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I paced around the apartment, my mind a flurry of thoughts. I had been anxious all day, but now I didn't have anything to do to distract me. The apartment is spotless, the fridge is full of food, and I have groomed myself meticulously. I just couldn't think of anything else to do.

Today is when my ex-stepson, Todd, would move in with me. I was married to his mom for a few years when he was a teenager before we divorced some years after. Todd was a good kid, nice, sweet, thoughtful, and a perfect son for any father. Even after the divorce, we kept in touch with emails, texts, and calls. When he mentioned how a campus near where I lived had a class he needs to graduate, I offered up my spare bedroom to make the commute easier. He agreed immediately and we started to work on getting him moved in. I've been looking forward to living with him again for a while now.

I pulled out my phone. 7:42 PM. "He's late. I'm starting to get worried." It was a long drive from where he was living with his mother, so I shouldn't be surprised he was running late. Should I call him? See where he is. I shook my head, "no, he's an adult now. I am sure he can handle himself." I looked to the kitchen, "maybe I should make some dinner, give him something to eat when he arrives."

As I headed to the kitchen, I heard a knock at the door. I rushed over and opened the door.

On the other side was a handsome grey-furred husky, a broad grin on his face and holding bags, "hey Roger, it's good to see you again."

I immediately grabbed Todd into a big hug, "Oh it's great to see you, too. You have gotten so big." I pulled him in as close as I could, just appreciating hugging Todd again. After about a minute, I let the husky go, "how was the trip here?"

"It was fine. Sorry I was late. I wanted to pick something up," Todd held up a plastic bag. It had a logo of a restaurant I had seen around here. A delicious spicy smell was coming from it.

"You got takeout?"

"Yeah, I heard of a good restaurant in the area and I thought I would bring it as a housewarming gift. I ordered at a busy time, so it took some time."

"That's sweet of you." I look at the other bags with him, "is this everything?"

"Nah, I have some boxes in the car, I just thought we eat first while the food was still warm." Todd came in with his bags and pulled out the food on the table, "I got you an Enchilada with some Mexican rice as your order while I got some tacos, hope you don't mind, Roger."

"Nice. I have some salsa packets from Taco Bell if you want to add some to your food." I went to the kitchen to pull out the silverware and stuff. "What do you want to drink?"

"Do you have a beer?"

I turned to the husky, "since when did you start drinking?"

"Never, Mom never let me. But since I am not living with Mom anymore and am 21, I thought I might have better luck with you letting me drink." Todd gave me a wide grin while giving me puppy dog eyes.

I thought for a bit, "Sure, I can let you sip some of it first." I pulled out a beer and soda can and returned to the table.

Todd grabbed the beer and tried it. The husky face twisted in disguise as he swallowed the small amount of beer he sipped, "blah, how do you handle this stuff?"

I laughed and passed him the soda, "just have to drink it a lot to appreciate it."

As we ate, we chatted about every odd thing that could come to mind. Movie, sports, events. Just idle chit-chat. While we kept in contact with texts and calls, nothing beats conversations in person. Living far from each other made it difficult to meet up in person.

We chatted for a while until the topic of relationships came up. "So Tobb, do you think you would bring anyone here while you're staying with me?" I asked.

"Like who? My friends still live closer to Mom and I don't think anyone is willing to drive up here just to hang."

I shook my head, "no no, I mean something like a boyfriend. A real handsome guy."

The husky's tail started to wag as a big smile showed on his face, "maybe, what would you do about it?"

"Oh, I don't know. Maybe tell them some embarrassing stories about you. See if I can get your boyfriend to blush."

"Oh really, and if I brought home a professor instead?"

"Same thing, but I share a beer with them and talk about how you are in class." I laughed.

"Oh come on," Todd pouted, "you wouldn't be jealous?"

"Why would I be jealous?"

"Well, your cute stepson is bringing home older men, possibly for sex. I'm sure that would have gotten a rise out of you."

"The only thing you get rising from me is my dick from the," I paused. I could hardly believe I said it. I hide my eyes in embarrassment, "sorry, I shouldn't have said that."

Todd just laughed, "Come on, finish the sentence. You think it's hot I am getting with older men. I think you did say you like younger men at one point."

I didn't like where this conversation was going. "Stop," I said, "we are dropping the subject. I said too much already." I picked up the empty container and beer can and then tossed them in the bin.

Todd came up from behind me, wrapping his arms around my waist. I felt all of Todd's body against mine. Especially the hard-on that was rubbing against my ass. It felt huge.

I was flustered, "Todd, what's going on with you?"

Tobb put his face into my neck. "Roger. I think I love you."

"I love you too but-"

"No," he said, "I am in love with you romantically."

"What," I shouted, "what are you talking about?"

"Honestly, I'm not sure myself." Todd let go of my waist and stepped back. When I faced him, the husky had a sad look on his face. "When you were still married to Mom, I kind of felt something when I was with you. I just wanted to be with you. Just do stuff with you. I didn't really feel it with the other men Mom was dating, just you. Then when I heard you were divorcing Mom, I was devastated. I was scared I wouldn't have you in my life."

"I see," I remembered back when I made the announcement. Todd was devastated and locked himself in his room for three days. When I promised to keep in touch did he seem to go back to normal. "Did you still have these feelings when I left?"

"Yeah. it wasn't easy at first, but talking to you helped. But then my feelings started to change as I got older."

"When?"

"Remember when I came out to you and told you I liked older men? I wasn't being completely honest with you. When I confessed to that, I left out how often you would enter my mind while I masturbate. Sometimes I would masturbate and think of you. Other times, it would be the other way around. I just couldn't get you out of my mind."

I was shocked by this confession. My stepson had those kinds of thoughts about me. I know as a former parent I should be appalled by it. But I am not. Some part of me feels ecstatic that Todd feels this way. But why do I feel this way?

"When you offered up your place to me, I was excited to live with you again. I thought I get to be your son again but," tears started to form in his eyes, "I want to be more than father and son. I want to love you, Dad," Todd cried. "Please, please don't hate me."

I pulled Todd into my embrace, "shhh, shhh, you're okay Todd. you're okay."

Todd returned the gesture.

"I understand where you are coming from because I think I feel the same way too."

"You do?"

"Yeah. I wanted to be together with you for a while now. Not in a romantic sense at first, but your confession stirred something inside me. I wanted you in my life again. To hold you just as when you were a teenager. I thought I just wanted to be your father again but maybe, I think I also wanted to be more than father and son with you too."

"Then?"

"Yes, I love you with all my heart."

Todd sobbed in my neck. "Oh Dad, I don't know what to say."

"You already said it, Todd."