Nobody Told Me There'd Days Like These
It all started with a kiss, well not a real kiss, a dream kiss. I guess I have been having these feelings for a while but I've been trying so hard not to acknowledge them. This dream made it pretty clear though. It wasn't one of those distorted dreams where a whole bunch of crazy shit happens and somewhere along the lines of the skewed storyline did I kiss him no, it was vivid and detailed, probably one of my best dreams.
So I think I may have feelings for my best friend. I mean I can't explain what I feel, but my feelings for someone have never been this strong. I doubt he's gay, yea there is no way, I barely know if I am really gay so how am I supposed to tell if he is? Damn it this isn't going to end well, I can already tell.
So by now you have to be wondering what happened in this dream, I mean as a reader you just learned that it completely changed my view of the world, so I assume you want to know. Well let me start off by introducing myself because if I am gonna let you in on this dream of mine then your going to have to know what I look like right?
I'm a lion, and I am male if you haven't already got that. I am about 6ft tall and about 185lbs I'm pretty average body type, I have a little muscle. My fur is golden brown and my mane is dark brown. I keep my mane at pretty much medium in length. I have green eyes and a soul patch. I don't wear glasses but I have a pair of sunglasses I do wear a lot, the circle John Lennon kinds. I wear a lot of band shirts, like all the time, and I only own jeans and my black work pants. I don't wear shoes unless I have to and then I wear converse or my boots.
Ok now that you know what I look like, oh I'm eighteen to that would probably help, let me tell you about myself. Lets see well I'm kind of a hippy though I don't drink or do drugs so my friends say that means I can't be a hippy but I don't know what really constitutes one. I'm outgoing once you know me but I am usually very shy. I tend to enjoy smaller groups of people I don't really enjoy hanging with a lot of people so that's why I don't usually go to parties. I am a huge Beatles fan, and have been all of my life. I try to be as nice of a person as I can be, and may times I have been taken advantage of but that hasn't stopped me, I can't help but be nice.
Ok that's enough about me, well um I think I should describe "him" to cause you're not going to know what I'm kissing. He's a panther, he has tan fur, blue eyes and is very cute. He a little shorter than myself so I'd say he would have to be 5ft 9inish he weighs about 170lbs and he has a very athletic physique. He kind of dresses the same as me to, we've been best friend since 7th grade.
Ok so on to the dream, if you are still reading and haven't gotten bored yet through lack of yiff thanks for sticking with me I appreciate it. This is what happened exactly as I remember it in the dream. Me and him were sitting on the floor playing against each other 1 on 1 in Halo 2 on my XBOX and we were having an epic battle. So the score is 24 me 23 him to 25 so he pushed me in order to cause me to slip up and killed me tying up the game, so naturally I pushed him straight back. So what happened was we started wrestling each other both trying to subdue the other in order to win the game. And we went at it for a good five minutes and it ended with him on his back and me sitting on top of him holding his arms down.
"Well it seems we have a draw" he said, "because the second you let go of my paw to win I will be able to get out of this."
"Well then it seems I'm not gonna let go" I said.
And I looked in his eyes and just saw something there, so I leaned in and kissed him. It was short but I definitely kissed him, but I quickly realized what I had done and lifted my head up fearing how he was going to react to this.
"I'm sorry" was all that I was able to mutter.
"Don't be," he said and at that he lifted his head and began kissing me and when I say kissing I mean really kissing me, not like my lame little innocent peck on the lips, no open mouthed tongue in all. And I just lost myself in it, I don't believe I have ever been happier, and I stopped for a moment just so I could uttered. "I lov......" and That's when I woke up.
I woke up to my alarm in my lonely bed, not only with the beautiful image gone, not only with the realization it wasn't real, but also with a raging hard on. And so now it's in my head that I love him, and once something gets in my head it is hard to get it out of there. I'm going to have to see him today, at this point I think it's bet not to rush into telling him but then again I don't know. One thing is for sure, there is no way I am concentrating in school today.
So now you know how it all began, I hope you enjoyed it, I will tell you what happened today later cause it hasn't happened yet, and you know what I think that it's best if for now on I refer to myself in the third person while writing this story, I think it works better that way, but don't worry I wont be able to help myself from breaking the fourth wall every now and again. Well bye for now, and peace.