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~A Past Re-lived" (pt2)

By; Bicora Almasey

~Chapter 2 : Loss and Rebirth~

The night air was cool and winter was coming I lay there on the soft grass next to my mistress. As I lay my head on her lap, she gently rubs my head. I feel familiar warmth over come me, like that of when I was curled fast against my mother. I look at her with my ice blue eyes, my silvery fur glimmering in the moonlight. Raven was contemplative. She wasn't normally as quiet as she was that night; there was just something in the air that caused her to think about the things that had gone on in the none-too-distant past. She took in a deep breath and let it out, I could tell by the look on her face that something was troubling her. I let out a low soft whine wishing I could talk to her, but sadly the only ones I could communicate with were my clan and family. "Don't worry dear one I'm fine." She said in a soft voice with a faint smile. Even though I could not communicate back to her, I had begun to understand Human speech. I tried so hard to say words but all that escaped my maw was a bark or a yelp. Lifting my head up off her lap I look at her before licking her hand gently as if to say "I'm here for you".

"There are things that I never thought about when I found you." She said with a tone of worry in her voice.

She scratched behind my ears and sighed. Her hair wound down in slight ringlets where she'd been playing with it earlier, twisting it around her fingers. She had the habit when she was nervous or contemplative. "I'm glad I found you, Bicora." My mistress spoke softly. A small whine escapes my maw as I lay my head back upon her lap before letting out a soft murr, enjoying the scratching. It wasn't a whine of sadness but of contemptment . But still as a sat there with my eyes closed enjoying the sweet fragrance of the flowers that drifted in the breeze, I couldn't help but to wonder more about what she said...what were these things she never thought about.

After some time, the silence that had fallen upon us was soon broke by my mistress. "Anyway, buddy." Her voice lightened dramatically. "Are you hungry? We haven't hunted tonight, have we? The hot weather makes for some really happy herds of things roaming around...and I'm hungry. We need to get out and roam around; all of this staying in the cabin is getting to us, isn't it boy?" She smiled. My ears perk as I hear the word food. Slowly I get up and stretch out with a yawn. I begin to make my way toward the door and sit there waiting for my mistress. I enjoyed it when we would go hunting. Inside, it made me feel like my father might have felt, providing for the pack, the thrill of the hunt. I looked up to my father as a pup and ever since his tragic death I wanted to be just like him. Raven put her boots on and stood, stretching. She'd maintained that slim, small stature ever since he'd first seen her. Even though Raven was old, she didn't look it, she didn't act it, she didn't seem to feel it...but her age was getting the better of her I from what I had seen in the past few days.. She told me that she is starting to see things in her dreams, and what she saw she didn't like, but she never told me more than that. She grabbed her blade and headed out into the night with me close by, my tail wagging happily.

Not much time had passed before I had caught the scent of something in the air, it smelled of blood coming from a wounded elk. Looking up at my mistress I saw that something was troubling her. She looked down at me and smiled "Go get them boy" she said softly. I was hesitant at first; I wanted to stay by her side to make sure that she was ok. "Go on pup go get them" she said again. Letting out a soft whine I took off into the woods, following the scent to where the wounded beast was. As I got close I smelled something else in the air, something familiar. I couldn't pin point it, but I remembered smelling it a few nights ago. I put it aside in my mind and continued onward to my destination.

When I arrived to where the scent came from I had sensed there was something wrong here. I moved closer to the now lifeless corpse that was my prey. I began sniffing around it, my senses on edge. It smelled as if it had been dead for a while now. It was when I got to where it head lay that I noticed wound that was horrifyingly familiar. The wound was blacker then the night and the crimson blood slowly dripped from it into the pool that formed under its head, it had been shot. When I realized this I took off, heading back to Raven. I knew something was up, those hunters were near and a cold chill washed over me. I couldn't help but to think about what had happened to my clan that night. I could still hear the gunshots, and see the corpses of my mother and father laying there before me. My thoughts where short lived, they were soon interrupted by a scream...it was my mistress. I speed back as fast as I could to my mistress. My sense tingled and my blood raced, something was wrong.

As I came through the clearing I was greeted by a horrifying site, my mistress leaning against a tree, she was bleeding. I rushed to her side as she slumped down the base of the tree. Next to her lay an arrow, the tip was missing and the shaft was covered in blood. She spoke; her voice was weak "Bi.cora... Run... get out.... of...here". Her plea was interrupted by the sound of a voice which I had never heard before. "There you are you little runt, I knew we had missed on you". Coming out of the woods was a man, draped in a cloak of silver fur. It was no mistake that was the fur of my clan. He was one of the hunters that murdered my family.

"Well now since that bitch is taken care of you it's time to finish the job." He said with a snide tone "That fur of yours will fetch a fair piece of gold or two"

So that was why they had felt they needed to slaughter everyone I loved...money. My anger grew inside. "Run" she said weakly. The time for running had come to an end; they took my family...my clan...everything I held dear, they weren't going to get my mistress.

Despite her words I stayed, I charged at the savage hunter teeth bared. As I drew closer to him he fired an arrow at me, I quickly jumped out of the way only to end up charging at him again. I lunge at him, my teeth sunk deep into his flesh, my taste for blood being satisfied. I tried what I could to bring him down to the ground so I could get a good kill shot, but it was no use. He flung me aside, my body tumbling on the ground as I landed. I struggled to get up, my rage burning deep inside like an interal flame that refuses to be extinguished. The hunter took aim and fired once again, just barely missing me, but still was able to graze my leg. Letting out a yelp I fall to the side glaring at him. I began to bark at him, trying to struggle out words that he could understand...I wasn't sure how I did it but I was able to speak "Stay....a...awa...away....fr.o..m m..y..MISTRESS!!!!." A look of surprise came over his face but soon faded when realized that my mistress was still alive. He wanted to finish her off so no one would what had taken place. I fell to the ground. I was scared, not knowing what was going on but still inside I felt my anger growing and growing. I wanted so badly to protect the only companion I had left. It was then when something inside me began to take over and pain began to shoot through me. I fell to the ground convulsing slightly. My body felt as though it was being torn apart...my paws grew into hands and claws, I slowly stood up. What was I...I was no longer the wolf I was...I was something different.....I was more human like, aside from the bend still in my legs, the fur and my head still being as that of a wolfs, I was almost human. I didn't know what was going on nor did I linger on to long before I heard my mistresses scream. The hunter had taken the knife out of her boot and had jammed deep in her stomach. Just then something inside me snapped, I felt my anger surge and before I knew what I was doing I had lunged once more at the hunter gouging his throat with my newly formed claws. Watching him fall to the ground I hurried to my mistress's side.

I held her in my arms as I slowly lowered her to the ground her blood soaking my fur. I stayed there by her side, her breathing was slower now and with each breath I could tell she was in pain. I held her in my arms, her body resting against me. She looked up at me and I down at her. Her eyes met mine and a soft yet weak smile came across her face. "It really is you boy", the words struggled to come out. All I could do was whimper. She spoke again "My dream...was true...you are like your father". I could do nothing but hold her close and comfort her. I wanted to do something so bad to help but I didn't know what I could do. She continued, "Your father...he was diff...erent from other wolves" she choked out. My mind reeled with questions; I didn't know what to think. Was my father the same thing I had turned into...this freak of nature? With one final breath she uttered the words "I'm...sorry". With that I felt her body go limp. I laid her down upon the grass. The night grew silent and all I could feel was the chill in the air, my mind was shot, too many questions and not enough answers. I could feel the sadness welling up inside. I gently took the necklace from around her neck and fumbling like a newborn just learning to use its new found skills, I place it around my neck before picking her up again and walking to where we first met so many months ago, the pond where my family were laid to rest.

After what felt like an endless journey I came upon it. It seemed like it didn't change at all. It was like it was frozen in time, capturing that night forever. I walked out into the water, treading into where it met at my waist. With one last goodbye I lay her body on the surface and watch as it slowly sink, never again to see the light of day. I stood there bathed in the cascading moonlight that illuminated the pond. By then my body had fully gone through the changes. What was I now....why did this happen to me....what was going on, my head swirled with thoughts and emotions I didn't know how to control. I stood there silent and still as the water slowly changed to a crimson red around me. I clasped the necklace in my hand and stared up at the moon, "I was alone and there was nothing left" I thought to myself over and over again.

Leaving the water I made my way to the grass and sat underneath the shade of the tree where I found my father's corpse. Leaning back against the tree I closed my eyes. The night had taken its toll on me and all the emotions and thoughts that swirled inside had drained me. I soon feel asleep there under that sorrowful moon that gazed down upon me. I remember dreaming, it was in that dream where I had found the answer I was seeking. I remember my father coming up to me and telling me that what happened to me was natural. He told me that, before he joined the clan and met my mother he was an anthropomorphic beast who gave up his lycan form. I remember in the dream I was still a pup and was curled fast against him. His voice was just as I remembered, gentle but tough. He told me to be strong and the world lies ahead of me. Inside I wasn't sure if this was a dream or not but for once that night I was at total peace, lost in this reality that had surrounded me. "I must go now my son, please don't forget us and remember that we both love you and will be with you always.

Several hours later I awoke feeling a bitter cold around me. The snow had come while I was asleep and the once green earth was now white and frost hung in the air. Sitting there I thought about the dream, I wasn't sure if it was real or not. But what I had learned from it stayed with me and gave me the answers I wanted. I was a Lycan, an anthropomorphic beast. I slowly stood up stretching my newly obtain form. The nightmare that had unfolded that night still lingered on my mind and to this day still stays with me were ever I go. I decided to head back to the cabin where my mistress and I once stayed.

The cabin was silent and still, I remember the nights we sat by the fire on days like this, the happy times we had together. I headed to her room; the bed was made just like it was before we left last night. I walked over to a pile of clothes that she had just washed, down at the now frozen stream that lay not to far from our cabin and pulled out a cloak and a pair of greenish hunters pants. I put them on and sat there on the bed staring out the semi frosted window. I would always hold this place sacred. Hours had passed and I knew what I had to do. I couldn't just sit there and waste my life away; I had to follow what my father said "be strong". With a deep sigh I stood up and headed toward the door, on my way I had noticed her spear sitting in the corner. She never used it but for some reason she always kept it. I gently took it from the corner and clasped in both hands staring at it. Then out of nowhere, like it was a second nature I spoke. "Goodbye mistress". I remember my father telling me in the apparent dream that I was able to speak due to being a lycan and that there were more like me out there. I wanted to find them and seek out the answers that still linger in the back of my mind. Maybe they could give me the answers I so heartily seek.

I step outside the cabin, spear in hand and draped in the clothes of my mistress. So I set out on my journey, not knowing what was in store for me. The snow crunched underneath me with each step as I walked onward heading toward the slowly rising sun that now lay hidden behind the gray snow clouds that hang in the sky. This was a new beginning in my life, at a time filled with loss, I felt reborn. But no matter what I will always remember the kindness that my mistress showed to me and hold to as close as I do my memories of my family. I turned back one last time and bid farewell to the cabin where my past now lay. With a heavy heart filled with pain I continued on. The world, as my father said, now lay before.

Thank you all for reading part 2 of this saga. Will post more when i can. To keep an eye on how the next part is coming or to see my art please vist my FA page http://www.furaffinity.net/user/bicoraalmasey/

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Bicora Almasey