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'Are you comfortable...?'

Ceylan nodded quickly as I handed her another pillow. She had this weak little smile on her face as I sat on the couch. Ceylan got down on the couch and snugs herself under the blanket. She tried to put one of Meagan's nighties on, but they were too big for her. So I got out a large t-shirt from Cody's closet which fits her perfectly.

'If you need anything, just let me know, okay...?'

'Okay...'

'Alright... Goodnight...'

'Goodnight, dushi...'

I caressed her cheek and let my hand go through her silky black hair... It's strange really, how this whole evening went... It might've been a bit surreal. And I guess she felt the same, judging the way she looked at me when I was caressing her hair. The minutes were passing by, and even though I said goodnight to her, I didn't leave... I just couldn't leave. Her eyes told me a lot... She didn't want me to leave. So I stayed. She cuddles me, holding me close while her hands clenched on my back. I really felt sorry for her... I can imagine what it must feel like when you're mother turns against you. In fact, I know what it is...

'Thank you so much, Nic...'

'That's quite alright... Just close you're eyes and try to catch some sleep, okay...? Everything will be alright...'

Ceylan nodded quickly as she closed her eyes. But I still didn't left. I kept caressing her hair until she fell asleep. And once I realized she fell asleep, I went to bed myself...

I was reading a good book once I got in bed. "Jaydan's Path" was the name of the book. I've read it so many times, and I never get sick of it. It's a story of a young boy finding his place in life. But after reading for like half an hour, I felt my eyelids were getting heavy. So I closed the book and turned the light off...

But I couldn't sleep... For hours, I kept thinking. About Ceylan... About myself... The things that happened... As the hours passed by, I kept rolling around in bed. And I guess Ceylan couldn't sleep either. I heard that she kept turning around on the couch over and over again and she didn't lay still for just a couple of minutes. And at some point, I heard a soft knock on the door... The moment the door opened up slowly, I saw her standing in the doorpost, looking really insecure... Maybe even a bit hesitating... 'Nikki...?' she whispered quietly...

'What's wrong...?'

'I can't sleep...'

'Me too...'

'Can I stay with you tonight...?'

'Sure...'

She slowly walked up to my bed, and the moment she wanted to get in bed, she had this weak, nervous little smile on her face. It took a short moment, but it wasn't when I smiled back at her that she got in bed next to me. She gives me a quick firm cuddle and just looked at me with a weak smile... 'You know what my mother always did whenever I couldn't sleep...?'

'What...?'

'She always stroked my forehead and scratched me behind my ear... Then I fell asleep just like that...'

'Does it work...?'

'Worked for me...'

Ceylan gently reached her fingers out to my forehead... Gently caressed up and down over my forehead, slowly making their way over my muzzle... It was actually very relaxing to feel her fingers going over my forehead... Not long after that, her other hand joined and scratched behind my ear. Her hands are so soft... So gentle... I often looked at my own and realized that nothing good could ever come out of them. But when I scratched her behind her ear, she lets out a satisfied sigh and rested her head on my chest... Ceylan's right ear had three piercings... It suits her... 'Why'd you ever got those piercings...?'

'Hm...? Oh, well, I was young and my mother didn't want me to... So I did anyway...'

'Hehehe...'

'So I guess that makes me rebellious...'

'Do you get along well with you're mother...?'

'I do, but I have a better bond with my dad...'

'I see...'

'How about you're parents...?'

'Their dead to me...'

'Why...? What happened...?'

Obviously, I didn't want her to know what happened. What they did to me. At least, not yet... So I never gave an answer to that question that night. It stayed silent for a long time until she broke the silence once more... 'You feeling sleepy yet...?'

'No... You...?'

'Same...'

'Hehehehe...'

It reminded me of the sleepovers Meagan and I once had. We talked about all sorts of things, sometimes 'till deep in the night. Sometimes we were just laughing quietly about certain things, and sometimes we had a really serious conversation. And sometimes, we talked about love... And sex. Having those serious conversations about love and sex were times where I felt really uncomfortable. It wasn't the particular topic that made me feel uncomfortable, but the fact that I pretended to be someone else. That I was lying to Meagan... Too afraid to tell the truth... Something that went on for years... Meagan knows now and left me because of it. But when I gazed back in Ceylan beautiful cyan eyes, I realized that Ceylan is nothing like Meagan... And I was glad that she wasn't... 'My mother also used to tell me stories whenever I couldn't sleep...'

'Hm...? Stories...?'

'Yeah...'

'What kind of stories...?'

'You know... Pixie fairies and all that... I can't believe I was actually listening to that way back but... Hehe... She always said that there was a little guy on the moon...'

'Doing what...?'

'Nothing... He just walked around and looked down on earth...'

'Hehehe...'

'No, seriously... She fooled me though... Every time I saw the moon, I tried to look for a sign of him. And every time I said he wasn't there, my mother said that he was going for a walk...'

'Maybe he just didn't want to be seen...'

'Maybe...'

It stayed silent for a long, long time again while I could hear the rain hitting the windows and felt a cold breeze. I snug myself under the blankets and cuddled Ceylan, trying to warm myself up. She was gently rubbing my belly again as I cuddled her. And while I was staring at her, all sorts of questions bubbled up... I know her for more then half a year now, and I know her pretty well. I know her better than anyone else but sometimes it felt as if I hardly knew her... She never talks about the things she did in the past and well... I wanted to know... 'When did you find out you were bi-sexual...?'

'Hm...? Oh, I think I always knew...'

'Oh...?'

'Yeah...'

'But when did you know for sure...?'

'I think it was during a sleep over with friends a long time ago...'

'Oh...?'

'Hmm-mm...'

I waited and waited for her to continue, but that's all she had to say about it. Even when I looked back at her, she looked at me with a smile, but didn't talk about it. And well, I didn't really have the guts to ask her... Every now and then, I looked back at her, and noticed she kept staring at me... 'Nikki... How does someone so beautiful like you stayed unnoticed and lonely for such a long time...?'

'I don't really know... I guess people just don't like me...'

'But I like you...'

'Heh...'

'No, really... You really are the most caring and sweetest girl I've ever met... You just need to open yourself up to other people and do something about you're extreme lack of self-esteem...'

'Yeah...'

'Are you lonely...?'

'Yeah... I guess... Heh...'

'Do you feel happy...?'

'I do now...'

'Why now...?'

'I've known you for like... Half a year... But... It feels as if we know each other for years now... A-And I love you... F-For giving me a chance of happiness...'

'Do you think I can make you happy...?'

'I know you can... And I know you will if you want to... I just hope I can do the same for you...'

She had this look in her eyes that I never saw before... I couldn't place it... But the way she was looking at me is still something I can't describe. It made me feel special... And the feeling only got stronger the moment she started to caress my hair gently... When I placed my head on her shoulders, she cuddled me... It was such a wonderful feeling to feel her arms clenched around me and it made me feel all warm, cosy and safe... She kissed my cheek... And when I stared in her eyes, I felt myself drifting away... I could just drown in those eyes of her... Her beautiful cyan coloured eyes... Ceylan placed her hand on my cheek and gently pressed her lips against mine... The tingles I felt in my stomach never stopped that night... But the moment she kissed me, those feelings exploded all over my body... And we were making out with each other in the dark for a long time... But slowly, the tingles I started to feel changed into something different... I felt aroused... Then I realized she was caressing my inner thighs all this time... 'Whoa, hey... Stop, stop, stop...'

'Hm...? What's wrong, dushi...?'

'Let's not... L-Let's not rush things... O-Okay...?'

'You don't want me to...?'

'Well... I-I eh... M-Maybe w-we should wait...'

'Hmm-mm...'

'I-I just don't want you to think th-that-'

'It's ok, Nic... You don't have to explain... I can wait...'

'Heh...'

And then she kissed me again except it felt kinda different this time... I didn't know what caused it. She got on top of my stomach at some point, and rested her head on my shoulder. She just felt so warm, soft and fluffy, and I realized that this is all I've ever wanted. Nothing could go wrong that night. That night, everything was perfect. We were making out, and after a while, I felt her lips drifted off to my neck, where she gently kissed it... Another aroused feeling, except I couldn't place it... An unfamiliar one... The moment she started to kiss my neck, I knew of what was about to happen. The feelings of what she did overwhelmed me so much, that I couldn't do anything about it, even if I wanted to. But maybe I just didn't want to do anything about it...

Ceylan stopped kissing my neck at some point and hesitated on what to do while she looked me in the eyes again... 'Do you love me...?' she asked me quietly, yet with a certain hesitation in her voice... All I could do was to look back while I couldn't say anything... I was too overwhelmed with what I was seeing... And I saw Ceylan like I've never seen her before... Insecure... Timid... Uncertain... It's not like her to be so insecure... It felt as if the answer I was about to give to that question would change everything... But why should I have lied to her that night...? I couldn't... Not after seeing her so insecure like that... But to me, it felt as if whatever it was that she wanted had to go perfect... And I was so baffled by that... It made me realize that even though Ceylan and I are the total opposite of each other, we have a lot in common... And apparently, she thought the same. She took my hand and placed it in hers... And I saw our differences... The palm of her hand and the underside of her fingers were white while the back of her hand was orange and had black stripes on them... As opposed to my own brown hand... But despite those differences, we were one... And realized I had more in common with her than I ever imagined... So that night, I answered her question... And even though I never said "yes" to her that night, I think that she already knew that I loved her deeply... She got on top of my stomach, and held my hands... 'We're not so different, you and I...' she said quietly while I stared back in her beautiful eyes again... Ceylan moved her head closer, and I felt how she gently rubbed her fluffy muzzle against my cheeks, followed by gentle kisses in my neck...

Ceylan guided my hands all over her beautiful body... From her muscled arms to her firm buttocks... It felt as if she wanted me to explore her body, knowing that I never did this before... She whispered in my ear what it was that I wanted... That I could do anything to her I ever wanted to do... To make those talks we had about my sexual fantasies happen... I couldn't do it on my own to touch her in the way I wanted to. I was held back for some reason or another... And all this time, she used my hands to explore her body... Every little inch... At some point, she moved my hand between her legs... The moment I realized she gently rubbed my hand over her crotch, there was an aroused feeling rushing through my body... But despite those wonderful feelings, the thought that I was touching Terry's girlfriend ran through my mind... I didn't like the thought of it... But just because I was held back, didn't mean that she did... She sat on her knees just above me and placed my hands on her waist as she kept staring at me... 'Undress me...' she said quietly... I hesitated for a moment... But then I slowly lifted her top up... And her small breasts were revealed... Just a quick peek at her breasts sends a tingle down my stomach... But a rather nervous one... The moment she placed my hands on her breasts was a moment that made me feel a bit uncomfortable to say the least... Especially when that thought of me touching Terry's girlfriend ran through my mind again... But feeling her erect nipples in the palm of my hands... It was such a surreal thing to feel... When I stared back at Ceylan, I noticed she had this weak little smile on her face... 'You're blushing...'

'I-I eh...'

'Hm...?'

'I-I never d-did this t-to anyone b-before...'

She guided my hands down and placed them on her waist while she slowly pulled her thong down in front of my nose... Seeing her naked in front of me was just so surreal... And yet... I didn't really know what to think of it that night. All I could think of was that she was so beautiful... She had a bit of a nervous look on her face and yet... She still wanted to... The moment she kissed me again, I was completely surrendered to her, her gentle touches and those desirable feelings...

Ceylan started to touch me instead... I felt how her warm hands went under my nightie and how they started to massage my breasts... Her hands slowly drifted off to my thighs while she kept kissing my stomach... And then slowly... Very slowly made her way to my crotch... She kissed the fabric of my panties... From that moment on, I closed my eyes... And I felt how she slowly pulled my panties down... I could've sworn I heard her quietly saying "whoa" or something... I guess it was a bit surreal for her as well... I opened my eyes a bit and noticed that she looked at me for a short moment... When I closed my eyes again, I felt the tip of her tongue was gently poking my clitoris. The moment only lasted for about a second, but the feelings... The feelings didn't need to be comprehended or to question why it felt different then the time Terry did this, but the feelings just needed to be felled... That's all. My breathing became irregular and the longer she was licking and kissing my clitoris, the more I started to pant. I wasn't in control of my actions... Feeling her wet tongue covering my entire vagina was enough for my irregular breathing turning into soft moans and squeaks... I felt how my whole body was starting to shake a little, and every time she was kissing and sucking my clit, I felt a tingle down my spine...

I had no idea how long she kept doing that... I had no notion of time, whatsoever... I had the feeling as if I could cum any moment, but she just kept teasing me with so many things... She slowly fingered me for a long time... Then she moved her head between my legs again... And at some point, she combined the two of them together... And at some point, I noticed she started to touch herself as well... Hearing her gasp so quietly... Wow... Hehe... And I guess the moment came where she couldn't hold herself anymore... Ceylan spreads my legs as far as possible while she got down in the middle. Ooh... I know this position all too well. They call it the "missionary" position. I've seen too many porn movies not to know. I knew what she was about to do. And yet nothing prepared me for that... She moves up and down while she was holding my hand. And then she spreads my legs further to make more room for herself. This is called "scissoring"... Her warm pussy touched mine and the longer she was humping me, the more she was huffing. Ceylan placed her head on my shoulders and I felt her warm breathe in my neck, and every now and then, she kissed me, whispering my name in my ear. Whispering of how much she loved me... How much this moment meant to her... That I was such a good girl and that I was doing great... The nervous feeling I felt before was long gone... But despite that, I wasn't uttering anything... I was too overwhelmed by the feelings and seeing her tits going back and forth. Instead, I clenched my arms around her back, making her to get closer to me so that she could hear me huffing in her ear. I could feel her trembling the longer she humped me and at some point, tried to go faster and faster with every hump. Ceylan slowly started to moan quietly as she sat up right again. All I did was huffing and puffing and enjoying every second of it... I felt her fluids dripping down and every now and then, I felt fluids dripping down my vagina as well. My tummy muscles started to tighten and breathing became even more irregular, but at this stage, I normally would've had my eyes closed. But not this time... I looked at her face. And her bouncing tits. But when I focused my attention to her face once again, I saw she was staring directly in my eyes while moaning quietly my name... I clenched my arms around her back again, holding her as close as possible while she kept whispering my name. And at some point, it took its toll on me... I let out a soft moan and ejaculated as I felt my fingers were clenched on her back while I was panting my lungs out... Nevertheless, she kept going on for a short moment until she stopped from exhaustion... She kept on huffing and puffing in my ear and kissed me as she caresses my hair. Ceylan closed her eyes not long after that and I watched how she fell asleep... But I didn't let go of her that night. I had my arms still clenched around her, caressing the fur on her back, even when she already fell asleep. After that, it didn't take long before I too, fell asleep peacefully with a little smile on my face...

I never planned to have sex with Ceylan that night. It's not that I didn't want to, but I felt guilty towards Terry... But with every minute that I spend with Ceylan, made that feeling weaker... And then one night, that feeling disappeared... So how come it happened that night anyway...? Did she really want to have sex with me so bad...? How was she able to seduce me that made me drop my morality...? Am I just a fuck-toy to her...? Did I consider her to be a fuck toy...? I wouldn't know... The thing is... I didn't have the same feelings for her as I had for Meagan. It was different for some reason... It felt more as if she was just a very good close friend I happened to kiss a lot and have sex with. I didn't consider her to be "my" girlfriend, because technically, she's still Terry's girlfriend. And the more I thought about that, the more I realized I had a really hard time accepting that. It felt as if I was stuck in between the two of them. But... I wasn't realizing it back then. I was just too naïve back then to realize the consequences of my actions... And I would find out the hard way...

Truth be told, it felt as if I became addicted to it. Addicted to her... It seems kinda strange that someone like me is getting addicted to it in the first place. Like I said, I never considered myself to be pretty, and me being very shy and all that. So you do the math. But I was never shy to her in the first place. Just feeling a bit embarrassed afterwards... Still, she's wonderful... I often thought about the first night I slept with her. And I just couldn't get my mind on anything else. I thought about her during class... My mind drifted off to her beautiful body... Whenever I saw her in the hallways, I got dragged in the girls' bathroom and made out with her in one of the stalls... Or around the corner in the staircase... And sometimes even went further than making out... But technically, she was still Terry's girlfriend. And I realized that all too well. But nevertheless, I tried to ignore that particular subject, seeing as the guilt I felt for Terry quickly went away with every minute I spend with her. And it went great for a couple of months while Terry didn't know about the two of us...