A Pleasant Coming Out
A pleasant coming-out
This is the first time that I decide to write a story, or anything for that matter, so let's see how it goes and hope some people find it fun or enjoyable. I haven't decided on a style yet, so I' might just be experimenting a bit. Feel free to point out improvements or tips from your experience as writers.
High school. For a lot of people it's as enthralling as listening to their grandmothers talk about how great disco used to be and would rather chew on glass or fill taxes (If they had to fill takes in high school). Not for me. During the last couple of years there, I discovered that the ridiculously small responsibilities I have are nothing compared to the free time and fun I can get.
I've always been a bit of a geeky fox, never the popular fur, which has never bothered me. A great group of friends and just generally goofing around and having fun is all I need. Sexuality never concerned me much, being busier with having fun with friends. Well, things change no?
"Well..."
My brain was racing and my heart up in thoughts... Or is it the other way around? Not sure. I was trying to recall how I ended up in my room with my best friend, answering a very surprising question.
"I would like my first time to be with you. Would you... would you be up for that"?
I still hear the trembling in his voice as he said those words, imagining him shiver accross the dark bedroom as he said them.
Kevin and I go way back... well as far back as two 18 year old foxes can. Turns out our mothers knew each other already when we were still in their wombs, so I guess that makes it about 19 years of hanging out together... pretty cool actually.
We've always been an amalgam of opposites. He's the shy, calm, goes along with everything guy, with white and grey fur, as though his winter coat decided it was there to stay, very thoughtful but knows how to have fun. I'm more of the loudmouth silly classic red fox that makes jokes all the time and always has something silly to say. Well not tonight. Tonight was very special to say the least...
After school, we decided to hang out at my place. My parents live in this cute house close to the school, so it's just a walk back. We usually just sit around and watch cartoons or crappy films and find mistakes, but today Kev's spirit was somewhere else. I mean, there had been a blatant continuity error in that movie and he didn't catch it!
"Hey dude, the car the guy was in had the windows open and here they're closed!" It was a bit early to make it a drinking game so "As punishment for your incompetence at mocking poorly made films, I am sending you on a quest for drinks!"
"Oh, what?" He laughed, "Wow, that is pretty bad. Sorry... my mind was elsewhere. But I'm too lazy to move so..." At that point a pillow decided to land on his face, guided my actions.
"Dude! Ah, hahah... come on, stop it or I..." Another hit silenced him again. "Ack.. OK, OK I'll get us some drinks. Sheesh" He chuckled. As he got up, he tried to hide an erection, but I pretended like I didn't notice and didn't care much. I mean, I get hard-ons all the time, no need to read into it, right? I had never done anything with anyone, girl or boy for that matter and was too busy looking at a poor guy in a latex space alien suit to think about it more at that point.
Having enjoyed my pillowesque victory over the white fox, it troubled me how distant he had been today. We usually joke a lot, but today he was keeping to himself.. more than usual. This was unacceptable. So I put on a bandana and while humming the Metal Gear theme song I waited behind the door. When he came back, I pounced on him, making him spill the drinks onto the floor and ourselves.
"Ok, mister, you've been acting weird all day and I demand some answers! What is it? That time of the month? Girl problems? Indigestion? Constipation? Worried about plankton taking over the world?"
I was on top of him, immobilizing his arms against the floor, like we often did when we fought, but he blushed so much when he looked at me and just freaked out.
"Daniel, get off me! Shit man, you got stains on our clothes and now my fur's all sticky! What the hell!"
I backed off, surprised by his reaction. "Look... I'm sorry. I thought it'd make you snap out of it. You just seem so down, man. I'm mildly concerned"
He chuckled. "Sorry Danny, I've just had a lot on my mind..."
"Yeah, well like every teenager on earth buddy! You're going to have to be more specific..."
He got up and looked at me. "What's your take on homosexuality?"
"Er, the who now? What why?"
"I was just... curious. I mean... we always use expressions like "that's so gay" and such, it got me wondering." He was slightly blushing and looking down.
"Hum...well, I don't have a problem with it. I mean, it's just an expression. Guess we should know better than to use it but people always use it, so we kind of jumped on the wagon I guess. I can stop saying it if you suddenly discovered a hidden sense of morals".
"That's not the point Danny. I wasn't asking about the expression but gay people-"
"Well why should I have a problem with it? I mean hell, I haven't slept with anyone yet so I have no right to give my opinion on what other people do in their beds before I try it too... but the idea of going to bed with a boy is at least as appealing as with a girl and... Er...", Ah dear mouth, you have spoken faster than I could contain you...
"Wait... you've never been with anyone? How about Krystel, the cute bunny girl from our class?" Ah, I had forgotten about her...
"Heh... thing is... we went for a movie and she tried to make out with me, but I was more interested by the plot than her tongue, so it was kind of awkward...Hehehe?"
Kev started laughing loudly "Oh man, there's only you for this kind of thing!"
"Whaat? The plot was interesting and I had paid good money for that movie, not for a ticket to slobbersville!" To tell the truth I was a bit ashamed of that, I mean... She was one of the most coveted girls around so when she asked me out, I quite proud and made a few friend jealous, but nothing stirred... down there like it should have. The movie sucked too.
Ok, shake it off... "Hey, let's get changed. And showered, the coke is drying up on my fur and it don't feel pretty!" I help him up and dragged him to the shower. We used to take showers together when we were kids but after a while he didn't really want to anymore. Old reflexes die hard; I got us in the bathroom and started taking my shirt and pants off, and got the water running.
"Come on, let's go!" I yanked him in the shower with his clothes on before noticing that huge blush was back again. "Er.. sorry... I um... I'll get this done quickly and leave you to shower. Um... I'll leave fresh clothes in the room for you, OK?" I quickly washed and got out dripping water everywhere... Embarrassing moment, but I'm good at that, it seems.
After a nice dinner with my folks it was decided that it was too late for Kev to go home, so he was offered to stay at my place, as he often did. I have another mattress in the room for guests but mostly for him, seeing as we've always been like brothers. After some banter on whether I constituted a health hazard for the school due to my tendency to get in trouble, we started dozing off, talking about random things from our beds.
"Hey, um.. Danny? Look... we've know each other for quite some time and we hang out pretty much everyday..."
"Thank you, mister exposition! What's up with you today?"
"If you'd let me finish... You're really fun to hang out with and really... umm... energetic? But sometimes you seem to ignore obvious things I guess." Touché. I do that a lot.
"I didn't know it was part of the contract, but I am rather mind scattered if that's your point. Should I have noticed something? Did I miss your birthday? I never miss a birthday and you always have awesome cake!" He does, too.
"That's hardly the point", he chuckled, but I felt it was a bit nervous. "Look, when I asked you about gays, I wanted to see how you would react because... well I..."
"You want to know what would happen if I found out you were gay?" I said, in an explosion of Zen awareness.
Not a sound came from Kev, not even breathing, which got me worried, so I tried to converse seriously. I can be quite serious, but serious people are boring, it's better to be silly all the time and serious only when you have to.
"It's actually an easy thing to answer. Look, we've always been together throughout our lives, in 18 years a couple stupid arguments made us not talk to each other for what, a couple of days at most?
If you're gay the only difference is that I'll probably joke about it when you're comfortable enough with yourself and I'll point out cute guys to you rather than cute girls. Why should it change our friendship at all?" I was pretty proud of that sentence. He seemed more depressed.
"I see, thanks Danny. I'm very grateful for your friendship. You're always there to cheer me up or to get my mind off things and I really have a lot of fun with you. It's just..."
"What is it man? In case you haven't noticed, you just came out to me and nothing has particularly changed, the Lord did not smite either of us, we didn't turn blind, and our friendship is intact. Is there something else? You're pregnant!"
"No you idiot" He chuckled... I love his chuckle, which is one of the reasons I try to make him laugh all the time. "I'm coming to terms with being gay, but I... I don't have any experience yet and... Well it scares me to think about it, you know"
"Well, you'll find the right fur to take the step, no need to rush if you're not comfortable, dude."
"Thing is..." His voice was quivering a bit... "I... I.. I think I found someone I would like to discover this with... A-and... It's you."
The one not breathing was now me... When you're cruising down the road in the fast lane and you lazily sail past a few hard-driving cars and are feeling pretty pleased with yourself and then accidentally change from fourth to first instead of third thus making your engine leap out of your hood in a rather ugly mess, it tends to throw you off your stride in much the same way that this remark threw me off mine. Luckily my brain was ready for it.
"Uhhh, what? I... er, me?" My mouth, unfortunately, was not.
"I'm saying... I would like my first time to be with you. Would you... be up for that?"
I gave this as much thought as I could in the 30 or so seconds that followed his question. He's my best friend. I love him as a friend; I am so stupid for not noticing anything! The idea of sharing a bed with him was... actually appealing. It's not like he's not lean, he's actually really good looking now that I think about it, with his white, grey fur going to his pink pads on his paws, his golden eyes, ruffled hair... Wow... I've never thought of him like that but it's stirring something inside me.
"Well..." Now my heart was racing and my voice started trembling. "Look, I... I'm honored you'd want to do that with me, and I'm... so sorry I didn't see it before. Not just how you were feeling, but my own feelings towards you. You've always been more than a friend and... I enjoy the time we have together so much. I love seeing you smile and chuckle like you do. I realize now just how great you are and how difficult it must have been. I'm sorry I was so slow..."
"Wow... thanks Danny, it hasn't been long that I started having thoughts like this for you, but... damn it's so great to get it out of my chest. Hah... my heart is pounding so hard..."
"Yeah, mine too, it's crazy... Um... I..." I slowly get up and walk towards his bed, the light through the window shows me a blushed white fox, torso glimmering in the moonlight. He turns to the side, away from me. Man is it hard to breathe... I gently sit on the bed and lay down next to him. I feel his shivers through the sheets. Mustering my courage, I get on the side, and press my body against his back, passing my arm over him. His hand meets mine and we just lie there, intertwined, breathing more slowly but our hearts racing even more...
"Kev, I... I love you. I think I always have but you made me realize how much just now. And I have something to confess, I think"
"What's that?" He asked, his voice trembling.
"I think I might be gay too" And I squeezed his hand tightly. He chuckled that delicious little chuckle of his
The rest of that evening... well let's just say that we didn't sleep much, and it'll be for another time...
Comments (The constructive type) are welcome, and see if you can catch the paragraph I borrowed from Douglas Adam's Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy too!
Thanks for reading; I'll create more of the story if enough people seem interested :)