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November 12

I didn't feel any better the next day. I could imagine what was going on in the news about me. Even when Chris and Shawn came back, they assured me it was okay and no one was hurt. But I still knew I had left a bad impression.

Mary had come back yesterday and told us the scientists actually calculated her height while checking over her for why she stopped. Apparently she was a total 76 feet with a few inches. She had to look pretty far up to us though, since she barely came up to most of our waists. Which doubling it meant I was sitting around 152 feet. I didn't feel any better.

Jeff was pretty surprised though. I wasn't surprised, he liked showing off to her lately at his increased size, and joked with her a lot. I had a feeling they had a thing going on since they would occasionally go off on their own, but it wasn't any of my business. Jeff was annoying, but I didn't see him as a bad guy. I figured is Mary liked him, then so be it, even though it looked like Jeff was hitting on the other girls in the group too.

Shawn pulled me aside after my conversation with her to have a talk. I felt like a child about to be scorned.

"So bud, what's been going through that noggin in your head?" He gave it a few taps. I paid it no mind.

"I'm sorry. Its just been this whole growing ordeal. I guess I was trying to hide and hold back my frustrations for so long. They just slipped out." I explained.

"Don't worry bud. Happens to the best of us. Just under a lot of stress is all! Have you figured may...ya know, to relieve some of it?" He made a jerking motion with his hand.

"Wait, seriously? At this size?" I gawked, looking at him.

"No no! I never said I did it! But I felt when I was normal it was the best way to relax for me at times. Just find some place not being used away from here and..."

"Okay, stop. I'm not masturbating to try and get this stress out okay? Just, lets drop it for now." I brushed him aside, wanting to get as far away as I could, my ears flushing red.

"Okay bud! Just try to relax!" He called to me. I rolled my eyes and waved back without looking.

I was too busy rubbing my temples to see where I was going, and slammed into what felt like a brick wall. Bouncing back, I looked up to realize it was Ronald.

"Something wrong Bryant?" He rumbled.

"Sorry Ron, I didn't mean to, I wasn't paying attention." I mumbled.

"That's a problem bun. We need to pay attention." He glared. I felt my anger starting to flare up again.

"Oh great, now you're gonna get on my case too?" I glared back, and even dared to brush up against him as I tried to walk by.

Big mistake.

I felt that heavy paw on my should again as it squeeze and pulled me back, slamming me on my butt as I felt the earth shift under me. From the ground looking up, the bear was an intimidating sight. I could barely see over his gut as he glared down, those massive arms twitching as he growled down.

"Stop acting like a child and spill it."

"I'm sorry. I'm just in a bad place since we first got here. I realized I'm losing everything, my old life, my girlfriend, and even who I am. I don't feel like I'm Bryant Loyft anymore, but just some nameless, destructive, macro." I gripped my head and squeezed, just trying to feel anything else but this anger and frustration.

"Macro?" He squatted down, "What's a macro?"

"Its what they are calling us now. Normal folks at least. It likes they don't see us as fellow furs anymore."

"Did they say that or did you interpret it?" He cocked his head.

"Well...I figured as much..." I mumbled, looking away. The bear shook his head and sat beside me with a massive thud, shaking some nearby trees.

"I think I get why you wanted to live alone. It doesn't hurt because you never lost someone, is it?"

"No, its not." He sighed, looking out towards the city and its nearby river. "I live alone because I did love someone before. But it turned out they had lied to me this whole time, pretending to be someone they weren't."

"Wait, you did have a girlfriend?" I blinked, looking up.

"No, a boyfriend." He corrected.

"Oh sorry, I didn't mean.." I sighed, another screw up for me.

"It's fine." He brushed it aside.

"So, how did you find out?"

"Friends told me to check out his journal online. Saw everything. Not sure why the idiot thought he could post that on the internet without me eventually finding out. I guess he was just seeing how far he could go getting away with it. Seems I was being a big joke to him. And when I realized how big I had grown those first few days, I really wanted to go and make him a red smear. But I held back."

The talk wasn't making me feel much better about myself, but it did make me realize I was being pretty selfish. I was thinking I was the only one suffering through this, but I wasn't. Everyone else was dealing with their own issues and temptations after growing so big and trying to resist those urges.

"Well, at least he didn't grow too, right? So he can be jealous of your look and size." I wondered to myself how quickly I switched, trying to make him feel better.

"He did. You met him at the old city. He was the elk you talked to."

My mind raced back, how that seemed so long ago to that point. But I remembered talking to him, then him helping me in that fight.

"Oh him. Yeah, I remember now."

"I bet he even tried to hit on you, didn't he?" He growled slightly. I nodded, remembering how he was looking me over.

"So, you broke up, and that was it?" I asked, now slightly more interested.

"Basically. Broke up, and I decided to just stay a shut away for the rest of my life. Only to now be regretting that."

"Why?"

"I saw the others getting visitors those first few days, seeing people care for them. Anyone who might care for me is either dead or too far away to come. I was pretty jealous seeing you talking to your girlfriend. But I'm sorry she broke up with you."

I blinked a few times.

"We didn't break up."

He stared at me in disbelief.

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to give that impression! I just haven't been able to spend the time I use to be able to with her is all. So it does fell like we have." I quickly explained.

"I want to throttle you so badly now for making me spill my guts." He growled.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I started to scoot back.

"It's fine. I'm kidding. Do I really intimidate you that much?"

"Well, you are huge and build like a tank so..."

"Yeah, thanks for making ME feel better." He smirked.

"But, thanks Ronald. You made me realize a few things and I think I can do this again." I sighed, finally giving a real smile.

"Good." He nodded, starting to stand.

"And I hope after all this is over, you consider us your friends and hang out sometime." I stood as well, letting out a sigh of relief like a weight had been lifted.

Ronald cracked a smile, and I could see his eyes watering a bit.

"I'd like that."