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(Author note: this is a story in which I would like to explain how I wanted my life to be so I wish to see your reactions)

I wanted to express my feelings, so I did, I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Entharion is my character and will always be so don't steal him, Avalon is the character of my friend Avalondrache.

If you have any suggestions or questions e-mail me at [email protected]

Avalon gets some more attention in this one ^^ plot development.

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The incredible change part eight.

I woke up again, still on top of Avalon, I licked her face and she slowly woke up and rubbed my back, I cuddled up to her and rubbed her smooth belly, down to her pussy, I didn't go all the way there but only rubbed her belly and licked her face some more, somewhere inside me I was feeling a little confused, I always thought I was gay, I still love Jerhatan and my kitty but I think... I think it's instinct or something, but she's gonna have my children, I cant just leave her to look after the children on her own, I mentally scolded myself for getting myself in this situation, I woke up from my thoughts and gave her one last lick before getting off her and going over to the containment field to grab some meat for Avalon and me, meanwhile Avalon sat up and stretched her back as I returned with some meat and gave her some, she gave me a kiss as I sat down next to her.

"Thanks hun" I stopped doing anything.

"Am I your hun?".

"Of course you are, sweet little dragon of mine".

"I cant stay with you, I am mated with Jerhatan".

"why didn't you tell me?" she yelled.

"I thought it was quite obvious" I yelled back at her to surpass the volume of her voice.

"I only saw you hiding in a house where two lovers were lying in bed with eachother..." again I cursed myself.

"Well, I didn't... I didn't ask... well, you kinda surprised me, and I guess there is no way out now is there?".

"I thought it was ok, sorry, it's all my fault, I'm so sorry, I was in heat and...".

"No, it's not your fault you weren't to know".

"Yes it is, I should've asked if you were willing"

"I should've told you I was mated" I could've died on the spot, I am going to have children with someone who I hardly knew and I was mated, somehow this was all my fault.

"I don't want to be a burden to you, I'll leave" Avalon got up and I grabbed her hand.

"No please, they're my children too, I am responsible as well" I said, pulling her arm a little.

"I'll be fine" she pulled her arm away and walked towards the door, I walked up from behind her and wrapped my arms around her, I put my head on her shoulder and lifted her up a bit.

"No, you're staying with me" I insisted as I slowly backed up to the couch again.

"Would you really stay with me? Even though you are mated?".

"Yes, I think Jerhatan will understand, I have to take care of my... mate I guess" I hadn't noticed Jerhatan walking in and hearing me say that, until I turned around to see him crying, I tried to walk to him, but he ran off into the bedroom "Jerhatan no, I don't mean it like that" but before I could say more he slammed the bedroom door shut, I could just have blinked in, but that would make things worse "please love open up, I didn't mean it like that".

"I think he needs some time alone" Avalon said while resting her head on my shoulder, rubbing my shoulder and wing, making me shiver, I shook my head and pulled myself away from her.

"He needs me, I...I... I don't know, I cant leave you, but Jerhatan is mad because he thinks I'm leaving him, this is so cruel".

"Shh, stay with me for a while, he'll survive".

"He needs me, I love him, and I'm not leaving him" suddenly the door opened, Darkfur quickly walked out and closed the door behind him.

"Jerhatan is mad at you, he... he never wants to see you again" tears sprung into my eyes, I ran outside, almost knocking over Dracko as he was about to enter the house.

"Enth, what's wrong?" dracko yelled after me, but I kept running and took off, away to my spot, I needed some time alone, I just needed to get away from all the sudden problems that showed up, I continued crying all the way, my tears blowing away in the winds, the winds that always seemed to calm me, but not now, I was heartbroken, Jerhatan, the love of my life had abandoned me, I went back to the lake I had been to before, I literally crashed into the water, hoping it would wash all my problems away with a big splash, I must have stayed under water for at least 5 minutes, until Avalon dragged me out of the water, I coughed and spat out some of the water that had got into my throat.

"Hey, are you ok?" I spat out some more water and turned around, I pushed myself up and collapsed crying, the life totally drained from me, I sobbed, my muzzle was buried in the sand and I beat the sand repeatedly with my fists, I was mad at Avalon, mad at myself, but especially mad at Jerhatan, "how could he leave me like this, I made a promise I would never leave him", she pulled me up at my arms "come on, onto your feet big guy" as soon as I got up again I fell down to my side again, I wasn't even trying, without Jerhatan everything seemed pointless.

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Meanwhile at home...

"What's wrong Darkfur? what's this all about?" Dracko asked, Darkfur shrugged.

"I don't know, Entharion came in with this girl last night, they mated, we didn't mind, but this morning Jerhatan suddenly came rushing into the bedroom, yelling all kinds of things about Entharion I thought he could never say".

"Hmm, it doesn't seem like Entharion to hurt Jerhatan like this, I'm gonna try and talk to him, if I can find him" Darkfur nodded as Dracko walked out the door.

"I'll Be back soon..."

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Back at the lake...

Avalon had put me on my back in the bed I made last time and I just cried, thinking about what we had been trough, and how he just abandoned me, "I hate myself, fucking kill me" Avalon hit me on the head with her paw.

"Stop talking like that, it's not the end of the world" she said angrily.

"I love him, how could he do this to me... aahhh" I grabbed my horns and pulled them in my attempt to relieve my stress, it only gave me a headache and I crossed my arms over my chest, she bent over me and rubbed my muzzle and gave me a kiss on my head, I relaxed and nuzzled into her and silently sobbed in her warm embrace.

"shh, you're not alone, you have me" somehow I didn't care about her right now and I only wanted some love, Jerhatan's that is.

"I just need to be alone...".

"ok, but don't try to drown yourself again, I'll be on the top of the mountain if you need me" I nodded and she took off, I rolled over and stared at the cave wall again.

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Back home...

"I don't understand... why would he do such a thing... he sworn never to leave me".

"Jerhatan... aren't you overreacting? Maybe you misunderstood...".

"I heard him say "Would you really stay with me? Even though you are mated?... Yes, I think Jerhatan will understand, I have to take care of my mate" he said with a mocking tone in his voice.

"He cant be serious about this" Darkfur pondered, meanwhile Jerhatan dug his claws into his pillow and pressed it to his face crying.

"I just know it's over, and we were so happy together, I don't know how he could do this" Darkfur sat down next to him and leaned down on him, giving him a kiss to try to comfort him...

"I'm sure he didn't mean to hurt you like this, maybe he needs to have some time alone" Jerhatan threw him off his back and lifted him up by the neck and yelled into his face.

"Alone?? Alone with that bitch??, we gave him all our hearts and he betrayed us, he doesn't deserve to live... the filthy rat..." Darkfur started to cry, and Jerhatan frowned "sorry darkfur, I didn't mean to say such things".

"Don't hurt him please, I love him too..." Jerhatan put him on the bed and sat down next to him.

"I'm gonna make him pay..." Jerhatan tried to hug him but he jumped off the bed.

"Then be alone you monster" he slammed the door crying, leaving Jerhatan alone in his misery.

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Back at the lake...

I was still wondering what went wrong, it all happened so fast, it all seemed like a horrible nightmare, and I was still in it, I wished I could just wake up, seeing him next to me, his eyes opened, and looked at me with the love they always seemed to radiate to me... but the look in his eyes that afternoon... was indescribable... cold, broken, hurt... I just felt so sorry for him, this was all my fault, I was actually thinking about drowning myself but before I could do anything, Avalon was next to me again.

"Hey sweety, feel any better?" I fell into her arms crying.

"It's all my fault... I'm so sorry.. so sorry" she patted my back and let me cry.

"Shh, it's ok... it's ok my sweety, it's not all your fault..." I looked up at her and I could see in her eyes how sorry she felt for me...

"You're right, I shouldn't blame myself for all this, it's all his fault" she was getting a little confused now on who to protect.

"Enth, that's not what I meant...".

"Then what should I do?, I'm so confused" Avalon pondered, her foot tapping nervously.

"I think you have to try to explain to him, I mean, you weren't really leaving him right?"

"No" I said with doubt.

"And you still love him don't you?"

"Yeah..." I said confidently.

"Well then, go explain him what you meant...".

I smiled and gave her a quick kiss "thanks ava, that's what I'm gonna do" without hesitation I turned around and took off from the lakeside, Avalon mumbling something about men... but I couldn't care less, I was out to make it up to my love, we've been trough too much to give it all up for a simple misunderstanding.

The End.. for now