Tina's Story Chapter 62 Shades of Gray
Tina's Story Chapter 62- Shades of Gray
"I remember when the answers seemed so clear
We had never lived with doubt, or tasted fear.
It was easy then to tell truth from lies
Selling out from compromise
Who to love, and who to hate, the foolish from the wise,
But today there is no day or night
Today there is no dark or light
Today there is no black or white
Only shades of gray."
"Shades of Gray"
The Monkees
The DMV was abuzz with talk. There were big changes about to take place, and everyone in the department was dying to know what they were. More specifically, they were wondering how the changes would affect each one of them. Still, life went on. K.C. was trying to get a little phone time with her doctor before they went to work, Nina was already hard at work, and Felicia sharpened her claws. Just as Tina was about to settle in at her desk, the public address system crackled to life.....
"Would all department managers report to the conference room on the main level..."
Tina figured that this probably had something to do with the massive reorganization of the DMV set to roll out Monday. She grabbed her bag, and her briefcase, and headed downstairs. This conference marked another important milestone- it was the first meeting of department managers where both she and Ray would attend. Entering the room, she saw Ray. They smiled and nodded, then went back to talking to their friends. It seems that both had decided that this was neither the time nor the place for a show of their connectedness.
The meeting itself was an anti climax. It was, as expected, one person after another, talking about the benefits of the new organization. There was coffee and donuts, even a buffet lunch. Even as boring as it was, the day went by painlessly. When the program concluded, Tina was surprised when she was approached by the DMV commissioner.
"Mrs Goldstein? Can I speak with you in my office?
Tina nodded 'yes', and followed the commissioner, not knowing what to expect. Once at the office, the commissioner offered Tina a chair, and they sat down to talk.
"Mrs Goldstein...."
"Tina' she offered.
"Tina, there are going to be some specific changes in your department. Specifically, what is now the hearings unit, and the suspension unit are to be combined into one department, called 'License Control'
Tina listened politely.
"The present two department head positions are to be eliminated. You have been selected to run the new, combined department. "
The impact of that statement came to Tina immediately.
"What about Colleen, and Elsa Rodriguez?
" Their positions have been eliminated. They will, of course be able to bid into other positions that their seniority will allow."
Tina slumped in her chair. Proud and ambitious, she nonetheless didn't want to get it at the expense of her friends. Elsa Rodrigues was someone she knew and liked from the department; Colleen had been like a mentor, mother and older sister to Tina.
'I don't suppose that any of this is up for discussion." Tina asked, hopefully.
The Commissioner shook his head 'no'.
"I'd like to get Rosa back in my department."
"I think we can find a way to do that."
"Do I get to name my assistant?"
"Uh, yes, you do."
"Then I'd like K.C. in that position."
Tina had a few reasons for her decision. She felt bad that KC had been passed over for earlier promotions. KC was capable and qualified. But Tina knew that the reorganization had huge potential for infighting and bad feelings. Tina wanted someone she felt was as loyal as she was, and that would be KC.
Soon it was time to go home. Ray met Tina in the lobby. Georgette was watching the babies at the house today, because Stan was painting the Russel house..
"Quite a day" Ray observed
"You don't know the half of it." Tina replied.
"What? That you're the new director of license control?"
"RAYMOND!" Tina punched his shoulder "You've been hacking the email again!"
"Not hacking." Ray responded, looking hurt. "Monitoring. You know that we're all monitored, all the time?"
Tina knew that they were monitored. Still, she wanted to tell Ray herself.
Ray decided to change the topic.
"Dad called; he asked if he could meet us for dinner at the City Club."
The City Club. The fanciest and most exclusive club in the city. Ray and Tina looked at 'The Club' with mixed feelings. Tina knew that for years, hybrids not only couldn't be members, they couldn't set foot inside. They weren't even hired to cook or clean. It wasn't personal to hybrids, though. No Blacks, no Hispanics, .....and no Jews. Dr. Goldstein was in fact the first Jewish member. Working his way up to the prestigious position of head of the membership committee, his dad had done much to open membership to others, and to remove guest restrictions. Still, old prejudice dies hard, and many old members looked at the 'newcomers' with hostility. Over the years, 'The Club' had been the location of every important Goldstein family function.
"When does he want us there?" she inquired
"I suggested right after work. I called Georgette, and she was OK staying on. She said your dad was still painting away."
"I wish he's take it easy. He's not twenty anymore."
Ray smiled. He knew his father in law. He knew that Stan didn't know half way. He was a person with two modes; 'on' and 'off'
In minutes, Tina pulled Binky the Miata up to the Club. The valet took the keys, and they went inside. Once they arrived, they found Ray's dad inside waiting. He greeted his son with a hug, and Tina with a hug and a kiss.
"How are the grandchildren?" he asked, breaking the ice.
"Growing every day. Little Stan is up on two legs most of the time, and the girls are catching up with their brother. " Ray loved bragging on his family.
"Drinks" the waiter had arrived to take their order. The doctor had scotch; Ray, a Martini, Tina, white wine.
"Dad," Ray inquired carefully "You specifically wanted to meet with us...both....today. What's up?"
Ray's dad sat back in his chair.
"Ever since the first night we all met, I've been troubled. Regardless of our issues, we're a family. Family has been the foundation of Jewish life since the beginning of time. Tina, I sensed from the beginning that your dad felt as I do. We hit it off from the start. Your mom was a bit of a harder sell. But when she came around, I was so happy for you. Which leaves us with..."
"Mother." Ray finished his father's sentence. "No movement there."
"I'm not so sure. She no longer rants about things every day."
"Alternate days?"
"Well, we can talk about it now.
"And?"
"Well, we were talking the other day, and she was complaining that there was no bris for Little Stan"
"She knows we're reform. Most of us don't do that anymore. "
"Ray, for some reason, she's latched onto this. So, I asked, if there was a bris, would she be there. "
"And?"
"She agreed."
Ray threw his napkin down.
"If she thinks I'm going to have our son circumcised for her amusement. "
Tina put a hand on her husband's arm.
"Ray, I think that's something we should discuss as a family. Doctor, do you think it would make a difference?"
Abe got a serious look.
"Honestly? I don't know. But, I think it's worth a try. "
"If, we decide to do this, how do we handle it? I mean, our congregation hasn't done one in years. Then there's the matter of anatomy. Stan's, uh, his...."
"It's not like he has a foreskin" said the doctor, smiling. Let me do some research, while you and Tina are deciding. Now, let's talk of other things...."
Which they did. They spoke of Tina's big promotion, and a hundred other things. They had a wonderful meal. Tina was sad to see it end, for she genuinely liked Ray's Dad.
That Saturday, Tina picked up the phone, and placed a call.
"Colleen? Tina. Mind if I stop over?
"Tina, dear! Not at all. I'm nothing to look at, but please do."
About an hour later, Tina was at Colleen's door. The door was ajar, but she knocked anyway.
"Come in, it's open!" she could hear Colleeen yell.
"Forgive me if I don't get up. "
Tina found Colleen sitting in a big leather chair. She wore Hostess pants, but was otherwise naked. There were the two pups, hers and Lydia's, each sucking contentedly at her breasts.
"How domestic!" Tina observed.
"Believe me, this isn't every day. Lydia had cabin fever, so I sent her shopping.
"Sean?'
"God knows where that crazy Irishman is. No doubt trolling for trouble.
Tina sat down.
"Colleen? There's changes coming at the department....."
"I know, Hon. I'm in the loop. Elsa and I are getting the axe. "
"Colleen, I never...."
Colleen looked at her friend with sympathy.
"Sugar, it's the way the game is played. I know you didn't do this. I've had the target on m y head since I put in for family leave."
"Will you....put in for another position?" she asked hopefully
"Haven't decided yet. I'm still on leave for a while, so there's time. "
"Colleen, I want you back! I've missed you so! You were like the mother I never had...."
Tina was crying now.
"Come over, give Mom a hug!'
Tina came over and hugged the nursing mother.
"I want you to go out there and make me so proud of you....."
Monday was the day off at the DMV. Since the DMV opened a half day Saturday, and was open Thursday night, there was a trade off. Monday was a day off. This Monday, however was different. This was "Meet the NEW New Jersey DMV!" day, where the administration rolled out it's reorganization plan. Since there weren't many changes at IT, Ray and his people ditched the meetings, and just hung out playing 'World of Warfare' Tina, on the other hand, had her hands full. After the general meetings, Tina needed to meet with her departments. 'Departments', be cause she had two departments, which would soon be one. She realized that people were nervous, scared for their jobs. They feared the future. And there would be work, finding a way to make this new combined department work. Then there were loyalties. Both Colleen and Elsa Rodriguez had many friends. There were certain to be resentments, from the way that they had been treated. Still others wanted Tina's job. Tina, however, was focused and confident. Gathering her people together, she addressed the group.
"When I learned of the changes coming to our department, no one was more apprehensive than I was. Now that the changes have been made it will be our job to make the new system work......."
Tina spoke for about twenty minutes. She then took questions. She answered every question, sitting there for about two hours. In fact, she took questions right up to five o'clock. It felt like Tina had gained the confidence of her people; she had the chance to prove herself. Much to her surprise, her girls from the suspensions unit had put together a surprise party at a local restaurant, to celebrate Tina's promotion, for her people were very loyal to her. Tina went to call Ray.
"Hey, Hon, watch doin?"
"Oh, hey. Just got home. Georgette and I are getting the babies ready for dinner."
"Can you handle thing for the next few hours? The girls want to take me to dinner for the new promotion."
"Sounds fun. Have a good time. Say hi to Mama!"
Tina could here the babies cooing and gurgling in the background as she hung up. Grabbing her purse to leave, she saw that Nina was still at her desk, working.
"Coming to the party?" she inquired
Nina did not look up.
"No, ma'am. I'm sorry. I'd like to, but....I've got to save my money."
Tina knelt beside her desk.
"Saving is good. That's excellent. But you've got to have some fun, too. "
Tina put her arm around the little Husky.
"I'm the guest of honor tonight, so I guess I get to have a guest. I'd like you to come, and be my guest. Don't worry. Have some fun tonight."
Nina looked up. She nodded her head. It was the first time Tina had seen her smile.
"Grab your coat. Let's get out of here."
The party was at a local bar and steakhouse, 'O'Malley & Rosenbaum's, a name resulting from the bars mixed ethnic origins. The restaurant was closed Monday's, but had opened for the DMV party. The bar, as always, remained open. It was a lovely evening. Tina got a chance to meet on a more personal level some of her new employees; she also had a chance to sell herself as the new boss. Tina was standing there exchanging pleasantries, when she overheard two girls talking behind her.
"Can you BELIEVE her? Not two minutes ago, she meets this guy, and she's off in the men's room, fucking his brains out!"
"I can't believe she is SUCH a skank!"the other girl sniped.
"Still, he was kinda hot."
"Yeah," the other admitted "Give me a whole date, and I mighta done him too."
Tina looks around to see Sean leaving the men's bathroom, Felicia right behind him, licking his neck. His zipper is open, and he has a drink in one hand.
Tina didn't know what to do. Since it was getting late, she quickly made the rounds, saying good night, and thanking everyone for the lovely party. She said goodnight to KC last, and slipped her the money for Nina's meal and drinks. She then found Nina.
"Ready to head home?" she asked
"Uh, I can take the bus, ma'am. "
"Don't be silly. It's late, and you've had a drink. Come on."
Reluctantly, the Little Husky complied. They got into the Miata.
"Tell me where to go.."
"106 Commerce drive"
"In the warehouse district?"
"Uh huh."
Commerce drive was in the heart of the city's industrial district. Busy by day, it was dark and forbidding ny night. Tina found 106, a little brown frame house almost hidden by two large commercial buildings.
"This is it. "
She went to bolt from the car. She stopped and turned instead.
"Thanks, ma'am."
Nina smiles
"Tina"
Then she disappeared. Tina drove off when the living room light went on.
Driving through the darkened streets, Tina's mind raced at the thought of what had just happened. She couldn't remove the thought of Sean and Felicia having sex from her mind. The thought haunted her, but to her disgust, she found it oddly arousing. The more she thought about it, the more she felt a familiar moistness in her crotch. She began to wiggle her thighs, both because she was turned on, and because she needed to pee. The more she wiggled, the worse things got. She was worried about making it home, but she was also crazy with sexual excitement. Ignoring the pressure, she slid her blue sleeveless dress up. Sliding her hand under the waistband of her pink string thong, she slid her middle finger into the wet of her pussy. Sensing relief, she started to rub herself vigorously, aware she was in public. Tina was modest, but her need was just too great. She was within two blocks of home, sitting at a stopsign, when she orgasmed, letting out a little scream when she did. Pulling out her hand, she realized that she had completely soaked her panties. But she knew that she had better get home soon, or there would be a bigger mess to clean up.
Tina arrived home to find Ray reading in bed. She walked in the bedroom, stripped off her blue sleeveless dress and threw it on the bedroom chair. She went to the bathroom, squatted to urinate, then came directly to bed.
"Hold me, Ray."
Ray looked over. Tina was on her side, her head on his chest.
"Gonna tell me what's wrong, or wait for tomorrow.?"
She didn't answer right away. Tina burrowed her head further into Ray's chest
"Felicia fucked a guy in the bathroom at my surprise party."
"Gross. But not out of character"
"It was Sean"
"Oh."
Ray pulled his wife close. They stayed like that, Tina clinging to him, for a long time. Finally, she spoke.
"How could they do this!" Tina was angry "This will KILL Colleen! She doesn't need this. And what do I do with Felicia? I mean, how do I look her in the eye?" Do I tell Colleen? Do I let Felicia know that I know?
"That all?" Ray inquired, discretely
"Not entirely. There's the guilt."
The guilt? Why?"
"After I got over the shock, the disgust, I started thinking about them. Imaging what they were doing. How nasty. Felicia pushing him up against a bathroom wall. Pulling his penis out, maybe taking it in her mouth, all the while that nasty little cat pussy of hers getting hotter and hotter. Then I imagined Sean picking her up, and pressing her to the wall. Not willing to wait, he tears a hole in her stockings, and plunges his big Setter cock into her then and there. People are trying to use the bathroom, but they don't care; he's just fucking her for all she's worth, right there with people at the door....."
"That's an awesome picture you painted. Maybe you should write..."
"There's more...Driving home thinking about it, I masturbated in the car while I was driving."
"You did?"
"uh huh. I started rubbing my thighs together. Finally, I put my hand in my panties, and just masturbated. Right there. One finger in my cunt, one on my clit. There's a little wet spot on Binky's seat.
Ray was speechless.
"Fuck me, Ray"
Ray slid Tina on top. While he grabbed her furry little ass, Tina slid down on his very hard penis. She was not looking for romance. Fully seated on his cock, Tina rode it hard, playing with her clit with four fingers. Sensing her need, Ray slid a wet finger in her tail hole, causing her to clench, then collapse. She then lay on his chest, biting his neck, rubbing aggressively on Ray's chest. Tina mounted Ray three more times, before she finally collapsed in tears.
"Ray, I'm so confused!"
Ray stroked her head.
"I know baby. I know."