The Darkness Calls Part 4
Depression at it's finest
Note:Let's just jump right into chapter 4! I really have nothing to say besides Enjoy!!!
"Mr.Kawashima!! Did you come here to learn or draw doodles in your notebook! I do not want to send you out of my class! This is the last time I tell you to stop drawing." I closed my notebook that had drawings all over it saying "Blake + Bob". I decided to listen to the professors boring speech about Psychology or whatever. It's been a week since i've moved into my dorm. Ever since blake and I had our heart to heart moment we've been super close. We didn't really have a romantic connection we were just good friends. Really...good friends. Bastian had a whole new group of friends so I didn't really see him that often. Even when I called him he didn't answer. I don't want to lose him but I can't forget about Blake. I'm torn between either my best friend or my sexiest friend.
"Alright class dismissed make a line and pass me your essays." Fuck I didn't finish it. I walked past the professor shamefully as he gave me a sneer.
"Do you plan on doing your work Mr.Kawashima? Or are you going to continue day dreaming?"
"Sorry I've....had a lot to do recently.
"Likely story...." I hated this guy. He said nothing about the other students but when it came to me he hadde hate in his eyes. For some reason I feel like I remember him but I can't put my finger on it..."
I walked up to my dorm to find the door unlocked. Maybe Blake skipped his morning classes... I creaked open the door to try and scare my new best friend.I looked around the room to find a note on my desk. As soon as I picked it up a dark figure appeared and just stood there..I couldn't make out its face. It just stood there mocking me.
"who..who...are you."
I turned my head by all I could see was darkness. The figure walked slowly towards me. The air was dense and I started to gasp at the lack of oxygen. I felt my whole body drain every time the figure took a step. When I tried to run the figure appeared everywhere I looked. It crept forward. My breathing every step he took. He was now inches away from my face. I could see nothing. There was no sound no light nothing. Was this death? Is that what I deserve? I closed my eyes trying to wake myself up.
"this...this i..i..is a dream. you're not real.."
The figure then started whispering in my ear...
"You were always a failure....I never should have had you....you're a mockery to our family. If I could, I would tear you to shreds and. I just can't wait until your death.... you'll struggle the same way you made me struggle...you monster..." There was nothing but silence...I looked down at my arms and there were fresh cut wounds.
"Why...why is this happening.." The figures voice rang through my head. Did that just happen? What just happened? I looked down in my hand
"A razor...did I just.." the pain from the cuts finally hit. It hurt so much but I felt no sympathy for it. I felt like it was the right thing. I decided to read the note it read "To Bob, I want use to be happy. Ever since the first day i've felt....feelings for you. This weird for me to say but, I love you. I love you so much to the point I where I watch you sleep. I know you don't like me the way I like you. So I decided to leave. At the moment I'm on a plane to michigan back home. I'm sorry I fell for you. I'm sorry I burdened you with my love. So please never talk to me again. Love Blake
Tears were rolling down my cheek. I drove him away. I caused him to lose his education because of me. I just cause problems. I do nothing but cause misery to everyone around. I've lost to much in the world to care anymore. I laid on my bed crying wishing to end myself. Why do I hurt people? I turned wrapped myself up in my blanket and cried myself to sleep. My whimpering was pathetic. The figure was right...I should have never been born h