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One Friday evening, I got home late, seeing as I needed to do some groceries. Once I made my way inside my apartment, I placed my groceries on the kitchen counter and unpacked everything. After that, I went to my small living room and noticed my mobile phone was on the table where I left it. I thought it might have been stolen or lost, but turned out I just forgot to take it with me when I left this morning. . Missed 5 calls and I got 5 messages in my voicemail. "Hm... "Anonymous"...

Then all of a sudden, someone pushed me down on my stomach on the couch as my face got buried in the pillows and I got pinned down by my arms. I got so freaked out by that, but then I noticed it was Ceylan. Her head got lower next to me and I felt her breathing in my neck. 'Hmm... Fresh meat... Rawr...' And then she licked the back of my neck. It gave me goose bumps... 'Would you stop doing that already?! It scares the crap out of me!'

'I'm sorry... I just really missed you, dushi...'

Ha... Dushi. How come I always associate that word with a douche bag? I had a lot of trouble to keep my laughter in whenever she called me that. I know that it means something different and whenever she said it, she meant it well but... To me, it felt as if she said something like... "I love you, douche-bag..." But this was dead serious... 'I haven't seen you in two weeks, you know...'

'I know, sweetie, and I'm gonna make it up to you...'

'You got together with Terry...?'

'Hmm-mm. But don't worry... Momma's gonna take real good care of you now...'

'Look, I know you're really into those "predator and prey" role-playing things, but, seriously, this is getting ridiculous. This has to stop...'

'Say it...'

"No." But she wasn't gonna let me go if I didn't say it... She once told me that she really liked those role-playing things and I did too but... It was getting kinda... I don't know... Boring. It's always the same. So I sighed reluctantly and just said it to get it over with... 'Aaah. Eeek. Who will save me from this ferocious beast?'

'There's no one who can save you now...'

She unbuttoned my jeans from behind and pulled it down to my knees. Then she starts licking my butt-cheeks as she still had me pinned down by my arms. It's not that I didn't like those role-playing things but... It's all we ever do nowadays. I just wanted to make out with her in bed and not just lying here on my stomach pretending that I can act. But she obviously didn't mind. Her hands went under my shirt and got hold of my tits. And she gently squeezed in it as she kept on licking my butt-cheeks. Ceylan kept on doing that for a while as I quietly enjoyed it...

'Psst, Nikki, you need to say something now...'

'Oh, yeah. Uh... Please don't eat me, you ferocious sexy beast, you... I'm uh.... Too sexy to be eaten.'

'That should be the least of you're worries after I'm through with you...'

One hand went down and kept rubbing over my panties while she still was licking my butt-cheeks. Now that... That was really sexy. It didn't take long before she pulled my panties down to my knees as well and she poked her nose against my vagina. 'Hmmm... Raw and juicy... Just the way I like my meat...'

Then she started lapping up and down and all that. We were so caught up together we didn't noticed that the front door opened up. And that someone was watching us for a short moment. Ceylan and I both looked up and I saw Meagan standing there, looking very baffled. It looked as if she had been crying a lot. Then I realized I was half naked on the couch while Ceylan was checking out my rear. "Oh shit..." She turned around and shook her head as she walked out of the door... 'Meagan!! Wait!! Come back!!'

I quickly jumped up, pulled up my panties and jeans and went after her. I called out to her, and near the end of the hallway, she turned around and just looked at me. 'I-I'm sorry you had t-to witness that... I-I-I didn't know you were c-coming...

'I called you five times, Nic. Five times... I needed to see you.'

'What, just now?'

The way I said that made it sound a bit snappy... Of course I was kind of pissed at her, but I didn't want to make it sound like that. I still wanted to set things right... 'After I... I barely saw you the last couple of months...?' I said, trying to use that sentence to rectify it...'I have a lot on my mind, Nic...' She let out a deep sigh and looked down...

'Soooo... You expect me to listen and tell you that everything will be alright in the end...?'

'I know what I did, Nic... And I'm sorry... But-'

'You come back to me because you need me. And then you... Walk off again until you need me again.'

'I didn't mean to, Nikki...'

'But you still did...'

She let out another sigh and looked down. Somewhere deep down inside, I felt sorry for her. I didn't want to be pissed at her now that she's back again... But I also didn't want to get hurt again by her ever again... It got me thinking... Why did Meagan want to see me all of a sudden...? I haven't heard from her in a long time, and all of a sudden, she wanted to make up. Why? I tried to talk to her for a long time. But I'm sick and tired of people always blaming me when's it's not my fault so that I can suck it up and apologize. She was the one who left me, not the other way around... So I waited for an explanation... An explanation that never came that day... Meagan had a lot of trouble trying to speak up... I should've known what was wrong with her... I should've seen it the moment I stared in her eyes... But I wasn't seeing anything... I was too blinded by my own emotions... I'm sick and tired to get hurt by the people you trust the most... I was pissed... I was sad... I was sad because I was pissed at her... 'Do you have any idea how much you hurt me with what you did...?'

'Nikki... If this is still about you having a crush on me...'

'It's not. Why'd you bother to come back in the first place...? You think that after all these months I'd jump in you're arms and that everything would be fine again...?'

Then all of a sudden... She exploded in anger... Everything she was bottling up, every emotion, and every setback she ever experienced in her life exploded into pure anger... I never saw her so angry before... I should've known this would happen, seeing as I kept bringing up the issue of why she left... While she was here to explain it in the first place...

'Goddamnit Nic!! I'm not here to argue with you!! I'm here to explain you things!! You think this is easy for me to do?! You have no fucking clue of what happened or why I didn't see you in a long time and yet you draw your own fucking conclusions!! Why the hell do I even bother trying to explain it, seeing as you already have you're opinion ready about me?!'

'I-I didn't mean to... I-It's just that... Th-That...'

'Go FUCK yourself, Nic. I'm done with you...'

That was pretty harsh... And it hurt a lot when she said it... All my life, people have been running over me... And now, when I finally stood up for myself, it still went wrong... Strange, come to think of it. I always told myself that I'd never have preconceived opinions about others because I know what it's like... But now, I did the exact same thing I always told myself never to do... Maybe I was still having a grudge against her, for hurting me deeply... Maybe this was all just a big misunderstanding... I saw how the tears were going down her face while she looked pissed at me... And I was sorry for what I did... When I stared back in her eyes, I saw that she was sorry for what she did... Then she closed her eyes and turned around to walk away... 'No, no, no! Wait! Come back! Meagan!!' She kept on walking nonetheless, no matter how many times I called out her name. The doors leading to the staircases were closed and once again, I saw her walking out of my life... Maybe for good this time...

The moment I got back in my apartment, I sat down on the couch staring into blank space. Ceylan sat next to me and placed an arm around my shoulders... I started to cuddle her while I had a really hard time not to cry... 'You okay...?'

'No...'

'Who was she...?'

'Meagan...'

'Oh...'

Then I noticed my mobile phone on the table. I picked it up and dialled my voicemail number and listened to the first message. The moment I listened to it, I heard it was Meagan's voice and that she was on the brink of breaking into tears. I could hear she had a hard time with talking. 'Hey Nic, it's me, Meagan... I eh... I really need to see you... The last couple of months haven't really been easy for me but... I-I'm so sorry for... For neglecting you all this time... I truly am. I'm coming home, okay...? And I'll explain everything... I promise... *beep* End of message. To delete this message, press-

Then I listened to the other messages she left me. It was basically the same thing, while she seemed to get more desperate with every message I played. She begged me to call back but... I never did... And after I listened to those messages, I threw my phone on the table and stared into blank space again... 'Nikki... If you wanna be alone right now...'

'No. It's ok. I don't need her.'

'You sure...? You don't really sound like you're okay...'

'I am... Where were we...?'

"The ferocious sexy beast" part...?'

'Oh yeah...'

Meagan's name wasn't mentioned anymore after that. Ceylan and I had a lot of catching up to do but... I wasn't really in the mood after my fight with Meagan... I felt miserable for two days while Ceylan talked to me about it a lot... She made me realize that I didn't need her... And Meagan obviously didn't need me... Ceylan kept telling me that it was her loss for losing me as a friend, and not the other way around... But still... It hurt... Luckily... I had Ceylan who was there for me... And I couldn't care less about Meagan anymore. She had Fabian. We were living our own lives again as if nothing ever happened...

Ceylan stayed for another week, until she was seeing Terry once more. And once again, I realized she wasn't really my girlfriend whenever I was spending the nights alone in my bedroom. She's still Terry's girlfriend... It always pains me to see her leave... I'm scared of being alone... And now that Meagan is probably gone for good... Heh... I always had a lot of time to think about things whenever I was alone in bed... About Meagan... About Ceylan... Terry... And even though I have a relationship, I realized that nothing has ever changed for me... I thought that by having a relationship wouldn't make me feel lonely. And I wasn't lonely whenever Ceylan was here... But whenever she wasn't... It was a difficult thing to accept that I had to share her. But I thought that it was the price I had to pay for being with her. So I either had to share her... Or not have her at all...

I just really missed Ceylan, as if she became a part of me. Just a simple thing like a hug or a kiss were the things I missed the most. Knowing that at this very moment, she's with Terry, doing the same things she did to me. And then, one night... It struck me when I was alone in bed... I realized in what kind of a situation I got myself into. And I got scared because of that. This was a really awkward situation for me. And also very difficult... Things started to get complicated. And from my experience, when things get complicated, things go wrong. So I summoned everything up to get a good view on the overall situation and tried to find a solution before that problem would show up. Ok so... Terry and Ceylan are my best friends. Terry has a relationship with Ceylan. Ceylan is bi-sexual and it turned out we both had feelings for each other. Terry doesn't know that Ceylan and I are seeing each other and basically fucked each others brains out at least once a week. Ceylan also didn't know that I had sex with Terry early in their relationship. Ceylan doesn't want Terry to know about our relationship and Terry doesn't want Ceylan to find out that I sat butt-naked on his face.

Just what the hell have I been doing...? Awkward... Exactly. I just gave in to my own sexual fantasies and needs without thinking of their relationship. Selfish? Maybe, but it was oh so worth it. 'Oh come on, get a fucking grip, Nic.' I felt guilty again... I didn't want them to break up once they found out what the other has been doing. And no matter what decision I thought was right, one of them ended up being pissed at me. In Ceylan's case, she would be pissed at me for telling Terry about our relationship, and Terry would be pissed at me for NOT telling about my relationship with Ceylan. I wasn't so sure of what was gonna happen if I told Ceylan about what Terry and I have been doing, but I don't think she would take it so kindly. Either way, it didn't seem that there was an easy solution to this problem, and I'd be devastated if Ceylan doesn't want to see me anymore, or that Terry decides to end a close friendship. What the hell am I gonna do...? I fucked things up really bad this time...

Ceylan wanted to leave the things the way they were. To keep it a secret. I didn't. I wanted to be honest, and not to lie against my best friend. I wanted solutions, answers... Maybe even a compromise when the time is right... Ceylan opened my eyes. She told me that we shouldn't care of what other people think. And she's right on that. But I don't think it's right to lie against the people you care for, and break their hearts while doing it. The more I thought about it, the more I felt guilty towards Terry. And if Ceylan wasn't gonna tell Terry, someone else had to...

One Saturday evening, I went over to Terry and we were gonna do what we always did on a Saturday. Seeing a movie and than go out. When I got to his house, I ringed the doorbell, but it didn't get answered. So I ringed a couple of times again and after about 10 minutes, he finally opened up. But I could see in his face that something was definitely wrong. 'Hey! Finally!'

'Hey, Nic... Come on in...'

'What's wrong...?'

He walked up the stairs while I took off my shoes as I followed him to his room and he didn't say anything on the way. Once we got in his room, he flopped down on his bed while looking really depressed. I sat on the edge of his bed, and I could see that something went terribly wrong... 'Where's Ceylan? I thought she was with you?'

Terry let out a deep sigh as he kept staring at his one to eighteen scale-model collection in his display case.... It was an amazing collection to say the least but now I'm just wandering off... 'Ceylan was here...'

'Where is she now...?'

'She went home. To her dad...'

'A-Am I missing something here...?'

'Ceylan broke up with me just then...'

'What...? Why...?'

'I don't know...'

'She didn't tell you why...?'

I just couldn't believe what I was hearing... Why would Ceylan break up with Terry so all of a sudden...? I didn't know... And apparently, Terry didn't know why she broke up either... 'Oh... I'm sorry to hear that.'

'She's seeing someone else, isn't she...?

I hesitated for a moment to actually say it. Maybe it was the best to finally bring out the truth... I had to. I couldn't stand the thought to lie to him that evening... So I nodded slowly... 'Yeah... She is...'

'That explains a lot...'

'Whadda ya mean...?'

'Spending the weekends somewhere else. Not answering her phone. Why'd you never tell me that she was seeing someone else, Nic...?'

'I... I-I don't know... Look... Ceylan loves you a lot... I can see that... But... She had a bit of a struggle the last couple of months...

'Then why'd she never tell me...?'

'I don't know...'

It stayed silent for a long time while Terry was staring in blank space... I didn't know if he was mad at me for not telling him... I'd understand if he was, but truth be told... I had no idea how to make that up to him... 'Terry...? Are you mad at me for not telling...?' I asked quietly... He shook his head and let out a deep sigh... 'I was losing her a while back, Nic.'

'Whadda ya mean...?'

'We hardly got together at some point. So... I guess breaking up was inevitable. She spends more time with her new lover then with me.'

'Maybe...'

'Heh...'

'You're really heart broken, aren't you...?'

He didn't respond to that... All he did was shrugging his shoulders as he kept staring in blank space... 'Is there anything I can do for you...?' I asked quietly...

'No. I'd rather be alone right now.'

'Ok... If there's anything I can do...

'I know... Thanks, Nic...'

I sat on his bed for a moment and squeezed his hand. He looks up to me surprised as I smiled weakly. Then he closed his eyes... And that's when I knew I had to go. So I got up and walked towards the door. And when I got to the door, I turned around and looked at him once more. Seeing Terry so devastated was something that pierced my heart. And I felt guilty for leaving him like that. The moment I realized I was the cause of his sorrow made me feel even guiltier. So I walked back to him and sat on his bed, caressing his cheek. Put an arm around his shoulder and after a while, he firmly hugged me while he was starting to cry. I've never seen him crying ever since I knew him. With every sob he let out, the tighter he held me as he puts his head on my shoulder and cried his eyes out...

I don't know how long we've been sitting like that. An hour perhaps...? At some point, he gets down on his bed while I was still cuddling him. And every now and then I could hear him sigh deeply. 'Nic...?'

'Yes...?'

'How long do we know each other by now...?'

'Three years at least. Why...?

'Well, you know what it's like. You told me it happened a lot with you. "Friends" come and go, you know. They need help with shit and then you help them. And once everything is fixed, they fuck off and leave you behind, pretending not to know you.'

Oh, I know that too well... Just take a look at Meagan... Pssh... 'Yeah, I know what it's like...'

'Maybe that's why I turned into a bastard, you know. And maybe that's the reason why Ceylan broke up. But... You opened my eyes, Nic...

'Whadda ya mean...?'

'Talking to you and hearing what you wanted. Heh... It made me realize I was being a dick and it made me change the way I see things, you know.'

'Changes can be a good thing, Terry...'

'I know... And... I'm really grateful for having you as a friend. Despite what happened between us... I'm glad you don't hold a grudge against me for that...'

I didn't really know what he meant with that at first. But then I realized he was talking about what we did in the past... 'Oh, "That..."

'Yes... "That..."

'Heh...'

It stayed silent for a long time as Terry was staring blankly into space once again. He seemed to do a little better then before, but still... All I did was thinking while I was staring in those beautiful light blue eyes of him. And then I finally broke the silence... 'When we first met... Did you consider me to be like the other girls...?' Terry looked at me for a moment and then closed his eyes... 'I liked you the moment I first saw you. I thought you were beautiful. And I still do. But... Everything would've been different by now, knowing how I would treat you if I considered you as the other girls... I wasn't aware of it back then. But... That didn't meant I wanted to go to bed with you. And... Stuff... But...'

I thought he was gonna say something that would hurt my feelings, so I prepared myself. It stayed silent for a moment again until he started talking. 'But eh... I got to know you better over the months... Then you told me you were lesbian and all that during our serious talks. And I respect that... You changed the way I see things. But deep down... I always wished I could have you for just one night... I did have feelings for you a long time ago... But... I tried to burry them. And then, one night... We did "it" in some way. But I couldn't do it anymore, because... I had Ceylan. And... If I'd still be doing it with you, I would be aiming for my own personal satisfaction and not yours... I don't want to take advantage of you that way. Because... You're a really sweet girl, Nic. And I just can't do that to you. And yet I did that with other girls while they didn't deserve to get treated like shit....'

'I see...'

'Heh...'

'You think it was a mistake of what we did...?'

'No...'

'Oh...'

'Do you...?

'No...'

Silence again. And I was thinking again. "I always wished I could have you for just one night". What'd he meant with that...? Well, I thought I knew what he meant, but did he mean the same I was thinking? 'What did you mean by that...?'

'With what?'

'Having me for just one night...?'

'Uh... N-Never mind. Forget what I said...'

I was still curious though. Maybe it wasn't the right time to ask but... I wasn't thinking of it at the time... I had to know... Ceylan once told me that everyone has them... So I guess Terry had them as well... 'Did you ever had... Well... Fantasies about me...?'

'I'm not gonna answer that.'

'Why not...?'

'Because... It feels awkward...'

'You already saw me naked...'

'Yeah but.... Still...'

He never answered my question that evening... That's when I knew he did had fantasies about me. Which was kinda strange to be honest... I lied down next to him and cuddled him as I placed his hand on his chest. Muscled... Hard as a rock... Again, the thinking started...

Even though Terry is doing okay at the moment, I could see he was still devastated. And I was the cause of it. Maybe not in a direct way, but guilty nonetheless. Because I knew he had a relationship with Ceylan, but I let her anyway. I did the wrong thing. And I needed to make up. As if I owed it to him. Strange... The moment that thought rushed through my mind, I didn't felt weird or anything. The more I thought about it, the more sense it seemed to make. It might have been a disturbing thought, but I didn't consider it to be one. I owed him. And maybe it was something I wanted too... It got me thinking if it would really feel any different...

It's because I was in heat that night... It only happens 2 times a year, and it's a rather unpleasant feeling. You feel really horny at the worst of times, and the whole experience lasts for about two to three weeks. I did think about Terry whenever I was in heat... But I just didn't have the guts, since I'm fully aware of the whole heat thing. You feel the urge to bend over and pull your panties down in front of a few guys and wait until someone takes the bait and shove it right in your cunt. I never did that, but sometimes, I had a lot of difficulty not to do that... And every time I survived a heat period, it only seemed to get worse the next time I was having one. And well... I've been in heat for three weeks, so it could be over any second now and normally I got through that period without too much of a hassle, but now... I felt really uneasy and once the thought popped up, it kept running through my head. You gotta see it this way, in all its primitive way. A female is in heat, and let others know about it by spreading a certain scent, which makes males as hard as a rock in no time. And whenever I was in heat, I had a lot of difficulty not to hump Terry, even though that completely goes against my nature. But how wonderful it would be to get my brains fucked out tonight and finally give in to something that only comes natural. And whenever I breathe through my nose, I could smell Terry's scent everywhere, and the scent seemed to get stronger every time I breathe. And at some point, I couldn't hold myself anymore. The feelings and the urge to do it were overwhelming. It was as if a little voice in my head said "Fuck him!! Fuck his brains out!! Make him squeal for an orgasm!!" and at the same time, the same voice said "Don't do it, Nikki!! You're so young and lesbian!" And another voice said "Just give in to something that only comes natural." And another voice said "You owe this to Terry!" A difficult situation and a rather awkward one too... So three voices against one. Guess which got heard...

Terry wasn't aware of the fight I had in my head. When I looked at him, he was staring in blank space. Once I made sure he wasn't looking at me, I let my hand down my jeans and I quickly felt my panties. All sticky and wet and sensitive and shit... Figured as much.... I let out a sigh and then all of a sudden, Terry looked back at me and I realized I still had my hand in my jeans... I was so embarrassed by that... 'What are you doing?' Terry asked me with a frown... 'I-I-It's not what it looks like!'

'That time of the year again...?'

I sighed again and nodded slowly... 'Yeah... I'm in heat'...

'Ah. That explains why you're so... Soooo...

'What?'

'Sexy. It's your scent.'

'I know, I know...'

I looked over to Terry and saw he had his eyes closed. And the idea never slipped my mind... It kept circling my mind until that was the only thing I could think off... He would probably be the only guy I'd ever do it with... And I just blurted it out without second thought... 'You can have me tonight if that's what you want...'

'What...?'

'I wouldn't mind if you would strive for your own personal satisfaction. Maybe that's something I want too...'

'You serious...?'

'Heh...'

'You are, aren't you...?'

I couldn't face Terry... So I nodded slowly to let him know I was serious... I was too embarrassed to face him after I basically said he could fuck me if he wanted... It was a bit of a blunt thing to say but... Truth be told, I was getting desperate really... 'Nic, you're in heat. You're saying that because of it...'

'N-No, really, I-I'm not...'

And all he did was shaking his head... But I kept asking... 'W-Would you... Ya know...?'

Terry sighed reluctantly... Normally, he wouldn't have a problem with this with other girls but... I think I had a really bad timing... 'Please...?'

'Nikki... Just drop it already, okay? Ceylan just broke up with me a couple of hours ago. What'd you expect from me?'

'You don't need Ceylan for this. J-Just forget her...'

'No, Nic...'

'I want you to be my first. And the only one... It's something I only want to give to you... You know that. I trust you not to take advantage of me... And I know you wouldn't...

'Nikki... You always said that-'

'We all change, Terry... Everyone does.... Even you changed the way you see things.... So I guess I changed as well... I realized that it is inevitable to reach a certain moment where you just have to give in to what comes natural... Even I have to... The longer you resist, the more you want to... The only question is... Do you...? You had fantasies about me, I know you do... The moment you said you wanted me for just one night... It can be many more nights if we want to... No one is gonna hold that against us, not even Ceylan... And I won't hold it against you if you have another girlfriend... I'd understand if you find someone else and I promise I won't stand in you're way... You can have me tonight and do everything you always wanted to do... Maybe it'll be the only night we will ever have... But it's something no one can ever take away from us if it happens tonight... Like I said... No one has to know... It's our little secret... Just... Give in, Terry... Please...'

For a moment there, it seemed as if he changed his mind. I already could imagine him pinning me down on his bed, pulling my jeans and panties down and rubbed his penis against my vagina. Then slowly penetrate me and made me squeal for orgasms until dawn broke and we would live happily ever after. That's the reason why I smiled when he faced me, thinking I would know the answer he was gonna give. 'No. You're just saying these things because you're in heat, Nikki.'

Things weren't getting really easier, seeing as the overwhelming feelings were still arguing and seemed to get stronger by the minute now. Gaah... But, I stayed calm nonetheless, but I swear, I was this close to rape him. Seriously... 'I-I understand. I'm sorry...'

A long awkward silence again. It got me thinking again. What if I just. Hump him...? You know...? Hm. I guess that's a bit of a stupid yet satisfying thing to do... 'And what if... If I just...'

'Hm?'

'Well... What if I just... Hump you...?'

'Hump me?' Terry said with a frown while I just smiled nervously at him... 'Yeah... Yeah, you know, like... Dry sex...' Terry sighed and looked the other away... 'You know, like... To get rid of the unpleasant feeling...' Again, no response... 'That's not... Not really... a-a problem, is it...?'

Still no response... And to be honest, I started to get a little impatient... I wanted to know if he wanted to or not, and with the way it was going right now, I'd never know the answer... 'Well... Can I...?'

'Make it quick then.'

'Alright, alright.'

_ "Yes! Whoo-hoo!"_ a little voice said in my head. So I took my jeans off. The moment I did, Terry looked really baffled at me... 'What are you doing?'

'I'm about to hump you.' I said with a smile on my face. So I got on his bed again. Unbuttoned his jeans and slowly pulled them down. And I noticed his package in his boxershorts. Terry's a big guy and... Well... Everything is nicely kept into proportions. And then... I got on top of him... Positioned myself until it felt comfortable enough. Terry looked really surprised at me at first, but he wasn't resisting. I guess he could live with the idea. Then I started to... Well, hump him. I bet it looked hilarious the way I did it but I didn't hear him complain. Starting out really slow... Going back, and forth, and back and forth, going real slow, and sometimes a little bit faster... I looked Terry in the eyes while I was doing it, and he looked straight back at me. While I was riding him, I felt so aroused. I felt the shaft of his penis getting stiffer and stiffer the longer I was riding him. My panties started to get soaked. And well... That's all we did for a while...

I thought humping him would satisfy my needs. But I knew right from the beginning that wasn't gonna do the trick. I never felt so aroused before, thanks to that whole heat thing. It made me do things I normally wouldn't do. And after a while I stopped. And I pulled down his boxershorts. Wow... He's big... Terry looked a bit uneasy when he noticed I was staring at his penis. And well... I started humping him again. I think he likes this better. I felt his penis through my panties again and I loved the feeling of it. But after a while, I started to feel tired. So I got off of him and lied next to Terry. I looked back at him while he was staring at me with big eyes. I just smiled at him and nodded him to get on top of me. Which he did, after a moment of hesitation. Terry spreads my legs further apart, and starts rubbing his penis against my panties... That's all we did for a while... But at some point, it couldn't satisfy me anymore... 'Terry, stop, stop...'

'What's wrong...?'

'Nothing, just... Gimme a sec...'

So I took my panties off. His face was priceless the moment he stared between my legs... But I thought it was really cute to see... 'Ok, I'm good...' I expected him to continue, but he just sat there like a zombie, staring... As if he never saw a vagina before... 'Just rub it...' Then there was this hesitation again... But then he finally did... Rubbing our genitals against each other.... It felt good to say the least. And well... While he was humping me, I started to think. Would it really be any different...? It's like fingering yourself. Except... This would be a pretty big finger. And at some point, him rubbing his penis against my vagina couldn't satisfy me anymore... So... I got hold of his penis, and placed it more... "Down" to give him the hint. Terry looks at me for a moment while I looked right back in his eyes and panted my lungs out. 'D-Do it...'

'You sure...?'

'Y-Yes...'

He fingered me... Slowly... Another finger joined inside of me... Making that "C'mere" motion... I got wet in no time... At some point, he rubbed his cock between my pussy lips, going back and forth for a while, until he finally inserts it in me. He didn't push all the way through... I could feel the tip of his penis was inside of me. Then he'd gently go back and forth, not pushing through. There's no way I can describe that feeling, especially if you've never felt it before, but it kinda hurt... Officially, I'm not a virgin anymore. "Whoop-dee-do..." And while he was going back and forth with the tip of his penis, his fingers reached out for my clitoris and gently rubbed it. And I loved it... I reached the point where I couldn't think anymore. And I noticed that Terry looked at me. The moment he pushed through... That was something that hurt a bit. I guess he couldn't hold himself anymore after I kept teasing him for such a long time... I could feel his cock going deeper in me and it was rather a tight squeeze... He went in and out for a moment while I tried to suck it up. But at some point, it really hurt... 'O-Ow...! Ow....! Stop, stop, stop...! It hurts...!

'Ssh.... Relax... Take a deep breathe... It always hurts a bit for the first time...

'I-I'm bleeding a bit...'

'You okay...?'

'Y-Yeah...'

'Want me to continue...?'

'Y-Yes... Please...'

So I took a deep breathe as he slowly pulled out. Going in slowly... Pulling out slowly... The longer he did that, the less painful it became. And once I realized it started to feel somewhat good, I finally managed to fully relax... I had my eyes closed, but looked at Terry every now and then while I just smiled weakly at him. And whenever he pulled out, I saw it was really happening... Slowly but steady, he went faster, shoving it deeper inside of me with every penetration until I felt his penis reached a rather spongy... Thing inside of me... It felt all tingly and sends a chill down my spine whenever he reached it. I was starting to huff and puff and after a while, I started to moan quietly. And I loved it... Every now and then, I heard him pant, but he kept on going nonetheless. He kisses my cheek and forehead and caressed my hair... He's so sweet... 'A-Am I a-any good...?'

'Y-Yeah... Y-You're doing great, Nic...'

'U-Uh... Aah.... Hhah... Hmmm... O-Oh dear...'

I never reached an orgasm that night... But that didn't mean I couldn't somewhat enjoy it, despite feeling the pain. He kept on going, nonetheless... Kissing my neck... My breasts... Feeling his warm breath all over my upper body. His fingers gently going over my breasts and my clitoris until he reached an orgasm... I could feel his warm sperm squirting inside of me, and once he got off of me, I felt exhausted... Terry cuddled me as I caressed my hand through his short spiky hair. And it didn't take long before we both fell asleep...

Then the next thing I felt was that someone was rubbing between my legs again. And every now and then I felt how my nipples were caressed... I was still very sleepy, but in a reflex, my hand went down as well. I still had my eyes closed, but then I felt my legs were shoved apart. And I felt I was getting penetrated by something. Slowly but steady, the feelings I had came back. I woke up slowly and opened my eyes, and noticed that Terry was on top of me. And I threw my legs up as high as possible to make more room for him. And everything happened while I was still a bit drowsy. It took me a while to open my eyes and when I finally did, I noticed he was sucking on my toes. All I could do was to smile at him, and once he noticed I was somewhat awake, he kissed my forehead and smiled... And everything started all over again...