When your life falls apart
It was an average spring morning. The sun just came up over the horizon and it started to heat up the air. Birds started to sing on the trees while squirrels chased each other from branch to branch. Everything was so peaceful. That's how they liked it, running early in the morning watching such lovely scenery. The lioness looked at her mate, a tall stag. She smiled thinking about the kinky games they did last night. She thought about what they will do tonight, they will surely try out some new toys. She remembered the first time they've met over six years ago at a bondage club. She was dressed as a dominatrix, while the stag was almost naked, wearing just a loincloth and a collar on his neck indicating his intentions very clearly to the potential mistresses. She took him right away as hers. Since then they got mated and now they have two small cubs. She felt really happy thinking about the fact that her love wanted more cubs. She supported the idea with all her heart. She is still young, just 28 years old and her mate is only three years older. This is the right time to expand their family. The stag noticed her mate's eyes on him and he smiled back. He considered himself lucky. He had a beautiful mate, they shared each other's interests and kinks, they have two lovely cubs, a nice house and everything they could ask for. His life is truly a dream that came true. He was thinking about their future cubs. What will be their names, will they be males or females? Both of them were thinking about a bright future when the lioness suddenly tripped and fell. The stag stopped and knelt down to help up her mate, but she could barely move. She couldn't talk, only muffled sounds came out of her mouth. He started to panic when he saw that she couldn't move her left arm and leg either. He looked around but there was no one else this early in the park. He took out his phone and started dialing. - Its okay sweety, I am here, help is on the way, just hold on please! He tried to calm down the lioness, but he himself was nearing panic. He was really grateful when he heard someone at the other end of the phone. - EMS, what is your emergency? - My mate, she fell and she can't move. Please send someone fast! - Calm down Sir, what is your location? The phone call took much longer than he thought it would, but after the call ended the ambulance arrived a little over 5 minutes and in another 10 they were in the local ER. So far these were the hardest moments of his life. He just stood outside her room looking at the doctors and nurses running around his mate's bed trying to figure out what is going on. The first word he understood was stroke. He knew what a stroke is, but his mate couldn't possible have one! She is not even 30! Not possible. A few minutes later one of the doctors came out. - Sir, I am sorry but your mate has suffered a hemorrhagic stroke. She must have a surgery immediately. - Doctor will she survive? - She is young and healthy, she has good chances, but the brain is a tricky business. I am sorry but I can't promise you anything. Our surgeons will do everything they can. - Please doctor... I can't lose her. - We will try our best. In the meantime, if she has someone who should be here, please call them... just in case. The doctor walked away and they let him to his mate for a minute. He kissed her with tears in his eyes. - I love you! They will help you get better in no time! Just hold on my love! He saw her eyes, he knew that she was still in there. He held her hand for a minute then they took her away from her. He stood there for minutes. He had no idea how to handle the situation. He felt so helpless. What will he do know? He came back to reality when he felt his phone buzzing in his pocket. It was the babysitter, he's totally forgotten that the babysitter is still back home, with the cubs, waiting for them to return from their morning run. He was lucky, because the babysitter was very nice and understanding, she will stay with the cubs as long as needed. Then he called his parents and told them what happened. He asked them to go to his house and relieve the babysitter. His father tried to say some supporting words but he knew that his son won't feel any better until his mate is out of the woods. The stag thanked them for their support then he said goodbye. Now comes the hardest thing, he must call her parents. He thought for minutes what to say? How to do it? How could he tell them that their daughter is fighting for her life? When he finally had the courage he pushed the call button. He wished that they don't pick up. They are still asleep or not next to the phone or... - Hello Daniel, how's it going there? - I... I am... I want to... say - What's going on Daniel, are you okay? - No... yes I... no I am not... it's about...Kate - Come on son, pull yourself together! What's with Kate? - She... had a stroke... we are in the hospital... - Stroke? I... We are on our way, hold on son, just hold on! He went upstairs to the surgical waiting room. It was still early in the morning, so it was empty aside from a couple of nurses at the reception desk. He sat down into a chair and just stared with his eyes into empty space. He tried to pull himself together but he kept crying from time to time. His mother called and told him that the cubs are okay. - Mom... I am so scared... I don't know what to do... - I know son, I've called you sister, she will come here to take care of your cubs then we will go to the hospital! We are always there for you! - Thank you mom. I love you! - I love you son, just stay strong! After the call ended he went online and started reading articles about strokes, maybe he could figure out something, but the more he read the more confused he became. He is an engineer and not a damn doctor. Why can't these people speak plain English? He gave up and went to the reception to ask about his mate. The nurses were polite, but the only thing they could say is that she is still in surgery. - Daniel? He turned around and saw the parents of her mate. Her mom was a true angel, one of the most helpful person he ever met, her father was a really friendly man, who usually joked about everything. Now they were clearly broken. The mother was silently weeping while her husband was so silent it felt really unnatural from him. - Daniel... where is our daughter? - Still in surgery... they don't say anything. The big male lion puffed his chest and went to the reception desk to make some inquires. He clearly didn't have patience for pleasantries today. But the female went to the stag and hugged him. It felt good for both of them. After the lion failed to get some information out of the nurses they just sat down and waited silently. It felt like eternity and the complete silence made it even worse. It took more than two hours until a scrubbed in doctor came out. He went to the reception desk where one of the nurses pointed at the stag. Daniel stood up and waited for the doctor to come over. He felt shivers going through his body as the doctor opened her mouth. - Sir, I want to talk to you about your mate...
It has been over a month since the funeral. After losing his mate Daniel fell into deep grieving and depression. His parents and his mate's parents were there for him every single day to take care of him and his cubs. All of the parents knew that they have both lost their cubs on that day. The stag died deep inside with his love. All that's left is only an empty body. The stag just sat in his room all day. He had no motivation, no emotions and no reason to live. The only reason he didn't end his own misery yet was the fact that his cubs were one door down in the corridor. He couldn't look at them but he couldn't just leave them either. Or could he? As the days became weeks he realized that there is no hope of finding any cure for his pain and his cubs have grandparents and other relatives who love them dearly. He stood up from the corner and went to his desk to write a letter. After he finished, he went to the bathroom and opened the tap in the bathtub. He sat down on the toilet and started to cry. After a few minutes he stood up and took a deep breath. He felt ready. Suddenly he heard shouting from his room then he heard his father in law banging on the bathroom door. When he didn't give any answers the lion broke through the door which came down in pieces. When the lion saw the stag standing in the middle of the bathroom he stepped close to him and punched him in the face. Daniel fell to the floor. He tasted blood in his mouth which he spit out. The lion grabbed him at his antlers and dragged him back to his room. The stag screamed at him to stop but the lion didn't bother to give a reply. In the room Daniel saw his own father standing at his desk reading his suicide note. - D-dad... His dad went to his son, knelt down then slapped him on his face. - I did not raise you to be like this. We all miss Kate with all our hearts! But what about your cubs? YOUR CUBS! If you just end yourself what will happen to them? Without a mother, without a father? How dare you thinking about leaving them like that? Haven't they lost enough already? - pain... the pain... it's too much... - Then act like a man and deal with it! We are all here to help! You can't just give it up like that! The stag kept crying on the floor while his father looked at him. Daniel didn't dare to look up to his father's eyes. The lion stepped next to do older stag and said something to him silently. His father waited for a few seconds then left the room after saying just a few words. - Do what you must. The lion knelt down next to the broken stag. Suddenly crying came from the cub's room. Daniel looked up but the lion suddenly grabbed his throat and pushed him down to the floor. The stag was shocked from the sudden attack and he tried to fight back, while he kept hearing his cub's cries. - If you really want to die let me give you a hand! The lion tightened his grip around the stag's throat. Daniel felt true terror while trying to gasp for some air. He heard again his cub's cries. He had to do something. He managed to move his legs under the lion and with a sudden rush of adrenaline he managed to throw him off balance then with a punch the lion fell on the floor. He coughed as he tried to catch some air. He stood up and rushed to the cubs' room where his father stood with the younger cub in his hand, trying to calm her down. The stag grabbed his child out of his father's hands and hugged her. He kept sobbing while trying to comfort his child. His father stepped next to him. - Now imagine if I'd have been a stranger and you lying dead somewhere. What would happen to your cubs? Those words hit Daniel in his heart. He knew that his father was right. He can't abandon his cubs. Not now and not ever. He looked to the other bed where his son was still sleeping peacefully. He heard his father leaving the room and saying to his father in law a thank you. The lion came behind him and whispered into his ears. - Son, I hope that you have learned your lesson. My daughter loved you. Don't you dare disappointing her. If you ever do something stupid like that I will finish what I've started. The lion left the room leaving Daniel alone with his thoughts. His little princess stopped crying and went back to sleep. Daniel put her back into the crib, kissed her on her head then stepped to his son's bed kissing him too. He took a picture down from the wall, on it was her mate, the cubs and him. He sat down into the rocking chair in the corner. He kept looking at the picture while his tears fell onto the photo. - I will never disappoint you again. I promise. I just miss you so much.