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Ricky took one last look at his house before leaving to go see Jonathan. Even though his mind was set, he couldn't help but wonder what his life would be like in the future if he had made the choice to be killed by the disease as opposed to the Black Widower. After twenty minutes of consideration as to what he would do, he came to the conclusion that his life would not change at all. He had nothing to gain from living, and saw it fit that he left this world on his terms. In his eyes, dying by having sex with another man was the biggest "Fuck you" to God that he could ever give.

Ricky drove to Jonathan's house full of uncertainty and agony. Not only would this be the last time he would have sex, but he had no idea how pleasant it would be. Of all the things he could think of in the last few moments without a death sentence, he was thinking about how amazing or bad the sex could possibly be. I guess when you are a promiscuous fox with a nine inch sex magnet, you tend to think more about fucking than anything else. As soon as he reached his destination, he was surprised to see that Jonathan was living a much more lavish lifestyle than he had previously imagined. Jonathan lived in a tan colored one-story house. The front lawn was perfectly manicured down to the individual strands of grass with no signs of imperfection. Surrounding his lawn was a hedge wall standing a total of six feet in the air, blocking anyone from seeing through. The only opening was a small cutaway, just big enough for a car to fit through.

Ricky knocked on the ebony door, and after a few seconds Jonathan answered. Jonathan opened the door with a sincere smile showing his sympathy and happiness to see Ricky has made the correct decision. He was wearing a black tank top and red speckled sweats that hugged his legs tightly.

"Hey there! Sorry for the outfit, I was working out.", he said as the muscles on his arms were pulsing at steady intervals.

"Don't worry about it. I didn't interrupt you, did I?", Ricky said.

"Oh no, of course not. Now, come on in! Make yourself comfortable."

Ricky walked through the door into the main hallway which led to the living room. The walls were covered with photos of Jonathan with another man. But Ricky ignored them for now and found a couch to sit on.

"So, how have you been?", he asked as he sat down next to Ricky.

"I've been alright. I've just been trying to wrap my head around the news. It still hasn't hit me that I have AIDS.", Ricky said.

"Or that you will be gone in a little over twenty-four hours.", Jonathan replied.

"Yeah, that too."

"That pain of not knowing what day will finally be your last will never go away. All you have to do is live your life still feeling immortal, because that is what we all deserve to feel. The minute we start feeling mortal, what is the point of living?"

"Exactly. I guess that is why I want to go out with a bang, I suppose."

"Figuratively and literally speaking.", Jonathan said with a smile.

"Yes, that's the goal.", Ricky said smiling back. "So I noticed you have a lot of pictures on the wall of yourself with another wolf. Is that the boyfriend you were talking about?"

"Yes. His name was Chris. We dated for seven years before I tested positive. And after we had sex that night, he died a day later in his sleep. He was such an amazing guy. I wish things could have turned out differently, but things are the way they are, I guess."

"Well, I am sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what it must have been like for you to go through that.", Ricky said. There was an awkward silence lingering between them for a few moments when Jonathan quickly spoke to break it.

"I'll be back in a minute, I have to use the restroom. Help yourself to a drink if you want, I have plenty."

"Alright. Thank you."

Ricky started to inspect the living room which was connected to the kitchen. He noticed that not only was Jonathan well off, but that he also had good taste. The floor was made of deep amber hardwood which added some brightness to the living room consisting completely of black furniture. The walls were a stark white, and similar to the furniture, the ornaments, picture frames, and clocks on the wall were black as well. Just looking at the color palette of his house he could tell that his past was dark, but he was trying to brighten the future up. Once Ricky was done admiring the room, he walked over to get a glass of water.

"Do you like my house? I decorated it myself.", Jonathan said. Ricky was getting the water from the refrigerator, and once he closed the door he could see a half naked wolf on the other side that was Jonathan. He wasn't wearing a shirt anymore, and his sweats were pulled down just enough so you could see the base of his hard shaft, with the rest of his member hidden underneath the article of clothing.

"Oh my. Yes, I love it. It's very striking and...mesmerizing.", Ricky said as he stared at Jonathan's lower half.

"Well, I'm glad you like it.", he said as he slowly dragged his perfectly sculpted body over towards Ricky. "You know, you can touch some of it too. I promise it won't bite.", he said.

"Well, I think I would like that.", Ricky said as he swallowed his nervousness in one big gulp.

He has never been nervous about sex as it came naturally to him, but this time is obviously different. He slowly reached his shaking paw down towards Jonathan's sweats as he pulled them down which made his rock hard cock spring out and up. His eyes expanded as he gazed upon Jonathan's member. He wasn't as much surprised about the size as he was about how hard he was, which made Ricky even harder. The paw's tight grasp made Jonathan quiver.

"Ugh, your fur is so soft. Go ahead, start stroking. He's all yours to control.", Jonathan said.

Ricky held Jonathan's cock as they slowly moved closer towards each other until their chests were touching. Ricky leaned in slowly as his lips gently laid upon Jonathan's lips. The moment their lips touched, Ricky wrapped his free hand around Jonathan and pulled him in even closer. He started to stroke Jonathan faster as they could both feel the heavy breaths emitting from their mouths into each other. While Ricky was pleasing him, Jonathan started to pull off his shirt, exposing a thick coat of orange and white fur, just as soft as his paw. Jonathan rubbed his chest, feeling the definitions in his muscles and bones as his paws gracefully skipped along his torso.

"I will make this memorable for you. You're worth it.", Jonathan said as he put his head on Ricky's shoulder, still rubbing his chest.

"You will never forget me. No matter if I am gone or not.", Ricky said.

"I know. This feels so much more than just a fuck."

"Well then we better not stop."

Ricky pulled Jonathan over to his couch and pushed him gently onto the black velvet, laying him down. Ricky speedily stripped down to his naked self and jumped on top of him. He could feel Jonathan's leaking cock rubbing against his ass and tailhole as they kissed, leaving a warm precum trail which excited the both of them. Ricky's nine-inch member was leaking all over Jonathan's chest causing his black fur to join together into larger conjoined strands of damp fur. Ricky started pushing his hips against Jonathan's dick, stroking it with his ass and tailhole.

"Mmm, you like that?", Ricky asked.

"Oh yeah. I can tell you've had quite a lot of experience.", Jonathan said.

"It's all been leading up to this moment. It was all meant for you. Now, you don't move. Let me take care of this."

Ricky leaned back and started to stroke Jonathan again, this time meant to get him ready for his tailhole.

"Oh my god, I can already tell you are going to be so tight. I can't wait to be inside you."

"And I can't wait to feel you inside me. That thick monster is going to tear me apart."

Jonathan grasped Ricky's huge cock as his paw just barely wrapped around the entirety of it. He slowly moved his hand up and down as he massaged Ricky's knot with his other hand. Ricky was completely mesmerized and in a trance as he hasn't felt this much pleasure from another in a long time. He started to realize that this was more than just sex, but his mind was too distracted to think about anything other than sticking Jonathan's huge dick in his tight tailhole.

"Alright. I think you're ready now.", Ricky said.

"Put me in you, you dirty Fox.", Jonathan said.

Ricky maneuvered Jonathan's dick to lay directly on top of his tailhole. He leaned forward and started to kiss Jonathan as he pushed his hole against the large member that laid directly in front. He continued to push slowly until his hole opened up and allowed Jonathan to swiftly move inside with no trouble at all. Ricky let out a huge gasp of air and moaned from the sudden pleasurable infiltration side of him.

"Jesus...you weren't kidding. You are huge! But it feels so fucking good.", Ricky said.

"Yeah, I know. I wish I could have you inside of me, but just me for tonight. I don't think I could handle you personally.", said Jonathan.

"Well I guess it's good that you are fucking me then."

Ricky went in to kiss Jonathan some more as he started to move up and down, feeling the shaft glide through him, throbbing at the same time. His hips were gyrating in every direction, pushing Jonathan's cock wherever he pleased.

"Ugh, fuck me Ricky. Fuck me!", Jonathan said.

"I'll fuck you like it's my last time fucking!", Ricky said as he pounded into Jonathan.

Jonathan started to stroke Ricky's cock even harder now as he used the precum constantly leaking from him as lube. Both of their breaths continued to grow and intensify as their exhales were delivered into each other's mouths at the same time. The precum lube started to dry making the friction between the two just wrong enough to enjoy even more without it being too uncomfortable. Ricky's tailhole tightened more, pressing against Jonathan's cock, forcing him to thrust harder just to get him deeper inside.

"I'm close, I'm getting close!", Jonathan said.

"Let it out! Let it all out inside of me!", said Ricky. Ricky pushed into Jonathan in one giant thrust as his knot infiltrated the red and throbbing tailhole. Jonathan stroked Ricky's knot with short and quick pumps as his heavy breathing soon turned into deep moans. They both let out monstrous screams as Jonathan came inside of Ricky, and as Ricky came all over Jonathan's chest. His seed leaked out of Ricky's hole almost immediately after he pulled out, dripping all over his legs, warm to the touch. They sat there in silence for a few moments as they appreciated what had just happened. Ricky broke the silence with gentle tears rolling down his face and soft sniffles as he brought air into his snout.

"Are you alright? I thought you would be happy right now.", Jonathan asked as he pet Ricky's thigh, comforting him.

"I just sentenced myself to death. This one small action will have massive consequences.", Ricky said.

"But this is what you wanted. At least I thought it was what you wanted."

"It is what I wanted!", Ricky yelled as his soft crying turned into violent sobbing. "But that doesn't change the fact that I am going to be gone tomorrow! I will no longer be on this earth, and life for everyone else will carry on!"

"It is tough to come to terms with, I know. To be honest I am not sure if you ever will. But what is done is done and there is only peace now. You will have peace and solitude, and that is what matters most."

They both continued to talk for hours as Jonathan calmed Ricky down until he came to his senses and accepted his fate. Soon after, they got dressed and Jonathan walked Ricky to the door to say goodbye.

"Well, it has been wonderful. Spend the last day you have here doing exactly what you want to do with no limitations.", Jonathan said.

"Thank you. And I will.", Ricky said as he walked off to his car.

Ricky spent his last day with his family. He decided not to tell them about his fate so he could pretend that everything was normal for a few more hours. With only thirty minutes left of life before twenty four hours would have passed since he was with Jonathan, he chose to asleep peacefully so that when he did die he would feel no pain. As he closed his eyes, he realized this would be the last time he would experience the world. He felt the soft bed sheets rub against his delicate fur, not knowing what would come after death. Would he be in some form of an afterlife? Or, would it be complete darkness filled with cold isolation? Only time would tell. He fell asleep quietly and happily as he awaited his fate.

Ricky opened his eyes to see his bedroom filled with sunlight beaming through his window. He quickly sat up on his bed in confusion. At first he thought he was in the afterlife, but he realized it felt too real. He was as alive today as he was yesterday. Of all the thoughts rushing through his head, the one that confused him the most was about Jonathan. He quickly came to the conclusion that Jonathan just wanted to have sex and used this "Black Widower" story as a cover. Filled with anger, he got dressed and drove over to Jonathan's house. As he turned onto his street, he could see an ambulance outside of his house, with the two paramedics carrying a body on a gurney under a white veil. He jumped out of his car as soon as he was close and ran over to the ambulance scared and perplexed.

"Excuse me! What happened here?", Ricky asked out of breath from sprinting.

"I'm sorry sir, but we can't disclose that information to you at this time unless you are a relative.", one of the paramedics said to him.

"I was with Jonathan last night, so if this has to do with him in any way you better tell be right now!"

"He died in his sleep last night. A neighbor heard him screaming and called it in."

"That's impossible! When did he die?"

"At approximately 10:10pm."

Ricky broke down in tears as he realized that Jonathan died twenty four hours after they had sex. He had no idea why, but it seemed as if Jonathan had sex for the last time, not Ricky.

A few days later, Ricky went to the hospital to find out that his AIDS has disappeared, and he was completely healthy again. Afterwards, he went throughout his life peacefully as if he was breathing his last breath. He had Jonathan to thank for his life, even though the reasons for his death are unsolved. Every day he thinks about Jonathan and realizes he brought purpose to his life once again.