Calicode: Chapter 5: It's a boy
#9 of Calicode
Xander now:
Xander had too much energy to just lay there, Oliver fell asleep promptly after giving Sean and Xander a hug. Sean's anatomy left Xander stuck in bed left to think about how cool bladder control could really be when you needed it.
"So how golden," Xander asked.
"Like, I don't know, I mean shit I've been all over the place today," Sean said.
"But you won't feel like you did? I can't imagine life without you."
Sean squeezed him, "I'm still kinda depressed but no, I don't know what I was thinking."
"I think you need to go soft, because I have to pee."
"That sucks, not sure what to do," Sean said as the apartments heat kicked on.
Xander noticed Paul had been there, "Shit... Sean we had sex!"
"Just figured that out did you?"
"Oh shut up, I have a boyfriend and I think Paul was here. Damnit, I should have talked to him."
"What about that whole sharing thing you were talking about?"
"That's just anecdotal till he and I talk about it, fuck, why is emotional and worked up Xander such an idiot," he asked himself.
"Maybe because he asked rhetorical questions or speaks in the third person, but I'm just guessing," Sean said.
"Ha ha... what should I do?"
"Talk to him. Be honest I think Oliver and I need to apologize. It will work out one way or another."
"So... where was this optimism on the bridge?"
"To hell if I know, it was a shitty week," Sean said softening.
"Yeah, I thought I was going to die when I saw your mom at your place," Xander said testing his mobility, nope still stuck.
"Alpha, I know I thought she would kill Oliver."
"She gave him one of her glares but I think he's immune they're both so similar and all."
"Don't say that, I don't want to think about that."
"Wow that softened you up," Xander said sliding away, "I'm hopping in the shower then calling Paul."
"I'm hungry I'll get up too," Sean said trying to move but his cuddly Tiger held tight, "or not... Oliver are you awake?"
Xander slid off the bed and out of the bedroom. He grabbed a plastic bag in the hall by the bedroom door he didn't remember being there before they had sex. Then he went into the bathroom. Paul's scent was all over it. So he was here. Xander took out his phone to text Paul but couldn't find words that didn't scared him. He sat on the toilet before spilling Sean's mess all over the floor. His happiness at his first time with Sean after thirteen years of wishing seemed tainted by not having talked to Paul about it first.
"Shower dude, get up and shower, find Paul and fix this," Xander said to himself then wiped. After turning on the hot water he got in the shower. The steaming burn ran through his all black fur that only he in his family had. He hung his head as the flow flattened the mane of fur that got others asking if he was part Chow.
"No, I'm a gay mule, and I just fell into that fucking stereotype, why didn't I text or call, anything... FUCK!" he said pounding a pad on the wall.
Sean said from the closed door, "Hey man you ok in there?"
"I don't know," Xander answered.
Sean came in and used the toilet, "I want to help if something's wrong."
"I just can believe I cheated man, I mean fuck, if it was me and Paul, and Oliver wasn't there would you have done it," Xander asked.
"No but, I probably couldn't have gotten hard, today was a shock, I think we broke Oliver he just can't seem to get enough now."
"I'll bet Paul will be so happy to know that my infidelity fixed both of you."
"Dude it might help, and don't use all the hot water Oliver's getting me a tad messy."
Xander huffed a partial laugh, "yeah yeah, whatever, I will I have to catch Paul anyway."
Sean started washing his paws when Oliver came in whispering, "Is he ok?"
"Yeah we shouldn't have helped him cheat," Sean said.
"It's not cheating if we can get Paul in a four way," Oliver said.
"Wow, I can see you pulled a one eighty," Xander said.
Sean said, "Yeah prude to a total slu-"
"You're ok Xander," Oliver asked.
"Yeah I am I guess," Xander said.
"Good, Sean time to try something new."
"Oof hey dude who said I was ready," Sean said his curtained silhouette hoisted over Oliver's shoulder, "Save me from this amorous tiger."
"Please you love it." Xander laughed as he peaked at Oliver carrying Sean away.
From the hall came Sean, "Have you never heard of a refractory period, it's generally not a suggestion."
Xander couldn't make out Oliver's response when those two reached the bedroom.
"Fuck Oliver, I'm seriously tempted to throw you under the bus for all of this," Xander switched off the tap and shook mostly dry.
While towel drying the rest of the way he composed apologies. They all seemed stupid and hollow.
The headboard hitting the wall brought him back to his senses. He ventured into the bedroom to find his clothes. Neither Sean nor Oliver noticed him and in his haste to get in and out he didn't know whose underwear he had on but knew it wasn't his.
He checked his phone again to see if Paul had messaged. Paul hadn't and the silence made Xander wonder if Paul had really been here like he assumed.
Grabbing the bag from the bathroom he rummaged through it was all party supply's Paul must have grabbed for the baby shower for his co-worker yesterday. Xander could have sworn he remember saying it was going to be a girl not a boy.
He texted Sean and Oliver, "Dudes, I'm going to Paul's, friend finder has him there." Then walked down to the bus stop.
While he waited he texted Paul, "Hey you're back in town how was shopping?"
The sun glinted through the buildings down town as his bus rumbled up.
He climbed on the bus ignoring the wet smell of everyone around him.
Paul texted, "Yeah I am."
"I miss you, what are you up too," Xander messaged while the bus moved down into the shadowy lakeside of the hill.
"Do you, huh, I'm figuring out where Jill will stay."
"What about Oliver's I thought that was the plan," Xander asked bile forming in the back of his throat.
Paul didn't reply till Xander climbed off the bus blocks later.
"Yeah, so did I," Paul texted.
"I'll help you get the place set up."
Xander walked past the maples, pines and rhododendrons scattered along the neighborhood street from the bus stop, everything soggy in the drizzly fall air.
"I don't need your help," Paul texted.
Xander stood on the street in front of Paul's two story blue craftsmen house, Fuck! What do I do?
Xander slowly walked up the path when a large water drop hit his right ear from the magnolia tree in the yard. He shivered then sat on the covered porch steps, "You were at the apartment?"
The wet city noises washing in the silence of his mind. A by passer waved and he waved back.
"What the fuck do you think?! You bastard."
Don't fucking mention my dad's, Xander stopped himself from replying, Shit knock on his door this is stupid.
Xander texted, "Can I come inside?"
Less than a minute later the door behind him slammed against the wall when Paul opened it, "Why the fuck are you here?"
"Because I have your party decorations," Xander said holding up the plastic bag, "And I realize I fucked up... and I'm sorry."
"Get inside, I'm not doing this on the street."
"Doing what, are we breaking up," Xander asked following Paul inside.
"Why shouldn't we it's only been a few days, it's not like we have anything considering you felt it was ok to sleep with my best friend and yours."
Paul slammed the door and they marched up the stairs to the kitchen.
"I did and I didn't, I wanted you to be there with us, I like Oliver but I love you and Sean," Xander said leaning against the counter blocking the cutlery from Paul's view.
"Oh yeah, hey boo rush over for a random orgy... sounds great be right there, I got to get a lay in before Jill shows up to use that room."
"Shit, Jill's room, I didn't think of that either."
"Obviously," Paul said then started the water and scrubbing some dishes.
"So do you want to break up," Xander asked cringing at his whine.
"Xander right now I just want to be alone."
Xander moved to the top of the stairs, "Ok... is it ok to text you later?"
Paul spoke barely above the water, "Tell me why you didn't think of me more, is this something I should expect from you?"
"No I've never cheated before, I was exhausted, emotionally spent and Sean responded to me for the first time since I was a teenager," Xander said then waited for Paul to say something.
"So you like subbing," Paul asked.
"Well, I don't know, yes I guess I enjoy that. It was my first time as omega ever, I was saving it for Sean but then when he shut down after... you know like Oliver and then there was the camp. He never got better. I eventually started to play around everyone wanted me to be alpha because I'm big down there."
"So you'd sub for me?"
"You want me too? I thought you were all power kitten."
"Prime damnit Xander, I'm five foot one, no one wants to bottom for me," Paul said tossing the spatula he was washing in the sink.
"I didn't know, I'm sorry," Xander said shifting from paw to paw.
"I like you but you don't think of me when it comes to sex or my feelings in general."
"I do, I mean, I brought you your bag."
"Oh thanks, that means so much that you brought a bag I dropped when I saw you cheating."
"I... how can I fix this," Xander asked setting the bag on the counter.
"Find a place for Jill to stay I'm not having her sleep in a lube and cum stained fucking bed," Paul said loudly.
"Ok, I'll fix everything," Xander said stepping forward to hug Paul.
"Don't touch me," Paul said.
"I'm sorry." Xander said then went to the front door.