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Growvember

November 22nd

I thought I would get use to the increased rate of growth now, but I was sorely mistaken. Its not every day you see someone drop from mid thigh to knee level over night. Least that's how it was for me and Shawn. This left me estimating I had easily passed 2000 feet and Ronald already nearing 3000.

Course, Shawn was giving Chris a chewing out for pummeling Kevin. Kinda funny to watch someone wagging their finger and shouting at you when they barely rose above your knee. But Chris was definitely feeling horrible about it, even talking about feeling like he had to throw up after he did it.

The fox wasn't looking too good. His breathing was labored and short, and sometimes I thought I even saw it stop at times. We all thought he would get back to normal over night with our regeneration, but that didn't seem to happen. Not to mention, he hadn't grown overnight like the rest of us.

"Its most likely you gave him a concussion, or even brain damage." Shawn side, looking at Kevin's head. The fur in Chris's face seemed to be drained of color.

"I...I couldn't stop myself. He just kept going and going. I don't know what came over me..."

"Chris, it's okay." I placed a hand on his shoulder, but he immediately flinched away.

"No its not! I just killed one of oldest friends!" He shouted, looking truly scared. "What is happening to me? To us? And why can't it just stop?" He was breathing really fast, I was afraid he was going to start hyperventilating or completely flip out and run. Nicolas seemed to fear that too, stepping up behind the puma and wrapping his thick arms around him into, well, a bear hug.

"No! Stop! Why?!" He began to kick and squirm, shouting and roaring out.

"Chris! Calm down! You're panicking and he did it so you don't hurt yourself!" I stayed back so his claws didn't slash me. The smaller macros stayed further back, since one of those was more like a knife at their sizes. Deadlier for the even tinier ones.

Chris soon began to tire himself out, panting as he hunched over the best he could in Nicolas's arms, and started to cry.

"I'm a monster! A fucken monster!"

I didn't know what to say. Or how to comfort him. A simple 'no you aren't' wouldn't be convincing enough for him at this moment.

It made me realize that despite all this size and power, how useless I could still be. One of my closest friends was suffering and there was nothing I could do to help him. I felt horrible being powerless. Frustrated. Like I needed to take it out on something else.

No! No, I wouldn't do that. I wasn't going to give in to my primal self. I wasn't going to be like the rogue macros and just do whatever I wanted because I could. But at the same time, staying cooped up in one spot all day, wasn't any better for us mentally.

"Shawn, can I talk to you for a bit." I gave one more look at Chris before we moved off to the side, me squatting down to talk better to him.

"What's up bud?" He asked, still looking up a bit.

"Look, we're all at the end of our ropes here. We're trying to do our best to not act out on our impulses, but sitting around here all day, doing nothing, its just straining us mentally." It was an idea I was pondering about recently with our impulses getting stronger, ever since I wanted to pluck that skyscraper up.

"What are you suggesting?" He perked a brow.

"Look, we need a place to act out. Look at Jeff and Mary. Despite our disapproval, they at least were able to relax with their sex. Probably still doing it to. If anything, ask them if they have been having any impulses lately to destroy or wreck something." I explained.

"Are you seriously asking me to ask the military and government to let us go and rampage some cities?" He sounded shocked.

"Look at us already Chris. We've crushed homes and caused destruction simply by sleeping or taking a step. Hanolver is already uninhabitable for a good few years. Hampfton has been evacuated. Already two prime areas for us." I pleaded.

"Dude, you want to wreck these cities just for fun. That's pretty f'd up man. We'd be no better than the rogues." He shook his head in disapproval.

"Listen Shawn, I don't know how long I can keep holding these impulses back myself. And I bet Nicolas has had them as well. At least when I was fighting I felt like I was actually feeling more like myself, despite it being a fight for my life. At this rate. One of us is going to snap, and being so close to a populated city, the casualties will be immense." It was logically. At least to me, I just hoped he would see it that way too.

"I'll talk to them and we'll see where it goes. But I can't make any promises." He sighed finally. I didn't feel that was good enough.

"Chris, don't make it sound like a request. Its a warning." I said more sternly.

"Wait, what dude?" He took a step back. I reassured myself this was the best course.

"Chris, lets face it. Unless they want to wipe out the country side to just get rid of us, we're unstoppable. This demand isn't that big of a deal when you think of it. We're going to do this no matter what at this rate. So we're going to go to already abandoned cities and just take out our frustrations there. If they can evacuate anyone that could be in our path of the cities or locations, that would be for the best."

"Okay. Stop. Think about it dude. If they "agree" to this, what makes you think they just won't nuke or missile barrage you once you are in a cleared off area?" He quickly pointed out a potential flaw.

"Because, we're still on their side. They get rid of us, who is going to stop the rogue giants from attacking? You think they'd stay in one spot long enough for an attack?" I raised a brow. Chris slumped his shoulders, looking defeated.

"Okay man, you win. But they aren't going to like this." He turned and started heading towards Jeff, who was probably holding Mary.

I didn't feel right with it either, but as I looked back at Chris, sobbing, it was the only thing I could think of that could help. That night when we did act on his fantasies, he actually looked to be having the best time of his since growing, and maybe with Kevin picking at that, and twisting it, is why it was so easy to set the puma off. We need more to do, and since we weren't being sent out to take care of rogue macros, this was the next logical step.

I sat down and thought it over once more though, and how I even talked to Shawn. What if I was already giving in and manipulating for something that was truly harmful? What if I was already losing control?

It then occurred to me that I was talking to myself a lot lately, and thinking on this way to much. No, I was right to demand for this. We weren't going to last much longer at this rate and innocent people didn't have to get hurt.

I nodded to myself once more. I made the right call. I knew I did.

A lot of things were about to happen.