reunited and we went to live in the realm of the ancient wolf gods, for a time I had forgotten my feelings of hatred towards my brother and started sneaking into his bed at night but that didn't last long. Soon my hatred came back stronger than ever but I decided that what was best for the family was best for me and it would be best for the family if I kept my mouth shut, I still couldn't bear to look at him or even acknowledge his existence, I knew ignoring him was an imperfect solution but it was the best I could do to cope, at least until we went back to school.

School was disastrous at first, all the sights and sounds reminded me of the last school I went to and how much of a fool I was back then, this time, however, would be different, this time I was gonna taste everything life had to offer and I would be damned if I let my arse-hole of a brother ruin high-school for me a second time. Within no time I was a key member on the football team, I was hanging out with the popular crowd, my life was wild parties and crazy sex, it didn't matter who it was or what they had between their legs, my cock enjoyed them equally, and then the drugs started. At first it was just marijuana, then we started lacing it with LSD, then I started on speed and that's when things got messy. I was awake at all hours of the night, I was never hungry and I was almost always angry but I couldn't get enough, I was well and truly hooked on the stuff and I came closer and closer to exploding every day until it finally happened and I didn't care who was caught in the blast.

It was a day like any day, I went to see my dealer in the morning so I could get my supply but apparently I had run his suppliers dry, this made me very unhappy and I lacked the capacity to care about keeping it inside. I held my dealer up against the wall and threatened to rip out his throat if he didn't get me the drugs by the end of the day. Unfortunately it was then that Max came around the corner and caught me in the act, he came over to me and grabbed me by the scruff as if I was some misbehaving puppy, I didn't like that one bit, I let go of my dealer and turned my fist on my twin, with a loud crack he fell to the floor, he looked up at me with what appeared to be a broken, bloodied nose and said "What the fuck Josh, you hit me!" Then the rage took over and I retorted with my best 'dumb jock' line "Yeah I did faggot, touch me again and I'll do more than that."

Max looked so dejected and broken as he looked down and whimpered "but I thought you loved me." That set me off completely, all the pain and anger I suffered because of him came bubbling to the surface, "Love you? Love you? I hate your fucking guts you sorry sack of shit, you ruined my life, I missed out on all this because I was a starry-eyed, love struck fucking idiot, I gave you so much and you barely knew I existed, then you gave me one last pity fuck before I fucking killed myself for you! And then when I was all alone in the dark waiting for you, you never came, you just never came for me, why didn't you come for me?"

I didn't bother waiting around for his answer, I turned tail and ran with tears streaming down my face, I thought it would feel better to get all my feelings out in the open but it just felt worse and worse the farther I ran, I had just beaten up my twin brother all because of the choices I had made, I was the one who killed myself, I was the one who stopped living my life because I was in love with the wind, all this time I was the arse-hole expecting too much of the person I should have expected nothing from and now I had fucked up any chance I had of a loving, brotherly relationship with him, all because I was strung out on drugs and an idiot. I really was an idiot.

When I got home that night after brooding under a bridge I was expecting the lecture of a lifetime from my dads but they were in fine spirits and only asked me to come home earlier in future, Max hadn't turned me in, after everything that happened he was protecting me, I ran to my clearing in the forest realm of the gods and started crying again, I was half expecting Max to be waiting for me but I never expected him to have company. There was a mountainous brown wolf sitting with him on my bed, paw holding his face, mouth on his mouth, tongue wrestling his tongue, I didn't know what to make of the scene before me, was this an intervention or an exhibition of Max's latest boy-toy? Either way I'd had enough, I marched up to them and asked the wolf what he thought he was doing, making out with my twin on my bed. That was as far as I got before the gargantuan tackled me to the ground and held me down, he growled loudly as he looked hungrily at my throat, I was terrified, I didn't want to die again, not after last time and not before I could apologize to Max. slowly I felt myself sink into the soft earth beneath me and soon enough I was up to my throat in dirt, the wolf then moved away to stand protectively next to my brother, it was then that my brother stepped forward and spoke, "Josh, meet my friend Decimus, ancient wolf god of earth, Decimus, my brother Josh," he looked so powerful as he slunk his way over to me "now I don't think it was very fair of you to run away without giving me a chance to retort, so now that you're stuck there let's continue where we left off, all of the things you blamed me for, they were all you, I never asked for any of that, you just assumed that I wanted you to do all those things, don't forget that I died too, I spent years in the fucking void crying out to you, I was all alone there just like you but when I reflected on my life I didn't have the cowardice to blame others for my shitty choices, I knew that I only had myself to blame."

And that's when the tears started, having my own selfishness thrown in my face like that was just too much, I'd fucked up badly and dug myself a hole so deep I didn't know if I could crawl back out. I lowered my head and could barely muster the courage to speak, "I know brother, I'm sorry..."

"You're sorry!? Is that it? You almost broke my nose you arse-hole, you've been moody and horrible since we were resurrected and you hated me so much you got a fucking drug addiction, but it's all ok now because you said sorry! At the end of the day those are just meaningless words, you want me to believe you're sorry then fucking prove it! The drugs stop now, the parties die down or stop all together, you're gonna apologize to your dealer before turning him in, because that weasel deserves jail time for getting teenagers addicted to drugs in high school, and then you're gonna publicly apologize to everyone you've hurt over the past few months, then, and only then, will I believe you're sorry."

It was so embarrassing to be scolded like a child by my brother but I realized that he was just looking out for me. Decimus pulled me out of the ground and my brother hugged me and licked my ears affectionately, "now let's get the twin I used to know back in action, this new guy's a dick."

After that he sent Decimus off with a kiss and stayed the night with me to make sure I behaved, it was nice having the familiar feeling of my brother cuddled up to me and over the next few months I made amends for all the wrongs I'd done, my dealer was expelled for selling drugs to minors and I stopped drinking at parties, I even had a girlfriend for a while but that ended pretty quickly, I just couldn't be with someone who I was going to outlive by staying in the realm of the gods, I did however find a cute boyfriend in the forest of the gods one day.

He was the god of literature and reading, renowned as the least attractive of the gods, unlike the other gods he wasn't heavily muscled with a huge cock and he wasn't any kind of brilliant colour, he was a light beige wolf with a lean build and glasses, his hair fell over one side of his face in bangs and he was usually sitting down, that's actually the reason we met, I was exploring the forest admiring all the colours when I saw the beige section, it seemed so misplaced in this realm so I decided to check it out, unfortunately I didn't notice him sitting with his back to a tree with his nose in a book and tripped right over him, I quickly flipped myself over to apologize but the words were dead in my throat as soon as I saw him, he was so cute and boyish, his blushing face and his down-turned eyes, he was the perfect bookworm. He nervously apologized before I blurted out "fuck you're beautiful!" My cheeks instantly went red and in that moment I wasn't sure which of us was more embarrassed. I quickly apologized "Oh my god, I am so sorry, I can't believe I just said that to a man I've never met before, umm I'm Josh by the way, and I'm a complete idiot."

He was still blushing but he had a small smile on his face, it made him look so cute I could barely stop myself from pouncing on the poor man and smothering him in kisses, it took a little bit of time for him to find his voice but when he did it surprised me, he had the most beautiful voice I had ever heard and with that voice he said "I'm Litarius, umm, it's a pleasure to meet you, if you don't mind me asking Josh, umm, uh, why are you peeking out?"

It was then I noticed that I had started getting hard from my sudden attraction to this complete stranger, "oh shit! I'm so sorry," without thinking I grabbed his book from his lap to try to cover my ever-hardening cock and in doing so I uncovered his own erection, I quickly dropped his book, again without thinking, and all I could muster was "I'm so sorry, I'm not normally this stupid, I just really like you and umm-"

I never thought the bookworm would be as bold as he was but he shut me up with a kiss, sure it was only a peck on the lips but it was enough to drive me wild, I just couldn't control myself anymore, I grabbed his face and pulled him back to mine, within no time I had my tongue in his mouth and my hand went instinctively to his cock, he moaned into my mouth as he pulled me to the ground, we sat there making out for a while, me grinding my cock into his and him whimpering the whole time, then suddenly he broke the kiss and rolled over, lifting his tail, presenting his ass to me, I wasn't about to say no to him so I dove right in with my tongue, first just wetting the tight hole and enjoying the taste of him on my tongue and then slowly starting to penetrate him with my tongue, the way he would let out a little moan and then turn red from embarrassment just turned me on more and more, even though he was offering me his ass like this there was no way in hell I was going to take him without being able to see every cute face he made, I grabbed his hips and rolled him back onto his back before spreading his legs. I placed my cock at the tight entrance and rubbed my tip over the surface until he started whining with lust, he wanted it badly and I was gonna give it to him, I started pushing the tip of my cock in and as much as I wanted to just slam it in and fuck him senseless I got the feeling he didn't do this very often, if at all, so I went slowly, inch by inch, giving him time to adjust before moving on until I was up to my knot inside him. I let him get adjusted to my girth before I started pulling out, as I did he looked up at me and whimpered softly, I pulled all the way out to my tip before slamming it all in again, he really seemed to enjoy that, so I kept going, fucking him harder and harder then switching to slow and gentle, I could feel my approaching orgasm so I knew that if I was going to give him my knot it would have to be soon. I pulled him up onto my lap and started kissing him as I started to grind my knot into him, at first it was just a gentle grinding then it was short thrusts, stretching his hole around my knot more and more until it finally popped in and his ass tightened around the base of my throbbing cock, that set me over the edge, I broke the kiss and bit down on his neck as I finished mating him, then just as I started to orgasm I felt his ring get tighter and as his own orgasm erupted from his cock all over the two of us, for a little guy he sure produced a lot of spunk, we soon fell asleep in our post sex afterglow and that's how I met my boyfriend.

By the time I woke up he had long gone and I panicked for a few moments until I saw the notebook and quill he had left me, in the notebook there was a note that said "I'm sorry for sneaking off like this but it's not every day I meet a beautiful, jock type guy who is somehow attracted to the plainest wolf in the realm of the gods, I was worried that after you'd had your way with me you'd toss me aside and I don't think I could bear to live with the shame but just in case I'm giving you this notebook because It's better to know, if you ever wish to contact me you need only write in the book and I will reply in short order, if you have decided to make this a one time thing then I am sorry I wasn't good enough for you but that was amazing for me and I thank you for that, I really do hope to hear from you so please write me. Yours sincerely, Litarius."

I wrote in that book straight away, I wrote it in the form of a diary entry though, just to tease him "Dear Diary, today I met the most beautiful wolf in existence; sure he isn't bright and colourful, he's not particularly buff, rather scrawny really, but he has the cutest face I've ever seen and is just perfect to me, he ran off into the night after enjoying what I had given him but I'm sure I'll see him again, perhaps tonight at sundown? I really want to get to know him though, because even though the sex was great, I would be celibate if it meant I could just see him again, well that's all from me, Josh."

We met up that night and I took him to dinner on the earthly plane, we chatted for hours and hours and didn't get back until the early hours of the morning, I wrote in that book every day and would anxiously wait for his response, I really wanted things to work with Litarius and so far they have, he's been absolutely wonderful, although it's hard to believe he is thousands of years older than me, he looks and acts like he should be in the same grade as me in school, I even tried to convince him to come down and enroll but he was too shy to make it past the front gate, it was so freaking adorable.

Anyway, that's all for now, I have a hot date to attend to.