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Welcome back, my lovely reader!

I left you on quite a suspenseful cliffhanger in the last episode, didn’t I, lovely? I’d say I’m sorry but it’s called building tension, you know how it is, yeah?

Well, I don't think I need to tell you it’s about to hit the fan. Tracey is a firecracker, but she can think level-headed when she needs to. Still, her whole relationship is about to be pushed against, and by a doe who doesn’t even realize she’s doing it, to begin with. Are you ready for some more heavy drama, my lovely reader? Oh, don’t look at me like that… Okay, Okay… I’ll throw some naughty stuff in too!

Let’s jump right in!

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Episode 4:

It’s Been Awhile

“And everything I can't remember, As fucked up as it all may seem, The consequences that I've rendered, I've gone and fucked things up again.”

“Leo,

I should have reached out to you sooner, but I was terrified of hurting you or fucking your career, but I can’t stand it any longer. I’ve thought about you and regretted things every day for the last two years.

Yes, I forgive you, I don’t hate you, I love you. I love you so very very much. I pray you can forgive me as well. If it’s not too late for us, I want to be what you wanted, I want to be your girlfriend, I want to hold hands and say we love one another.

If you haven’t done so, please listen to Glitter in my Tears on my album. Like how you wrote True Blue Avenue and Synthetic Heartbreak for me, this is my musical love letter to you. I’ve included my contact information, so… if it’s not too late, let me know.

All my Love

Flia”

Tracey’s nose twitched as she scanned the letter over, it was faintly scented with perfume. It was obvious it wasn’t for her after she started reading it, but she just couldn’t stop and by the time she finished, she had a hand over her mouth, just blinking at it.

“That mother fucking goat played me… This wasn’t something I should have ever seen…” Tracey whispered the words as she flipped the envelope over, the wax seal on it now broken.

As if on cue, she saw Leo approaching her, looking relieved to have found her. She had been so focused on the letter she didn’t see him until he was nearly on top of her. She shuddered and tapped down on the clusterfuck of emotions in her as she met his eyes.

“Tracey, Max said, Jacob was here and wanted to talk to you specifically. What’s going-” His eyes grew wide as he saw the album and letter in her hand, clearly seeing whose album it was.

“Look me in the eyes, popstar,” Tracey growled.

His green eyes widened more as they shot right to her own and she saw fear in them. She snarled and folded the letter, tucking it back into the envelope.

“Let’s be clear on something… We aren’t teenagers and I’m not here to play this bullshit game, Jacob’s trying to stir up. He just passed the fucking letter to me as if it were for me.” Tracey sighed as she put the letter and CD together and met his eyes, looking composed.

Leo was anything but composed, his stomach was twisting in a knot and he felt like he was going to throw up, his knees quivering as if he needed to just sit down right there on the floor. His throat was dry as he whispered out, “Is that… from Flia?”

“Yep…” Tracey pushed the items into his chest as he fumbled to grip them before she paced away. “We’ll talk later.”

“Tracey… Why did you read it if you knew it wasn’t for you? You could have stopped once you realized.” Leo cut his eyes back to her, looking on edge, defensive, but also fearful.

“Reverse the roles, Leo. Would you have reined yourself in and stopped?” She looked at him over her shoulder with a cocked brow.

He gritted his teeth and looked down, saying nothing. Tracey gave him a nod as she continued, “Sort yourself out, I’ll be on the bus, we can talk like adults there. I’m… not angry at you Leo. I can see this came out of the blue, I’m not stupid and-”

“You shouldn’t have read it, Tracey!” He snarled out, heat filling his voice.

“Well, I fucking did, Leo! You wanna fucking dump me over it? Looks like you’ve got a taker as a replacement if you do!” Tracey snarled and stormed off, her heels clacking loudly on the concrete.

“You fucking moron… why are you getting pissed at her?” Leo sighed and shook his head, looking at the letter in the envelope his eyes widening as he thought of when Flia stormed off crying. He turned around and gave chase after her. “Tracey, hang on, I’m sorry I snapped at you!”

The wolf stopped in her tracks and he watched her fists clench, long crimson nails digging into her palms before she whirled on him and stomped back over, glaring up into his eyes. “I’m trying to be cool-headed about this, sheep… I’m trying to not punch you in the face for that little outburst and get on a plane home… You fucking snapping at me isn’t helping!” She spat the words into his face, her pupils shaking with rage.

“I’m sorry! I’m really really sorry, it was wrong of me to snap, especially with you being so cool about-”

Tracey wrenched him down to her eye level by the jacket. “I am not cool about this! I fucking sang a duet with you, a fucking song you wrote for another girl! We slow danced on stage to a song you wrote while thinking of another bitch, Leo!”

“I wasn’t thinking of her then, okay!? It was all you, all of those moments were all you, Tracey! Yes, my emotions were in that song when I recorded it, but a song is a fucking song once it hits the vinyl! Emotions change the song doesn’t!”

The memories of that time, him losing his temper with Flia, he regretted so many times not chasing her down and begging her for forgiveness. Leo grabbed Tracey’s own shoulders and snarled with tears in his eyes, “It had nothing to do with her, that was our moment and still is! Again, I am sorry Tracey… your love and support mean so much to me … I shouldn’t have snapped just then, please… say you’ll forgive me?”

She showed her teeth, a rumbling growl in her throat seeing the distant look in his eyes, knowing there was more behind the words than just for her. Tracey sighed and pushed her forehead to his own. “Fine… I forgive you Leo, but if you snap at me again over this shit, I’ll break your fucking jaw.” She pulled from his arms and met his eyes. “Read your letter, get yourself sorted, we’ll talk on the bus.”

He gave her a small nod as she walked away, he could still see the anger in her body language, but that stood to reason. Tracey was always an angry dog, just because she was in a better place these days didn’t mean it wasn’t there.

Leo shuddered and flipped the letter open, the familiar scent of her hitting his nose as his eyes grew tearier before even scanning the first word.

—*—

Tracey was already working on a whiskey when he came in, the wolf now in her blue jeans and a t-shirt. She nodded to the cold beer sitting on the table before taking another sip of her harder stuff.

Leo sighed and moved over next to her after setting the letter and CD down on a small bolted-down shelf near the door. She noted his eyes were red, no doubt from crying. He cracked open the beer and took a few gulps before she asked, “Aren’t you going to put the CD on?”

His green eyes averted as he leaned back, resting the beer in both his hands between his knees. “I’d… rather not… I’ve cried enough for today.”

“Yeah? I don’t cry easily, Leo… You have made me cry unpacking my bullshit and I never demanded you unpack more than you felt comfortable with. Still, this kind of sucker-punched me, you know?”

“I- … I thought it was behind me, thought it was done.” He took another sip of his beer before rubbing at his face.

“Let’s approach this rationally, the first and most obvious question is, why the fuck did Jacob have the letter?” Tracey quirked a brow.

“That would stand to reason, neither I nor Flia have had one another’s contact information in almost two years. I sent her a letter through the label, several months before I met you. Mostly apologizing and wishing her well, telling her I’d… always love her”

Tracey nodded and sipped her drink. “Let’s be clear on something, Leo. I never assumed I was your first, I never assumed you didn’t have emotional past relationship baggage, I simply figured if it was worth bringing up, you’d have done so. I guess I was wrong.”

“Can I give you the short version for now? I’m in no condition to go into details…” He sighed as he took another sip of his beer.

Tracey downed the last of her whiskey and slapped the empty glass on the table with a loud thump, then her blue eyes met his green ones. “Give it to me straight, tell me like I’m not your girlfriend.”

He swallowed hard and gave a small nod. “Flia was my break into the big time. I started as a backup singer with her. She instantly saw my talent and started grooming me to be an idol like I wanted.”

“Seems she was grooming you for more than that, Leo.” Tracey quirked a brow.

“No way, Tracey… I was falling for her hard, but even after we started sleeping together, she made it clear what we were and were not. She… was like you, she worried about my career, worried about her dragging me down. She wouldn’t let me say I loved her, constantly reminding me what I was and was not. She was… very fair to me.”

“Interesting… so when I was railing on you early in about your career, I was also digging away at that, wasn’t I?” She quirked a brow.

He swallowed and nodded as he met her eye-to-eye. “You said to give it to you straight and I will. Flia was never angry like you were, but I saw a lot of what drew me to her in you. The confidence, the edge, the taking shit from no one, loved or otherwise…”

“So I was just a substitute?” She tilted her head at him.

“Tracey, we both know that’s bullshit. What you and I have, it’s ours and had nothing to do with Flia. I’ve got a type thanks to her, that’s all I’m saying.”

“You like bitches.” Tracey smirked as she folded her arms.

“S-Something like that… anyway…” He sighed and rubbed at his face. “She got me on board with the company, she was going to Europe, I was going to the west coast to record my debut album. I asked what about us, she reminded me there wasn’t an us.”

“I bucked up at that, told her I loved her, that I wanted to be with her.” She watched him visibly shudder as he pushed a hand over his face, tears showing at his cheeks. “She tried to reinforce her decision, said she didn’t promise to love me, kept her word, made me what I wanted… I lashed out… accused her of… of just using me as something fun to mess with, as a tool to further her career.”

Tracey sucked breath in through her teeth and shook her head. “Gods damn Leo… how could you-”

“I know! Okay?! … I know…” He cracked one hand as she saw his eye looking at her, more tears rolling down his cheek. “She started crying, wailing… Said everything she’d done was for me, I tried to apologize, but it was too late and I knew it. She screamed that she hated me, told me she loved me too, but that she’d never talk to me again. Then she stormed off and that’s the last time I saw her in person.”

“So between your brother and that, the stage was set for your withdrawal, turning into the prickly bitter idol you were when I found you.” She nodded as all the pieces came together.

Leo wiped his face and shuddered. “Tracey… This was a deep wound and one of the most ardent regrets of my life. It wasn’t something I was ready to share with you, but I never intended to hurt you with it either.”

“I’m not hurt… shocked, yes… but I don’t feel malicious or jaded. We… I just don’t get where Jacob came into this. He knew we…” She frowned and folded her arms. “I have a feeling… you weren’t supposed to get that letter, Leo.”

“Think so?” He tilted his head.

“You said this girl was all about supporting you. That wasn’t a letter you send to coax a guy away from his girl. That was a letter you send in hopes of fixing things. She even mentioned if it wasn’t too late. I don’t think she knew I was a factor.”

“But we’ve been blowing up as the ‘it’ couple for months now. Hang on maybe…” Leo sighed as he finished his beer off and moved to grab up the CD, looking it over.

“You guys both tour and have no contact information. We have no idea how long-”

“I think you’re right… this is a first-run CD.” He looked up at her while holding the jewel case.

“How can you tell?” Tracey quirked a brow.

“Because we stopped using this production company almost three months ago. Either this letter and CD are months old, or she just happened to have an original production CD.” He slapped the case in his palm.

“Leo… I love you, and… I’m not going to just flip out and leave you over all this. I think… no, I know. You need to call her, you need to get the other side of this story. She’s hurting, and I hate to be the cause of someone hurting who doesn’t deserve it, you know what I mean?”

The ram gave her a nod as he looked at the CD, turning it over in his grip. Tracey stood and moved over to him, leaning in to kiss his lips briefly. “Call her when we get stopped again, do it in private. I promise I’ll understand, no matter what the outcome, your happiness is what matters most to me, Leo…”

“I- Tracey, I swear I’m not going anywhere, I love you, I just don’t know wh-” The wolf smiled and put her hand to his lips, silencing him.

“That was never in question, Leo. Let’s just sort things out before you put the cart too far ahead, okay? I believe in you, in our love.” She offered him a playful grin as she shifted a hand to her hip. “Or some romance serial bullshit or something like that.”

—*—

It was one of those restless nights, a thunderstorm rumbling outside the bus. She’d given up on sleeping much tonight and was just lying in bed on her phone. She had a few days before her next show, so at least she wasn’t going to have to try to do it exhausted.

The curtains were open so she could see the whole of the bus interior, moving her eyes out as lightning filled it with sharp bursts of blue light before fading back to the dim ambiance of the fairy lights.

She huffed and turned back to her phone, then jumped as it vibrated in her grip before an unknown number started calling her. She’d normally dismiss this as a scam call but it was too late at night for something like that. This was also a studio phone on a private unsolicited number to boot. For some reason, her heart started pounding, something told her to answer this call.

The line clicked on as she spoke out cautiously, “Hello?”

There was a second of pause, she heard a voice catch on the other line before it stammered out, “F-Flia?”

Her eyes widened, her heart shoving into her throat. “Is… L-Leo?”

“Yeah, Flia… it’s me.” His voice sounded like it was cracking, as if on the verge of sobbing.

Her eyes were already filled with tears as she sat up in bed and sobbed out, “Leo! Gods… oh gods… Leo, to hear your voice again…” She sniffled as she wiped her eyes.

Leo sadly smiled as he leaned into the sofa on his bus, Tracey having left to give him some privacy once they got stopped. “Flia… gods, it’s so good to hear your voice again too…”

She gave a little shuddering hic of a sob, then shook her head before putting things together. “W-Wait… Leo, how do you have this number?”

“You uh… gave it to me, in your letter…” He heard the gasp come from her as he explained.

She felt her heart pound as panic gripped her. “W-wait… W-why… why do you have that letter, Leo?! Oh gods…”

“It’s uh… it’s okay… was I not supposed to get it, Flia?”

“Of course, you weren’t supposed to get it, stupid! You’ve got a girlfriend now, fuck!” She snarled out while biting back another hic.

“Yeah… about that…” Leo sighed out.

She felt herself about to start sobbing. “Oh gods! Please, Leonard, please tell me I didn’t fuck things up for you!”

“No! No… it’s okay, Tracey guessed as much, she was right… She said it wouldn’t be your style… When did you send this letter, Flia?”

“Oh uh… right after I finished recording my latest album. I had Millia send it to the label along with a copy of my LP. As… as soon as I saw those pictures of you two together, I called and begged Jacob not to give it to you, he said you were due to come in for renegotiation in a week, so uhm… about three months ago or so.”

Leo snarled and nodded at that. “Yeah, he didn’t give it to me alright, he showed up and handed it straight to Tracey.”

“Oh, gods… I’m so sorry Leo, I- I’ll apologize to her as well when I can. I never ever wanted to jeopardize anything in your life.”

“It’s okay, Flia… I don’t… I’m not sure what to do, but Tracey is being cool about things, she said she understood this probably wasn’t your fault. I…” She heard him fight back his own sob before he finally just cried out, “Flia, I’m so sorry! Gods I didn’t mean it, even now! Tracey is such a blessing, but I never forgave myself for doing that to you!”

“Leo… I’m sorry too. I let my fear for your career shadow my own feelings. I wanted to tell you I loved you so many times in our brief time together. I… I don’t care if it’s selfish, I still do love you!”

Leo’s eyes widened as he shuddered before nodding his head. “Gods… Flia… I still love you too, I never stopped. Gods forgive me…”

“Leo… uhm… look, I love you, but… I’m no homewrecking bitch either. I’m not going to try to nose in on what isn’t mine now. Knowing you love me is enough…”

“Yeah…I know… I don’t even know what to do, Flia… I love her so much, is it wrong to love both of you?”

“Tch… is it wrong to love more than one parent or friend? Leo, sweetie… Love isn’t something you just put in a box and only give to one person. We both share our love with thousands of people every time we go on stage. I love you, and I always will, but that doesn’t mean I’ll go after what isn’t mine anymore.”

“T-Thank you Flia… I love you too, I love you so much and always will, even if we have to just stay friends. Tracey is my everything, I can’t hurt her, not, after all, she’s been through and endured to get here.”

Her head fell back against the closed doors, her large white ears folding as she sighed aloud, leaning against the outside of the bus. She saw James trotting over and growled as she pushed off the bus, meeting him partway so they wouldn’t be heard talking.

James wasn’t stupid and put a hand on his hip. “Can you give me a reason I shouldn’t tell Leo you were listening in?”

“You want, five, doggy?” The wolf snarled as she clenched a fist, James frowning as he backed up slightly. Tracey scowled and opened her fist. “Relax James, I’ll tell him later, you’ve got my word on that. How did you know anyway?”

He shrugged as he answered, “I saw him pacing around reading the letter and clutching her CD. Only ever saw him have that look when Flia was involved. Do you not trust him, Tracey?” James cocked a brow.

“Look asshole, I was going back to get my fucking wallet, I didn’t think he’d call her that quick!” She snarled and pushed a hand over her face. “Was I supposed to just bust in while they’re talking?”

“You didn’t have to just stand there either.” James put his hands on his hips with a frown.

“Fine! I’m a fucking sneaky bitch, is that what you wanna hear, James?! Fuck me if I’m not terrified the one fucking guy I let in is now talking to a girl he’s loved for years!”

James winced and looked away. “I won’t say anything, Tracey, but I think you can trust Leo. We talked a lot about Flia. Yeah, he loves her, but there’s no doubt just how much he loves you now. I know if you told him not to talk to her, he’d do it.”

“I’d never do that to him, James.” She sighed and pushed a hand to her chest. “I’d step aside and let him walk away before I’d try to restrain his love.”

“So you guys aren’t monogamous? Are you open or something? If so I’m available, Tracey.” James gave her a set of finger guns.

Tracey could tell he was bullshitting her by his inflection and barked a laugh. “I’d probably kill you in bed, doggy.” She showed him her own playful grin and then wagged her tail. “It’s never come up… I guess it’s a conversation we should have. I certainly never expected a ring or some shit from him though.”

“Oh come on, you really think I couldn’t keep up?” James gave her a grin.

“I’m kidding with you, James. Leo really is the only boy I need though.” Tracey gave him a smile as the bus door opened, the ram stepping out.

“The only boy you need, huh? Needing a girl too?” James quipped back with a smirk as he quickly backed away.

“I’m gonna kill you, dog.” She huffed out with a glare before Leo strutted over.

“Hey, don’t kill his ass, I only just got him broke in, I don’t want to train a new keyboard guy up.” Leo gave a laugh as Tracey stuck her tongue out at him.

“By the way, I listened in on you,” She said casually.

“You what?!” Leo gasped, his cheeks growing dark.

James gave her an approving nod and then disengaged. “I’m out, you two take care.”

“I’ll explain on the bus, come on. Let’s not make a scene out here.” She sighed as she pushed past him to move to the door.

“I forgot my wallet, came back to get it but you’d already called her, came in about the time you were explaining the letter, then pulled back about the time you talked about how important I am.” She explained and awkwardly shifted her gaze aside.

“Well, fuck… you might as well have just stuck around for the whole thing after all huh?” Leo muttered bitterly as he looked down at his feet.

“I know, I suck… I was scared, Leo… You’re so much to me, so I just stood there waiting for an opening to knock, but I did listen in out of concern for us, I won’t lie about that.”

“Cool… I mean…” He sighed and shook his head, wiping his face, eyes red again. “I don’t even care, Tracey… I’m too emotionally spent to even be angry.” He flopped onto the sofa and shook his head.

“So what happens now?” She quirked a brow.

“Uh… I’d like to talk to her on the phone and text her if that’s okay?” He looked up at her with a nervous frown.

“Leo, you’re a grown ram and can talk to whomever you wish. She’s a very important person to you, I’m not going to take that from you over my own ego.” Tracey sat next to him and pushed a hand to his own, squeezing it.

“Yeah, but does it bother you?” He looked over at her with a frown.

“I won’t lie, it worries me. I’m afraid, Leo… I let you in, I let you into cracks in my armor no one ever has been in. To top it off I especially never let anyone into my heart to love me like you have.”

Leo sighed and hung his head. “I’m sorry…”

“Don’t be… She sounds like a real good girl that loves you like crazy and has been suffering for a few years now. Maybe it’s empathy, but fuck if I don’t know what stewing on what is lost can do to you, ya know?”

“You’re amazing Tracey… uh… she wants to talk to you by the way.” He coughed out awkwardly.

Her ears perked as she quirked a brow. “Why?”

“She wants to apologize and tell you herself she’s not trying to trash us or anything. I told her you knew that already but-”

“That’s okay, give her my number, I want to talk to her too. I want to see what this doe is all about.” Leo gulped at the idea of that, the two women he’d loved so dearly speaking to one another. It sounded very dangerous.

—*—

Flia frowned as she stared at the number she’d put into her contacts. This was such an awkward and even painful thing to do, calling the wolf that now had her ram. She shook her head and sighed. “Stupid… he hasn’t been yours in like two years, you did this to yourself…” She snarled and dialed the number, shoring up her resolve.

“Hey, Flia, sup?” The female voice called out casually as if it were no big deal.

“Uh… Tracey?” The doe blinked a few times at how this conversation was already going.

“Uh-huh, Leo said you wanted to talk, so how’s it going?”

“Erm… not bad… I’m just on my bus, uh… doing my nails.”

“I should touch mine up, man I hate these talons, makes it impossible to throw a decent punch or hold my gun worth a damn.” Tracey barked a laugh as the doe just blinked at that.

“A g-gun? Gods, Tracey, you carry a gun on stage?”

“Well, not anymore, but I did when I was just a straight-up bodyguard. I do carry a taser and knife in my idol getup though.”

“That sounds so scary, I’ve never even held one. Gods, I don’t think I’ve ever thrown a punch in my life. I got in a few catfights in junior high with some bitches, but that was mostly just hair pulling and clawing at one another.”

“Hey, I’ve seen your nails, Flia. You could do some serious damage with those things!” She barked out a laugh as Leo who was sitting nearby just gave her an agreeing nod, his cheeks aching from the memory.

The doe giggled a little at that, showing a grin as she ran the brush over one of them. “Yeah? I’ve been accused of that, but I know how to be gentle with them too… I actually always do my own nails.”

“Oh really? Leo sometimes does mine, but I’d just make a mess of myself trying to do it. Contrary to my idol getup, I’m very very much not into things like makeup and such.”

She heard the hesitation in her voice, frowning as Flia sounded a little less cheerful. “Leo does your nails? That’s… really sweet, I never thought to ask him when we were uhm… together. Sorry.”

“It’s… hey, it’s okay, Flia. You were focused on getting him on a good path to his dreams, and you did that, yeah? Now he’s right there with you as a top idol. So you know…” Tracey trailed off, not sure how to cheer her up, she wasn’t good at that sort of thing or girl talk in general. She’d gotten better hanging out with Trixie, but she knew she had a long way to go.

“Hey uh… I appreciate you just talking chill with me like this. I don’t talk to many other girls, I just look at them as threats. I chat with Millia some, but she’s all business most of the time. So… this is nice, that’s all I’m saying…”

Tracey smiled at that and nodded. “Yeah, it is… you can call or text me any time, Flia. Any friend of Leo’s is a friend of mine, okay?”

“Thank you, Tracey. I don’t talk to many people these days, so I’ll be happy to talk to both of you. Erm… speaking of both of you… uh… let’s get this out of the way. What kind of rules are we looking at here? I’m so sorry for disrupting things as I’ve done.”

“First off, fuck you, Flia. Stop apologizing for that, you had nothing to do with that, okay?! That was that dickhead that I’m going to punch in the face next time I see him!”

The doe gasped as she said ‘fuck you’ but then realized it wasn’t a malicious statement. “O-Oh… I appreciate that, yes I’m still not sure why Jacob did that, honestly.”

“He did it because Max, Leo, and Trixie made a fool out of him. I bet he remembered that letter after the fact and stewed on it, making sure to wait until we were about to go on tour to maximize the impact. Probably thought I’d flip out and leave, or come after you. It’d completely trash Leo’s career.”

“Gods… that’s so cruel… but still, I didn’t think I had such a poor relationship with Jacob. It hurts a little he’d do that to me…” Her voice legitimately sounded depressed about it. “He and I fussed from time to time, but he was always so sweet and nice to me, he was the one that signed me when I was fifteen, and even checked up on me constantly to make sure I was adjusting well.”

“Well… people change, Flia. They also do some really shitty things for misguided pride. I’ll be having a little chat with him one-on-one next chance I get, rest assured of that.”

The doe smiled and shook her head as she moved on to another nail. “Don’t end up in jail, Tracey… If he’s anything like he was with me, I don’t think Leo would survive only going on conjugal visits.”

“Ha! Isn’t that the truth? I don’t think you can have those unless you’re actually married anyway!” Tracey barked out as Leo just gave her a fussy look at them both teasing him.

“Uhm… so, rules?” Flia circled back around to the topic.

“Don’t hurt him.” Tracey spat out point-blank.

“O-Okay, yes I won’t, what else though?”

“That’s it.” Tracey shrugged as she spoke out, even Leo giving her a shocked look.

The deer gave a little huff, “Wait- That can’t be it… I mean… isn’t there more? There has to be more than that?”

“Like what, Flia? Leo is my boyfriend, my partner on the stage, and who I protect. He isn’t my husband, we aren’t even engaged.”

Flia was taken aback by her casual remarks and stammered out, “Sure but… but… don’t you want me to like, not talk to him too often, or watch how friendly I get?”

“Look, Flia, all of this shit caught me off guard. I don’t know what to think of you or him, but I’m not a complicated bitch either. Don’t hurt him, get to know me so I know I can trust you, that’s all I ask for now. If something comes up or I start to feel you’re doing something that will stroke my tail-fur the wrong way, I promise to say it.”

The doe gave a frustrated grunt as if she didn’t like how open-ended the rules were, “Tracey… can I hug him? Can I kiss him, or hold his hand?”

Leo almost spat the water out he was working on as his ears flipped up at that. Tracey frowned at him, then looked down. The doe heard a long silence as she sighed and shook her head. “Never mind, Tracey, this is why I was asking about rules, you know?”

“I’m… not saying no, just let me think on it, okay? I told you, I want Leo to be happy, and you’re not a bad person, I know you have his best interests at heart, otherwise, you wouldn’t have wanted to apologize to me and sort things…”

“Tracey, you don’t have to-”

“I know what I do and don’t have to do, deer!” She snarled out, the first show of anger she’d heard from her.

“Ah… I’m sorry, I wasn’t try-” Flia grunted and huffed out, “Wait, why are you getting mad at me, dog? I didn’t do anything wrong!”

Leo frowned as he spoke up finally, “Ladies, hang on-”

“Shut up!” Tracey snarled out and he heard it from the phone receiver too.

“Tracey, you don’t gotta get all snarly and growly with me, I was trying to be reasonable, okay?!” Flia grumbled on the phone as she capped her polish and shook her hand.

“I know that! But I didn’t stutter either! Leo’s happiness is my priority, deer!” She was growling the words as she sat up on the sofa.

“Cool, so you gonna calm down, doggy?” The doe hissed out, her own voice sounding equally annoyed now.

“Don’t call me, doggy!”

“Then don’t call me, deer! I’ve got a fucking name, Tracey!” She hissed out, hearing the wolf growling and snarling on the other end of the line.

“Ngh… gods damn it, you’re already pissing me-”

“But you’re okay with me getting closer to your boyfriend? If you’re mad now, how would you feel if I kissed him? What would you do if I fucked him?” She stabbed right to the point, glaring into the distance.

Tracey barked at the point-blank words, then grew silent, her snarls quieting. “I- don’t… know… okay?”

“Please don’t get mad at me, Tracey… we’re both temperamental bitches, but I want to have a good relationship with you if I’m allowed to be part of Leo’s life, do you understand? I just spat it out like that to get to the point,” Flia sighed as she spoke as politely as she could.

“I get it… sorry for losing my cool, this is all just so sudden and… I don’t know what to do, you know?” She said, sounding like she’d composed herself as well.

“I can only imagine, and again, I am sorry for coming into your life like this. I had fully intended to step aside, but a certain asshole dragged all this out. I was happy for Leonard.”

“Even though you were miserable over it?” Tracey fired back.

“That doesn’t matter. I hurt him for so long, he deserved better and I was content he had found it in you. I’m not trying to be emo here, I just… it hurt, but it was an acceptable conclusion. Do you understand?”

“Not really… I’ve never been in a situation like this, but I do respect you for feeling that way. You’re alright, Flia, I think I’m going to like your bitchy ass.” Tracey showed her teeth in a grin.

“Well, thank you. I feel the same. I want to be a positive thing in your life, Tracey, and I’m extremely grateful, but I will draw a line in the sand here. I’ve one demand I must make if we’re going to continue this.”

Tracey growled at the idea of her making demands, but gave a nod as she responded, “Let’s hear it, Flia.”

Flia sighed, “If I start to fuck you guys up, tell me… Please…”

Tracey gave a nod. “Alright, Flia. I’ll mull over all this, but you’ve heard what my stipulations are and I’ve heard yours. I agree with that demand. If I feel you’re starting to damage what I and Leo are… I’ll tell you.”

“Thank you, Tracey, and again, I’m sorry I’m now an unexpected complication, but I’m also truly, truly thankful for whatever part of his life you’ll allow me to be a part of.”

“Thanks for setting things up for me, Flia… We’ll talk more, don’t be a stranger with the text messages either, not like I’ve got much to do on this damn bus.”

“You’ve got something rather fun to do on that bus, Tracey, I’m jealous if I’m being honest. Talk to you later, doggy.” The doe cooed the last of the words playfully and the call clicked off

“Oooooh you biiiitch…” Tracey laughed down at the phone, seeing the ended call time. She’d been on the phone for a while with her.

“So… that was really fucking awkward for me…” Leo piped up.

“Yeah, but you more or less kept your mouth shut like I asked, so good on you.” Tracey slid the phone into her back pocket and kissed his cheek.

“So uh… about all that talk of hand-holding and-”

“Her fucking you?” Tracey quirked a brow.

“Gods! Tracey, I think she was just-”

“Nah, I think she meant what she said… I’m not stupid Leo. You’re a great fuck and she’s pined for you for a couple of years now.”

“Tracey… you have to understand this is awkward as hell for me!” The ram bleated out with a fussy look.

“What? Shut the fuck up, Leo!” She laughed as she stood and wagged her tail, giving a stretch. “Your stupid ass has two idols that wanna hop in your lap, and you’re all awkward?” The wolf gave him a playful grin as he watched her casually start to peel her shirt up while facing away from him.

“Y-you’re being pretty chill about this Tracey… uhm… I never said I wanted to uhm… fuck her.” He huffed out and bit his lower lip as her bared back came into view before her white and red hair drifted over it.

“Well… that’s its own mess to unpack, but she was right about having something fun to do.” The wolf turned on him, a wide grin showing, her breasts swaying as she trotted over to her ram.

He blinked up at her and showed that eager little grin as his hands went right for her jeans, unbuckling them as Tracey wagged her tail, letting her boyfriend peel them and the panties down in one swift tug. She stepped from the crumpled clothes, now fully bared with him since she had been barefoot already.

“I dunno… do you really think I’m idol-worthy, love?” Tracey tucked her arms behind her head, pushing her chest out. She’d certainly gotten better at showing off thanks to the dance classes. Then again it doesn’t help a former stripper ran the studio classes.

“Fuck yes you are! Gods I love every inch of your body, Tracey…” Leo snarled the words as he stood from the sofa. The wolf grabbed his shirt and tugged him to the bed, her tail wagging before she casually peeled the aforementioned shirt free, letting the strong well-formed muscles along his chest and abs come into full view.

A shiver rolled up her spine as she sighed and moved in for his own jeans, unbuckling them and parting them. His length shamelessly sprang forth as the boxers and denim both came down, dropping around his ankles. “Now, your body is idol worthy, love… huff… get your ass in the bed and lay down.”

Leo gave her that childish eager grin as he climbed right into the bed. Tracey moved right in after him, on her knees and hands, growling as her white tail whipped about. “We’re gonna do something we don’t do very often tonight, love, on your back fully now…”

The ram grinned and laid right down as his wolf pawed right over to him, leaning down to kiss his lips before she rose up with a cocky grin, then shifted and turned right around. Leo’s eyes widened as her round backside and those pink petals of hers came right into view, then he bleated out as she shoved her hips down, sitting right down on his face.

Tracey gave him a drunk grin over her shoulder, tongue lolling in a pant as her ram got right to work, happy to be down there. She felt his tongue going right to her pearl as she shivered and then groaned out before collapsing on her belly, her heavy breasts pushing into him as she grasped the base of his length.

“Ha… that’s my sheep… ngh… don’t jerk too much down here, I need not remind you how sharp my teeth are…” She huffed out and then moved right down, pushing the head of his length into her mouth. Leo groaned against her petals, his breath hot as she got to work, her large white ears folding as her hand gently pumped his base while she suckled on him.

It didn’t take him long to bring her to a release, having to pull her mouth off him to moan out as he made her crest, her tongue still at the tip, her own saliva dripping down over him. She gave an approving sigh as he lapped at her, moving down to take him back into her mouth, bobbing her head gently, her thick luscious tail wagging as his tongue skillfully stroked her pearl and lapped at her.

Tracey usually only used oral to get things going, but she wanted to go all the way tonight. Leo got the hint as she slapped her wet petals back down over his mouth as he tried to ask her if they should swap, her growl rolling through his length as she took him a little deeper, suckling with more intent now.

He didn’t argue, why would he with an idol sitting on his face, how many would love to have their face buried in this wolf’s crotch right now, but she was all his. Likewise, she knew how many would love to have him in their mouth like this right now. She kept bobbing her head gently, doing her best to please the ram she loved, all the while he returned the favor as he kept working her pearl.

After the fifth one he’d pulled forth, she finally pulled from him and panted out, climbing down to the floor as he sat on the edge of the bed. She tucked her right hand between her legs, stroking herself as she took him back down, sucking more purposefully, knowing it wouldn’t be much longer now. Her ears lifted as she listened to his breath catching, his moans growing more frantic.

Her azure eyes blinked up at him as he looked down at her with his emerald ones, his tongue lolled and practically having hearts in his gaze for her. She pushed him as deep as she could, a loud heavy growl filling her throat that sent the vibrations down his length.

“Oh… my… gods!” Leo gasped out and shoved his hands into her white and red hair, grasping gently at her ears as he bleated out in a loud throaty moan. Tracey flinched as the first rope shot forth and he could hear the loud deep ‘ulp’ as the wolf took it down.

“Gods… gods… oh gods…” Leo cried out in soft moans as she kept taking down each thick gush he gave her. She shuddered as she pinched her own pearl she’d been stroking, feeling her body give another release as she suckled and felt the last of his love fill her mouth.

Leo shuddered as she pulled back and opened her mouth for him, letting him see the last of the cream pooled there before she snapped her sharp teeth together and tilted her head back, taking a long purposeful gulp as he watched her take the last of it down.

“Gods… I’m so… deeead…” He collapsed onto his back, panting in relief, his tongue lolled and looking thoroughly drunk from it all. Tracey shuddered and quickly found a bottle of water to wash her mouth out.

“Damn it, Leo… we’re going to be working on getting you to eat cleaner, your jizz is getting too salty.” She snarled and took a few more swigs of water before sighing and climbing into bed, collapsing into his arms with a relieved huff.

“Huff… sorry, love… I’ll start eating more vegetables.” He chuckled and lazily rubbed at her ears. “It’s been a hot minute since you went all the way like that…”

“Hmm… that’s fair… guess I just wanted to pamper you tonight.” She gave his cheek a kiss.

“Well, wouldn’t it only be pampering if I hadn’t done anything? You did kind of sit on my face for most of that,” He hummed out playfully.

“Shut up, sheep, that had nothing to do with it.” Tracey barked out with a ‘hmph’ sound.

“Yes, honey, my apologies.” He hugged her tight and she grinned returning the embrace.

They snuggled together for a few minutes before he drifted off on her. She smiled as she laid against his chest, but frowned a little as she thought about things, thought about that doe and him. She was happy and so was he, she didn’t owe Flia shit, maybe she should just tell the deer to fuck off or keep her distance. That’d be the smart thing to do after all, right?

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“You’re stupid… you’re so fucking stupid…” Flia panted the words out, pushing the small vibrating wand against her pearl, clenching her teeth, tears in her eyes as she shuddered, feeling an orgasm tear through her.

“Gods… I’m insane… he’s taken now…W-why am I doing… this to my… Ngh!” She clenched her teeth as she kept stoking her fires, dialing the little toy up to the highest setting as her tongue lolled. She’d not let anyone touch her since him, two years of no affection. No male or female she saw even turned her gaze, but just hearing his voice, hearing him say he loved her, it made her body scream for him.

“S-She… she didn’t say… I couldn’t… right?” She panted through the orgasm, more tears flowing at both the pleasure and pain in her heart. Her curvy hips writhed, her fingers covered in her own honey, the whole bed reeking of her scent while she pushed for one more. He always got at least three out of her, usually more.

“Leo… Gods I love you… I’m… I-” She moaned out, her tongue lolling as she crested even harder on the final one. Her small body twitched, her pierced peaks hard against the silky gown she was wearing as she turned her wand off, slumping onto her side with a whimper, tears still rolling down her cheeks.

“Ha… ha… gods… I’m… I’m so pathetic… I’m s-sorry… Tracey… Leo…” She sobbed out the words into her pillow, sniffling as she buried her face into it, trying to drown out the self-imposed shame of getting off to a ram that was someone else's now. The wolf was really trying to be nice and understanding, and here she was doing such things, was she just going to tear his life apart again?

The euphoria from the heavy orgasms quickly outstripped her sorrow though and the doe was soon asleep, clutching to her pillow, having lucid dreams about her and the other two idols, as well as the future she could potentially ruin for them.

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