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Rory and I check into the Downtown Clarion. And we get our suite, and we go up. Rory calls Dad in the elevator to tell him our room number. And Dad and Harry have already started fucking. Dad's as amazed as Rory was. "I'll cum and not sag at all, I've cum three times in Harry since you guys left" Dad says joyously. Rory's laughing. "I know, Dad, ain't it amazing" Rory says happily. We go into our room. And I sit on the couch and turn on the TV. "Gotta have that thing on, Baby Grizzly" Rory teases me. I nod. "You've always been like that, can't live without it on, even if you're not paying any attention to it" Rory says nuzzling me while standing behind the couch.

Rory sits by me, and he holds me tight. "Poppa Bear, I wonder, maybe we should save the pills for tomorrow?" I ask. "Why?" he asks. "You got drained Friday night/Saturday morning, and you were sore, I still want to fuck, but I think a marathon ought to wait for a day or so" I tell him. Rory smiles. And he puts my paw on his already hard dick. "I just need my Grizzly by me to get that hard" he murrs in my ear. "I agree though, maybe tomorrow or the next night for the pills, I want to save them for special nights, or when I just want my Little Grizzly to not walk right for a few days" Rory says grinning. I crack up laughing.

"Rory, I love you so much, and I'm glad we got past all of that" I say softly. "Me too, baby" Rory says nuzzling my neck. "I know how much I need my Grizzly, and he knows he can't live without his Polar Bear love" Rory says. "He can't, and he will obey and cater to his Polar Bear mate like he swore he'd do" I say quietly. "This Polar Bear swears he'll keep his Grizzly mate in mind, and try hard to make sure he's always feeling loved" he says nuzzling my face. "I want you, Claude, lets fuck a few times and get some Room Service, you're my hot little piece of Grizzly ass, ain't ya." he murrs in my ear. I kiss him. He picks me up and carries me into the bedroom. He lays me on the bed. "Have I told you how much I love how much stronger than me you are, Poppa Bear?" I ask. "A few times, my beloved Little Grizzly" Rory says grinning.

He strips quickly. I've pulled my clothes off. "Up on your knees" he growls. I hang my ass off of the bed and get up on my knees. And I lift my tail my for my Polar Bear to let him get at my ass hole. Small and stubby it may be, but my tail is just big enough to block my asshole when carried normally. "Perfect height" he grunts as he shoves his dick up me all of the way. His dick is right at my ass hole's level without leaning up or down. His low hanging balls are smacking my ass in time with his thrusts

He's shoving it in and out of my tail hole hard and fast. "Been almost two days since I came in my Grizzly last, he feels too dry and empty to me." he says hotly. And I growl and cuss and buck on that long, fat Polar Bear dick. He's growling and nipping my neck as he plows my ass. He's biting my shoulder harder now and I kick and moan and shoot on the bed. He's got his jaws around the back of my neck. And he's tensing up. And he clamps his jaws on my neck and he bucks and cums hard up me. He lays on my back and he's panting hard. "You're mine, always gonna be my Grizzly, Claude, your Polar Bear can't live without his Grizzly" he says nuzzling my face. "I know I don't want to live without you" I moan. He clamps his jaws around my neck again and he rolls us onto our sides. Rory pulls me against him very tightly.

"I could have lost you, Claude, I could not stand that, please, don't leave me by any means," Rory says almost begging me. I can feel his tears now on my muzzle. "I won't leave you, I can't, I can't be without you, Rory" I tell him with all of the sincerity I have in me. "Claude, I'll get over this soon, but I can hardly believe you stayed with me, I was being so insensitive" Rory says quietly. "No babe, it happened, I was caught by my old pains, you were there you know how bad it got" I say quietly. Rory nods. I lean back and I kiss him. He's happier now. "We both had a paw in this, let's just learn from it and go on" I say softly. "We learned how much we need each other, Babe" I tell him. Rory smiles. "I'm nothing without my Grizzly Bear to love me" Rory says kissing me. "I can't be happy without you, Rory" I say kissing him back.

We kiss deeply and roll around on the bed still locked in an embrace. Rory's happier now, and his playful side is coming out. He pushes me off of the bed, like he used to when we were cubs. And he holds my hips against the bed with my head on the floor. And he's snuffling my ass. and he licks out his cum from my ass hole. He's being pretty thorough, and there is none left up me when he's done. He nips my tail and he's grabbed a foot paw and he starts licking my paw pads. I growl and moan as he licks it. "All parts of my Claude are beautiful " he growls. I laugh. He pulls me back up onto the bed.

He takes my muzzle, and pushes it into his right armpit. I lick it furiously. I love his sweat and musk. And he growls softly. He moves my muzzle to his left armpit and I snuffle it loudly and lick it out too. He's growling loudly now. And he pushes me onto my back and he sits his sweaty ass on my face. I snuffle it and I lick him out thoroughly. He's grunting and that big Polar Bear dick is hardening. I'm forcing my tongue up his hole and he's grunting and squirming around on my mouth. He stops me. And he gets off of me.

"Claude, fuck me?" he asks. "On my back?" I ask. "No, I'll get on my back and I want to feel my Grizzly's dick inside of me" Rory says quietly. I look up into his eyes. His Ice Blue eyes are shining with his love for me. "Please take me?" he begs. I nod. And I get up. Rory lays on his back in the middle of the bed. "Be gentle, Little Grizzly, Poppa Bear wants to feel you in him but you'll be my first" Rory says quietly. I look stunned. "I am a virgin, I've never been fucked Claude, but I know now that it's you that should take it" Rory says looking deeply into my Blue eyes. "I want to give you my virginity, maybe it'll show you how much you mean to me, and make up for my being so insensitive to my baby's needs" Rory says gently. "You really want me to, Poppa Bear?" I ask. "Claude, I know it's gonna hurt, but no one loves me as much as you do, it has to be you to take it, Baby" Rory says very gently. "My Little Grizzly is well hung too, but I have to feel you in me, and I want so badly to feel you cum inside of me" he says quietly.

I dig out some lube from my kit bag. Rory smiles. "You do try so hard to take care of me, babe" he says. I put some lube on a paw finger and I use it to loosen him up a bit, and I take the bottle and I work a lot of the lube up into his ass hole. He's moaning gently. And I spend a lot of time lubing him, and stretching his hole. Rory rolls onto his back again. I get on top of him and kiss him gently. "I swear I won't hurt you, baby." I say quietly. "I need you, I need to have my Little Grizzly take my cherry" he says almost begging me. "Rory, by this I know how much I mean to you, and I will try to use that to hang on to when my pains come back, you waited to give yourself to me for your first time, I can't tell you what that means to me" I tell him. "I can see in your eyes, you love me, and you know I love you, and always will" Rory says. And he pulls me down on top of him.

We kiss and I line myself up with his ass hole. I push gently into him. And I stop moving when my cock head is fully in him. Rory's grunting a bit, and he looks a bit pained. "Don't stop, Little Grizzly" he moans. I slowly push more of my dick into him.. He growls. And he grabs my back and holds on to me tightly. Rory grabs my ass and he pushes down on me and pushes me into him down to the base of my dick. I moan. And he pants hard and he's looking in my eyes. "You love me so much, Poppa Bear" I say and I deep kiss him. "Take me, Claude, fuck me and cum in me, make me as much yours as you are mine," he growls. I start moving in him slowly and deeply. He's cussing and growling. I gently nibble at his neck and he kicks and cusses.

I speed up a little bit. Rory's grunting now. "I hope I'm not hurting you, Poppa Bear?" I ask softly. "I may never be able to let you do this again." he moans, "I have to do this, I love you too much, Claude" Rory moans. I speed up and I'm trying to cum quickly. He roars and he's cumming on my belly. His orgasmic spasms push me over the edge and I roar and cum in him. I hold him tightly, and he's weeping gently. "I belong to you now, like you belong to me" Rory says holding onto my back. I slowly pull out and he is more relaxed when I am out of him. Rory pulls me to his side, and puts my head on his chest. He's silent for a few minutes.

"Claude, I don't know how you do it so easily, and love it so much" he pants. "I love having my Poppa Bear inside of me" I say softly. "I know, and I'm so happy you do, but Little Grizzly, I am glad we did this, but I don't think I'll ever be able to let you do that again" he says softly. "Will you be OK with that, just taking my big Polar Bear dick in you, you can fuck others if you want, but I can't do that again" he says sadly. "I am fine with that, Rory, I'm thrilled you wanted me to take you, but once is enough" I say kissing him. "You love me so much, Claude" Rory says stroking my beard. "I am sorry, Babe" he says. "No need, Poppa Bear, though if you stop fucking my ass there'll be problems" I tease him. "Never" he says firmly, as he reaches down and strokes my ass. "Claude, I had to, I had to let you be the one, the only one who fucked me" Rory says. I stroke his face. "No need to explain, Poppa Bear, I can't tell you how much it meant to me, you do know me well, you probably knew it'd say how deeply you love me" I tell him. Rory smiles. "I do love you, Little Grizzly" he says kissing my muzzle. I reach up and ruffle his short Black hair. And then I pet the little chinstrap goatee on his chin. He keeps his hair short and he got tired of shaving and let his goatee grow a little bit. He's teased me before about wanting to grow a thick beard like I did. But he can't seem to.

He rolls on top of me. "One quick cum in you, and then I wanna call Room Service" he says grinning. "Fuck me, Poppa Bear, I need you" I say softly. "I know, and it thrills me to know how much my Grizzly needs his Polar Bear in him" he says pushing into me. "You take me so easily, Babe" Rory murrs softly in my ear. I grab his back and I wrap my legs around his waist. "Fuck me hard, Daddy Bear" I growl loudly. And he does. He's banging me hard and fast. I cuss and growl and moan and we both get dirty mouthed and loudly vocal. And we tongue wrestle as he fucks me harder. He leans down and he's nipping my neck gently. And as he gets closer the nips get harder. He's really banging me hard and fast now. He's fucking me so hard my ass is bouncing off of the bed on his back strokes. And the nipping has turned into serious love bites. And I lick his neck and his muzzle as he pounds me. I'm literally chewing on his goatee now. I cuss and grip his dick with my ass. And he bites my neck hard and he roars and convulses on top of me and I feel him dumping his cum in me. I snarl and I've cum on his White furry belly. We lay in each others arms, him on top of me, panting very hard. My neck is bleeding slightly. But I don't care at all. We Bears fuck hard and rough. More like wrestle fucking at times. It's kind of how we are. Nigel was right. Bear/Bear couples are more common and we rarely break up. Only two Big Cat males will bond tighter than we do. Like Dad and Papa Harry.

"Nigel was right, there is a reason Bears tend to mate one another" I tease Rory. He looks at me. And he smiles. "I know, we're rougher sexually than other species, we nip hard and we're strong, and we pretty much wrestle fuck" Rory says. "I felt bad, I had to be gentler with those Otters than I wanted to be, I should have spend the night fucking my new mate" Rory says softly. "No, babe, we move on, I loved being fucked by Miguel, and my main concern is that you didn't respond to how much I needed you, even I didn't know how much I needed you, and I couldn't ask, or even ask the others that love me" I say softly. "We have to move on, babe, we can get better, I still trust you to be the one to love me for the rest of my life, and I want you to play, I want to be able to come to you if I need you, even if either of us is fucking" I say softly. "I know, Claude, you're not jealous, and I should be grateful you're finally starting to understand a few of your needs" Rory says kissing me. "Come to me when you need me, I'll keep you with me if I'm in the process of fucking another, and when I'm finished with them I'll fuck your lights out" he says softly. "I should anyway, if I do fuck someone else, I should always take you back as mine after, or when you take someone else" Rory muses.

"Claude, I was going to tell you the truth, but I was ashamed of it, and you were so hurt you ran off so quickly" Rory says. "I couldn't just spit it out" Rory says softly. "I'd of stayed if you told me, even if you just blurted it out, you could have just held me, we could have spent the time curled up, Rory, I was wrong too," I say softly. "If I had of come to you and worked to get your attention, you'd of kept me there, but I guess you didn't hear me" I say softly.

"Claude, Jimmy told me you said you were going out for a while, and nothing else, I didn't hear you at all." Rory says sadly. "When Nigel came in and yelled at me, and he and I fought is when I realized what had to have happened, and he texted you" Rory says. "Why didn't you call?"I ask. Rory lowers his head and he can't look at me. "One of them was riding my dick while Nigel texted you" Rory says painfully. He can't look at me. And I crack up laughing. He looks oddly at me. "I thought that might be it" I say softly. "You're not mad?" he asks. "Not really, I guess he didn't tell you, I kept talking to you , and trying to get your attention while I dressed, and though you were looking right at me you didn't acknowledge me at all" I say softly. "You did, no wonder you got mad" Rory says sadly. "We can't keep rehashing this, Rory" I say softly. "We have to make sure it won't happen again" Rory says sadly. "So the guy told you I said I was just going out?" I ask. "He did, I thought I saw you in the room and mentioned it, and he said he asked you where you were going and you just said out" Rory says. "He didn't say anything to me, I kept calling your name, and he looked up at me and said nothing" I say softly. "I was crying so he had to of known I was upset" I muse.

"Damn, they just didn't want me to stop fucking them" he says thinking it out. "They kept switching off on me" Rory muses. I know now it wasn't all Rory's fault. "Babe, I will never tell you what you can and can't do, nor who you can and can't fuck, except for them, you fuck them again, and I'll have your nuts in a jar" I snap. Rory laughs. "I think I agree, I noticed the pills you got for me looked different from the two pills they gave me, a big round white one and a reddish colored oval one" Rory says. "Damn, a big round white pill" I snarl. "What?" he asks. "A roofie" I snarl. and I get up and go open my laptop. I know what they are and what they look like.

One of our patients, a young teenage Wolf female was pregnant and she swore she'd never had sex. When Carol Miller, our ARNP, and I talked to her, she told us she'd been at a party and passed out after taking a pill she'd been given. I looked it up and she identified it. Her Dad grilled her boyfriend and found out that a bunch of guys had taken her while she was passed out. So they didn't know who the father was. She didn't even know who she'd lost her virginity to either. She had a little Wolf cub, a cute little male.

I don't usually do deliveries but I ended up having to, but I was happy it was me bringing him into the world for her.(She went into labor in my office on a routine visit) So there was no way to know who the Father was. She's happy now and her parents are helping her raise him while she finishes school. I feel bad for the cub, as he'll never know who his Daddy was. Dad and I felt bad for her so we paid for her pre natal care and for when she had her cub.

She brings him by to see us once in a while, and he's an adorable little Silver Wolf cub. He's gonna be gorgeous when he grows up. Sometimes bad things can have a good outcome, if the animals involved are strong enough to get beyond them. She told Carol last time she was here that she no longer cared who the father was, she knows she couldn't live without her precious boy now. She's sad for him to not be able to know. And one day she knows she'll have to have a long and sad talk with him. But she's coping. What she doesn't yet know, is that Dad started a fully paid College fund for that little Wolf cub. He's like that, he wants him to have a good start for his adult life, like Rory and I had. We can't find out who his Daddy is, but we damn sure can make sure he'll have a good life, or at least a good education.

I go to Drugs .com and I pull up the pill identifier and I show him. "Claude, that was it, the first one they had me take" Rory says. "What is it?" he ask. "It's what they call the 'date rape drug'" I tell him. "A dose that small on a male your size, you'd not be out, but you'd be really blitzed, and all you'd want to do is fuck" I snap. I show him the different strengths of Cialis. "No, none of those" he says. I look up the size and shape and color he told me. It is an opiate. "My God, my poor Poppa Bear, you were totally innocent, you were drugged, baby" I tell him. And I feel so sad now. It really wasn't his fault, I went off on him, and he had been drugged. But neither of us knew. But I feel so much guilt, I didn't trust him enough to do what Alfred told me I should, to wait til they were done and talk it all out with my Polar Bear. I start to cry again.

Rory grabs me. "Claude, don't go there, I know what you're thinking, you blame yourself for breaking down, now that you know I couldn't help it, and you shouldn't, neither of us knew, and even if I couldn't help it, what happened triggered you so badly" Rory says grabbing me by the scruff of my neck when I try to pull away.

He throws me down on the bed, and he rolls on top of me, holding my paws to the bed and holding my legs down with his. I cry hard and I can't look at him. "Claude, look at me" he roars. I look up into his Ice Blue eyes, and they're full of fire now. "I'll kill those sons of bitches if I see them again, they drugged me and lied to me about what you'd said, I knew something wasn't right when Nigel roared at me, but I didn't put it together" Rory says. "Stop this" he says firmly. I nod. I try to stop crying.

"Baby, I'm glad in a way, I feel better knowing I didn't really fuck up, I hurt my baby, but I wasn't responsible for it, you got hurt badly and I hate that, but I didn't really let you down, don't you get it?" he asks. I nod. I do understand now. Rory gets up. He picks up my pants and he takes my keys out of them. "I'm going out on the balcony and calling Takeru, I need to talk to Papa-San, and you need to call Room Service and get us something to eat, I have your keys and your pants, so you're not going to run from me this time" he snarls. And he lumbers out to the balcony.

I know what he wants to eat, so I call Room Service and order, and then I go shower. I cry in the shower. I feel some relief knowing he'd been drugged, my Poppa Bear didn't hurt me intentionally. I finish my shower and dry off and I sit on the bed. I'm not sure what I feel now though. IF I'd of had faith in him I would have known something was wrong. But my mind immediately went to thinking he didn't love me, instead of figuring out what was wrong. I feel more humiliation now. I'm so broken up inside, I didn't have the faith in Rory that I should have.

I go sit on the couch in the suite's living room and turn on the TV. And I watch a while, and desperately try not to think about it all. Rory comes in and hands me his phone. "Claude, I believe him, he's still sorry he inadvertently hurt you, and he's feeling less guilty now, but he's worried about you, are you truly OK, I know you never lie, but you will tell me now, my Grizzly son." Takeru says firmly. "I'm feeling shame for breaking down, Papa-San, and I feel so bad about not having faith in him, he was innocent" I say softly. "No, Claude he needed reminding of how you need watched, it is what I chided him for over the phone, not knowing it was not good for you to not be alone with him on your first night" Takeru says. "He was wrong for that, as were you, you would have fucked that Bull and set him up on another night" Takeru says softly. "You knew you should have stayed with him alone or you and him together with that other Big Grizzly" Takeru says quietly. "Forgive yourself, Claude, I know you've forgiven him" Takeru says. I know he's right, no matter how bad it makes me feel. I feel even more guilt now. I hurt still, but I have to get a grip on this. I can't keep being such an emotional basket case anymore. I owe it to the Polar Bear who loves me so much.

My cell rings, and Rory goes into the bedroom and answers it. "Papa-San, you're right as usual" I say softly. "Claude, he loves you so much, he'll fight for you, even it if it you he's fighting" Takeru says. "No one else would ever be able to cope with how badly you were hurt, and he'll love you so much, you know you listen to him, even if you don't think you are, it's like with me and Jim, you consider what we say, and you adjust to it" he says softly. "Claude, just trust in Rory, he didn't let you down, you know you can trust him, you only trust me and Jim more than you trust Rory, believe in his boundless love for you" Takeru says softly. "Yes, Papa-San" I say softly. "He does love me, Papa-San, he gave me his cherry tonight, it hurt him very badly but he begged me to be the one to take it" I say quietly. "That should show you always how much he loves and needs you, Claude" Takeru says. "Keep that in your mind, as it's concrete proof of how deeply he loves you" Takeru says softly. "I feel so much shame, like I'm not worthy of his love" I say softly "This is your pain and insecurity talking, Claude, you must know this by now, and, you are worthy of Rory, he loves you as you are, as you know you love him" Takeru says firmly. "Yes, Papa-San" I say quietly. "I will call you again soon, Claude, I love you, my Grizzly son, but you need to be less hard on yourself" he says quietly. "I'm sorry, Papa-San" I say quietly. "No need, Claude, you know how much I love you, and Rory" he says softly. And he hangs up.

I answer the knock at the door and I sign for our dinners. I wheel the cart in. Rory's still on the phone in the bedroom so I sit and watch an old movie. I call Emil finally. He's surprised. I forgot I have Rory's phone and he has mine. I do a quick explanation of what happened, and why I'm keeping our offices closed. Emil's doing better but he's in a lot of pain still so he's not sorry we're staying closed.

"Jake's been great, he's practically waiting on me" Emil says."I'm so glad, that Goat loves you so much" I tell him. "He does, Jim called us and Jake's still a bit worried about you, but I'll talk to him" Emil says. "Claude, I know how bad it was, he tore you apart, and the fact that you can do anything, let alone love Rory is an amazing thing" Emil says. "It's why I was so impressed with you, you're a lot tougher than even you give yourself credit for " Emil says. "When we all heard you'd been readmitted to school, some were taking bets on whether you'd actually show up, and some were making plans to push you so you'd break and run away for good" Emil says softly. "And you came back like nothing had happened, and ignored their taunts and attempts to sabotage you" Emil says softly. "I could see the pain in your eyes when you were alone though, and I knew you were a strong Bear, it's when I really started to respect you, Claude" Emil says softly "It's why I came out here to practice with you, I loved and respected you, Mein Claude" Emil says softly. "Don't let that bastard win by breaking you again, or breaking you and Rory up" Emil says firmly.

"Let go, Claude, you have always refused to let that bastard cripple you, keep that in mind, that you're gonna have a good life despite him." Emil says. He's right. "I'll call you, maybe we'll stay closed all this coming week" I say softly. "Good idea, I'll be back on my feet pretty much by then" Emil says. "I'll call Janice and she'll take care of it, and we'll open a week from Monday" Emil says. Janice is our Office Manager. "Sounds good to me, Emil" I say softly. We make enough money, and Hell, Rory and I are Multimillionaires anyway. Emil's not but Jake works and they'll be fine being off a week.

Rory comes back out after I've hung up. "Dad's mad, he wants to sue or prosecute those Otters" Rory says smiling. "He's happy though that I didn't really let you down" Rory says. "He's worried for you still" Rory says. "Takeru made me feel better, Rory" I say softly. "Emil wants us to stay closed until a week from Monday" I say softly. I get the Room Service trays and we sit and eat. Rory seems calmer now. He's watching me out of the corner of his eyes still. I sit and eat and watch my movie. I get up and go to the bathroom. I take another Valium with some water.

I go back out to the living room of the suite. And I snuggle into Rory while we watch TV. When my movie's over I switch to ESPN for him. Rory kisses me, and pulls me to him and he watches his sports. And I sit and listen to his heart beat. It's very calming to me. I listen to his heart and I smell his scent and I feel comforted. My big Poppa Bear. He loves his Little Grizzly a lot. He seems to know what I'm thinking as he leans down and kisses me. His eyes shine with his love for me. I sigh and snuggle into him tighter. I feel relaxed from the Valium now. And I am happier. I see what Takeru and Rory meant about his not having let me down. He has to be more careful though in the future when he picks someone up. And I think we need to tell Teddy about those two. Have him see if he can find out if they've been doing it to others. I'm not going to bring any of this up now. Rory and I are happy again. Not going to ruin it.

We watch TV for a while. And he turns off the set and picks me up. I'm sleepy now. It's a bit after midnight. Rory and I fuck twice more and when he rolls off of me at last, I drop off to sleep. He pulls me to him and he's wrapped around me very tightly. He wakes me about six AM and we fuck again. Hard and fast. "I love you, you don't ever say no to your Polar Bear" he murrs in my ear when he's cum. "I love you Rory, and I'm glad to have finally gotten to sleep all night with you" I say quietly. "Me too, Claude, I loved how you let me hold you so tightly, and wrap myself around you" he says quietly. "I loved it, Poppa Bear" I say softly.

We curl up and go back to sleep for a few hours. About 9AM Rory's up, and I hear him in the shower. He's singing in the shower. I shake my head and get out of bed. I go and I call Room Service for breakfast for both of us, and I get a Diet Pepsi from the mini bar. I sit and watch the morning news for a bit. Room Service shows up rather quickly, it's been barely a half hour. Rory's dressed already and since I'm not he answers the door and signs for the food . I grab the coffee pot and I fix a cup of coffee. I go out onto the balcony and I drink my coffee. I notice he's eating, but he's looking out here every few minutes. And I wonder if he's making sure I haven't jumped off the balcony. He's his usual happy morning self. And I feel cross this morning. I go in and take my morning pills and hope they'll improve my mood soon.

His cell rings, and he's talking happily. I assume from his end of the conversation, he's talking to Dad. And after talking about business matters he gets up and goes into the bedroom still talking to Dad. Talking about me I'd assume. I feel raw inside again,

I go get my cell off the coffee table and I call Grandpa. "Boy, what happened?" he asks. He tells me what he already knows and I fill in the rest of it. He's laughing. "Claude, Rory's always been cheerful in the mornings, you know that, and I'd not blame him for watching you, after this weekend" Grandpa says softly.

"Claude, you scared him badly, he's terrified of losing you, and I know it's not fair to keep bringing it up, but he was devastated when you tried to kill yourself before, and even the smallest chance you might again will make him panic" Grandpa says softly. "Don't be mad at him for wanting to make sure you're still around and still his" Grandpa says gently. "I guess, I'm not mad, just a bit raw, I do feel better though" I say. "He's probably happy to know he wasn't totally responsible for what happened" Grandpa says softly. "I know he is, and I am too, or I was, I don't know what's wrong with me this morning" I say softly. "You feel more shame, his is lessened, yet you feel more" Grandpa says. "I know you Boy, let go, please" Grandpa says. "I'll try Grandpa" I tell him. "Call Dr White, Boy, you're too sensitive still, please for me, if not for yourself or Rory" Grandpa begs me. "I will" I say softly. I hang up.

And I get another cup of coffee. And I call Jonas. And we talk a bit. He's worried somehow, I know as he's doing phone therapy with me, and I know he hates that. But I do feel a tiny bit better after I talk to him. I am just still feeling overwhelmed. And I don't know what to do that will make me feel better. I haven't a clue about why I still hurt so. I know I have to figure it out somehow. I'm still too raw inside to risk letting it build back up.

I take a deep breath, and I listen to my heart like Grandpa always tells me to do. I need to go to my Polar Bear it tells me, that no one will love or understand me as much as my Rory will. You need his support and caring it says.. And I have to get in the habit of going to him when I need help it reminds me. Figures, even my heart nags me....SIGH.... Grandpa and Takeru are right, no one understands me and how badly I had been hurt than Rory does. And I get up and I go to him. He's sitting on the bed still talking to Dad on his cell. I sit by him, and I hug him tightly. He rubs my back. And he turns and looks into my eyes. He smiles gently at me. He knows why I'm here now. "I can see how much you need me now in your eyes, Baby Grizzly" he mouths to me.

"Dad, I have to go now, Claude came and sat by me, and he looks like he needs his Poppa Bear to comfort him now." Rory says. "I'll call later or if I need you, Dad" he says. And he hangs up and he hugs me to him tightly. "Babe, what's wrong?' he asks, stroking my beard.. I tell him about talking to Grandpa and talking to Jonas. He's listening patiently. I take a really deep breath and just let it out. "Rory, I feel overwhelmed still, and I hurt and I don't know why" I tell him. "You came to me for help," he says crying softly. "My baby Grizzly knew he needed his Polar Bear Daddy" he says hugging me tighter.

And we lay and talk things out. He's holding me and petting my face a lot.. He's so happy I came to him. And he's able to help me a lot. "Claude, let go of this guilt, I love you, and I knew how badly damaged your were when we bonded, I'm glad Grandpa reminded you of that" he says quietly. "You're my Little Grizzly, and I told you I'd fight anything, even you, to help you" he says kissing me. I nod. I do feel a lot better. Just knowing he understands and wants me with him is enough. He's so happy and proud that his Grizzly came to him for help to ease his pains.

And I think a bit. He loves me, and even I can't doubt his love now. I hug him and I beg him to make love to me. And he does. We rut for each other, hot and heavily, and he's amazed at how much passion I'm showing for him. I'm making so much noise when he's fucking me. He's grinning deeply. He's moving faster in me now. and he's nuzzling my neck, and I cuss and growl and beg him to fuck me harder. And he does. And he's kissing me now. And he tenses up, and cussing loudly he's cumming hard in me. I have cum twice on his belly almost without knowing it. We lay together, sweaty and happy and kissing constantly.

"That was.....damned amazing...Little Grizzly" Rory pants. I hold him tightly. And I do feel better. I went to him, and he dropped everything, and he listened, and he loved me, and he was thrilled I came to him. I know now I can, I have to find the strength to go to him, and we can figure out what I am troubled by, but he was so loving. If I don't know why I hurt, he's shown he can help me figure it out, and he loves me enough to want to ease my pains. And I know I can do it now, Dad, and Harry, and Grandpa, and Takeru, and Nigel, and now my Poppa Bear, I'm luckier than I had dreamed. And I think of how much Teddy, and Angus and Miguel care about me. Jesse's my friend as well. And I always have depended on Alfred, his love, and his hunches and his steady wisdom.

I have to walk away from the pain. I look up into Rory's beautiful Ice Blue eyes, and I can see how deeply he loves me. And he dropped everything, and he helped me. It makes it easier to come to him for the next time. And I think a bit more. Rory's smiling. I can tell he knows I'm processing something out. And he stays on top of me. He also knows I love feeling his bigger and heavier body on top of me.

Rory is the male meant for me, he is my predestined mate. We grew up together, he does know me, he fought to help pull me back together when Marty almost destroyed me. He's only Ursine like Dad said, but so am I. And I know already I can't live without his love. I know he's told me and shown me he can't live without me either. And there is no real worry that we won't stay together, we love being with each other. And I think of what Nigel told me once. If I gave into the pain he left me with, that I'd be letting Marty win out, and I won't do that. I know it'll crop up again. But if Rory and I just take things a day at a time, and I work hard with Jonas I can get past it this time. I have everything in the world I wanted, and I can beat this, with the help of my Polar Bear Cousin. I have never felt loved this much.

I kiss him again. And I tell him everything I'd been thinking over and he's happy. "I will try my damnedest to always be there for my Baby Grizzly" he says. "I will help you, I loved it when you come to me, it lets me know how much you need me" Rory says kissing me. He's rock hard inside of me again. And he starts moving in me slowly. I wrap my arms and legs around his bigger body. And we kiss deeply. He's nibbling at my neck as he speeds up in me. And he starts nipping me, and I roll us over, and I get on top of him and I ride his massive Jet Black Polar Bear dick hard and fast. And I'm shaking my head and growling. I cum on his belly and still I keep riding him. He's grinning. "Never took you this way, Grizzly Boy, and I like it" he says, and he puts his paws behind his head and I keep riding his dick hard and fast. He bucks upward, and cussing and growling he cums in me. I cum again on his belly. And I lay forward and we kiss deeply.

I pull off of him. And I lay next to him. "Claude, I miss being at home, but I'll stay here if you want us to" Rory says gently. "No, I wanna be home too, I need to be with my mate, and my family, I need to keep being reminded of how much love and support I have, and I want to make it up to them somehow" I tell Rory. "I hurt them all by not coming to them, and they care and they worried for me, I have to make it up somehow, Baby" I say softly. Rory grins. "I'm proud of my Little Grizzly, you're trying so hard to shake this off, and make it up to those who love us" he says leaning up and kissing me.

He kisses me. "Claude, I do want us to go off like this as much as we can, sometimes we need to be alone, just us" Rory says smiling. "I really do love you, and I need you, Claude, just as much as I know you need me" he says lovingly. "I have to admit, I want to see you get fucked by Miguel too, never got to see that" Rory says kissing me. I laugh. "You care for him, and Angus and Teddy, and they care for you, but you love me, and you only want me to love you" he says. "I see that, Dad told me how you kept me first, you fixed Miguel up because you liked him a lot, and you will always come back to me, I am your first priority, and I'll work hard to make sure you know you're always mine" he says. "That's all I need, Rory, I'll never complain if you fuck others, if you keep me first and keep some for me too" I tease him. "So that's it, eh?" he ask. "I can fuck anyone as much as I want, as long as you get yours?" he asks laughing. "Pretty much, Poppa Bear" I say softly.. Rory's laughing.

"Baby, one last thing, and then I'll never bring up this weekend again?" I ask. Rory nods. "Our big strength is that we really know each other, and we understand each other, and we never lie, but we both know if you'd of just told me, you had overdone it, and been AFO I'd of just begged you to hold me, you were afraid that I was already upset and not wanting to trigger me" I say softly. "In my mind that is the only real mistake you made, always tell me, and let me sort things out, I might get mad, but I love you too much to risk losing you" I tell him. Rory nods. "I will, I'll tell you, and if you get mad, I can always remind you that you made me promise to tell you the truth" he says smiling. I nod.

"I have a request for you too, Claude" Rory says. I nod. "You came to me today because you were hurting and needed me, keep trying to do that, and I beg you, stop running when you're upset, go to Dad or Nigel or who ever you have to but don't run" he says. "I know the second time you basically went running to Jonas, scared of what might happen, but don't run, I'd of taken you to see him, if you told me you were afraid of what you might do." Rory says kissing me deeply. "I'll try, Poppa Bear" I say softly. "I won't let you hurt yourself, Claude, no matter what you might do" Rory says. "I can't live without you, Little Grizzly" Rory says quietly. I nod.