Let the Church Say Amen
#1 of Let the Church Say Amen
a story that kind of catalogs my acceptance and transition from ministry to who i am today
_ Let the Church Say Amen _
Prolog - Behind the Robe
July 27, 2008
It's interesting as you start to realizing things about yourself. I mean hey I've always known I was...different. I just wish that I could change this one. I'm sitting here at one in the morning, got the family computers muted as I look and search for something I desire but know I shouldn't want. I wasn't lucky enough to have my own computer know my family wasn't that well off. We all had to share and that is pretty hard when you live in the home I do. See I live in a house with three women, two younger sisters and my mom. Well let me describe myself to you I'm a GSD a German Shepard Dog mutt, I took more like my father then my mother, my sisters they on the other hand took after my mom. We don't share the same father a fact they make perfectly clear. But you'll find out about them later back to the point at hand.
Why am I sneaking around to use the computer, well its cause what I want to use it for, I really don't want anyone to know about. As I sit there and boot up the computer I groan knowing how long it will take for me to actually get on Netscape, yup dial-up in this day and age. But it was what we had. My ears stood straight up as I heard a sound, one of my sisters had fallen asleep on the couch again, great this would be awkward, but as long as she didn't wake up there wasn't an issue. As I finally logged on I started my search, the images I desired where just at the touch of my fingers, the male rabbit bending over for the German Shepard. Allowing the large dog to violate him in only the most intimate of ways, My eyes transfixed as I waited for the thirty second clip to load, but it would easily take fifteen minuets to get what I desired. My paw moved slowly towards my lap, the reaction natural for any male right? I mean it didn't have anything to do with the fact that I was watching two virile males doing something that people would associate with sin and debauchery. Oh well, take care the issue at hand first and then worry about the ramifications after. I let my desire get the better of me, my breath slow and deep. My eyes half-lidded as I watched the scene before me the darkness of the room cut only by the light the monitor provided in the small two bedroom apartment.
I'd double click to bring the image back to the what I could only imagine was a yelp as the large-sized dog entered the creature under him, the sight was so erotic but everything told me that I shouldn't be watching this but I couldn't stop myself if I tried. I needed to be quiet and quick for my guilty pleasure, get it over it was like medicine, take the shot and be done. Repeating the small clip, my hand out of sight but my nose picking up my own scent it wasn't long before I bit my own lip to keep from making a noise. I always came prepared and as I got rid of the evidence the guilt hit me. I did it again, I let my lust get me in trouble. What was wrong with me cause there's no way that I could be gay. 'I just got bored with straight porn, that's a reason", I told myself, but even I didn't believe it, I don't got time to worry about it now as I reached up and grabbed my bible that had been presented to me at my trial. I had a sermon to write for the morning.