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This has been a very difficult thing for me to remember based on past Lives and living through this same night you are about to read. Every night when I go to sleep, I go through this same thing over and over again. With the outcome never changing it's all the same even if I try to change it. So please, brew some coffee and enjoy the read. Just wanted to forewarn that if you aren't a fan of graphic and bloody things, then this won't be a read for you to enjoy.

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The Royal Battle By:: Raz

You know the funny thing about what happened on the dreadful evening, none could have predicted would actually happen. Even I myself had no idea, it would have been the day to change me forever and destroy me entirely. But alas, I am getting ahead of myself. Allow me to dial it back some and take you through memory lane to what happened and everything in between. After all, it is going to be a wild ride.

My Name is Razgriz, most called me Raz for short as I was a Demon. Well a demon of sorts better more so to get really technical, I am known as a Draconian Demonic God of Death and Damnation that rules over the blacks sea. Even our physical appearance gave many fear and tremble to the point we were feared. Though there was many who seemed to worship us, given our statue.

We were pretty tall at our length, stood just a little over about 6 feet tall, minus the wings and tail we had which gave us more height. Our body weight was about 185lbs, but it mostly pure muscle. After all we had to be in shape with being employed by the Royal Guard that watched over the Royal Council as we called them. Most of my body's color was that of Crimson Red and Jet Black. The only Red was along the underside of my neck and stomach extending down to the taint area and partially under our tail.

The Jet black consisted of the rest of my body. My eyes were a thing of beauty and a horror at the same time. I suffer from a disease known as Heterochromia. This means that my Left and Right eyes were not the same color and two different colors. My Left Eye was that of a Blood Red Color, My Right Eye was that of a Sky Blue. Someone found it to be a beautiful thing to look at and marvel at. Other's found it more disturbing and seen it as to be a Disease worse than a plague.

My wings are draconic in structure and appearance (more like a bat than a bird or insect) and are attached to my upper back, separate from my arms. The limbs are the same jet black as my exterior and each of their fingers have a large spike adorning its end. The membranes are conversely crimson in color and are large when fully extended, but neatly folded when compacted along his back. My demonic nature at times shows on my wings as they gain intricate designs and runes across their surfaces in the presence of my powers.

My tail is long and prehensile, extending from the base of my spine at my hips. It is roughly forty inches in length that thins out as it nears the tip and packed with strong, corded muscles. My hand claws have three fingers plus an opposable thumb, each ending in a sharp, retractable white claw that are clean and bright in color. My foot paws have three toes of equal size, again ending in white talons that are round and taper to a sharp point, with a fourth talon that extends out the back of each heel.

Now my tongue? Heh. My lover really loved that among everything else that was a part of my body. I have an elongated, boxed muzzle arranged with sharp molars and slightly pronounced canines, none of which stick out when my mouth is closed. My tongue is unusually long at roughly nine inches in length. It is similar to that of a snake in that it is split somewhat up the middle in a forked manner. To top things off, my lover would be my greatest downfall.

My lover's name at the time was known as Nasuada Sitzune. He was also a Demonic Dragon, not too much taller than me. Only inches were the difference in our height. His body color was that over a lovely bright Purple, almost a violet in color. He was equally muscular and well formed, matching me in brute strength. His eyes were my favorite and very light green in color almost neon green. Always glowing and a sight to behold. We shared a bedchamber's together in a castle simple known as The WatchTower. It was our personal safe zone. It's where my life was, where my happiness because he was there. He was the most important thing to me and my life and that was all I needed from life.

Let me give you a little information on him and what lead him to being such an important person in my life. I met him while working for the Royal Castle. I was at that time a member of the Royal Guardsmen, but just a mere soldier. I didn't hold any real Rank. But some liked to joke about me being in command of other's. Often times I was sent out the castle to the local market place to get some groceries for the the Captain and the rest of the Guardsmen. It was just a normal sunny day when I was sent out to get the supplies.

Most of the squad I was with was here in town, no more than about 6 of us all shopping different things on a check list. I had been walking along the market place road. Shops on either end of me as I spotted him along the side of the road. Cowering. Bloodied. Beaten. No real defense to his aid. Now I personally didn't wear any armor, but did carry a Bastard Broadsword and often used my claws and tail as a back up to it.

I ran over to him and asked him if he was okay, he responded by saying he was evicted from his lair bedchamber's. That he was just robbed and beaten for the only remaining gold he had, which was only a few pieces. I immediately called over the healer dragons from my squad to help him and instructed them to take him back to my personal quarters in the Royal Castle. They seemed confused at the odd request but I assured them it was for a good reason and that I just had a feeling about this Dragon.

After finishing my shopping supplies I went and took them to the Kitchen of the Royal Castle. Let me tell you, now that was a grand castle to behold. Massive in statue size, pure Draconian craftsmanship at its finest. At least six spires, all with church paned glass windows, but still sturdy enough to survive an attack from outside forces. It was really known at the unsinkable fortress. My room was enough to say it was an executive suite over at any hotel really. Felt roomy. The bed large enough to accommodate me when I lay down. The Floors of the castle were made of Ruby and Gold colors.

But for a number of centuries I served in the Royal Guardsmen, quickly advancing up through the Ranks and getting to be at the rank of Executive Officer which is better known as XO. Nasuada had stuck by my side, we became very close. Eventually leading to us becoming Mate's and together. We were truly in love. I trusted him with my life and heart. I even got him into the Royal Guardsmen. Though he never really got past the rank of foot soldier and he was happy to have it and I was happy to have him as my Mate and Lover.

Then came the dreadful night of that Friday evening on October 3rd. Me and Nasuada were born on the same day. So age wasn't an issue even if I was the older one. The previous night was just like any other normal night. Though with one slight change. The head of watch that was supposed to work on my birthday, called off. He asked me to see if I was willing to work that night and cover his shift. Given it was my birthday; I still agreed to take the shift, knowing I will have spent the majority of the day with Nasuada. So nothing wrong with going into the castle to work, right?

So to give you insight into how the guardsmen worked, it was very simple realistically. We were in charge of watching the castle grounds and walking among the halls and more importantly, protecting the Royal Grand Council that resided in the council. Seeing them was of the highest respects one could ever get. I myself happened to be one of which that patrolled the area of the castle to where they often resided or held their political meetings. It was mostly the reason why I took the shift from the Head of Watch Captain. Because I knew the shift wouldn't be so bad, very easy.

It was a stormy night during that dreadful night. It never failed to rain whenever it was my birthday, something I have come to expect to happen every year. Nasuada knew I couldn't sleep without him lying next to me in bed; it was just something that I couldn't overcome. During the events of having some wild sex during the day, I was sleeping in pretty late. He wore me out and then of course needing to sleep for my shift. I woke up feeling better from the earlier rumpings. Nasuada was still sleeping next to me as I leaned down to kiss his cheek and heading into the Armory to get my gear for the patrol.

I went down and grabbed the skin suit I often wore for my patrol and my Bastard Broadsword before then checking in with the others. Already knowing what my route was. They were throwing more security out tonight with the storm in the area. The thunderstorms were quite nasty in the areas around the castle, but we were all used to it. There were nine of us around the table, almost in a Knight's of The Roundtable fashion. Of course they made sure to tell me happy birthday. I only chuckled to them before engaging with some jokes and witty comments. Soon we all stood and I went about my route heading to the Main entrance of the Castle and stepping outside.

It was not uncommon for me to step outside longer than normal and just have some time enjoying the rain and air. I mean come on, it was a beautiful stormy night, high winds, and thunder strikes all around. How could one not enjoy this? Of course most of the night went through without a hitch, making my rounds through the castle, checking in with the other's and the sentries that walked through the halls and also the one's that came through the Main Entrance and checked in on me when I was standing outside. Though shortly after midnight, I happened to notice I haven't seen any sentries in about almost a half hour. This to me was highly unusual because we all were creatures of habit. So we followed the same routines almost constantly.

I placed my claws on the hilt of my sword as I walked back into the Castle and into the foyer. Taking a look around I knew something was wrong. It was quiet, too quiet. That same level of it being quiet that it just drew immediate suspicion within my mind and stomach. There were no footsteps around me, which was very odd because given how many others were patrolling the Castle on this ground I should have been able to hear them to some extent walking around the halls.

Walking further around the Foyer and towards the Main Council Chamber's, I indeed found one of the other sentries dead. His throat had been sliced, the kill was instant. Still I ran over to check his pulse but given the amount of blood on the ground around him, it showed me the kill was still fresh. Whoever did this took him by surprise. Either that or the person was well known to this guard. My heart was starting to race. How someone could have gotten this far into the Castle and none sounded the alarm to me? It was about this time I was thrown to the ground, an explosion rocked the main entrance and completely destroyed the entrance and it was no longer accessible.

I brushed the debris and rocks off me from said explosion, waiting for the ringing in my ears to go away. Standing now dazed a bit, I soon started to rush to the Main Council Chambers. I was in full panic mode. I had to ensure their safety among all else. Moving as fast I can and hearing more and more explosion's all the way it hit me that this was a full on attack probably to kill the Council along with us guardsmen as well as destroying the Castle. This was unheard of, unprovoked. It didn't make any sense to me because there was no way there could have been attack of this nature without anyone catching wind of it before hand.

In my rushing off to the Main Council Chamber's I ran into four more sentries who all did the same thing I was running to do myself and failed. Order's dictated that anytime under attack every guard is to abandon duty and immediately rush to the aid of evacuation to all the Council Member's and high ranking official's. The four guards I found were all murdered the same way. Caught from behind, off guard, neck twisted and broken along with the throat being sliced from ear to ear. To me this strikes me as a bit of overkill. There was no need to slice the throat in that manner, the neck breaking was already enough to ensure a quick death.

The Hallways leading to the Main Council Chamber's were as long as they were wide for good reason too. I made the right hand turn down the main walkway leading to the Chambers and notice I was still some distance from the door's leading in main room. I had been running flat out for some time, traversing the distance needed to get there and was almost out of breath before being lifted off my feet as the room next to me exploded. It threw me off the ground and my back hit the wall behind me as I landed sideways before falling down onto the ground and landing on my ribs.

Pushing myself up, dazed and vision blurred I made sure I was fine. No real injuries outside of some scratches and minor scrapes. My mind was running a million miles a minute. How in the world could someone have taken the time to put such high explosives inside the Castle rooms and never be caught? How could we have not found them by now? Could one of the guards been so corrupt to allow this to happen? A fellow guard who I called brother from serving with them for so long? There were so many questions to be had that needed to be answered and I just didn't have them. I decided to push them out of my mind for now until I got more evidence about what was going on.

Having now stood up I proceeded to resume course back to the Main Chamber's. I just couldn't believe for a fact that no other guards were left standing. There had to be a survivor somewhere in the Castle. I mean even the reserve guard had to be on the way. Surely they had to see the explosion's and heard the noises. I kept searching as quickly as I could while still pushing on to see if I found any more along the way. I was unsuccessful in my searches before then finally reaching the Main doors. The Solid Gold doors stood shut before me as I soon went about pushing them open. The Smell's of brimstone and death were on the other side, certainly not a good one to be had when opening theses doors.

As soon as the doors were fully opened and the smoke cleared I finally saw the damage done inside the Chamber's. Looks like this place was hit the hardest in the explosions and this would've been the center focus of the attacks. Looking around I finally found the remaining guards that I had just been working with hours earlier, along with some members of the Royal Council further proving my point there was no survivors. Still from force of habit, I went over to each one in utter disbelief seeing this before my eyes. It was impossible for this to have happened. Seemed too much like a dream for this to be a reality.

Out the corner of my eye, I saw a creature making a run for the door's I just walked inside. I immediately jumped to my feet before then bearing my claws to the creature. It was another dragon, covered in blood and still dripping fresh from his kills. "You! By order of the Royal Guardsmen, I order you to stop!" I yelled to him, and with a powerful shout of my voice. The dragon's who back was to me instantly jumped at hearing my voice, unaware of my being here but it was enough to make him freeze in place. I soon got closer to the bloodied Dragon as I gave a low growl, the source of all this destruction. When I was within arm's reach of him, he finally turned around to face me as he pulled down the hood he was wearing, "Hello Raz my love" he said, and it was at this moment my entire world shattered and was destroyed. It was Nasuada standing before me.

I froze in place, not knowing what to do. It was him? My own lover? He was the one doing all this? The creature before me was not my lover. He just had a cold look on his face, no emotion even as he spoke. I clenched my fists and claws angrily as I shook my head stepping back a few steps as I looked to him in utter horror and disbelief. I began to tear up in my eyes shaking them away as well, "Nas? No, it can't be you. Please for the love of god no. You know the penalty for causing high treason and committing this crime is death, and I wouldn't be able to let you leave." I said to him in a shaking voice, I truly wanted to believe his innocence and he was just here helping those who were wounded.

Nasuada smiled as he stepped towards me, "You don't think I already knew what I was doing? You weren't supposed to be here. But you had to be greedy and take that fucking shift on your birthday of all days. You couldn't be happy with just having one day off and now you fucking ruined my plans. Our plans to acquire the Royal Council's Keys to open the five doors" he says to me with barely any remorse in his voice, I could see it now. I would have to fight the person I once called my lover and husband to the death. The Royal Oath I took dictated I could not let him leave alive and I must uphold what I took an Oath to protect till the day I died. No matter the cost to me.

I was in the process of wiping some tears from my eyes before next thing I knew Nas had delivered a powerful drop kick to my chest, kicking me to the floor and back some as it knocked the air out of me and my lungs. I sat there gasping for air crying more now, "Please, my love Nasuada. Don't make me do this to you. I fucking loved you after all these years. Please, don't make me fight you. I don't want to kill you." I said standing favoring my right side which had been hurting just a little. My words rang true and he knew it. I never laid a hand on him at all in our time together. I never would, I was raised to never lay a hand on those you loved.

He soon ran towards me as I bared my claws to him once more now as I braced myself for his incoming attack on me. I caught a glimpse of him holding a tactical curved knife in his left hand as I focused more on that as being a priority to defeating him. When he closed the distance and took a swing at my throat with the knife I made sure to lean back some and dodge the attack, grabbing his wrist and twisting it to get him to drop the knife. We struggled for a bit before I then delivered a powerful elbow to his face with enough force he dropped it and while he was stunned I made sure to return the favor to him as I gave him a real good kicking down a door style kick to his chest knocking him onto his ass and hard.

I leaned down to grab his knife used to kill so many here in the castle before then pointing it to him as I walked over in anger, "Nas please I beg of you. Stay down and yield to me. I can help you. We can look for ways around this" I said to him, eye's tearing up as I shook pointing at him. I could tell the elbow broke his nose from the fact his nose was bleeding. He wiped the blood from his nose before then getting to his hands and knees before me as he held his head down and didn't look to me. I soon got down to one knee before him as I reached out and rubbed on his back in comfort. "Please my love, tell me you surrender. Please. Don't make me continue fighting you like this"

I watched him shake his head before hearing him whisper, "No" and then taking a hidden knife from his ankle and slicing the backside of my ankle and stabbing the knife into my left knee. I roared in immense and severe pain falling onto the ground on my back next to him dropping the knife in my hand as the wounds bled heavily. I grabbed at the knife in my knee and pulled it out as he stood laughing to me. After getting it out and then tossing it at his face, cutting him across the face as I stood the best I could, in extreme pain and barely able to put any pressure on my left leg now. The ankle bleeding profusely.

He put a hand to his face and then looked to it seeing I caused him to bleed now looking at me as he growled in anger. "Lucky hit my love, you shall not get another so easily on me" he said before then charging me taking a swing at my head. I ducked the attack before then delivering a right fist to his rib cage in turn he delivered an elbow to the back of my head. I shook my head before grappling him at the waist and body slamming on his back pinning him under me with my legs wrapped around his waist. Ignoring the pain from the stab wound on my knee as I wrapped my claws around his throat and squeezed heavily.

He flailed under me for some time as I choked the life from him. Trying to find some upper hand on me to no avail. I was too focused on him at this moment, crying heavily as I kept saying, "I'm sorry" over and over again to see his hand had grabbed the knife once more and caught me in the face. The blade sliced my left eye badly. Cutting both the eyelids deep and scratching some of the eye, but it was enough to stun me as I cried in pain more. I could feel the blood running down my muzzle and face as I yelled at him and proceeded to punch his face over and over again. Rotating before left and right fists for a few good hard hits.

After the half a dozen hits to face, I blackened his eye enough to the point it wouldn't open and he laid there unconscious. I soon stood up off him and sighed in relief. I didn't kill him. I didn't want to. I turned away from him to start walking out the room before I felt him jump on my back and locked his legs around my waist. He bit into my shoulder which brought me to my knees and forced me to land on my stomach as I felt the teeth easily break through my skin and made me bleed. After trying to get up he soon delivered a foot to the back of my head and stomped my head into the ground with the foot still being pressed up against the back of my neck.

I couldn't see what he was doing until I felt the pain on my tail now. A sharp stabbing pain as I felt him cutting the tail over and over again before losing all feeling in my tail as I heard it land before my head and I cried a deafening roar. He took the foot off my head and walked around me laughing, "Look at the mighty Demon now. So fucking pathetic. I was always better than you and more powerful than you. You were unworthy to serve in these halls. They will be your tomb" he says to me, actually getting enjoyment from this. I was freaking out. I knew I had to stop the bleeding from my tail being torn off as sure if not then I would pass out from the blood loss.

He stood before me kneeling as he lifted my head up and forced me to stare into his eyes. I could only see out the right eye from the left eye being sliced and cutting off my vision in the eye. I took this as my only chance before leaning down and biting on his hand deeply until I tasted his blood and kept going harder in clamping down on his hand until I felt the mouth and muzzle clamp shut. I bit off a finger of his before he had time to pull the hand out. I ran as fast as I could to a smoldering fire pile before then pushing the stump of my tail onto it and hearing the cauterizing of the flesh and the smell of it too.

I looked around for Nasuada, and couldn't find him anywhere. I was scared, I didn't know where he went or seen where he went. He couldn't have gotten out the room from where we fought. I heard his yelling behind as out of habit I went to use my tail to stop him forgetting the tail was removed. I saw him having a large beam in his claws and swung it at me. Since the tail wasn't there, it impacted my left side ribs and I head the crunches of the bones breaking. The impact threw me into a wall hitting my back on impact. He delivered three more blows to my ribs as I had problems breathing probably because of a punctured lung.

I spit some blood out onto his face as I wheezed heavily in pain. But I still had to continue my defense, as best as I could. I lunged at him grabbing onto his horns on top his head, snapping them off like branches and flipping them around before stabbing them into his shoulder blades deeply as he threw me into a pile of broken rebar. As I landed, some of them punctured through my chest and back. I lay on my back in utter pain, going into shock as I laid there helpless. Another explosion rocked the levels above and some of the walls were falling down. As I tried to move to get out the way, I was too slow. A large section of wall came down and crushed my legs into dust immobilizing me.

I yelled out Nasuada's name in agony. Begging him to help me out from here. There was no response. No sounds. I could barely see as it was because of the pain of the injuries and the blood loss had contributed to me barely able to hang onto life. I soon saw his figure standing above me as I looked to him reaching out to him. But he was carrying something above his head and I couldn't see what it was. "Please.....loves.....help me out of here. Save me" I said to him with what little strength I had left in my lungs.

He simply shook his head to me, "Raz, I am helping you. You weren't supposed to be here. You were supposed to be fucking home drunk and passed out. But now it's come to this and I'm sorry to say I have to kill you to ensure no evidence of this get's out. I will see you on the other side. Please know, I am sorry for having to do this to you and that I never stopped loving you. I love you my dear Raz, but I'm sorry this needs to be done." he said to me and that was the last thing I heard before he slammed the massive rock down on my skull, head, and face. I had a hard head sure, but that wouldn't save me here. The rock did crumble on impact of my skull and my demon horns were broken off too and I was truly left for dead. I felt the cold rush of the blood running down my face between my eyes.

I couldn't feel the entire right side of my head. I loss all feeling in my body even as I tried to fly and move my wings I could not. They were also pinned under rubble and rocks. I had no feeling in them so it was in this moment. I realized that I was going to die here. I simply laid back and thought on it and what happened. Listening to my heart beating slowly more and more as my vision faded to black. Betrayed by the person I called my loved. I called my husband. I trusted with my life and this is where it got me.

I laid there thinking to myself, was this really how it all was going to end? How my life would be extinguished by the one I loved over what? A simple over coup d'état? For something my own lover plotted against me and I could have never seen coming. I continued to cough some more and choke on my blood as I watched the blood spew from my mouth as my body was starting to shut down. My vision was going black slowly and the only thing I could think about was how happy Nasuada made me with his final words of he loved me. I closed my eyes one final time and allowed death to take me one more time as I felt my heart beats slow down to their final beats as it slowly stopped beating for good.

I laid in the darkness for what felt like eternity, waiting for the Reaper himself to come and get me and take me to the Land of the Lost gates of ascension. Then I felt a pound on my chest as if someone hit me, and then another and another before I suddenly shot open my eyes and gasped heavily taking in deep breaths of air and yelled out in pain crying blood and spewing more out of my mouth. I saw a white figure above me, but my vision was still blurred. I couldn't make out who it was to me. I heard them speak, "Raz, stay with me, I will not lose you too" The voice told me as I just shook my head unable to really comprehend who it was I was speaking with.

A few seconds later I left the slap to my face from him as he was doing his best to ensure I stayed awake. I wanted to sleep so badly, but he wouldn't let me do that because he knew it meant for me certain death. "God damn fucking wake up you useless shit. Royal Guardsmen aren't allowed to die under your watch." He said to me as I heard him a little bit more clearly. There were others around me, trying to clear the rubble that had crushed my body. "Sir, the right side of skull is missing, it's just gone. It's just dust" one said before I heard the one above me speak again, "I don't care. I am pulling him from this rubble. We are saving him. He wasn't supposed to be here but is still fighting for his life and that shows me he has the will to live longer beyond this" He said.

By this point I could make out he was a White Dragon of sorts, purely a dove white in color. Blue mane running down the center of his head and green eyes. I never had seen him or the men that was with him. Though I was very thankful for their help in trying to save me. They were really disturbed at the sight of me destroyed like this and how beaten I was. The white one tried pulling me up off the ground as the fires were getting worse and more out of control. More and more of the castle was coming down around us. They couldn't get me up after a few tried as I weakly raised a claw and pointed it to atop me at my wings. "Sir! His wings are too pinned down we can't get him out. We have to move out now or we will get buried here" they said before I watched him shake his head.

He leaned down to grab more of my body as I shook my head to him many times telling him not to do that. "Raz, I am sorry but this is going to hurt you very badly. You'll pass out from the shock in pain but we have to do it. Otherwise we all die here and I'd rather you not die here. It's not your time yet" he said to me and before I had time to even question him about it, I heard the one sound I'll never forget till the end of time. The sound of my wings, bone and all being ripped from my flesh and body as I bled even more so like a river now. I'll never be able to shake that feeling of how it felt that dreadful night. My body was in so much pain I went into convulsions and seizures before then passing out as everything went black.

I eventually did wake up some time later after spending a few years in a coma, having reconstructive surgery done to my body but I'll never be the same. It was from this day during a period long before time was even time, that I vowed to never love another person again, to trust anyone ever again, and to why I hate physical affection. But now you know my full story of why I will forever spend the rest of time hunting down Nasuada for what they did to me and how crippled I have been left to suffer with scars I can never get rid of and trust issues that will never go away no matter who tries to help me work through it and why I shall always remain reserved to myself and never open up.

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